From sleepless nights to blissful dreams,
A drastic change from chaos to peace.
From your departure, I was hurt,
But now from sadness, I divert.

Like a dart hits a bullseye's iris,
Your presence, that's how I miss.
With this paper and pen,
I admit, I think of you now and then.

But you are my life's fraudulent scheme,
Water rapidly flowing in the stream.
You've already passed and gone away
Like my love for you has died away.

A half-remembered dream,
It is you, as it may seem.
A dream as sublime as a flower garden,
But a dream that will soon be forgotten.

I am your friend, your family
Always there when you need me
To attend to my matters, I leave
I return to see your new family

They are your friends, your family
I respect them because you do highly
I tried to see, I tried to love
To no avail, I failed without luck

It was too much, all to much
To see myself replaced, every time
To feel love only when they're gone
Is that all I am to you, your last one?

You need not say my role in your life
It was obvious, don't even lie
Plan Z, the least, your last
Among those names, call me what you like

i like how the taste of blood
lingers in my mouth
just like the thought of you
lingers in my heart

your memories cut through
my heartstrings tied in knots
how cruel of you
to visit my thoughts

I have no time for you
for I am busy pulling
pieces of me together
with glue and tape

I have no time for you
for I am still looking
for the sun under the
rainy clouds

I have no time for you
I have no time for anything
Not even for myself
I have no time at all

The world is cruel and sinful
Full of sinners condemning sinners
For sinning differently.

you with your voice like silk
i bleed as the silk cloth you flicked
you bind me with words of magic
bound and bewitched, with a single touch
i burn like an endless candle wick

My way home alone is distressing
With blaring cars speeding on the road
Leaving a trail of thick gray smoke
that leaves me suffocating

Way home with you comes bearable, quite so
With your voice that overpowers the horns
Music to my ears and as peaceful with cicadas
Then we part ways, leaving me breathless

I write for love, for life
with the words I see fit
but if it's you I think about
I can't find the right words
for I am speechless, beguiled
by your beauty and essence

Perhaps there is none
no words, no rhymes
Or maybe there's too many
too many words, too many rhymes
so I sit here, beguiled yet again
silently, secretly admiring a masterpiece

Now that we're worlds apart,
I wonder if you think of me as much as I do
I wonder if you write about me as much as I do
I wonder if you dream about me as much as I do



I wonder if you ever think of me at all.

I am a distant star
a star that you can only see
in your darkest times
a star that you can't see
when your sun shines

I am the moon
outshone and overshadowed
by your bright sunny star
but you seek me at night
to guide you through the dark

I am the one you seek
only when you're troubled
I am non-existent
when you're in bliss
Is that all I am to you?

Don't ever ask why I'm leaving
because I can't tell you
how it hurts
whenever I see your face

I can't tell you
how it puts me in a bad mood
seeing your name pop up
on everything I look at

I can't tell you
how I'm dying to scream
to not leave me
because you always do the opposite

I can never explain
how everything hurts
when I'm with you
Because you will never understand.

I tried and did my best
To find the right words to say
Just to avoid hurting you in anyway
And succeeded avoiding that, I did.

I was so caught up in the idea
Of not hurting you
To the very point that
I ended up hurting myself.

We're either laughing or fighting
like our love is sailing
on tempestuous waters

she asked, she begged
she cried and was told to wait
so she waited, and waited
she got nothing in the end

then like rain it fell on her
the things she asked when she was little
she was blessed, she believed
but curious no doubt

why me? why now? she asked
because you asked
and it was given
in the right time

she cried again
not in sadness but in joy
then sat down and waited
as she wished for love

I slept fifteen hours today
And that means I dreamt of you for fifteen hours,
You haunted my dreams for fifteen hours,
You haunted me for fifteen hours.

Now I just woke up to a gloomy evening
Dark skies and the bells ringing
It has started again,
The thought of you is haunting me again.

In my current state,
I don't have the money
I don't have the power
to make you happy

I only have hardwork
and my little accomplishments
at school and in life
to make you smile

But why can't you?
You always ask for more.
You always ask for more of me
when I'm already giving my all.

I'm already beating myself to death
Squeezing myself like sponge to give my best
but you were never contented
with the things I give.

Tell me, why do you do this?
Why can't you be happy for me?
Answer me,
Why can't you be happy for me, mom?

Am I the only one who cares
about keeping in touch?
Am I the only one who dares
to wait without rush?

Why am I the only one who's hurt?
Is it because of the effort I exert?
Is it because I care deeply
when they were having fun freely?

I wait, I wait, and I wait.
I sacrifice time because it's worth it.
But you can't even stay for me
Am I not worth it?

With you, I want to be.
With them, you want to be.
So I ask again,
Am I not worth it?

Happiness with you, I desired
but now, I am sick, I am tired
I must find happiness on my own
I can only be happy alone.

Breathing is becoming difficult around you
Heart beating faster beside you
Mind is filling with thoughts of you
Now I am
        utterly,
             deeply,
                  madly,
                         falling
                             in love with you

Awe-inducing presence
Beguiling beauty
Calm after the storm
Delicate and divine
Effervescent being
Flames dancing in the sky
God-fearing
Heart unstained by impurity
Interstellar
Joy in the midst of misery
Kind, too kind for her sake
Lovely smile
Magnetic woman
Never says never
Oblivious to love
Pure white
Quick-wit and sharp
Rain during the drought
Starry, starry eyes
Thunderstorms
Unwavering love
Virtuoso
Wholehearted
Xenon, gold, and neon
Yuletide happiness
Zigzag feelings