Darling
My prayers may sound like incoherent speech
Like a child trying to out grow his slow pace of development and form words through his immature teeth

And still...

I'd still pray for you,
'Coz God don't live inside the synagogues
Nor does he listen to each one of our native tongues
Just like how he walks out of there to excuse himself from the screams of the righteous ones
Long as I'm honest enough... He'll lend an ear til am done

I'd pray for you
Not for prosperity or peace
I wouldn't voice out complain against yo demons so they'd let you be
I wouldn't ask for angels to come down and help you on yo feet
It sounds crazy, ain't it

Darling
I'd pray you understand that difficult isn't something to fear love
And that the life of a Phoenix demands, it be engulfed in flames every once in a while

I'd pray that those angels should only hold yo hand, should they come
And that you understand that a peace of mind is already a piece in mind

And perhaps in time...

I'll learn how to do better
But for now
God'll have to listen to that!

My dear unborn child
I wish to be there when you step on the outside world
But don't be sad, not too long this war shall end
Be good to the woman I love exponentially, your mother.
Don't keep her awake during night hours
Don't make her throw up every food she takes
Inside that bowl is when her smile is the brightest
With her no harm shall come on to you but blessings shower
The memories of us as a family, graceful like molten gold or a roaring ocean of violent emotion
Always pulsing, surging, touching my soul in that darkest of places
You two are my soulmate soldiers who win my battles


I fight in the frontline of battlefields and win
But I fail to stand a day without thinking of our reunion
Enemies fall by my rifles while I keep praying for you and I shall not cease
My heir, dare to share love with those you care about
Be aware things can be galactic winds ruffle your golden hopes and infuse your aura with flecks of stardust on this mystical path we call life
Don't be in despair, life isn't always fair and take care of your mom beyond compare, especially when I'm not there
It'll be worth the pain at the end.

Yours,
Dad.

Here I lay,
on a dampen floor
my body soaked in my tears
wishing the earth opens up and wraps me in it's arms,
just for a little while.

I moan over the lost nights,
the lost days,
the wasted time, that the heavens,
no matter how much I pray,
won't give them back.
I moan over the lost for you.

I gave so much, on purpose,
chose to stand by you, on purpose,
opted the happy that came from throwing myself to you,
willingly,
selfishly,
foolishly,
on purpose.

My hair is wet from this salty liquid,
my heart is still under your shoe,
my body wishes it could jump out,
fast,
from this layer of skin,
and the pitiful brain that said yes to you.

As I loved you,
you loved yourself,
as I waited on you,
you sought to please your ego for a mistress,
saying sorry for it,
going against your way to apologize,
saying sorry for a chance to do it all over again.

Nothing was missing.
When you found me,
nothing was missing inside of me,
I was whole.
Naive, but whole,
unaware what self love was,
but whole.
Yet I though nothing was missing,
I thought then, you could be a piece to complete me.

And burning with regrets,
I gulp it all down,
because you taught me pride.
I bury my head in pride not to regret,
for the chances and moments,
you opened the door for me
and I chose not to leave.

I weep not for our love,
but for my love.
Hating myself because I didn't love me enough then.
Not even at all,
to care about the person who was really fading away,
with the wind, with every Sun that rose,
and every Moon that sent her to sleep.
Not even at all,
to care about me.

And here I lay,
on a dampen floor,
when I am done crying I'll be back for all that you stole,
claim the parts of me you so forcefully took away,
and I will win,
because you held a marker and drew for me pain,
you held a marker and drew for me survival.


Now I hope,
the next one you meet
won't end up in the trash can,
where you put me.
You made me mature,
I hope someday you grow up too.

My words sweets*

My voice as sweet as honey,
My words dripping with venom,
I whisper words of comfort,
While my eyes say am lying,

My words sweet as honey,
Like a dead joke that ain't funny,
I will leave a bitter taste in your mouth,
Revenge isn't best served cold,
It should be sweet with a hint of poison.

My words sweet as honey,
I may look like a sheep,
But am a serpent that calls you baby
And others know better.
Under these charming smiles,
A beast lays in slumber.

My words sweet as honey,
Like a maleficent's curse,
You did this to me,
I loved you and u stole my breath,
Now the devil is off the leash.

