Her thoughts have seem to lost their ways,
A beautiful kind of strange
Reminds me alot of myself,
Like minds dervied from dark times
Eccentric little craze of mine,
Your love is unreplaceable

Quick little jolts of thought,
Undeniably we assertain
Inseperable are our wants and wishes
Not an angel or a devil
Namely, you are my Harely Quinn

I am a man of logic. I always have been. Equations and formulas and problem solving have always been my greatest strengths. I love myself for this.

I should hate you. Yet no matter how hard my brain begs, i will always adore you.

You are the bane of my existance. I hate the way i love you.

Denial of service
Do not disturb
I reject the world
I'm afraid of hurt

Empty at a party
Lonely at a crowd
I blame the world
When i let myself down

It's the first love's last kiss
The last love's first kiss
The unanticipated memory

It's the happy moments turned into tear stains on my favorite shirt i wore just because i new i was seeing you

It's the first love's last cry
The last love's first cry
The moments we can't forget

It's reminiscing to a time you found out you were depressed because you had never felt true happyness until you met her

My love, my love.
You are a house made of cards.
Our love is built upon nostalgia.
I am starting to forget.
The love is fading,
The passion long gone.
It is time we acknowledge the wind has blown.

i feel the pressure as i fall to fame
just one more shot
one more brain
another kid who feels this pain
another body left to hang

Centerd around golden seeds
Velvetine pedals from my ivory stem
Beautiful on the outside but
Lifeless deep within

It's just lost it's magic.
What you remember is it full of passion.
What you remember is what it's lacking.
That timeless action.
The one that kept you so attracted.
It's all just turned to chores and acting.

Where is my pride and joy?
Who took my youth from me?
Made it all feel make believe?
Reminscing painfully is taking all my sanity.
What a tragity, taking back my past from me.
I can't come to see what my youth has gone on to be.

I miss you.

It seems as if the lips around here are useless. After all, whats the point of talking when no one cares to listen? If words were thought about as much as thoughts leave the lips, maybe then i would open up. It's evident that no one cares, they simply want a "you are right."

Earth must be so lonely
Forever circled by it's only friend
Never able to visit
Only ever loving in thought

I understand you, Earth
Isn't she so **** beautiful
If only she'd go away
Forever drifting in my thoughts

I cut the tip of my finger off.
The pain took my mind off of the problems in my life for a bit.

I took a few pills.
The high took my mind off of the problems in my life for a bit.

Oh, so it only matters when you see it happen. I'll hide my self destruction in these gulps - just for you.

The sun sets.
The moon rises.
The moon sets.
The sun rises.

now backwards.

The sun rises.
The moon sets.
The moon rises.
The sun sets.

The story is the same.
The names are differant.
Like a palindrone.
Like us.

I was broken when i met you.
Fresh out of the hospital.
Attempted my own burial.
But then magic happend.

Stitches formed in the place of cuts.
Hugs formed in the place of tears.
Love formed in the place of pain.
Happiness formed in the place of suicide.

Then you gave up.
Saw how much fixing i really needed.
Saw how ****** up i was.
You became like everyone else.

You left.
You ******* left.
"forever and always, to infinity and beyond. I will always love you."
You ******* lier.

Blood baths took place of talking to you.
Cuts abolished the strength delivered in those stitches.
The sacred seconds we held each other caroded  and rotted my mind.
Hugs became a passion i re-enacted with a teddy bear you gave back.
Thoughts once replaced by the thought of you returned, prepared for revenge.
Pain eluded its way into every memory of loving you.
Smiles turned into hours spent under the bridge by the school, waiting for that ******* train.
Suicide filled every night as i worked to live the dream.

You said you loved me.
You promised me i would be okay.
You let me believe you cared.
You ******* lier.

Upon a shooting star i ask -
Send me under the graveyard's grass.
Yet though my wish has been granted -
It was my heart that whent while
My brain stay'd planted.

When im with you a beauty occurs that burns brighter then a sun rise colliding with the morning tide. I can not euphemise the excruciating cry from when my insides die and the pistol lets fly a single beautiful try to illuminate the sky with cries held high. Trophies to a suicidal guy. The flame burns low as you tell me to let go, as i remember that ride through the pure white snow. The beautiful glow of your cold breathes blow. The hole without you continues to grow.
This pistol brings the bullet but pain pulls the trigger. I was just another boy to add to your figures. Im sorry that I can not heal quicker but I am  running low on liqour. My friends have started to snicker and say all i do is bicker but they dont understand that all i can feal is bitter. I love you. Thanks for showing me its okay to be a quitter.

The love i gave you was every ounce of my bleeding soal. The love i gave you was pure passion. Sorry I terrified you with my messed up side. Sorry I brought our twin tours down.

Wilting petals of my plants,
Show me how you do.
Barely hanging on to life,
I exist just as you.

