You never see the things I do
Never paid attention
Never appreciated

How dare you wonder why I left
and downright replaced you

Ashen face
Bluest feelings
Cascade of unfortunate events
Desolated at best
Estranged by you
Faux happiness
Ghost of you
Haunted by the past
Iron heart
Jarred thoughts
Knight without an armor
Lysander without Hermia
Monotonous days
Nightmares and night terrors
Overwhelmed by your departure
Poetic justice
Quenched flames
Rusted heart
Separation anxiety
Thunderstorms
Victim of my sins
Withdrawal syndrome
Xenophobic unless it's you
Yesterday, today and tomorrow
Zero, game over

I saw you the other night
Sneaking at the back of my heart
I watched as you sparked a light
A light that had spread to a fire
It flicked like a fragile flame on a wick
I let it dance on the kindling of my heart
I let it scar me, whip me until I bled
Your fire twirled as my blood ran red

You stole the reins to my heart
You roused me, galvanized me
It skipped to the music of your voice
I grasped my heart on my hands
Bloodied, bruised, burned, but still beating
And with the beats, it told me
That it would be better shared with you
With you and only you

Embrace me with tenderness
Beguile me with splendor
Drown me in your passion
Intoxicate me with your love
Oh, please, make me believe
There's nothing wrong with this love
Such an unreasonable reality
This is not what I hoped for
But as long as I'm with you
I don't care about anything else.

You made me promise not to write about you
And promised you that, I did
Just because you promised me you'd never leave.

Little did you know, I promised that because
I only write poems about people who leave
And poems about broken promises.

Ngayong nagdaan na ang isang linggong malamig at maulan,
Nagpakita na ang araw, mainit at maliwanag.
Alam kong dapat masaya ako pero
Paano ako sasaya kung ikaw lang lagi ang naaalala ko?

Naiinis ako sa araw, pinapaalala niya ang mga nagdaang linggo,
Mga linggong magkausap tayo tungkol sa kahit ano.
Mga linggong nakakapagod pero napapawi mo.
Mga linggong wala akong maisagot sa papel ko
Pero bigla ka nalang papasok sa isip ko,
Kasama ng mga sagot na hinahanap ko.

Ngunit ngayon, naiisip ko, ano nga ba ang pinagkaiba?
Kahit noong tag-ulan, naaalala pa rin kita.
Naaalala ko kung paano kita sinasabihang mag-iingat ka
At kung paano kita pinaiyak dahil sa isang sala.
Naaalala ko rin kung paano mo ako iniwan
At kung paano kita hinayaan.

Kaya ngayong wala ka na, wala akong magawa
Kundi mainis sa lahat ng bagay na nagpapaalala
Hindi sa'yo, kundi sa aking mga nagawa
Para umalis ka at iwanan mo akong mag-isa.

Light-deprived, I've lived in the night.
Treading terrain was my life-long plight.
Defeated, I convinced myself that light
would never, never reach my sight.
Then suddenly, I saw you.

All at once, your stars clothed my night.
Fractals of your light illuminated the earth,
putting an end to these endless nights.
You gave a gentle pull at the seams.
My once dark world now brims with light.

I gazed into your eyes as it gazed upon me.
In it, I saw clusters of dying stars and galaxies.
You had the whole universe hiding in your eyes.
Falling in love at the rate of infinity times infinity,
You became the endless universe I became helpless in.

I always find it so breathtaking
To witness the skies change
From dark, cold nights
To warm, sunny mornings.

The change reminds me of so much,
Most especially, it reminds me
Of the countless nights we shared
And of the very morning I lost you.

Still alive and breathing
Hiding the frown by smiling
Sand quickly covers my feet
Suddenly six feet underneath

Mistakes from the past year
Fear running from the rear
Footsteps running from fear
Everything is visible from here

Six feet underneath
Buried under the heath
Wanting to rise and leave
Wanting to leave it all down here

Choir of furies in my head
Amalgam of monsters under my bed
Infestation of red
from the back of my head

Physically six feet over
Mentally six feet under
Suffocating, hope is losing
Dying but still fighting

It hurts seeing you
and I see you every day.

It hurts sitting next to you.
It hurts having you so close
yet incredibly so far.

I am hurting all the time
for the wrong reasons.

I no longer know if this is love
or just a dangerous game of tag.
But I know that this is all consuming.

My love for you is consuming.
And I have to stop playing.

I had a dream about you again
A dream about you returning
A dream about you staying
A dream. It's only a dream.