With your betrayal,
You better be ready,
Brace your heart,
And hold your breath,

Coz you are in it for a rough ride,
You are in for a devil's prize,
You are in for hell of a surprise,

My words sweets as honey,
Now its my turn,
No hail or warning,
Full speed coming...

Lighter, flames,
Another ounce of nicotine in me,
And you're the one to blame,
For the way my heart feels,

And I crave for more of it,
The way it burns in my lung,
I won't care of the demise I'll meet,
Its the one thing I understand,

See you're just like nicotine,
Both **** the life out of me,
But at least with a cigarette I'll be,
High for a while and stress free,

It kills I know,
But so is the milk from which you could choke,
I'll die, yes I know,
At least I'll know its my fault,

Peel away the skin of my soul
And watch the fairy tale before you unfold,
Reach into the deeper parts of my mind,
Just one more time,

Feel away my pain,
Pull me closer so we can dance in the rain,
Whisper to me your gorgeous lies,
And let me smile,
Just one more time,

I'll always be weak for you,
See my emotions ahead of the truth,
I know how this will end,
So let me feel love,
Just before I break,

I don't want any ties,
then there'll be no cold feet no hurt
no regrets
just here and now
you and me
lights off with the couch upside down
your place
before we make a tent out of it
and talk all night
one night.

I don't want any ties,
no hopes no plans no pain
no regrets
just occasional good time, you and me
we don't make it to the movies
that's alright,
as long as I laugh
even for a little while all night
one night,

just one night,
to be myself again,

just one night,
to feel like I'm still in control.

You have been standing there for a while now,
where I took a stick and drew a line,
You have made camp,
Where we said it's a paper door,
Are you out or in?
I have the key to my house of cards beside the rocks,
Angry winds shall soon be upon us
You look like you want it tumbling down with you and me inside,
But your feet betray you

Dawn came and they are now setting up
bonfires,
are you going to move away from the red marking?
It has rained and now my hair are being dried by the cold breeze,
Are we really in this?
The dance will start presently,
Then tales and songs of whence we come from,
I want you to hold my hand and run free to where the drums are played
Are you out or in?

I cant wait for long, sir,
You are at the exit and I don't know if you're going out or coming in,
The beach calls, you see,
Summer has a lovely voice,
You look like you want the night to crawl down on us with your arms around me,
But your feet betray you.
Are you out or in?

I hope our paths never cross again,
Because I will come at you with all the force that I have,
You have ruined the one thing I hold dear,
And now its time we awake what's driven by fear,

I hope our paths never cross again,
For you have awaken a monster I spent decade laying to rest,
Now he is raging in me like an animal encaged,
Waiting for a chance to inflict pain upon revenge,

I hope our paths never cross again,
For I am now a man with few items to waste,
You took what was most valuable to me,
And so open doors to the devil that breathes,

Penny in the river*

We would have had a wonderful life together,

If I had just fought for you harder,

If I had held on the fights a bit longer,

We would have bought that nice house with a bar,

And have a nice home for you and I,

We'd have a lovely company of our child,

And he'd be the reason to wake up every morning with a smile,

Once the child grew then we'd have each other,

We'd pretend to miss him but deeply relieved that he is a bit further,

We'd run around the house naked drown in our happiness and liquor,

We'd eat ice cream off a freezer,

We'd lay on bed listening to your favourite songs of enya,

We'd live young and grow old together,

May be you'd be okay,
If I'd be with you and stayed,

We'd have a wonderful life together,
But now my dreams are nothing more than a penny in a river,

Had a dream back then,
Being a president or just a pilot,
It was a goal to me and a tale to most friends,
I had it all planned out down to a chart,
Everythings at the palm of a hand,
But like the most say,
It was just another fairy tale,

I was a soldier of Christ,
Born to a church and the cross,
Hated sin down to a crisp,
Vow hold the bible as a role,
Always walking where is steep,
Always found my self where its deep

At the bottom of the chain,
Where the rich had gold,
And the pure chose lead,
I mourned for my soul,
Mourned to not go astray,

Road grew tougher,
Path grew darker,
The more I went,
The more the ground came closer,

