Life always find a way to balance its scales,
A nice day get caught under the clouds and rain,
A good love always fall a victim to pain,
Blue skies to a storm,
Moonlight to a day light,

But there are those moments,
Ones that we make and they never fade,
One that we remember for each day,
Kind when you meet a stranger,
Random talks over a cold drink,
No names or numbers,
Where your mind can stop to think,
And your eyes arent anxious to wink,
Sitting under clear moon with that cool breeze,
Telling tales of life and stories,
And for every word you utter,
You hear your heart's whisper,
And at the end you get to walk away,
With a memory that will never fade,
Or fall into a trap of pain or fate,

And in those kinda nights you tell yourself,
This is a night,
A night to remember.

We've been here before,
May be not like this,
But its familiar, this I know,

Steamy moments,
With deep long kisses,
Crafting memories,
With our broken heart pieces,

We've been here before,
Where it all feels right,
When time stands still,
And may be stretch a little while,

We've been here, I know,
Where we try to fix the holes,
Cracks, breaks and spaces,
Things that didn't matter before,

Long due texts and missed calls,
Late nights away from home,
Fights on what's been said a night ago,
And silence that curses our hold,

We've been here before,
Where you feel safer away from my embrace,
Where the world grows thinner,
And my lips becomes bitter to taste,

We've been here before,
Where we fall in love hoping it'll stay,
We've been here before,
And now we're at it again,

I still have nightmares about you,
the ones that used to be my sweet dreams,
I'd tell you all about them the next day.
They are fewer, these days. Much fewer. Be happy for me.

I still feel like someone hit my chest,
whenever people mention your name,
I liked it you know.
But it hurts less and less as time goes by. Be happy for me.

I still make hot chocolate,
just the way you liked it, put on your sweater,
and drink myself to sleep.
It's hard to let go of such sweet chocolate,
and such warm sweater.
I'm starting to hate them though. Be happy for me.

I walk around the house,
and it still smells of you while I've cleaned it countlessly,
should I move out? Sigh A guy passed me on the streets the other day,
stinking with your cologne,
I didn't turn to look at him. Be happy for me.

I see you and her sometimes,
she's very beautiful, you laugh louder by her side,
it stings just a little now. Be happy for me.

You wished me well when you left,
as I broke on the living room floor,
you said it wasn't me, it was you. And you were sorry.
You said you'll pray that I heal soon.
Didn't know soon would be this long. But I'm getting there.
Be happy for me.

Believe in this,
The blood in your veins,
And the heart inside your chest

Believe in this,
The dreams that feels small like a grain,
Believe and never let them rest,

No matter how much you fail,
Or how hard it is,
No matter what seems to be in your way,
You must believe in this,

Believe,
That the world hasn't seen everything,
Believe,
That there is a difference you make,
Believe,
In your work, your hopes and dreams,
Believe,
In every second you are awake,

Believe in this,
There is a place for you amongst the stars,
Believe in this,
Believe in who you are,

I'm burning,
Yet i feel alive,
Consumed within,
These feelings that i have,

I'm drowning,
In the pool of your love,
Yet enjoying,
Every wave that comes,

I'm falling,
In this bottomless pit,
Yet I feel safe,
Because you are with me,

I'm burning,
And you are the flame in my mind,
To me its a blessing,
To even call you mine,

I could tell you about what came my way
But its more about listening,
See am a cab driver for a day,
And there's more to it than driving,

I get all sorts of customers,
Angry, kind and loners,
Some talk about life, troubles and ******,
Others gossip about their loud neighbours,

So i get to listen to it all,
Share their lives and mysteries they bestow,
Share their feelings and emotions,
Til the moment they close my door,

I see their faces as they get in and out,
I smile away just to get my cut,
But every now and then,
Door opens for someone who listens,
An angel if you might,
And you my dear,
Is that person tonight,

To a woman with everything,
Its a long shot,
but let the truth be,
Your gaze send storm in my heart,
Your voice puts everything to a stop,