I watched as you start to disappear
Heart beating faster every meter you walk away
Faster and faster until my ears bleed from the sound
Faster and faster until it all breaks down

I screamed in agony as the colours drip to the ground
My screams drowning in the sounds of cracks and fissures
As I dig into my chest, into my skin with long nails
Trying to get rid of this ******* heart that won't stop breaking

it was as if it was only yesterday
when I listened to your songs
as my soul danced with yours

when we laughed all night
at our failures in life
when we shivered and trembled
as our hearts pulled together
when we'd think mid-conversation
that we had fallen in love with each other
and when you left me crying
as you took my heart with you

every tale has its own lesson to tell
and if I learned anything from our tale it's that
time is fleeting but my love for you is not

together by fate
separated by destiny
how cruel of them
to play with our feelings

but how cruel of you
to tell me that you miss me
when you won't come back,
happy with someone else

your mouth lights up
words that burn like flames
like the setting sun
that burns the skies

come look at the burning sky
look at my heart, burning
with flames of hatred and hurt
now reduced to pitch black ash

Fourteen days of
pain and agony
Two weeks of
sadness and melancholy

Today marks the fourteenth day
of me living without you
of me still thinking about you
and of me haunted by you

I'd be lying if I said I am not counting
the days since you bade farewell
for each day spent without you
is a day spent unwell

I once told you
how passionate I am
when it comes
to my one and only vice

With that, you retort
"Alcohol is never the answer"
and with that statement, I ceased
for in you, I believed

Before, only wine can make me high,
but our happy months came by,
surprised at how you made me high
With you, I reached the sky

A single drop, my lips didn't touch
but when you left
the only thing, it became
my lips ever reached

Now that I ponder on it
I should really cease
doing my newest habit:
thinking of you

In the darkness you held my hand
squeezed it, secured it in your hand
as we walk down the aisle
with a soft, welcoming light
at the end of the line.

We escaped the noise and darkness
together we ventured the wilderness
my heart pirouetted as you did
we danced and laughed
fingers still entwined

I now wake up from a horrible dream
or from your haunting, as it may seem
Seven months, it has been
but in my head, you're still creeping
in my heart, you're still living

I dare not say that I miss you
for I do not, not anymore
but I did miss the moments with you
thanks for the visit,
*please haunt me more

I see you're working
working very hard
not for yourself alone
but for your loved ones too.

It's a shame that they don't see it
Oh, I know how it feels
It feels like it's all for naught
But it feels so right once you see them smile

I'll tell you, never stop working hard
even if no one sees you and your heart
even if the lack of appreciation makes you cry at night
even if it takes everything of you to fight

Never stop working
They can't see it but you make them happy
That's what you wanted, right?
Never stop trying to make them happy.

Lone* soul swirling and lost
Amidst the searing heat, noise, and chaos
Lost soul can't seem to find a safe haven
Then finds a flower sprouting from the barrens
Light grazes the fingertips
Darkness reigns, the nemesis
Scream escaped from the fearful soul's lips
Another lost opportunity to escape the abyss

We were the very definition
of "Ill met by moonlight"
for it was an unfortunate mistake
of life to bring you and I alight

We weren't meant to meet that night
but somehow, life put that into light
thus, friendship blossomed
new, fresh, and fond

In the end,
for you perhaps
we were the definition
of Shakespeare's renowned quote

But I did not regret meeting you
for you introduced me to a better world
a world with you in it
but now a world without

I tried my best, believe me, I did.
I tried to make you stay
I tried not to leave.

But I was trying too hard
for too long for too many times.
I ended up compromising
my own happiness for yours.

But don't worry, I don't blame you.
I don't hate you for it's me.
I blame myself, I hate myself
for being so stupid to hold onto you.

I hate myself for believing
I hate myself for trusting
I hate myself for being too selfless
I hate myself for being too careless.

I'm sorry for losing,
I'm sorry for leaving.
I'm sorry for giving up
I'm sorry for getting tired
I'm sorry because I stopped.
I'm sorry because I let go.

it has been days and weeks
since my tears kissed my cheeks
yet here i am, writing in such a long time
with you in my mind, i cant think of any rhyme

it's always you for months and weeks,
it's you my mind always thinks
your name my mouth always speaks
your soul my heart always seeks

Today I will write a poem
not about your face
and how beautiful
and sublime it is

Today I will write a poem
not about my love
and how it is about you
and only you

Today I will write a poem
not about your love
and how it is not about me
and how it deeply hurts me

Instead, I will write a poem
about us, only us
except that
there is no us

Lakasan mo naman ang iyong loob
Ang isip, 'wag hayaang makulob
ng kalungkutan at kaba
Labanan mo, lumaban ka.

Alam kong gabi-gabi ang iyong pag-iyak
pero sa dulo, ikaw rin ang magagalak.
Alam kong pagod ka na,
pero ngayon ka pa ba susuko?