But somewhere along that road,
Somewhere between Gold and God,

Somewhere in between my role and vow,
I think must have switched robes,

Coz now gold seems lighter that word,
And the trip easier than that walk,

Plata O' Plomo,
The decision isnt hard anymore,

I still remember our best days we had
You made me smile and forget the odds
It wasn't enough but I was glad among lads
It's sad how fast time can past and live in memories


I have lost the grip, but not love and affection I have for you
As I gaze around the coast and want to put the awe and wonder through you
I want to speak your language and touch the hearts with my fingertips



People are subjective, others are objective and lucrative
But truth is absolute, so are you my old lost friend
Your compassion and tenderness, the rhythm and taste are just.

Of all the great songs of victories, fairytales and idioms
In all the beauty and utter riddles of the languages, you still amaze
Poetry, come back to me and at our best and let's glaze!

You know those questions that you get
Like why is the sky blue?
The ones you can not answer,
But, try to pass off that you do,

Well I had one the other day,
What if we had a chance to feel what the person next to us does?
We'd touch each other without a word to say,
It'd be beautiful with no trigger or cause,

There'd be no need for gestures,
Coz our minds would be in the same place,
There'd be nothing to hold us,
There'd be no need to seize that perfect chance,

I don't know..

I just can't seem to help myself,
I wear my heart for all to see,
May be your my "someone else"
The one who feels just like me,

I read these words today
Like "when faced with overwhelming fear,
Human beings will do almost anything to survive,
****, lie, steal, pray... anything,
Whatever gives them hope that each breath they take won't be their last,
As long as hope remains,
the human will is stronger than steel..

It's when all hope is lost is lost,
That human behaviour reaches its basest form,
And actions that once seemed inconceivable to a rational person become real possibilities..
In desperate minds"

And it got me thinking like..
How many times have I had a one time chance,
To change everything,
To change me...
And all that clouded me was fear,
Fear of being misunderstood,
Seem an outcast, different and at times rude,
Fear that "oh I think he's loosing it" with a pinch of sympathy..
is all I'll get from the people around me
Every productive thought was choked by fear.

And I thought...
may be some dreams don't come true coz
I don't want em bad enough,
Bad enough to scare the hope that I'm moving,
While reality is nursing me
I'm ******* crawling..

I got me thinking,
May sometimes it's okay if people don't get it
Coz sometimes even I don't get them
The decisions they make seem far fetched
But then...
Then they make it
We all do,
in our own little words
Filled with true gaffes and laughs..

Maybe I can do it..
We all can..
We just
Need to want it
That ******* bad

Reality don't arrive..
It ain't your third cousin,
Seeking shelter during family gatherings,
It ain't a guest in your fav't TV show reruns,
So you cant expect to tell it to hit the road whenever you need a peace of mind

In fact it ain't a code written in a tech app,
That you can erase whenever you encounter a mishap,
It ain't like Whatsapp texts that you can simply delete,
Before the other party gets a glimpse,

Its a part of you that you can't forsake,
Like a deadly disease you can't afford to neglect,
Its that nagging sibling that's always on yo neck,
Digging deep in yo business then reminds you of your mistakes

From mistaken and unattended emotions
To the often "unfinished" business
Reality bites deep into your flesh to inflict that perfect torment,
That early morning text that you know you'll regret,

But I guess we all get lost in our sophisticated lives,
Forgetting that there are things we simply can't forget about
The little bonds that we choose not to cut off
And in return creates demons that we end up trying to escape from

She gets a kick of memories that barely exists
Choosing to sink deeper into her fantasies
Simultaneously aware of her impending doom
But she can't help herself from wanting to get back in his arms

Runaway with me,
To a land of peace and pain-free,
From all the fuss and life's psychotic spree,
From a world where greetings dont bare emotions,
And niceness is but a mere strategy,

They teach you to see better in yourself,
But even your eyes need light for you to see,
What if you dont have that?
What if there is no light in you?
What if you lost it all and you're now a Silhouette?,
A mindless face that they'll soon forget,
And on your way down revisiting all your steps,
Seeing all that u had and lost,
Would you see anything?
When your eyes are busy crying,
And your mind is bitter over life,

Runaway with me,
It wont be better but it will never be like this.

