Every day at nightfall the sun sets herself on fire in an immaculate public display of affection. Vibrantly glowing in shades of vermillion before vanishing beyond the horizon, surrendering the day to the darkness of night.
Her departure, a self sacrifice, generously offering her light so that the moon may shine so brightly.
I know that when I’m gone you will mock me for my selfishness for taking my life away from you but please know, that I lived my life bound by selflessness I lived to serve and please I recited my poems in rehearsal so my last words could comfort you and you’d never feel to do the same as I I scar my flesh to bear my cross So you may never have to. Please know, I lived every day confined by others needs I listened to your woes I starve my body to bear your cross So you may never have to. Know that this last act I take isn’t selfish That my last act is one of freedom It will be my only act of self-indulgence in my life of catering you.
my final act is one of freedom I died to please myself
Everyday, multiple times you remind me of my beauty because I can no longer do this for myself. You tell me that one day I will believe these words. They will eventually sink into my DNA. You tell me the words will one day feel real and until they do you will continue on. You do not make me feel ashamed that these words are foreign to my diseased brain. While you call me breathtaking I tell myself I am not deserving of breath. Your words restore me. They keep me alive until the next dosage of your selfless reminders.
You are an antique , a relic or maybe an old bottle of wine, every time you ask for me , I get shivers down my spine. Your aura is the reason I'm nervous and unsure of myself 'cause all I want is to be a silent observer on your shelf.
You say "there is nothing to loose other than yourself", on the news, but how do I believe in this when I have your motivation to loose. All I care about is still intact and fueling my happiness so maybe I should imitate you again and be the "casual selfless".
Sometimes I feel I can look up to my reflection in the mirror and feel good :)