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Jan 2017 · 743
Dangerous Game of Tag
Maxwell Jan 2017
It hurts seeing you
and I see you every day.

It hurts sitting next to you.
It hurts having you so close
yet incredibly so far.

I am hurting all the time
for the wrong reasons.

I no longer know if this is love
or just a dangerous game of tag.
But I know that this is all consuming.

My love for you is consuming.
And I have to stop playing.
Jan 2017 · 407
No.
Maxwell Jan 2017
No.
"No"

Your voice got lost in the noise of the streets
yet it echoed endlessly in my head.
For a split-second, I thought,
"I never knew two letters could hurt so bad."
But surprisingly, it didn't hurt as much.

The air got colder and I felt braver.
It was as if I grew a pair of wings
and took off to the night sky,
piercing thick clouds with speed.
I needed your no to see me free.

"But we could still be friends, right?"

Those are the words that deprived me
of my wings, my happiness, my freedom.
In a heartbeat, I was falling again.
The pavement zooms in as I crashed
to the cold hard ground.
Nov 2016 · 836
Atlas
Maxwell Nov 2016
Light-deprived, I've lived in the night.
Treading terrain was my life-long plight.
Defeated, I convinced myself that light
would never, never reach my sight.
Then suddenly, I saw you.

All at once, your stars clothed my night.
Fractals of your light illuminated the earth,
putting an end to these endless nights.
You gave a gentle pull at the seams.
My once dark world now brims with light.

I gazed into your eyes as it gazed upon me.
In it, I saw clusters of dying stars and galaxies.
You had the whole universe hiding in your eyes.
Falling in love at the rate of infinity times infinity,
You became the endless universe I became helpless in.
/A/tlas
Nov 2016 · 586
Untitled
Maxwell Nov 2016
I don't recall falling to the ground
and getting back up, but here I am
falling for you all over again
Nov 2016 · 417
Untitled
Maxwell Nov 2016
We're either laughing or fighting
like our love is sailing
on tempestuous waters
Nov 2016 · 674
Anno Domini
Maxwell Nov 2016
I saw you the other night
Sneaking at the back of my heart
I watched as you sparked a light
A light that had spread to a fire
It flicked like a fragile flame on a wick
I let it dance on the kindling of my heart
I let it scar me, whip me until I bled
Your fire twirled as my blood ran red

You stole the reins to my heart
You roused me, galvanized me
It skipped to the music of your voice
I grasped my heart on my hands
Bloodied, bruised, burned, but still beating
And with the beats, it told me
That it would be better shared with you
With you and only you

Embrace me with tenderness
Beguile me with splendor
Drown me in your passion
Intoxicate me with your love
Oh, please, make me believe
There's nothing wrong with this love
Such an unreasonable reality
This is not what I hoped for
But as long as I'm with you
I don't care about anything else.
Oct 2016 · 1.1k
Untitled
Maxwell Oct 2016
I write for love, for life
with the words I see fit
but if it's you I think about
I can't find the right words
for I am speechless, beguiled
by your beauty and essence

Perhaps there is none
no words, no rhymes
Or maybe there's too many
too many words, too many rhymes
so I sit here, beguiled yet again
silently, secretly admiring a masterpiece
Oct 2016 · 851
Untitled
Maxwell Oct 2016
you with your voice like silk
i bleed as the silk cloth you flicked
you bind me with words of magic
bound and bewitched, with a single touch
i burn like an endless candle wick
Oct 2016 · 574
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Maxwell Oct 2016
My way home alone is distressing
With blaring cars speeding on the road
Leaving a trail of thick gray smoke
that leaves me suffocating

Way home with you comes bearable, quite so
With your voice that overpowers the horns
Music to my ears and as peaceful with cicadas
Then we part ways, leaving me breathless
thank you for the 15 minute walks
Aug 2016 · 265
You
Maxwell Aug 2016
You
Breathing is becoming difficult around you
Heart beating faster beside you
Mind is filling with thoughts of you
Now I am
        utterly,
             deeply,
                  madly,
                         falling
                             in love with you
Control is out of the question.
Aug 2016 · 321
Fall
Maxwell Aug 2016
I'm speeding and spinning
Losing and out of control
Leaving skid marks and broken hearts
Tracing memories on the walls

