In dreams we can be free,
As in life we will never be.
In memory's faded light,
As years pass they fade in the night.
Goodnight goodnight ,
For sweet dreams may be.

The end came gently
i must go out
The fog
*the fog is rising

~                       Flickering
                                                                                Fluttering
                                                Candle Flames

                                             As wind rushed by
                                            And cut like blades

                                              A shuttering kiss
                                             As deaths embrace
                                                                                 Flames
                          Flickering
                                                      Fell silent

I am the fool on the hill
*Watching the moonrise

Told of past dreams that lay deep forever,
True fear is deepest black a shadowed haze around me,
Yet lay it down for a moment so i can sleep easy,
And in the past where beauty sleeps,
Ill rap itself around me,
Though fear is near and black is night,
Ill sleep my baby dear,
So shed a tear the deeps are here ,
But hush my baby dear,
On longest day my way is done ,
The wind will rock your basket.

~                               Im never coming back
                               Why would i anyway
                The way you looked at me and ran away
                         As if your hair was all aflame
                      It made me wish you never came
                         So if your going to run away
                     Just tell me now and go your way

Its kinda disconcerting ,
The hole in the sky.
Darkness seems to slither in,
As beauty withered up and died.
The stars that once lit the night,
Are now just silent prayers.
See the only light in the sky,
Is that scarlet staring eye.
As many as there where once stars.
The monsters begin their waltz.
It scary the holes where demons come,
Within the hearts of men.

It was the ravens crow as it lit apon the remains ,that brought his head up through the blood and tears, darkest angel it looked through the veil,and laying back the darkness availed

~                  Where is my fair love
                   Who filled me with joy
                  And fed me her beauty
               Kept me well with her love
                    With eyes so green
              As the pool in the meadow
         So deep i could fall in and drown
   Yet death with her would not be so sorry
       Wrapped inside her warm embrace
       Better than living a thousand years
             And never seeing her face
   But not long ago her tree began to wither
               A darkness grew inside
              Pulling her love and light
        Leaving her withered and dying
     And when she passed her final wish
       Was to be buried in our meadow
            I can see from my window
             The land where she lays
     I planted a willow instead of a stone
                  And on it i carved
        "Lay me in meadows of green
                 Under skies of blue
                 Don't weep to long
             For ill always be with you"
      Her life was in trees and meadows
          Her life was of love and beauty
                I know she waits for me
               Where the water is sweet
             Where there air is of crystal
       At the end of the path we will meet
    Hand in hand we will walk into the dark

Its never enough
                               We always want more
From day to day
                                Where just looking to score
Yet once we've acquired
                                             The peak with our peers
Its on to the next thing
                                           Through all of our years
Its funny the hole
                                  That gapes in our chest
We scramble to fill
                                    But its never enough
Its easy to forget
                               That its not what we need
We always forget
                                To calm down and breathe
Reminding ourselves
                                       We'll have all we need
When the pillars falls down
                                                   Leaving no need to breathe
We will pass on
                                and have all we need

Further down the rabbit hole,
Is where i spend my time,
To get away from all the things,
That haunt me in my mind,
My mind it seems has gone on leave,
And has left me withering,
Still i hope that it will return to me,
Yet day by day all my things get up and walk away,
My broken thoughts my shattered dreams,
It may be i am a fractured thing,
Yet still i fight to return the light ,
That the wind did **** ,
Leaving only blindness,
Blind head blind heart
My shattered parts will mend,
For when love leaves the world ,
All hearts they are left cold.

There's an old saying;
Beware the man who fakes a limp.

But to all those who would fake a limp;
Beware the limp does not become part of you.

I feel it
               All of it
                             Everything
   All at once
                                                 Pain and hatred
                         Love and beauty
        War and death
                                                          Peace and prosperity
            It all fills me
                                     Sometimes
                    Its to much
                                                        And i feel
      My mind
                                        Begin to
             Tare at the seams
                                              And the tears
                                                           Roll down my face
         I have to recede
                               From myself
                                                      In hopes
                                    Of keeping
                               my sanity whole

~     Sometimes Its to much
*And i feel i may bleed to death of it

Time is a face on the water
Seemingly concrete
Until the waves come to wash it away

The patterns where random
At least at first appearance
On close inspection
seems there is something deeper
Through the tremble of blades
And the fettered veins
The street I'll cross
Throw up dueces
And dip

There is no right move,
No path to take,
To get away from the cell I've made,
I count my life in breaths until the moment of my death,
But until that comes all that is to be done,
Is to search for light inside my soul,
Ill strike a match to ignite the fire ,
That will burn inside my soul,
And in the glow i may finally know what ticks inside of me,
Goodnight to sorrow perhaps tomorrow will fill with joy,
There may be a place for me inside this soul,
I want it not for what i might receive,
But for something of worth i have to offer.

Some people believe
That dinosaur bones where put on this earth to
"Test our faith"
I find that highly disconcerting
That your main deity is running around in his spare time ******* with people
How do you sleep at night knowing that
you pray to a prankster god

Clocks winding down.
Things,
They fall apart.
The lights wink out,
One by one;
And spiders spin,
In the halls of men.