Laban lang, sugod lang.
Wala sa nakaraan ang inaasam
Kaya 'wag kang aatras.
Kaya mo yan, kaya ko 'to.

Always there for me, you are
Giving counsel even from afar
Abandoned me, you never did
Truly, you are the friend I want to be with
Happiness and joy, you always bring
Ah, my friend, thank you for everything

Many problems, I faced and expressed
As to your counsel, I never did transgressed
Really surprised that you haven't left yet
I'm sorry for always bothering you
Everything, I'm sorry for what I do

Joking all the time, you always do
Oh, but dear, I know you're hurt inside too
Very impressed by your strength, I am
Establishing happiness in your life despite everything
Rest easy, I'll be here through thick and thin

Everything that you do
Sophisticated, very much like you
Queen of happiness and smiles
Unbent, unbroken, and fueled on for miles and miles
I know you are not problem-less though
Love, know from your side I would never go
Leaving is not in you nor me
Oh, for you, I will always be here.

Savior of my saddest days
Catcher of my fallen self
You're always there
My everyday superhero

Every time you speak
I'd need needles and threads
to fix the broken heartstrings
and stitch my broken heart

Unappreciated
i do everything i can
for people that i love
yet they don't seem to notice
the extra miles i walk for them

Unwanted
they choose others over me
when I'd choose them over others
i am everyone's last choice
i am everyone's last resort

Unworthy
i deem myself unworthy of time
for one seems to give me theirs
it's sad how i give every second i have
to the people who won't give me a minute

"No"

Your voice got lost in the noise of the streets
yet it echoed endlessly in my head.
For a split-second, I thought,
"I never knew two letters could hurt so bad."
But surprisingly, it didn't hurt as much.

The air got colder and I felt braver.
It was as if I grew a pair of wings
and took off to the night sky,
piercing thick clouds with speed.
I needed your no to see me free.

"But we could still be friends, right?"

Those are the words that deprived me
of my wings, my happiness, my freedom.
In a heartbeat, I was falling again.
The pavement zooms in as I crashed
to the cold hard ground.

3 months, 12 weeks, 61 days
enough to make my heart ablaze
4 months, 16 weeks, 83 days
without you, my life's a haze

Pangako, hindi ka namin kalilimutan.
Bibigyan ng oras, gagawan ng paraan.
Ako naman, naniwala sa inyong kasinungalingan.
Ngayon tuloy, ako ang nasasaktan.

Ang pangako ay hindi sinabi upang ipako.
Sa halip, ito ay sinusunod.
Ikaw mismo ang nagsabi nito, alam mo ba?
Ngunit bakit hindi mo nagawa?

Just like a spider's thread
in a garden of blades
falling so slowly
to bleed and break apart

Just like a shadow
devoid of light
following me
every time, everywhere

In my favorite songs, I hear you
In my favorite movies, I see you
In my dreams, I hold you
In my mind, I keep you

Staring at me
with dark eyes, lips, and tongue
Enticing me to inch forward
to fall into the abyss

I haven't been sleeping
for you've been haunting me
in every dream I dream

I haven't been eating
for my plate reminds me of the times
we talked about our favorites

I haven't been talking
to my friends, to my family, to everyone
for you were the only one I talked to

I haven't been myself
for I wasn't really myself
when I was talking to you

I was more than myself
and now that you're gone
I'm back to the nothing before you happened

Sometimes my sleep is dreamless
sometimes it is not
but I can't tell the difference
for from sleep, tiredness is all I got

Yet in my tiring slumber
dreaming is what I like most
when I dream, I dream of my summer
summer with you is as lovely as a rose

I know that I must put these dreams aside
For heartbreaks, it will only provide
but it doesn't matter for in waking or sleeping,
it is you I see, only you I see.

I'm somewhere, you're nowhere
I have spent a year searching for a friend
I'm writing poems about you
Wondering where you are

I could go there but I won't
You're somewhere my light cannot reach
You're somewhere under someone else's sun
Do I really want to know?

I'm nowhere, you're nowhere
I have followed you
to my pits of hell, to your safe haven
Even if it hurts so **** much
Even if it takes my life
Because I promised to never let you go

I have been fearing death
since five years old
when people told me stories
of ghosts and graves

I have feared it even more
when I lost someone special
lost someone who raised me
and gave me love for the first time

But I have missed
a terribly important aspect of death
his sibling, change
and he is everywhere, in all forms

I have never feared
anything more than change
for I never liked asking why, how,
and what did I do to deserve this

No one asked for this, but the siblings had
That is when we see the cruelty and unfairness of life
Of how we are not in charge of our own fate
And how it has been laid the moment we were born