At least that's how I feel,

And right now,
We both know,
My dreams will fade in a blink,
And you'll soon be on the wind,
And I can't stop it,

But for just one day,
What do you say!?
Be my pretty woman,
Sun to my monday morning,

Grab my shoulders,
I, grab your waist,
And lets dance our troubles away,

I'll hold you close,
You be my girl,
We'll take the dance floor all the way till dawn,

And we might be a candle in the wind,
But let's pretend we bonnie and Clyde,
And tonight you be mine,
Let your body fall in line,
And we'll both go wild,
Because pretty soon I'll so lonely I could cry,
But for tonight let you be mine!

Yea, we might be a candle in the wind,
But let me have this memory in me

I can't write what I feel,
Not even if I want to,
Accept what you get from me,
Because the rest will horrify you,

I can't write how I feel about love,
Or how I think that its all just a fairytale,
Accept the smile that I can give,
Because the rest will drive you away,

I can't write about my emotions,
Or how I battle with all that is inside,
Mixed up into a constant frustration,
That always puts me on the brink of going mad,

I can not tell you everything you want,
Just accept what you only see,
I assure you its for the best,
To let the rest of me be,

There will come time of silence,
Time of fear, pain and horror,
When all men shall regret their presence,
And in those days, comes sorrow,

But before the end greets us,
And extends its open dreaded arms,
Let us live and worry not of our daily fuss,
Rejoice the gift that is life with the most beautiful sounds,

Let us drink and eat,
And dance our troubles away,
And may the devil on our heels,
bite its tongue over the joy in our days,

Let us bask in love, feelings and emotions,
Let us breathe the air in passing each moment,
And let not, our hearts be troubled by any commotion,
Let the smile and laughter be our favourite adornment,

I write to you,
Because I know you have known the future to come,
So alas and cherish these days,
Before they are done,

I'm the cupid's mistake,
I tend to stand out,
I fall for things that are out of place,
And cant seem to stop,

I don't kiss when am supposed to,
I don't stay when I should,
I say words that comes in my mind,
And most of them are hurtful,

I'm a cupid's mistake,
My heart is cold and dark,
I drain life of anyone's hand I take,
And in me, you'll find no spark,

I learnt not to break,
So with me comes no apology,
I tend to put everything to fate,
And that's what I've always been,

I'm a cupid's mistake,
So don't blame me,
I don't play by the general rules in place,
I do what Im mostly pleased with,

Darling, I am alone,
Not lonely,
I chose to stay home,
And enjoy my own company,

I like the way it is,
And how it feels,
To have no strings,
Nor someone waiting for me,

I like to tune in whatever I like,
Without a worry of an extra pair of eyes,
Cook, drink and smoke,
And never worry of my heart ever being torn,

Darling, I chose to be free,
Because love always seems like a cage to me,
Talk to him but not that one,
Watch carefully for my tongue and lines,

I hate to disappoint,
Because I'm a mess in my head,
So instead of being pain to someone else,
I'd rather lay alone on my bed,

Darling, I understand what you say,
But life to me had always gone a different way,
So I'd rather have a million who won't be just for me,
Than someone absent when I need her there, to be,

Why do people act weird around death,
They'd rather talk of their lives and cases,
They'd rather skip the topics at hand,
And talk of something else,

Then there are those,
Who talk of the dead,
Bout how they'll be missed,
And all the good things they can say,

Sometimes there are those,
Who look forward to cheer others up,
Make you feel okay,
Catch the last tear and make it all stop,

Also there are those who'd make you cry,
Spread you're life wide across the sky,
Make you see past the wrongs and catch on the light,
Help you back on your feet and move on with life,

But there are some that says nothing at all,
Because they were there through the highs and falls,
They know the life they've lived,
And all the paths to which they've been,
And for them the loss isn't shocking but true,
So they say nothing,
And they don't have to,

It hits us when we are most unprepared,
No matter how good we handle a friend in need,
Or how much we stay close and care

