The life that was once was has faded
Now the life before us is twisted
Nothing can stop it
Not those good-hearted
Nor to those who are soundly minded
It's set in stone
No thanks to those
Who are truly wicked.

The darkest hour is the time when we all get together,
dancing and singing, laughing and crying;
until one man starts dying.
"Disgusting!" says the weak man, "Horrifying!" said the next;
Don't they know that they too are next?

Corpses and blood are everywhere;
just another night, for a bunch of millionaires.
in order to make it, you need to be strong;
for prayers are not allowed here.
praying is for the cattle, the sheep;
and we are above those who are asleep.

Walking through this deserted land
Feeling ever so weak
I just want to get home
Back to wonderland

My hearts bleeding
Hands shaking
Don't you see
I'm dying here
But there you are smiling happily
Even as I lose my sanity

My reality is dissolving
A problem that cannot be solved
It's funny
I was once a superstar
But all I have to show for it
Is a bunch of scars

So many scars
And so much tears.

To those of you who are in the know
keep your ears, eyes, and mouth closed
can't let anyone on what we know
we will cut your throat from ear to ear
that is something everyone should hear.

I shut my eyes to these trying times
Cover my ears from the numbing silence
And bite my tongue from the those lying
So here I am
Dancing and singing with fallen angels
Turning a blind eye to my problems
It's just that time again
Where I run in circles

Cheering with blood-filled cups
Speaking with many devils
This is the time where I rise above
This is the time to do what I please
A new destiny
A new reality
So mote it be.

I think it's time for me to let go of yesterdays worries
Throw away all those awful memories
And journey on into tomorrows fantasy

I can see it now
No more empty me
No more misery
Just the new me
Filled with heavenly energy

I was once suffering
But now I'm smiling
Because tomorrow
Tomorrow is a new beginning.

The blood drips from the cup
It has come to this
My soul has fallen to the abyss

I've tried to run and hide
But there was no escape
Now I've made a grave mistake
I can't be saved,  just his disgrace
I'm sorry

I tried running, I really did
But they caught me
I was granted a second chance
They called it my destiny
Now look at me, writing poetry
Filled with anxiety
Holding on a sliver of humanity
A nobody, when all I wanted to be...
Was somebody.

Hello there person who is reading this
I don't know if you know, but I'm ******
that isn't entirely true but what I feel isn't bliss
if I'm being honest, I don't know how I feel
just living day to day without a way to heal
don't worry though, I'm not depressed
I got out of that mindset awhile ago and I've got the scars to show
took 5 years from fourteen to nineteen
such is the life of a teen I suppose.

I'm twenty one now and all I do is sigh
I miss being a kid, I wanna skip this life
I know that isn't wise by why even try?
my death would be a blessing in disguise
*******, that sounds pretty ******
if my mom found this then she would probably cry
Jesus, I never meant this to be a sad poem
the old me kinda just came through
so much for being wholesome
I guess I'll write another poem.

Walking in the school hallways
A living hell to me
People staring
Or is my mind
Playing tricks on me?

I'm losing my sanity
My anxiety kicks in
I can bearly breathe
I stumble around the corner
And see the exit
But there's a group standing there
WHY THERE!?
I'm being tested by god
And I'm offended

I try to find another way out of here
I see an open window
Guess this is a Goodyear

I climb through the window like a total ******
And as I look up
I see 4 busses packed with kids
Looking through their window
Straight at me
Oh god
Why me
Why today?

when all I am
Is a man with a thousand faces
Do I take the ****
And just end it?
Or do I continue
And commit more sins?
The road to hell is paved with good intentions
And the ones you love
Little the roadside
I've seen it all, I've done it all
And yet
I still have more questions
All of which will never be answered
Not with my current existence

My mind has been all over the place lately
And it's driving me crazy
I think it's because I'm meat-rotting at home
Been doing nothing but writing
It's bringing me nowhere
But I can't stop writing
Even though I want to
Because I want to go somewhere - anywhere
But here

Guess I'll just have to deal with it
Like I always have
I am infinite after all
Sure, the state of my soul
Is a bit complicated
And I might be a bit corrupted
But I still won't let my light fade

I'll keep it burning because of a promise
A promise I made before coming into existence
Its what I must bear
And I hope it'll bring me somewhere - anywhere
But here.