I lose more control as I try to regain it
To no avail, I crash on the floor
Sticks, stones, blood, and broken bones
I guess that's why it's called "falling"

because a fall isn't meant to be controlled
Maxwell Aug 2016
it was as if it was only yesterday
when I listened to your songs
as my soul danced with yours

when we laughed all night
at our failures in life
when we shivered and trembled
as our hearts pulled together
when we'd think mid-conversation
that we had fallen in love with each other
and when you left me crying
as you took my heart with you

every tale has its own lesson to tell
and if I learned anything from our tale it's that
time is fleeting but my love for you is not
It's been a year and I still miss you.
Jun 2016 · 789
Flame
Maxwell Jun 2016
If loving you is touching fire
I would go proudly to the flame
AHS
Jun 2016 · 306
Untitled
Maxwell Jun 2016
she asked, she begged
she cried and was told to wait
so she waited, and waited
she got nothing in the end

then like rain it fell on her
the things she asked when she was little
she was blessed, she believed
but curious no doubt

why me? why now? she asked
because you asked
and it was given
in the right time


she cried again
not in sadness but in joy
then sat down and waited
as she wished for love
Jun 2016 · 342
Untitled
Maxwell Jun 2016
i would fall through seven hells
just to fall into your arms
0237am
Jun 2016 · 351
not at all
Maxwell Jun 2016
my whole life I was a believer
of fate, destiny, and happy ever after,
that we were meant for each other
our names written together
in one of the stars over yonder

but we were not written in the stars
nor were we written on stones
nor were we written on sand
we were not written together
never, not at all
Jun 2016 · 765
10w
Maxwell Jun 2016
10w
We were not written in the stars.
We never were.
Jun 2016 · 533
Untitled
Maxwell Jun 2016
As I think of you and I,
of what and what could've happened,
I knew that I was wasting time, losing sleep
for all the wrong reasons.
Jun 2016 · 571
Dysfunctional
Maxwell Jun 2016
I watched as you start to disappear
Heart beating faster every meter you walk away
Faster and faster until my ears bleed from the sound
Faster and faster until it all breaks down

I screamed in agony as the colours drip to the ground
My screams drowning in the sounds of cracks and fissures
As I dig into my chest, into my skin with long nails
Trying to get rid of this ******* heart that won't stop breaking
MY HEART IS BREAKING AS IF IT ISN'T BROKEN ENOUGH
Apr 2016 · 519
To My Plan A,
Maxwell Apr 2016
I am your friend, your family
Always there when you need me
To attend to my matters, I leave
I return to see your new family

They are your friends, your family
I respect them because you do highly
I tried to see, I tried to love
To no avail, I failed without luck

It was too much, all to much
To see myself replaced, every time
To feel love only when they're gone
Is that all I am to you, your last one?

You need not say my role in your life
It was obvious, don't even lie
Plan Z, the least, your last
Among those names, call me what you like
Maxwell Feb 2016
I'm so desperate to the point that
I stare at you all day
in hopes that
what I see is what I get
Feb 2016 · 772
Untitled
Maxwell Feb 2016
I have no time for you
for I am busy pulling
pieces of me together
with glue and tape

I have no time for you
for I am still looking
for the sun under the
rainy clouds

I have no time for you
I have no time for anything
Not even for myself
I have no time at all
You used to make me see the sun where I once saw clouds. Now you make me stare at the ***** wall while you make others see the sun, my sun.
Feb 2016 · 887
Untitled
Maxwell Feb 2016
I see nothing
but you
&
You see
everything
but me
Feb 2016 · 274
Untitled
Maxwell Feb 2016
Everything is not the same,
No, not without you.
It's not the same.
I'm not the same.
word ***** at 4 30am
Feb 2016 · 508
Untitled
Maxwell Feb 2016
echoed in the dark room
the loud ticking of the clock
that used to resemble the rhythm
of our lonely beating hearts

tick tock goes the clock
as it seizes me in its hands
imprisoned by time
as you moved on and away
Feb 2016 · 517
Shadow
Maxwell Feb 2016
Just like a spider's thread
in a garden of blades
falling so slowly
to bleed and break apart

Just like a shadow
devoid of light
following me
every time, everywhere

In my favorite songs, I hear you
In my favorite movies, I see you
In my dreams, I hold you
In my mind, I keep you

Staring at me
with dark eyes, lips, and tongue
Enticing me to inch forward
to fall into the abyss
Jan 2016 · 497
Haunt Me Again
Maxwell Jan 2016
In the darkness you held my hand
squeezed it, secured it in your hand
as we walk down the aisle
with a soft, welcoming light
at the end of the line.