Help me scrub the deck,
Tighten the halyard,
Bind the stays,
Let's conquer the oceans,
Don't count on days,

Say good morning,
To the water and winds,
Pull the sheets and start sailing,
And feel the ocean breeze,

Are you brave enough?
Are you afraid to be afraid of fear,
can you squint your eyes in the darkness,
face the Devil in his chambers?
Fighting him to win?

Then can you search for me?
Can you come take me,
grab me from his hands,
break the long fingernails
that's formed a cage I'm locked in?

(It's a nice place,
the valley of hell,
realms of the dead,
Deep in the core of shadows,
It's a nice place.) ….. murmurs

Can you come?
Free me,
fix me,
hold me together until I'm whole again
Yet undone in your arms?

(I sing him lullabies
Though he doesn't go to sleep,
it's for him to easily devour me.)

Before I wake to nothingness
Can you come save me?

See,
This time, you won't leave me with a scratch,
I'm good as I can be,
I won't give you anything to watch,

This time,
You won't leave me a scar,
Every wrong you ever did to me,
Will fade away like a dying star,

This time,
I will feel no pain,
I'll turn numb,
And won't break again,

See,
This time I will be free,
Away from your lies and abuse,
And finally be free,

She just sat there,
With the ring in her hands,
Thinking,
Of every word he'd ever said,

The smile on his face,
And the joy he'd bring,
The place where they met,
And how her heart bloom like a flower in spring,

She just sat there,
Wondering of what's next,
And without a word of care,
She thought of the future in place,

She just sat there,
"Nothing's left for me",
Said it'll soon be over,
With nothing but a sip of this,

She's a little right,
A little left,
A little wild,
With no safety net,

She flaunts her battle scars,
With a brave formidable heart,
A rough, blurred past,
With a smile that forever lasts,

She's that little morning call,
That raise your darkened soul,
She's a little magic ring,
That you'd always find its need,

She's a little wounded inside,
And still hold a smile,
She's a little left and right,
A blessing that lingers for a while,

Show me the other part of you,
The raging storm,
The darkest moods,

Show me the other side you have,
The frown behind your smiles,
The deepest chambers of your heart,

Show me the other part of you,
No matter how ugly,
I promise to bare what I'll see,

Show me the other part of you,
I want you open the heavy gates,
I've been a good friend,
And am prepared to be here till the end,

You wake up every morning,
Head's banging and your mind is drowning,
And you promise yourself,
Last night would be your last drink,

Sometime you make it till noon,
When your feeling big and proud in an empty room,
I should give myself a pat for a good job,
May be a glass full of rocks and a good scotch,

You find yourself back to square one,
Downing bottles like its "day one",
You spring back to where you started,
Waking up in the morning heavy hearted,

You need to decide where to stop,
You need to decide when to turn,
Its a fight that both your hands need to grasp,
Its a either you are all in or you've lost,

So I listen to the sweet melody,
That reminds me of you,
That slow love song,
That got me hooked on blues,

The soft beat of the drum,
And the silence after every piano key,
That low fading hum,
That brings you closer to me,

I listen to the music,
And the words beneath each rhyme,
I listen to the voice and lyrics,
To set me free from the cage of time,

I listen to each instrument,
That comforts me when you're gone,
Help me in each passing moment,
Till that time you come home,

Tell mama,
I'll be alright,
I'll do my best,
Keep my eye on the prize,

Tell mama,
I'll never let go,
Even when no one is there,
I'll do it on my own,

Tell mama,
I still dream the dream,
I won't let anything
come in between,

Tell mama,
To be proud and happy as she can be,
Tell mama,
I still got some fight in me,

Am looking out of my window on a rainy day,
Thinking about a girl I met yesterday,
She had a lovely glance and gracious smile,
Oh, the soft skin went with her brown eyes,

I'm thinking about the words that came out of her lips,
The slow, steady walk as moves and her hips,
I'm thinking about the moment when I said goodbye,
It was a mere two minutes but a memory nonetheless for I,