I thought the pill would bring me happyness but all it did was occasionally remove depression.
She was all i knew; there's nothing left to feel.

As i watch her walk away, i wish i could cry.

The seed of passion is a delicate creature. Water it with to much love, and it will drown. Plant it in the roots of hate, and it will shrivle. The soils of time are the perfect location, yet too much soil, and the plant becomes smotherd. Give a good man all your love, but don't become dependant on him. I believe in you, young flower. Soon enough, you will be a giant bean stalk. All you need is right in front of you; if only you' be smart about how you use it.

I write about you alot.
Shh.
Don't tell anyone.
I don't want them looking for my words.

There is a reason i don't where shorts.
I have to hide the words.
If people see the words,
I can't be a poet any more.

My poems are words.
Unspoken words.
Everything i wanted to say.
Everything i never said.

Don't ask to read them.
You won't understand.
The only person who can read them are me.
For they are my memories.

I am a poet.
I write things people don't understand.
Nobody reads my storys.
Because there are no words.

Just soal.
Just pain.
Just scars.
Just love.

I am a poet.
A silent screamer.
My words are powerless without sound.
I will scream with my life.

A cloud drizzles drops of dew on a hypothetical mans head.
The car doesn't drive the engine,
        The engine drives the car;
A realist paints with love.

She touched me
and it felt

as if

the stars
were dancing
across

my skin.

I'd never seen the sky
Cause i'd never looked up
'Till a pretty little bird
Called to me and
Opend my eyes to the blue
The clouds and the breeze
She showed me the sky
And let me love
Then flew away
To a place i could never touch

A slaughter house of emotions keeps my mind busy as this 145 pound meat bag just keeps getting heavier and heavier. I've begin to wonder if this is how it was always ment to be; trapped in my own thoughts. After all, not everyone gets to be rich.

My heart wails a whales wail. The long range longing for long lost love. No amount of self distraction will free me from this prison. I'm lost in a forest with no trees. I've been standing in the feild all along.

I still smell the roses
Left wilting in the window
I still taste the diner
Left cold out on the counter
I still see the paintings
Left leaning on the wall

Though the house has hallowed
Though the residence no longer reside
I still feel the regret
Left buried deep inside

You were speaking but the words had no sound.
I feel eveything as if the bad was little more then nothing.
As if the past became the future.
As if it was that first day again.
That first touch.

I miss you more then anything.
I just want to be alone.
Wounds don't heal if you keep opening them up.
Please..
Somebody..
I need a bandaid..

Tonight the gauz will be all im place but it will not matter.
I will pick the wound a final time.
I dosn't take alot to bleed out.
Just a memory.

Mustang from the past.
Let me ride until the moon falls down.
The sun is a loathsom beast.
I want to drive all night.
I want to love you.

Oh!
How she sweeps me away
Left gasping for breath
Caught in a tidal of emotion

Beached!
So reluctantly beached
Surrounded by nothing but her
If only I could return home

I've lost myself at sea again
Here I sit to scribble in the sand
If only I knew how to swim
Maybe then I could go home again

Demons attacking,
can't quite un pack it -
This package, i'm strapped in
Focus on the racket just ta
make it though with my baggage
i been slackin, stackin massive
but she don't want that action
sadly no one wants your sappy
so if you aint makin happy
if she aint stayin laughing
she'll find another baddy
and move on rather gladly
and i know it hurts deep down
she was the one to turn your life around
tears, keep em hid, clown
don't lose your happy
what's lost aint always found

Intricate thoughts matter more than repeating instructions taught by instructors.

She was a cloud in the sky.
Drifting, changing,
Becoming and going where ever she wanted.
He was a field of flowers.
Bright, happy,
Giving warmth and happyness to whoever crossed his path.

One day, the cloud and the medows met.
They gazed upon each other;
Traded secrets, traded beauty.
Then she left.
Drifted with the wind.
Found an other feild.
He stay'd.
Waited for her.
Missed her shade.
Was prepaird to even take her storm just to see the rainbow she would make for him.

And she drifted.
And he waited.

Like the sun in the window
That i've gotten so used to
I expected you to be there
Every morning when i woke

Like the moon between the palms
Of a squinting kid
I just want to hold you
If only for tonight

Like the dog without a collar
Wandering in the alley
I have the whole world
Yet i all i want is to find you

Like the simile on the paper
Containing all my insides
You knew me like no one else
I miss my other half

I grew up in a blue house.
I never knew it, but I loved it.
When I was younger I had a dog named bob.
I knew I loved him.
I was walking bob when hailie left.
She never knew I loved her.

Little by little the pieces of this puzzle fell apart.
And they wonder why I relapse.
They wonder why I can't "just don't do it."
They wonder why I dream all day.

They wonder why sobriety is the my handicap.