I guess we don't anticipate it happen
Or may be we do but we are blinded
Blinded by the off chance and rare cases
Blinded by our inability to see the trend of thoughts and emotions
The unforgiving chain of reactions
That drives the mind into depression,
It ain't simply just about acceptance,
About bonding, love and affection,
It goes deeper than our daily interactions,

Worst of all is that, it hits in a personal level,
Head first with sharp edged bavel,
Most of us would just pitch in the positive notes, no?
Yeah, but that doesn't overcome the emptiness that's been there for years now,

We all take our safer approach on our life pages,
Trying to quickly out out a fire that's been burning for ages,
Because we want to get rid of a problem,
A problem that is now a part of this person,
Drastically cutting off what we deem unpleasant,
All those addictions and everything heathen,
And so, what then?

Bit and bits of your skin,
every bit of your flesh,
the sweat making it sparkle like slowly dying embers.

Give me access to that again,
notice as my heart flees and grab hold,
pull me back to those arms I once called home.

Do I stay?
Am I still yours?

Remind me what it is to fall,
like the season,
leaves making it to the ground effortlessly,
unharmed.
Remind me what it is to be in love,
to be wild,
to scream and moan,
to drive you mad.

Take me into those arms that once meant home,
hold me like precious sand in the hourglass,
it wont take long before time betrays us.

Do I stay?
Am I still yours?

I remember that place where I grew up,
Small house, small rooms and a backyard barn,
Used to play by the trees near the road out by the front door,
I could hear music from the pub and the cars with their roar,
Great days they were,
Had friend on every turn,
Never had much toys but we sure held our own,

I remember it on those days,
Our crowd from school as we go home to play,
Didnt get a bite or a taste on the day,
We still laugh and run because it did matter anyway,
The fights and dusts never made us part ways,
We all had things to share and my love fell to that place,

We never had much but we were always in luck,
Walls were thin, small inside and to the outs a little torn,
I miss the old shack,
Place I once called home,
I could almost see its dirt road,
Just pass downtown

Do you ever think of me?
When you walking home late,
And your road is long as it can be,
Am I a part of you then?

Do you ever think of me?
In the middle of the day,
When everything piles up,
And your mind drifts away,

Do you think of me?
When you wake up feeling sour,
And curve your lips into a smile,
When you picture your body next to mine,

Do you ever think of me,
Whenever am away,
Do you think of me,
As I think of you, every single day,

Pour me a drink,
A scotch with a gin,
I need to think,
Of life and dreams,

Pour me a drink,
Shot after another,
Don't ask me of my being,
Tomorrow I'll put myself together,

Pour me  a drink,
I wanna bask in a perfect sin,
Fix me something right,
And Lemme drink all night,

Pour me a drink,
I'm but a stranger to your eyes,
I have friends to turn to but,
I don't want to drown them with my demise,

Pour me a drink,
Oh, lemme feel my heart pound,
I have a friend coming for me,
So keep em coming til I can see sounds,

How a man stand his final moment,
A say for his last comment,
A last step on the ire pavement,
Thoughts persist,
And regret is the agent,

The moment of silence,
Every breeze, every bird,
Every leaf from every tree,
Time stops,
A fear of the darkness engulf the soul,
Chill down my spine,
Am due past my time,
Say a prayer with me,
For am at the end of the line,

Arrive at the gate,
Where fate awaits,
Its worth seeing the place,
Where beauty can never relate,
A place of peace,
A place wit no limits,
Where there exist no cuffs of life
And no roof of time,
Clear blue skies and calm seas,
Its a place like none other,
A place I long to be,

Say we fix the people,
Make them honest and good,
Say we brush them rust to gold,
Into something we choose,

Say we dress them nicely,
Make them compassionate and kind,
Say they all became heroes we want them to be,
With a phenomenal strength in mind,

Say we abolish hate,
And we all throw love around,
Say we end all conflicts,
Every one puts their weapons to the ground,