I replay every word that I said to her,
Every movement that my body made at that time,
I'm thinking of a better way I could've made her smile,
Even though time had moved on, she's still in my mind,

A joke

Let me tell u a joke,
Starts wit a taste of a story,
But am i know you'll catch up as I talk,

Its about the life as we know,
How we improve our lives and leave holes on the land we poke,
How we could turn a green land into a piece of rock,
Call its a modern home build on tones of lies,
Forget that now and future share one line,
Drive the small societies into the horror of Dark times,

Its a joke I heard from a man,
Forsaking his ancestry in the name of fame,
Telling tales of glory encrypted to his name,

The morning cheers us up,
The mist cools our troubles.
But you won't let me be the one.

The moon falls when we touch,
The stars rain down on us.
Why won't you let me be the one?

Times slows down like a slug,
Yet our days together seem short.
So you won't let me be the one.

Our hearts beat to make music,
And when we breath it's harmony.
But you won't let me be the one.

The sun will stop to stare at us,
And the water will fall up hill.
The day you let me be the one.

I feel the pain while the sun shines,
So I wounder what the storm will bring.
If it wasn't for that holly grass,
What would my face look like in a mirror.

For years I've searched and I've searched,
But inside mine own heart,  see what I've found.
For years I've surveyed these lands,
But with my third eye, look what I've found.

It's me against the world,
Something ignorant that I'd say back then.
But the world will be here to stay.
While we disappear with the wind.

So it's me with the World,
Aye! A smart alliance to secure.
Cause even though it's full of ****, this world.
No one ever marched against it and won.

Woman will use you,
Man will play tricks on you.
And the world will never compromise.
Only a little bit of knowledge gives you much power.

Today was beautiful,
I had conquered my share of the world,
Today was peaceful,
With soft so said words,

Today I am calm,
As wind of the carribean sea,
Today was more than I could ask,
And I had the best for me

This is to the man of her dreams,
I know you've never had a chance to know me,
She is a beacon of happiness in my life,
A reason behind my smile,
So before you take her hand..
I need a moment of your time,

She is a little rough around the edges,
Its just how she's always been through out her age,
Be patient when she is hype and off her ground,
With a kind word touch her hand and calm her down,
She is fragile, you see,
Sometimes when she needs attention not only when sick,
Try to understand and be there,
'Cause you are the only one in trust with her care,

She isn't built for this hush world,
And I'm sure she'd want me to take back these words,
So when you see she's down with sadness around her eyes,
Be the one to step in and make her smile,

She is sweet and loving,
I've known for all the time she's been with me,
I know not much of her heart and the turmoil of her soul,
But let you my boy,
Be the heart she'd call home,

I've taught her pride,
Am the one to blame for that,
I've taught her to talk,
And say what she wants,
I hope you understand her power of free speech,
And don't mistake it for an attitude or habit from peers,
Its just her heart trying to speak,
So please my boy, lend her your kind and loving ear,

My boy, she is my most treasured gift,
From the day she opened her eyes,
I have a reason to tell you this,
So you can be a man to her,

This is to a man of her dreams,
Be part of what she believes,
Never see any less of what she hopes,
This is to a man,
She wants the most

Stuck in traffic,
On my way home,
Baby wait for me,
You won't be lonely anymore,

Stuck in my mind,
Is your smile and laugh,
I'm burning in my heart,
Can't wait to be in your arms,

Staring at the tail lights,
Wish I was in a truck in front of mine,
Minutes feel like a day and night,
And I can't wait for that greenlight.

I bet you are pretty,
You have to,
You have a perfect shape and body,
Please turn, would you?

You one of those polite kind,
Soft voice with a wild mind,
I hope you're not a spoiled child,
So please turn around,

I have to see your face,
Its not about beauty,
I just want see your glance,
I hope you turn for the sake of me,

The ride is almost over,
And so far u havent dropped on any stops,
I hope you stay and keep my head sobber,
Or turn so I can start over...

