love was never so terrifying
til i met you

cause i never realized
how much i needed it

and now i cant let go

i have never had to share
not a room
not a bathroom
not clothes
i have never had to share
and now i cannot share my heart

never once have i paid attention
to the way your eyelashes,
long and dainty,
brush your skin.
never once have i thought of how
that scar is oh so visible on your lip.
never once have i considered
the way your eyes pierce mine.

yet if i have not though of these,
how can i picture you so clearly?

time
time
time
it’s slipping away
why won’t it stop?
why won’t it stay?
time
time
time
please wait.

in november i stopped dancing
december, singing
january, laughing
february, smiling
and so i shall continue
for you left me in october
and i’ve never been the same

you remind me of the leaves
and the way they crunch underfoot
and the way they smell
and the color.

the pure, bright color that overwhelms
everything around the source.

nothing can compare.

there was a time when i could wrap my arms
around your neck
and put all of my weight on you
i think to myself
as i hold you
and make sure you don’t fall

did i feel as light as you do now?

washing
over me.
I feel tears
building up.

I sit with you and laugh.

as I turn,
the feeling
grows
deeper.

my heart aches.

i am consumed.
by water
and fire
and
you.

i wish to know
yet i cannot.
i wish to be,
yet i cannot.
such is my life,
my destiny.
i cannot be as close to you
as i wish.
there is a divide.
it will never be overcome.
i do not know if you care
but i do.
please help me.

my wish came true
i think to myself as i look at you
you're staring out the window
but i know you feel it too

two brothers and a sister.
she is destined
never to know
them.
they are friends
(of course)
and close.
but he knows him
better than she
ever will.

he came to her in spring
with bright flowers in his hands
and a song on his lips

he smiled at her in summer
with the radiant sun shining on his hair
and ice cream melting on his fingers

he held her close in autumn
with leaves dropping all around him
and warm hands in the cold breeze

but he was gone when winter came
with no goodbye, he vanished
and she was left alone to watch the snow fall
just as she had fallen for him

i loved you so much
that I took the stars from my eyes
and laid them at your feet

but you used them for your path to reach heaven
and i was left alone to wait
for you

i look at you
you look at me
i have never felt more alive

my heart aches.
what could have been?
memories flood.
who would I be?
tears fall.
why did I go?

Our garden was bare til you came,
And its sad land was suddenly filled
With life and light, and happiness through,
You pushed away the chill.

The day you showed was wondrous,
As a little green sprout you took your place,
And fought the weeds that tried
To choke your beauty and grace.

The clouds had been dreary,
The sky too grey and dull,
But when you came things took a turn,
And suddenly our lives were full!

The sun broke through and oh!-
Little rose, you grew and grew!
But now the sun is gone,
And so are you.

how is it that you stand there
speaking and smiling?
every word is a dagger
in my heart.
you rip and tear the walls.
my heart constricts and i am not safe.
who are you to do this?
be silent;
though it pains me still.

you
     promised
           me

but

i feel like a star
in a galaxy of darkness

let me fly
and never come down

because the gravity
of the pain
hurts too much

the tracks have left me.
i am no longer guided.
i'm derailed again.

on a night like this
i kissed your lips goodbye
for you were headed into tomorrow
and i to the sweet summer sky

I thought I could handle it
I really thought I could
But then you walked in
And all I could think was,
“Oh shoot. I’m *******.”

like the sky without stars,
like a tree without roots,
like a dog without its owner,
like an ocean without water,
i'm lost without you.

i’m drawn to you like
a meteor to the earth
burning in the sky

but who will it hurt?
and if it leaves a crater
whose heart will it burn?

ocean blue eyes
come take me away
but my soft sighs
aren't heard today