Say we change this world,
Into something we'd want it to be,
Say its all possible,
And it starts with you and me,

I've walked by the river,
Seen the lantern by the boat,
The weight of the water,
The sound of the waves shake its place,
I've seen the edge of the rainbow,
Seen the end of the storm,
Its a place inside me,
Its what I want to see,

Besides all the fighting,
Cons, hates and lying,
I see a water fall,
I see a friend I have known,

Time has never let me down,
Needle in a thread,
Its a chase of life and we the pawns,
But wen it all comes to pass we'll still break the bread,
I know what I have,
A friend,
The kind that knows how to love,

I'm flying blind,
Into a raging storm,
Its worth if I'd leave you behind,
And in the end find myself home,

I'd beat the thundering clouds,
I'd take on the vast open seas,
Its my chance for a clean out,
"Baby you won't ever see me",

"Mayday mayday"
I'd take the devil instead of you,
I don't want another second in your sight,
That's how much I need to get away from you,

They say the ones that can really hurt you,
Are the ones close enough to do it,
Close to your heart,
Close to your life plug to pull it,
They could make you dry inside out,
Make you yearn for peace so much u dream it,

Make you hesitate to kiss when you lean in,
Miss the love while preparing for pain,

Some people would trade sides just to feel a stab from a loved one,
Because its hideous when they gone,
Trade the loud fights with being alone,
Wish silent radio had a sad love song,

You write letters that you'll never mail,
Staring at blank screens in hopes of texts you'll never get,
Turn into a stalker,

So Grab hold to the love you have,
Use both hands to squeeze it close to your heart,

Blister your hands before you go,
Because what comes next is a part yu don't know,

Shred your mind before you let go,
Be sure before you tip off of the fifty-fifty,
And ask yourself...
            Is your glass
                 half-full
                      or
           Is it half-empty?

Hello there,
This one is for you,
Something I'd like to share,
And let you know how much am thankful,

Thank you for how you care,
And how you always there,
As my best friend and someone I can count on,
Someone I can tell anything I know,

Thank you for being that person,
That picks me up when am broken,
Thank you for being all that you can be,
And for seeing even underneath my skin,

Thank you for giving me someone I look up to,
Yes. You are that to me too,
Thank you for being you,
And for sticking around even when my days are blue,

You're one of those people,
That are rare to find,
A gift for the soul,
A blessing to this man,

Thank you for listening when I talk,
You have no idea how hard that is,
Thank you for being a friend and more,
Besides all the trouble I cause,

Thank you for your words,
Thank you for the time,
To me, you are indeed gold,
And wouldn't trade you for the whole world,

I saw disappointment
In her eyes,

I could see
her heart sink,

She couldn't take in
another lie,

But honest
wasn't something
he could be,

Hey mama,
Just keep it real,
No need for a fake persona,
It doesn't give a sudden rush to me,

Hey mama,
I'm all for love,
No need to pull a fast one,
You got all that make me curve,

Hey mama,
I've always been proud,
To be yo friend, heart and partner,
One to hold my ground,

Hey mama,
Just keep it real,
You'll always be my true lover,
Stand by me and hold still,

From my good share of memories,
Life long moments of happiness and torments,
From the time I took your glance,
I had yo site and a grasp of your attention,
I gave you my hand,
Hold this for me..

Been here for a while,
I've known love,
I've known strife,
Through life's betrayals and lies,
I gave you my heart,
Hold it for me,

Time is precious to a man,
So is a love of a woman,
Age past,
U showed me love beyond lust,
In a fierce storm and dust,
I gave you my trust,
Hold this for me,

No guild in life,
It was all worth my time,
What we had was my guide,
Had my smile,
When trouble came stomping upon my tiles,
Through sleepless nights,
I gave you my love,
Hold this for me,

I had find peace,
I had find home,
But age weather like a crisp upon a touching a tongue,
And memories slip like water on between hands,
I take comfort on when I hear your name,
For you were a long lasting love song,

So one last time,
As I say good bye,
Till I find you in the next life,
Here is my ring,
Hold this for me..