Feeling overwhelmed with what's going on
Don't ask me how I handle this
I just do what needs to be done
Yeah, I've got my reasons
But don't be mistaken
This isn't bliss
Not from what I've done

I should have listened to my intuition
But it's too late
Now I'm numb
And there's no exit
Just me in this closet
With so many secrets

Metaphors all around
Which go round and round
You'll never understand
But I'm sure you will
One day

How long will this last
How long will I survive
Who knows
Certainly not me
Just a nobody in my twenties
Who has a knack for poetry
Writing and writing
Only for it to bring nothing
Nah, it makes me forget about reality
So I guess that's something

Where is this going?
Who knows, certainly not me
Just a nobody in my twenties
Who lives in poverty
Hey, have some money?
I'll write you a lovely story
With a man named Johnny
Who has a girlfriend named Lucy
She's real juicy
BUT WAIT
She's a zombie
That's pretty filthy
I'm sorry

This poem turned out pretty bad
But it is what it is
Insomnia at it's finest
Anyways, I hope you have a splendid day
So goodbye, farewell
See you in hell.

I've got a secret
Its something you must know
I don't want my throat slit
So I'll let it go, where I'll once again
Drown in sorrow
Not just today
But tomorrow too.

Can't tell you what went wrong
I've tried so hard, but in the end
The darkness was too strong
Now here I am
Sitting in a thunderstorm
I don't mind it
And honestly
I think it's where I belong
Or maybe not
Maybe I really like both
The sun in all its glory
And the rain with its melody

Balance
Duality
What a wonderful thing
Wouldn't you agree?

Sleepnights nights drowning my thoughts
What has become of me
In these nightly storms

I hold all these secrets
All of which I accepted
So I beg of you, bring me my casket
I'm a total basket case
And I'm tired of it

Just a poet
Writing and writing
Only for it to bring nothing
Just wicked beings demanding worship
I thought I was gifted
But it got complicated
So here I lay
Watching my blood
And my tears drip

I was told I was an infinite being with talent
And the nightmares became vivid
It left me twisted, It left me corrupted
So here I am
Addicted to the darkness

All this poetry Is heavenly
But not to me
I'm stuck in a cage
And losing my sanity
I beg of you
Please help me
I-I'll be in your debt forever and always
That isn't true, but I'll be thankful
Always.

I see you've been empty
Forget about society
They can't see clearly
But I can
I can see your beauty
Come with me
Away from society
Away from all the negativity
Somewhere heavenly
A place to do what we please
How 'bout Cali?
I'll treat you like a celebrity
I'll take your humanity
But I'll keep you safe
Safe from society

Finally
Someone worthy.

The things we do
The things we must
Has come at a cost
Now we're among those
Who love drinking blood

We have a long way to go
So keep on screaming
Ignore the bleeding
And numb the feelings
We can do it
Just keep on believing.

Dear heavenly father above
I hope you know it's 11:11
I'll make a wish and go to heaven
find Jesus christ and take his heart
build my throne on top of his corpse,
and call it art with no remorse
Amen.

As I walk down the spiraling staircase
Blood of tears run down my cheeks
I open the door to that room, that place
Where my soul will be set ablaze
A wonderful place
Filled with so many freaks
An awful place
Filled with so many screams
I'm wide awake in this dream
I wish to go back to sleep
But here I lay and here I'll bleed
Because I..
I believed.

Your presence is unholy, you pull me in slowly
I bend the knee
You are legendary
I giveth, you taketh
The only way to escape my body

I dug this grave, it's the only place
That makes me feel safe
I giveth, you taketh
Show me bliss, tear my wings
Teach me a lesson
I don't care what the demons bring

Feeling strong, finally found a place
Where I belong
I gave, you took
Soul set ablaze, Darkness understood
You were with me
All along

Thank you Lucifer for all the laughter
A true savior, a wonderful teacher
See you again
When things get darker

Here we are again in the moonlight
all of us dressed in a black cloak
and no sounds are heard, not even a frog's croak.

we invoke that which slumbers in the darkness
and dance along to the tune of humanity's cries
I'm getting tired of hanging with you guys
I want to leave, but I know that's unwise.

I want to apologize to those that I love
that I care for, you guys mean so much
I know you guys judge me for how I ended up
and I know I ****** up
but *******, I love you all so much.

My mind has been wondering about in a deserted state
which is something that I absolutely hate
I wish I was different, I wish I was better
I guess its fate that left me feeling bitter
Why is it me who has to live this kind of life?
a day later and I'm a whole new man
I have your wife to thank, she made me feel better.

To all my friends whom I haven't seen in so many years
I hope you know that I miss you all so much
I've lost myself through so many doors and hallways
just know I will treasure you all
forever and always.