I've never known peace,
To me its a ghost without a face,
I only know of complete silence,
For its what keeps me in place,

I've never known peace,
Even at the times of joy,
I smile for the sake of appearance,
Coz deep inside all I know is misery,

I've never known peace,
Even when my heart finds rest,
It seems like I've always struggled to exist,
Running out of air inside my chest,

I've never known peace,
That warm feeling within my soul,
That effortless breathing I've been told,
That "its okay" and "let it go",

I've never known peace,
Beyond that of an infant child,
Who smiles from the dreams unlimited with time,
And the calmness that comes from his untroubled mind,

I've never known peace,
Even when I had all for which I've ever wished,
I guess its just me,
And am the only one who can give me this,

She was a wonderful girl,
Had it all figured out,
And for herself,
The whole world,

She was madly in love,
Drunk, high and *** every night,
All went too fast and never stopped,
And slowly the world faded from her sight,

Til one day she woke up,
Found out she was pregnant,
Everything crumbled down in a drop,
Then in came, resentment,

It went from all spinning around,
To silence filled with statements,
She couldn't hold her ground,
And with a baby, struggled to pay rent,

Everything became tasteless,
With no one to even hug,
She started to be reckless,
And one day, turned to drugs,

Each day became harder than the last,
And nothing was enough to numb the pain,
Constantly haunted by the ghosts from her past,
Desperately wanting to get away,

See she wasn't a bad person,
Just needed a break,
Breathing became a frustration,
Because she became someone she hate,

With no one else to turn to,
She went her own way,
The world will never know the truth,
Of the struggles she faced everyday,

Wasn't long until she gave in,
She didn't want to fight anymore,
And just like that she ended it,
With a heart so torn,

Sometimes things fall in place,
May be divine intervention,
Or the universe giving us a hand shake,

Do you believe in miracles,
In prophets and voice of an Oracle,
Do you believe in the power of overall justice,
If not...
What do you think in times like this,

Time where human intelligence is exhausted,
When all the plans and schemes go down in ashes,

When you feel the walls and ceiling close in,
And all of the sudden a hand,
Pulls you despite your countless sins,

Giving you freedom,
A room to breathe,
Giving your mouth a song,
And joy for you to hold in,

Do you believe in God and his proclaimed saints,
What do you think of,
When you get that second chance,

When it comes to me I'll be ready,
I'll have a crib and a bassinet,
I'll have a picket fence and the teddies,
When it comes, it'll take a whole of me,

When it comes,
it'l be my chance,
To unravel my world and show it in the out,
Be that brave man I am inside,
Step on fear when my life's in the dark,
When it comes, it'll be a reason for every single thing I decide,

When you come,
You will never feel alone,
I know how hard it is to be stranded in the eye of a storm,
Most importantly,
I want you to know the truth,
About my ways and all my youth,
Its hard to live in a lie and learn to be good,
Whether its a son or daughter, Im waiting
I hope you come meet me soon.

  -Doc. Benn W.K

If you see love,
Please tell her,
Tell her that I know,
Let her hear the sound of snowfall
And drops of rainfall
If You see love
Please let her know

Tell love I want to hold her beautiful hands,
I hope to one day touch her smooth legs,
Tell love she looks beautiful without makeup
And that her smile is in my memories, in this moment and in tomorrow's glory

Tell love she is a story,
Each chapter written in different ink,
A trumpets beat
As our lips crave the dreams of reality
Tell love to be patient,
We are yet to meet but me and her will live out our forever even if it be but a single moment of a 'hello' and tearful 'see you next time'

If you see love
Please tell her,
I understand she doesn't know,
Know or hear the sound of snowfall or hailstorms,
If you see love please let her know that she loves me, and I do love her so

Why can't we lie?,
Why can't we cheat?,
If it gets us what we want,
And fulfill our darkest needs,

It's a universal law,
Its what religion preach,
To stay in line and course,
Is the way to reap all good there can be,

But why not be rebels,
And taste how it feels,
Why can't we lie,
And be what we can be,

With all the good intentions,
Let's watch it die,
Burn our smoke to the heavens,
From machine's roaring so loud,
Sever the oceans,
And all that dwells inside,
And with all good intentions,
Let's weep with a smile,

With all good intentions,
Let us count our grace,
Its all about profit to us,
So by all means let's keep up the pace,
**** all the forests and trees,
Just so we can have money for a change,
With all good intentions,
Let's forsake tomorrow for today,