I love this house,
It just looks so happy to me,
Like it belongs in a kid's book,
Where happiness is as wild as it can be,

I love the memories,
The parties and Christmas trees,
The faces of everyone I grew up with,
And the joy I get while remembering,

I love the old front door,
The rusted gate and tiles floor,
Oh, the old kitchen top,
I miss its beautiful smell of cooked food and all

I love the broken pieces of glass,
One by the front porch,
Where we used to play and make a mess,
Perfect. That used to be my favorite place,

I love this old house,
Something about it makes me feel calm,
When the world has done beating me down,
This, this is my sanctuary realm,

How did we get here?
Where we hide our thoughts,
And only speak in fear,
Just so we don't get caught,
So we keep to ourselves our opinions and ideas,
How did we get here?

How did we get to this?
Where we have a limit of a way to think,
And we limit our right to freedom of speech,
All just so we don't offend thee,
How did we get to this?

The men who are meant to serve,
Can't handle the truth,
So we don't tell it as it is,
Coz we know what they'll do,
From courts to jail and at times beating,
Yes that's true!,
So it all comes down to what they'll choose,
And they smile like its all good,

So we have to hold on to our dictionary for a consult,
Just so when we speak we don't accidentally insult,
'cause you know the big men can't take a joke,
Or a poke and what not,

And its not that we can fight,
We can't take them up in a round with all their might,
They'd squash us down like a bug,
And then just shrug,

How did we get here?,
Its not like they need it to earn our respect,
We've already voted for them,
How do they not get it?,
We did it with clear mind,
And know that they ain't perfect,
Why do we have to regret?

So I sit here just asking,
How did we get here,
I thought things would be better,
Instead we all now have to look over our shoulder,
How did we get here

am a suggestion,
a mere thought in your mind,
a short lived affection,
a dim light in time,

am the light,
that shine through your eyes,
a reason behind some
and most of your smile,

i am what made you be,
the reason we yearn to be free,

i am what gives life meaning,
what makes us cry when others stop breathing,
a smile on every mothers face,
when their children cries and take their first pace,

i am ancient,
i am primitive,
i am bound to patience,
i am love,

I confess to everything,
To all the lies I've told,
Pain I've caused
And happiness I stole,

I confess to everything,
All the stolen nights,
Memories ruined,
And all the good byes,

I confess to all of it,
And wasted time,
I'll take all the blame,
If it'll once again make you mine,

If I die today,
I want a paper free eulogy,
I want to be buried home,
Lay me down easy,
Ready to meet my God.

If I die today,
I want it to be silent,
White roses and metal stand by my casket,
Slow music,
Fine wine,
Drink it down in the memory of me..

If I die today,
I don't want pretence,
I don't want want people to say what I was,
Coz its already too late.

If I die today,
I want the one I shared with my bed,
Because she is probably the last thing to roam in my head.

If I get to love you I would do it tirelessly
If I get to be that woman who wakes up beside you
If I get to hear your heart beats every night
If I get to feel the warmth of your body beside mine
If I get to be that girl you call before you close your eyes
If I get to be that special person you call yours infront of your friends
If I get to be all you ever wished to see in a woman


Whatever that makes you happy I will choose
I would do it forever and open heartedly
For I love that wonderful soul truly
Fantasies of tomorrow in my every day dream
I never loved another that deep even when you pushed me harder
You are all I want so bad.. And I would never get tired to impress
Sing every love song if that what it takes for you to fall asleep
Cook every recipes if a tasty table is what you desire


But yet nothing of all I do would ever melt your heart
It wasn't there.. Belonged to another
The other who never cared and yet you never let go
The other who never texted but you still called
The other I wished so bad to walk in her trail .
Locked in a haze…longing to love you..
…..
If I get to love you… ♥

If i were to write a poem,
I wouldnt talk about my pain,
I wouldn write only of my gain.

If i were to sing a song,
I would sing loud and proud,
Never of my sins,
But the life within.