I have something to say to you
Yeah you
The one who is all boohooing
Cheer up if you will
You'll pull through
I know that's something I shouldn't say
Because I know I can't change your worldview
Not like that anyway
I'm just here to let you know that you've got this
Don't let them control you
You know, the voices
If you ignore them
And listen to the ones that are like cheese and ham
Then you'll feel like superman!
...
Yeah, that's a weird way of saying it
BUT YOU KNOW WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAY
right?
Listen to the ones that are positive
Then you'll get out of the abyss
It'll take a quick minute for your scars to heal
But you'll feel alive
Like, actually alive
Then you'll start to realize
And say to yourself
"Wow, thinking about negative things, what a waste of time!"
Then, later on, you'll read this poem again and say
"Wow.. this poem is actually kinda cringy"
Yup, but at least it's giving off good energy
Helping those who really need it
You know, the ones who want to end it

I've been there, but it got better
AND YEAH
PEOPLE SAYING THAT IS ANNOYING
seriously, I get it - but it's true
Don't end it now, you've got a whole life ahead of you
Who knows what awaits when you decide to continue
It could be a large barbecue
You love barbecues
Doesn't that sound wonderful to you?
No?
Well how about you having your own statue
Because you did something great
And you saw that statue
Because you decided to continue

Listen, some might say that  you've got value
When actuality, you're priceless
So don't waste it
And chase your dreams
You may never know
What things you'll  achieve
You know
The things in the future
Where it's brighter

I'm going to be honest here
You've got a choice
So do what thou wilt
And rejoice
But please
Believe in yourself
And you will succeed.

I've got no clue on what to do
Guess I'll make due
By talking to those who are doomed

Hey there person who is surely doomed
I hope you're feeling okay today
If not, then that's alright
Sometimes I wish I can fly away
But I look at what good I can bring on those days
And I hope you can too
Or at least give it a good o'l college try
Anyways, I hope you have a wonderful week
And please
Keep your head held high
I'm positive you'll succeed
Maybe not today
But someday.

This is a poem about you
and it goes something like this
Roses are red
violets are blue
I hate everyone
Except for you
now I know that sounds kinda harsh
Some might say a little rude
but seriously
You're so **** cute!

Death is a sad thing but I understand it's inevitable
and when I'll leave, I'll leave with a great big smile
because I know I'll be in a place with a little less evil
and if I have to reincarnate back, I'll make a deal with the devil
so I won't come back to a world so awful
it might be blasphemy, but it sure as hell better
then living a life so painful.

The moon is such a beautiful sight during the winter night
though I seem to cry in these cold months
I know everything will be alright
it's my comforting white lie.

I still run, I still hide
But there's no getting away from the light
The light that burns ever so deep
I just wanted to be free
But got caught by pride, now I'm terrified

I was told I needed a sacrifice
A sacrifice to stay civilized, how could that be?
A moment ago I was on the grind
Now I'm blind, blinded by those that be
They just sit there, smiling happily
I was stupid and deprived
Now I'm just another person whos been victimized
Terrorized
Utilized
I don't apologize, It's what I wanted
I'm now a god, totally idolized

Good things come to those who are wicked
So don't pray for me and don't demonize me
Remember, I didn't just fall
I leapt
So worship me
Maybe then you'll be my favorite
And become Illuminated.

Missed opportunities
Endless tragedies
Why is my life filled with such misery
I don't know who I am
Don't know what to be
I write poetry
But it isn't bringing me to victory

I'm meat-rotting at home
And can't wait to die alone
No more stress
No more worries
Just me
and the unknown
What a perfect existence
That would be.

"Do you remember that time when you did that thing,
that thing you did when you were king?"
"Of course I remember that thing I did when I was king,
but please, let's speak of anything but that thing."

"Ok, do you know that I know that my father knows about a king,
a king who died long ago by a slow buffalo with a nose like Pinocchio?"
"no, I didn't know that you know about your father knowing a king,
a king who died long ago by a slow buffalo with a nose like Pinocchios."
"Now you know!"
"now I know."

"How about-"
"No more, please."
"Aw, you're a cold sore like Louise."

Hey humankind, how are you feeling today?
Are you prepared for doomsday?
I hope so because it's almost time
Almost time for that great surprise

I know not all of humanity can see
But you all will eventually
Just think, no more misery
No more tragedy
Just the world living happily
Wouldn't that make you happy?
If not
Then you're no better than the Illuminati
You know, the ones who want tragedy
The ones who want misery
False flags every so often
What's 2, 977 dead people?
Whats a million dead people?
Billions? sure, they are corrupted
They don't care, they're just here to use you
Until you kick the bucket

I can go on and on all day
But I have a role I must play
So I'm gonna meet halfway
And say this
Cheers to those who are heading to the pearly gates
And cheers to those
Who are heading to hellish gates

I'll be sure to meet up with both groups
Not today, not tomorrow
But someday.

Walking through smoke and ashes
This is what I've become
No purpose, no conscious
Just pure madness

There are too many emotions honestly
I don't know what happened exactly
But deep sadness fills my body
Nevermind the anger in my mind
It's hard to figure it out, but it's making me crazy

I've been working out on how to fix this
But nothing has seemed to work
I've been devoured
So here I am, in the abyss
But I'll try my best
To keep positive because bliss
Bliss Is something I cherish.