Don't get me wrong,
Am all for that capitalism ****,
Its all about survival,
So don't waste a moment, think
If the earth gets warmer,
That's why we invented ACs
With all good intentions,
Let's be men by all means,

With all good intentions,
Mother nature can take care of her own,
She's always been here,
A billion years and may be more,
Why help her get on her feet,
When our years are running low,
By all means baby,
Let's take from her what she owns,

With all good intentions,
Life is all but too short,
We got the tech to save us,
Escape to mars and what not,
Why stress about the floods and crops that fail to grow,
We can **** nature, print meals and grow spurts,

By all means let's live like fools,
Forget the science coz the world is just me and you,
"Its not our problem" if some creature won't live to see the next full moon,
Let's drink wine and celebrate our alternative truth,

With all good intentions,
Let the message hit your ear,
If this had ever cross your mind then better listen my dear,
The earth is home, food and shelter that you need not seek coz its already here,
Don't tempt to waste today,
For tomorrow that might never be there.

I don't want to go back,
I don't want to turn around,
go on picking up every tear I left on the road,
collect on every good moment
that we shared,
gather together the nights we laid broken
those nights that we at least had each other,
search for those still remembered suns
that shone upon us,
those a thousand marble furnaces that
woke up with the opening of your eyelids;
each morning.

I don't want to recollect,
I don't want to remember,
I don't want to reminisce on where love took us.

The lovely seas we sailed on,
the magic shells we spotted on the beach,
the gardens you likened me to,
when you said I was far more prettier,
than those well arrayed flowers.

We are here,
In the now,
You found me in shackles and you brought me free,
you held me in your arms,
you wrapped me,
you put your lips on mine,
moons later,
and I was complete.
And you gave me this.

Here and now.

I don't wanna go back,
I don't want to have any regrets,
I don't want to ask questions
of where I stumbled
and forgot to pick us up both nicely,

I want to stay here,
I want to stay here and be yours.

Every second yesterday was beautiful,
today is indeed beautiful,
but
Tomorrow is the only place I want to go,
the only place I want to go
with you.

It comes with the song
The melancholy air
That feeds my lungs
The reminder that I am loosing
wasting away with the passing of the wind
That I cannot reach you
And the memory lingers still
The past haunts me
When im alone in the dark it whispers
That I shouldn't have let go
Abandoned your touch
Forsaken your kisses
It then justifies
How you made me feel alive
I shouldn't have destroyed us
How I burnt for you
That I still do
Bright orange at the sight of you
That You were ice
Sugar, spice and everything nice,
The water,
The thing that cooled the fire in me
conceiving snow flakes on Sunday afternoons
letting some green grow on Thursday nights
Breathing next to you on Monday mornings
I shouldn't have let go
If I call,
Will you be here?
Will you come?

I've always loved you,
I've never stopped,
the last kiss was me memorizing every pattern of your lips,
when they're stretched or simply prim.
Like i'd need to remember it all
someday
some days like today.

I've never stopped looking out the window on rainy days,
as a few drops made as if to touch my aching palm,
not hoping to see you walk back to me, no
just to see you out there,
happy,
building what we had with another me,
a better me.

I miss you,
I don't want you back,
I just think I can just miss you
from this end,
without wishing for things to go to how they used to be,
just wishing you the world you deserve,
the world I couldn't provide.

You stand behind the words,
Behind the storm that I bring,
Behind pain, and sorrow that u sometimes feel,
they don't see...

You make camp behind the Sun
You burn as it shines,
but they dont see,
you give it all up,
Just for me.

You leave the comfort and step out in the rain,
They don't see,
when you're all dressed up but still come to get wet for me,
They don't see,
you walk along,
when my feet are treading upon hot coal,
and they don't see,

How you love me.


You dive in rivers head first,
they dont see,
You climb deadly mountains for me
Sometimes I also dont see it


How much you love me.


But you love me

We dont see,
You know it,
But you still love me.

You still love me.

My heart sings in gratitude,
My bones are humbled,
I want to wrap you in melody of the affection I have for you,
at my worst,
in the darkness,
on sunny days below summer skies,
when you still love me...

You still love me