Life gives us everything,
We chose anything,
Yet complain of everything,
And achieve nothing.

pleasure, desire, lust
Are not the only things,
Kings, queens, tycoons,
Are not the only beings.

suffocation, self doubt unsatisfication,
Let all this pass,
Shame,rain, pain
Nothing plain should define us.

brothers, if we were to write poems,
We wouldnt talk about our pain,
We would write only of our gain.

Sisters, if we were to sing a song,
We would sing loud and proud,
Never of our sins,
But the stupendous  life within.

If there is to be an end,
Let there be a rose in my hand,
A kiss upon my lips,
And silent moment before I break,

If there is to be an end,
Let it be quick,
No words to be said,
So I'd have the best memory of you for me,

If there is to be an end,
I want it to be like this,
A day, out in the world,
The wind upon my face,
Tell me all I need to know,
And leave me to my peace,

If only you knew,
Of the darkness that walks within your shadow,
The whispering sounds,
the unnerving fear that follows,

If only you knew the secrets,
The tales and stories,
Packed with subliminal messages,
that tells of death and glory,

If only you'd open your eyes,
And for once see,
What you thought is and was,
Is all here and real,

I know your secret,
And what rots deep within,
Yo can't act like yo perfect,
At least not to me,

I know your secret,
All those sweet little lies,
You just a big glorious wreck,
At least that's what's inside,

See I know your secret,
Let's say I don't talk,
But that's only for the best,
So that you can keep your facade fame-walk,

Darling, I know your secret,
Don't play dumb with me,
I'll let God reveal it,
Coz my plate is already filled with sin,

I know your secret,
It doesn't matter what other see,
I've seem how ugly it gets,
And that trauma forever sticks,

I know your secret,
One you keep behind closed doors,
Its not ****** but,
Its nasty on its own,

I know your secret,
What landed close to home,
I've seen the mess,
The one yo covered with clothes,

I know your secret,
I was there when it happened,
I was one of your witness,
And in my mind the reply never ended,

I know your secret,
Behind that sly devil's smile,
And now I know your weakness,
Too bad to me you can't lie,

I know your secret,
I know your darkest corners,
I know you're running and,
I know what binds you together,

Oh, yes. I know that secret,
The one that got you running to church,
It'll come as a heart break,
To those that respect you much,

I know your secret,
I know what rots beneath your skin,
Baby go play a "starlet",
But just know...
     You have a devil within!

Written by Whitney William.


I see you,
You,
behind the wide smile,
the intimidating curve,
beyond the lights,
past the scars,
the markings that carves your skin,
the souvenirs of your ugly past,
I see you,
You.
The perfect beat within.

I see you,
You,
behind the bright eyes,
the fake countenance,
beyond the blooming of springs on your face,
past the facade,
the various ways you wear your masks,
the shield from people's eyes ,
I see you,
You,
the real beat within.

I see you,
You,
behind the tough voice,
the in-built confidence,
beyond the loudness of your presence,
past the noise,
the efforts to get noticed,
the struggles to be acknowledged,
I see you,
You,
the important beat within.

I see you,
over your past,
over your errors,
over the aftermath of the oppression,
the heartbroken,
the faulted,
the weak,
the denied,
the forgotten,
I see you,
You,
over all that,
not the misplaced foot,
but the perfect, real, and important beats,
that makes You who you are.
The precious, fragile jewel,
Darling,
I see you.

It comes with the song
The melancholy air
The reminder that I am loosing
wasting away with the passing of the wind
the distance getting longer
That I cannot reach you
The song that played while we wrestled the sheets
Moments when we finished each others sentences
And the memory lingers
The past haunts me
That I shouldn't have let go
Abandoned your touch
How you made me feel alive
That I shouldn't have destroyed us
How I burnt for you
I still do
Bright orange at the sight of you
That You were ice
The water,
The thing that could cool the fire in me
conceiving snow flakes on Sunday afternoons
letting some green grow on Thursday nights
I shouldn't have let go
I am calling
I am sorry
I shouldn't have let go

You touched me first,
under the moon,
you looked at me and said you liked what you saw
the shabby hair and un-permed
let it loose, you said
the freckles that badly decorated my face
my large hips and belly
you touched me first
by the river
you looked at me and said you liked what you saw
my scars,
my struggles the most.