There's glue in my pen
This paper's getting sticky
Beautiful in memory
But these words,
They aren't so pretty

There's glaciers in my veins
It's lonely in this igloo
Stranded on my desolate iceburge
She sailed away,
On my ship built for two

Drugs don't numb what cant be touched but you can't cut it out eather.
Beauty occurs when you forget you exist.
I choose the life of insanity.

You were the light of my life
If only sunburns where amnesia
I'm gulping down these memories
Like i'm not in a desert
Like you're still here.

There was a certain magic in the warmth of the air that night. In the glow of her skin, her endless gaze, her cool touch. The smell of summer and cigarettes. The feel of her cool fingers laced in mine, with her head on my shoulder. That flannel I never did get back. The taste of her lips and her neck. Those goosebumps that never whent away nor lasted long enough. There was a certain magic in the warmth that night I found out what love was.

I wanna write a letter to you
but I thought it better if I used
my metaphores and told a story for ya
this one starts when I was young
before all that numb stuff
back before love was a cup
full of drugs
back where I grew up
there wasn't much but
a couple of us kids
livin life like we wished
the sunshined all the time
you could catch us out side
from noon till night
ridin bikes, playin play fight
on the same side, bein knights
slaying dragons with our swords
or soldiers out at war
always packing action with
whatever we imagined happend
I remember vividly
impatiently waitin for the gamin
on the end the week
on the ps 1,2,3,
360, pc, or wii, just
livin the dream with my brother
somewhere in the suburbs
in the pool gettin sun burnt
little fools with each other
gettin noodles after supper
time seemed to fly so slow
waitin on the cold
so we could go play in the snow
till we're red in the nose
knowin Christmas coming close
it was simple livin those days
when we were children
at times I miss it kinda wish it
didn't ever end though us back then
wanted to grow up so bad an
reminscin it's the same ****, it's
wishin we were somehwere different
missin out on the beauty of livin
minute to minute that's livin in now
so stuck up in the clouds
come down an look around
what you'll find is pretty awesome
opportunity begins to blossom
everything stops looking so rotten
so often lost in those Glory days
never stop to entertain that hey
maybe today's the golden age
sun still shinin an I'm feelin great

slow down bud there's
so much to do
growin up it'll
come so soon
the futures bright and
the past was great but
for a while let's
live in today

I had a dream last night
My mother put me in the pool
There were anchors on my feet
I struggled for air
Because that's what was expected
Eventually I drank
It felt good to be a fish
I don't have to hurt
If nobody wants me to struggle

Goodnight, goodnight
Forever and a day
Dream sweet of me tonight, my love
For from this night i will not wake

It was our last memory together.
I never knew the beach got cold,
Or that in the shower you glow gold.
You told me you'd be waiting for me.
I wish you meant what I was thinking.
"I'm in love with you."
"I guess this is goodbye."
And just like that, she was gone.

Blood tattoo of a pain unknown
why do you exist?
To us a story to be told
to them just scars on wrists

Sleep.
First a wink,
Then a peep.
Neverland with general admission.
Slipping by in a second,
While taking it's time.
Proof time is long,
But short in memory.
Proof that they grow up so quick.
Evidence that death,
Is always right around the corner.
I can't get to sleep;
Sleep is getting to me.

With the words i never said, i let you go.

And as clouds formed, all I wanted was you.
And as rain poured, you walked away.
Down my cheeks, clouds where emptied.
Down my chest, a heart was broken.

The sky has never been so blue.

I've been to Hell and Back.
Back was fun yet wrong.
Because nothing changed when i whent Back to Back.
Hell has been here all along.

Send me down to Heaven.
No one would really mind.
Just one shot till the meds will start to work -
Then i'll go back in time.

I've changed
I'm still the same
Just did a little growing up
Still my core remains
We can not relate
When you changed
Nothing remained
Except for your name

This pain I feel
You used to heal
These days I'm blue
5 years and I barely know you

I want to find a day
where memories don't fade away
where this moment lasts forever
and the sun rise becomes a never
drunken dancing playing pool
moon shining and you're lookin cool
with your 90's jacket open showin
Skin is glowin toastin' boastin
bout being forever young
broke and dumb tired of
feeling so numb you
******* alive
the way you kiss me
makes me miss the
days of witch we
never knew we'd be rememiscing
back when after school naps
was our favorite thing to do
it's hard when i'm depressed
but a little less when
I'm depressed with you
said you love me
And i know it's true
cause what you don't show
in your eyes it shines right through
and i got that rock, it took
all the change in my pocket, look
i don't mean to take it back to there
back to that day with the teddy bear
and all of our pets that i took care
not because i wanted to
but because they made you happy
in a time when you were scared
but now i'm sitting all alone
writing letters in my phone
looking back and taking notes
i'm not to sure what helps
but i know this ain't the antidote

Still i lay, thinking, hoping,
wishing that you would stay
but unfortunatly tomarrow comes
and i'll get lost in the day
then in our bed, all alone, i lay
And think back to a time
where everything felt so safe