We escaped the noise and darkness
together we ventured the wilderness
my heart pirouetted as you did
we danced and laughed
fingers still entwined

I now wake up from a horrible dream
or from your haunting, as it may seem
Seven months, it has been
but in my head, you're still creeping
in my heart, you're still living

I dare not say that I miss you
for I do not, not anymore
but I did miss the moments with you
thanks for the visit,
*please haunt me more
My nightmare attacks are getting worse by the day.
Jan 2016 · 1.8k
drawn to drown
Maxwell Jan 2016
inexplicably drawn to you
after drowning in your eyes
Jan 2016 · 569
Ianuarius 15
Maxwell Jan 2016
Lone* soul swirling and lost
Amidst the searing heat, noise, and chaos
Lost soul can't seem to find a safe haven
Then finds a flower sprouting from the barrens
Light grazes the fingertips
Darkness reigns, the nemesis
Scream escaped from the fearful soul's lips
Another lost opportunity to escape the abyss
01/15/16
Jan 2016 · 566
Chaos Head
Maxwell Jan 2016
Still alive and breathing
Hiding the frown by smiling
Sand quickly covers my feet
Suddenly six feet underneath

Mistakes from the past year
Fear running from the rear
Footsteps running from fear
Everything is visible from here

Six feet underneath
Buried under the heath
Wanting to rise and leave
Wanting to leave it all down here

Choir of furies in my head
Amalgam of monsters under my bed
Infestation of red
from the back of my head

Physically six feet over
Mentally six feet under
Suffocating, hope is losing
Dying but still fighting
I matter.
Jan 2016 · 560
Somewhere and Nowhere
Maxwell Jan 2016
I'm somewhere, you're nowhere
I have spent a year searching for a friend
I'm writing poems about you
Wondering where you are

I could go there but I won't
You're somewhere my light cannot reach
You're somewhere under someone else's sun
Do I really want to know?

I'm nowhere, you're nowhere
I have followed you
to my pits of hell, to your safe haven
Even if it hurts so **** much
Even if it takes my life
Because I promised to never let you go
Jan 2016 · 6.5k
Tale of Two Siblings
Maxwell Jan 2016
I have been fearing death
since five years old
when people told me stories
of ghosts and graves

I have feared it even more
when I lost someone special
lost someone who raised me
and gave me love for the first time

But I have missed
a terribly important aspect of death
his sibling, change
and he is everywhere, in all forms

I have never feared
anything more than change
for I never liked asking why, how,
and what did I do to deserve this

No one asked for this, but the siblings had
That is when we see the cruelty and unfairness of life
Of how we are not in charge of our own fate
And how it has been laid the moment we were born
there goes my 5 am thoughts
Dec 2015 · 7.3k
Kaya Mo 'Yan
Maxwell Dec 2015
Lakasan mo naman ang iyong loob
Ang isip, 'wag hayaang makulob
ng kalungkutan at kaba
Labanan mo, lumaban ka.

Alam kong gabi-gabi ang iyong pag-iyak
pero sa dulo, ikaw rin ang magagalak.
Alam kong pagod ka na,
pero ngayon ka pa ba susuko?

Laban lang, sugod lang.
Wala sa nakaraan ang inaasam
Kaya 'wag kang aatras.
Kaya mo yan, kaya ko 'to.
Hindi ka pa ba sanay?
Dec 2015 · 410
home is where you are
Maxwell Dec 2015
to see you is to see home
to be with you is to be at home
Dec 2015 · 837
Com/promise
Maxwell Dec 2015
I was so caught up
trying not to lose you
that I ended up
losing myself
I lost the friend you loved.
Dec 2015 · 632
I tried.
Maxwell Dec 2015
I tried my best, believe me, I did.
I tried to make you stay
I tried not to leave.

But I was trying too hard
for too long for too many times.
I ended up compromising
my own happiness for yours.

But don't worry, I don't blame you.
I don't hate you for it's me.
I blame myself, I hate myself
for being so stupid to hold onto you.

I hate myself for believing
I hate myself for trusting
I hate myself for being too selfless
I hate myself for being too careless.