I touched you first,
under the sun,
I looked at you and said I liked what I saw
the good and well cut dark hair,
I love it, I said,
the masculine face and the breathtaking cheek bone,
brown eyes,
I touched you first,
by the oak tree,
I looked at you and forced myself to like what I saw
perfection,
you didn't let anything slip,
not at all.

I laid bare,
under the moon and sun,
by the oak tree and the angry rivers,
on the grass before you,
and you gave me nothing, but a guarded heart.

"Its a punishment, you see.."
I tend to bend towards the dark,
Unlike other living trees,
And bare my own unique marks,

I see different from the next person,
Refused to listen what the world is saying,
Instead believe on my own distortions,
At least that's what they see in me when they are looking,

I see the world through a narrow hole,
Neglect the thrill that the big picture may be good,
I choose to stay in my darkness of mind,
Drawing satisfaction on what I think and all that could,

Like I could see a church and think of learning,
Instead of a place to be healed,
I'd see a school and think not of growing,
But a place where a mind is submitted and must yield,

Its a punishment,
That I receive,
From the next generation of beings,
Who force all,
To believe,
In a similar manner of idea in different things,

Its a punishment,
Being an outcast in a society of my kind,
But I have to indure being different,
Because, I don't believe there is a better life than what I see in my mind.

Its the flowers..
They remind me of colors with no name,
Words that will never be said,
Emotions that are buried inside of me,
And of times I've hesitated to take your hand,

Do you ever see people?
For how the react towards you.
Not for what they look like or walk.
But for their emotions buried deeper than any truth,

I wish I could just reach out.
And touch your heart like you do mind,
I wish I could know for sure,
How you see me inside that beautiful mind,

I want to see beyond the smile behind your "hello",
I want to feel beyond your soft voice of " I'm okay",
I want to not just touch your life and go,
I want to be here for moments unseen and times after today,

If I tell you of what's been eating my heart..
Would you embrace me?
Would you come and stay here?
Would you reach for the piece of my fragile heart?
Would you make this step with me and forever never part?

Would you love me?
Like I have done all this time?
Would you grant me what I wish?
And let you be mine?

I'm dying,
Let me be,
I've lived long, proud an free,

I'm dying, son
With no scent of regret,
I've seen you achieve goals,
I've seen you become the best,

I'm dying,
Let me be,
I haven't had everything,
But I had all I could ever need,

Lie to me,
That I can go through,
That tomorrow will pass like a cold breeze in a calm sea,

Lie to me,
That I need a bitter song,
To make me feel better,
That I'm not damaged and my actions aren't flawed,

Lie to me,
That you believe in me,
That I can rise above my horrors and fear,
And in the end I can turn into good for my peers,

Lie to me,
That I don't need anyone to stand,
That above all odds that I can push through,
That I can take it with each pace,
Lie to me,
That its us or else,
Lie to me,
That I'm going to be okay,

This life is only beautiful as you want to see.
Scars are pretty things,
or ghosts haunting the morrows.
People are monsters,
or survivors of fortified sorrows.

You can choose to smash the mirror,
gather energy to battle the reflection,
or simply put on some make-up,
cook up some affection.
And you can choose to paint the world,
here blue, there hues of pink,
or just wear colored contacts,
spray where it stinks.

It's all as you want to see.

This life is as beautiful as the comely soul inside you;
wanting to see rainbows in the darkened caves.
Or it is as ugly as the demons you hug dearly,
seeking to find wrong in the ever blooming gardens.

What is harder,
Oh, wait! What is better?
Taking a hand lens to see deeper 'till you meet some softness,
some good,
or walking with your blurred eyes
to catch black spots in all that's built white?