It's funny to build a tower
Only to play in the ashes
Three times the picture shattered
I'll gather the shards
And make myself a mosaic

You've a radiant smile
And gorgeous eyes
It appears your a sweetheart
Saying you love when I'm around
That I'm the life of the party
I'm not sure who your talking about
But if that's what you see
It seems you're flirting with me
I could be wrong
But maybe
I'll never know without action
So eyes closed I dive in

This reality
                     our existence
          Even for all the pain and anguish
                                       And all the violence and hate
                          Is still beautiful
Take time to appreciate the flaws
                       That makes the beauty all the more marvelous
Where only here for a moment
                            *So let us live before we die

Where do i go,
Send to the sun to kiss the moon,
Mornings and evenings coming to soon,
The splash of the spring with rustling leaves,
A gentle cascade of sun through trees,
Trickle down to wash over me,
Brilliant streams that float with debris,
Those simple truths astonish me,
A crippling wound a dying fiend,
The blood that creeps down,
Flows inside the tree,
And back we go to the birds and the leaves,
Around again to circle back,
Yet every time is new again.

Goodbye, with darkened eyes streaming.
Years slipt by, as seasons tried,
To wake me from my slumber.
From januarys warmth,
to the shiver of december.
She walked with me.
This i do remember.
Sweetest days,
To soon had come to wither.
The roses slowly shed their skin,
Leaving sweetness now remembered.
Hope blooms as spring thaws out the winter.
There are cracks in me,
Yes thats where the lights shines in.
So, goodbye my love.
I loved you because it was bitter,
And it was my heart.
But the stony earth of soul,
I till the loam and plant the seeds,
And watch love bloom from that soil.

Her skin smells of the petals of a winter rose,
That the years have turned to stone,
A brutal flower in rocky soil ,
That once was a heart ,
As fair as summer as winters never came,
But the waining of a life's moon,
Brought winter in feeling to soon,
The oceans of youth dried to deserts of age,
And her rosy cheeks now left lines on her face,
The echoes of beauty lost as evening falls,
As bright eyes left dimmed,
That beauty never to be seen again,
And laying down she sheds a tear,
To all the lost and forgotten years ,
When the taste was sweet,
Yet now left bitter and cold,
Oh how cruel it is growing old.

Reflecting patterns from sun on shade
Reflect on life and the choices we've made
Remember times in youths glade
And as it passed adults it made
As the lights pass from the days
we return to the ground we've laid

~  

                          Ranting and raving
                        Scrimping and saving
                  The words you hold in reserve
                        The breadth and width
                            Of words unsaid
                  Says more than you ever could
                           Waxing and waining
                           Your ever disdaining
                    The lines are writ on your face
                               I read between
                              to see to be seen
                The secrets you've kept in your heart
                     With the knowing and showing
              You can better understand who you are
                            The silence between
                              What you are now
                         And what you have been
                Is the silence that holds you from me.
                                              ~

There is sun on the leaves,
And birds in the trees,
Today they are singing with me,
A sweet melody of brightness and joy,
They think spring has come and the winter is running,
The snow all has melted the sun is abroad ,
Though the winter chill left small subtle scars,
Theres the tree that died when the winter came in,
And a man in an alleyway bottle in hand,
Now just a husk,
And even though living we begin to rust,
Yet still when i sing I'm reminded of spring ,
With the winters wind a running.

Its insidious
How it creeps in
****** dreams
There Stealing your children
An entire generation
Crippled and broken

Do you see what i see ,
The moon is on the hill,
The evening cries a melody,
The whipper will the chorus,
The symphony that sings to me of old forgotten fears,
And to my eyes it brings gentle flowing tears,
A goodnight dream a fantasy,
A lost reality ,
The days go by filled with time,
The seasons change yet i remain the same as ever was,
Through aged eyes the season fly through summer autumn spring,
And in the end the winter has become a part of me,
As i lay chilled up on the hill where i lay in peace,
Don't weep for me for you see ill live in memory.

i watched you die my love,
wither and fade,
as if you where merely smoke in a breeze,
and i was powerless to change,
so you blew away from me.
wondering if you where ever there at all,
a life, a lie, a roseless door

So life in pain, its my life from day to day,
My mornings greet me with agony ,my evenings filled with cold wounds throbbing, yet still I wake to face the day, even though tears stream down my face, few will see them,who would care, a broken young man with the thousand mile stare.

I was supposed to be somewhere...
But i don't know where.
All i know is i don't belong here.

In a darkened room
I whispered the evening blooming
Like a winter rose Or summer love
Here but for only a moment
And on waking
*It passed into dreams

****
As far as i can see
This can mean no good

~                           I am what you will be
                       After birth and death you see
                      Back to clouds and everything
                       Back to all the ones that leave
                     Comforting to have the thought
             Whether long or short ill go back to start

This
This is what you pay to love
Take it in
To watch it burn slow
Just a reminder sometimes
*It would be better to let it go

~               The light shines in the old window
                           Near the silent meadow
                      A crack runs through one pane
                       And the wood is dry and aged
                 See the motes swirling in the beams
                    That stream through the window
        There is a photograph though nearly faded to blank
                       A dog a boy and his parents
                     No one knows who they where
                            Yet they look happy
                      It seems they found life here
    But it has been many years since this cabin has known
      The sound of creaking as feet move across the floor
                     Or of children playing in the yard
               Its not but grass grown tall and rampant
              Slowly returning the house to the ground
      On the lee side rests a grave that once was carved
    But the wind and the weather has worn it nearly gone
                 A nexus of life grown bereft of man
                       Yet it seems no worse off
               Its going back from whence it began
         Yet still the moonlight fills the window at night
                   And dreams it dreams it dreams
                              Men come and go
                               Yet earth abides