I'm sorry for losing,
I'm sorry for leaving.
I'm sorry for giving up
I'm sorry for getting tired
I'm sorry because I stopped.
I'm sorry because I let go.
I tried but you didn't.
Dec 2015 · 367
Untitled
Maxwell Dec 2015
Don't ever ask why I'm leaving
because I can't tell you
how it hurts
whenever I see your face

I can't tell you
how it puts me in a bad mood
seeing your name pop up
on everything I look at

I can't tell you
how I'm dying to scream
to not leave me
because you always do the opposite

I can never explain
how everything hurts
when I'm with you
Because you will never understand.
My life is better without you in it and it's probably the best for you and I
Dec 2015 · 540
.
Maxwell Dec 2015
.
You never see the things I do
Never paid attention
Never appreciated

How dare you wonder why I left
and downright replaced you
Nov 2015 · 296
Untitled
Maxwell Nov 2015
Now that we're worlds apart,
I wonder if you think of me as much as I do
I wonder if you write about me as much as I do
I wonder if you dream about me as much as I do



I wonder if you ever think of me at all.
Nov 2015 · 8.6k
Homage to the Unappreciated
Maxwell Nov 2015
I see you're working
working very hard
not for yourself alone
but for your loved ones too.

It's a shame that they don't see it
Oh, I know how it feels
It feels like it's all for naught
But it feels so right once you see them smile

I'll tell you, never stop working hard
even if no one sees you and your heart
even if the lack of appreciation makes you cry at night
even if it takes everything of you to fight

Never stop working
They can't see it but you make them happy
That's what you wanted, right?
Never stop trying to make them happy.
This is for us.
Nov 2015 · 541
When will you be happy?
Maxwell Nov 2015
In my current state,
I don't have the money
I don't have the power
to make you happy

I only have hardwork
and my little accomplishments
at school and in life
to make you smile

But why can't you?
You always ask for more.
You always ask for more of me
when I'm already giving my all.

I'm already beating myself to death
Squeezing myself like sponge to give my best
but you were never contented
with the things I give.

Tell me, why do you do this?
Why can't you be happy for me?
Answer me,
Why can't you be happy for me, mom?
Nov 2015 · 563
10w
Maxwell Nov 2015
10w
That is all she asked.
*She wants to be loved.
Nov 2015 · 1.7k
My Savior
Maxwell Nov 2015
Savior of my saddest days
Catcher of my fallen self
You're always there
My everyday superhero
Nov 2015 · 551
Untitled
Maxwell Nov 2015
I am a distant star
a star that you can only see
in your darkest times
a star that you can't see
when your sun shines

I am the moon
outshone and overshadowed
by your bright sunny star
but you seek me at night
to guide you through the dark

I am the one you seek
only when you're troubled
I am non-existent
when you're in bliss
Is that all I am to you?
Nov 2015 · 1.1k
Untitled
Maxwell Nov 2015
The world is cruel and sinful
Full of sinners condemning sinners
For sinning differently.
Nov 2015 · 431
Untitled
Maxwell Nov 2015
She tried her best not to leave
In the end, she cannot leave
But she is constantly left.
"I can't leave you, but you constantly leave me."
Nov 2015 · 829
Untitled
Maxwell Nov 2015
I am the one who loved
You are the one who is loved
We are unfortunate lovers
With parallel destinies
Nov 2015 · 696
Untitled
Maxwell Nov 2015
i was told that love hurts
maybe that's why
it hurts when i'm with you
Nov 2015 · 1.6k
Your Alphabetical
Maxwell Nov 2015
Awe-inducing presence
Beguiling beauty
Calm after the storm
Delicate and divine
Effervescent being
Flames dancing in the sky
God-fearing
Heart unstained by impurity
Interstellar
Joy in the midst of misery
Kind, too kind for her sake
Lovely smile
Magnetic woman
Never says never
Oblivious to love
Pure white
Quick-wit and sharp
Rain during the drought
Starry, starry eyes
Thunderstorms
Unwavering love
Virtuoso
Wholehearted
Xenon, gold, and neon
Yuletide happiness
Zigzag feelings
Nov 2015 · 824
fire
Maxwell Nov 2015
your mouth lights up
words that burn like flames
like the setting sun
that burns the skies

come look at the burning sky
look at my heart, burning
with flames of hatred and hurt
now reduced to pitch black ash
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