It's all as you want to see.

Some times its easy to miss a moment,
The one you could have smiled,
But chose to spend in torment,
A memory inside, resides in the midst of our joy that is stacked like a pile,
Its a cost we pay for missing the little words,
The one that can save a life, curve a smile and warm a face from its sadden folds,

I like you,
I miss you,
I love you,
Im sorry,

The kind that can take away all the worries,
Calm the storms that hit our hearts,
Raise our knees from dust to glory,
The kind that you owe me,
The one that I owe them,
Rekindle an torn life to a brand-new,

So next time you see me,
Head down to my heart beat,
Forget the gifts, and charms of how you sing,
Forget the plans of how u can make it turn,
Just tell me the words,
The little ones.

You could lose me,
                            I could lose you,
                        We could lose friends
.                    and the people we love

                     We could lose everything
                     that make us who we are
                                         But
                           Never lose a dream
                      that makes you feel alive

Love is ecstasy,
That feeling inside me,
Like THC,

Love is a beautiful heart break,
That text back,
After a one night stand,

Love is a free fall,
That late night good bye,
That makes you come back for more,

Love is a necessity,
The glowing Halo,
That made me,

I always had a struggle when it comes to remembering,
The things that I misplaced,
And the places I've once been,

Memories are so treacherous, vile and repulsive little things,

One moment you're lost in a carnival of delight,
Swinging by the moon and all the stars at your site,

Next it takes you somewhere you don't want to be,
Some place dark and cruel filled with damp ans ambiguous shapeless things you'd rather unsee,

Memories can be harsh and dangerous pieces of our beings,

But can we live without them?
They are what our reason is based on,
In the lives that we lead they serve as a chain,
They are the reason we know right from wrong,
Love from hate,
And good from evil,

Denying them,
Is denying reason itself.

Although..
What's so wrong with that really??
Its not like they are diamonds on the edge of our feet,
Its not like we are contractionally tied down to rationality,

We can still live the life less worried if we recant sanity,
Take an exit to our unpleasantries,
Ought to a haven of ultimate reality,

So when you find yourself locked in,
On a train,
Heading to a place in your past where screaming is unavoidable,
Remember this.....

There is a pill of freedom,
A place of peace,
The welcoming kingdom,
A cup of relief,
And I call it insanity

  



    
Inspired by The Joker

I could tell you of a person she was,
Or how she made me smile,
I could tell you anything there is to be told,
But that may take a while,

But I'll tell you she was sweet,
And that she was one of a kind,
I'll tell you what she was to me,
And how she filled my mind,

I could tell you how much she'd sing,
Whenever happiness burnt her heart,
I could tell everything,
And know not when to stop,

But in her world there was another,
A world I could never understand,
May be I could have tried better,
But I could hold a grip of it by hand,

I will tell you she was a friend,
One I'll forever mourn her loss,
I'll tell you of her end,
And me before her was her choice,

She was a mother,
That's about all there is to say,
And I'll forever love her,
Just wish she'd spent one more day,

APPLE

Wandering in the winter garden all day
The fruits are falling as it breeze
My body trembling, left and right it sways
My teeth chattering the lower as the degrees,
It's snowing on the main and sideways
Am stranded and almost falling dizzy
In my search of my look like chardonnay
Fogg blindens me,Am too vulnerable to see,
Is this a price I have to pay?
Just to have you my Valerie.
Apple.

Round and round I go,
About to find my encounter,
I gotta move careful and slow,
For you don't come on a silver platter,
I will walk, run and crawl,
I am neither being sweet nor flatter, 1
Even in the darkness you glow,
With your hairy skin I pamper,
Our hug dates on that ***** stair floor,
Just to pull you closer and tighter
To keep you from the ****** and bores,
I will fight your harms and batter,
We're invincible whether you accept or No,
Just like ***** to a rasta,
Cause I can't live without you girl
For am the patient and you the doctor.
Apple.