Looking up at the moon
*My god she looks lonely

I wish i was not so dark,
Not The skin but in my heart,
Its always a midnight hue,
And in my heart there is a part that waits,
I wait for you.

Its easy.
Its easy to be wrong,
Its easy to fall,
But its in the gathering,
Where we become strong,
We build walls,
Our Hedges against the dark.

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                       Depression is strangling me
                          loneliness is killing me
                   The further i get the more i regret
                      And fear there is no way back
                     When there is no one to talk to
                                Nowhere to go
                      No one to love i feel so alone
                 Im so tired in body head and heart
                      No one to share myself with
                       Even when I'm with others
                             I feel so far away
                       We could be hand in hand
                And i fear i would still be galaxies away
                         No direction nor volition
                           Even though I'm alive
                              I feel dead inside

Have you seen my son
He was to return before the dawn
He told me that he loved me
But there was fighting left to be done
His eyes are hazel burning bright
His hair as dark as ravens night
that is perched on yonder tree
His croaks say that your son is gone
And again you will never see
But still the misty morn she walks
With crystals rolling down her cheeks
Cold and gone
is how she found the sun this morning

Beneath the lonely tree
In the barren field you see

Watch the summers light
As it gives over to night

There is a lonely star
That watches earth from afar

Disconnected through window pain

Inside looking out
Outside reflecting in

*See it to the end
Then start back
And begin again

It's funny that death
        Is the lock
Between the worlds

The wind expressed through dying leaves
         An overwhelming undertow a silent tide
               On the hill the girls mind has gone
                   Craving past memories burned deep
                      Desperately drowning in life's sorrow
                                See the scars in her eyes
                     The sadness she can no longer hide
              Gone are the days of 'I'm just fine'
       Now she just sits and stares
As the world goes by

~                      Where have they gone
                When you wake in the morning
         Forgetting they are lost to me as i am lost
                   Only ghosts and memories
               Picking fragments from the sand
       Trying to remember who i might have been
                   I know there will be dreams
                  Even though they have gone

~                           Its appears that you failed to hear
                                     The words i spoke to you
                     The chirp of crickets in smooth velvety night
                             Thats all i hear you've left me dear
                                     So here ill sit and ponder
                               Of many things the lights within
                                       Shall slowly rediscover
            So in my mind i may find the peace that i uncovered
                     I may sleep to dream to dream of starlight

I must go out,
The fogs are rising.
Do you hear the rain?
Do you hear the rain?
Its falling as i am.
I must go out.

Someday soon
  Ash and bone
We will be too

the light i saw from the corner of my eye,
many years gone from now,
a flicker fading into the depths of memory,
it could have been a face i saw in the window,
in the third place, above the looking glass,
where the moon lights the dark,
deep in my head

I must be moving on my dear,
The dawn is drawing nigh ,
And soon the sun will split midnight from the sky,
Another day some way has come ,
I must be moving on,
Tomorrow night a memory ,
Ill already be gone,
Years go by you wonder why,
I had to move along,
The way leads on,
Long and long ,
I must be moving on.

What can be read?
Without the reading.
Seen without the seeing.
Felt without the being.
Gone before the morning.
Lost long after mourning.

In this mortal coil...
I am entombed.
Breathing death.
Walking hollow.
    *Here today.
Gone tomorrow.

Ground down to the quick
*Hardly anything left of me

Goodbye to all my good friends and pals,
goodbye to all my ladies and gal's,
We sang the tunes that have gone silent by now,
With all the laughter and the pints that we downed,
Left not but a ****** an echoing sound,
through the bones of this graveyard our bodies laid down.

Go home
Go home they said
As if it were a punishment
*Home is where id like to be
Home is where my heart finds me

Detritus beside the road.
*What have we become?

We are born of blood and rain
*Heirs to madness and pain

I knelt at his side,
After the crash and ******,
Of metal screams and glass on road.
Now the grass stains my knees,
The tears flowing wild,
The refracted light on tears in lashes,
Was almost hypnotic.
Making me calm,
Even though blood covered,
And the same was coming in your tears.
Chest collapsed,
Your end is here.
I held his hand my little boy,
The last thing said ,
Was i love you dad.
I broke wild lost my mind,
My only son died in my arms.
Evening glare of setting sun,
Goodnight my son forever on,
And in my heart your forever young.

In the woods far from all men
There was a woman that lived in peace
With her dog and daughter made three
From time to time people would come for her help
She knew much of many things
And lived a life of light love and compassion
She was a healer
But some would say witch
And a day came that a child went missing
The villagers came to her but not for help
They decided that she used black magic to lure the child away
They burned her in autumn air at end of day
Standing elevated above on the unset pyre
Looking around as fire was kindled
She felt the lick of flames
Yet only hot for a moment then cold
Her daughter looking on as she uttered her last words
"This is what you pay to love
Im to be ash in the wind
And your to live with your sins"
She went out like a flame
Like a star winking out
the world was left darker
And a small heart left cold

There was a rumble in the west
As the sky opened
And the rains fell
The earthy smell that rose from the soil
These are the times
When I'm glad
To be alive and free
Oh rain
Baptize me in an earthly essence  
I hope when I'm laid gently in the ground
That the smell of new rain will follow me down

Ive been sent out ,
From the place where i have lived,
Now i live in a box beside a bridge,
The shirt on my shoulders the shoes on my feet,
These are the only things left to me,
I walk through this wasteland where it never snows,
The sun beat down and burned my clothes,
I still wish i had some things that I've lost,
Yet paying whats owed and owning the cost,
Is the price that is eventually paid,
And here now i stay kneel here and pray,
For things they must get better.

Well...
I guess i shouldve just stayed in bed

Some say the grass is greener on the other side.
Well it has to be.
For all my grass has died.

In the trees weaved through with breeze,
From dusty window watching ,
Last winters wind came blowing in,
And tears did streak the window,
Lightning rends the sky then mends atop the misty mountain,
As rain falls down and hits the ground feeding the desert carpet,
The spring has come the beauty stuns the light glints off the window,
Though i have gone ill still watch on as blooms across the meadow.

Dear Please turn to me
I would look on your face
One last time

I buried pook beneath the willow tree, for when the spring came he loved to sit and watch the blossoms falling, and in my heart he will stay my little man who has gone away.

If time is a face on the water
and we are a ripple in the ocean
We kiss the earth
We swim in strange waters
We wash up on blood stained sheets
and with a wail we walk again

Entropy becomes me
As i drift to sleep
*Fare well

There is a dream i dreamt,
A dream of home,
Of happy days and fair skies,
With easy laughs in love.

Blood flesh dust and bone,
Where i lived no longer home.
Wind tree bird and bee,
Now perhaps the world ill see.
Death death deep in stone,
Where my body turns to bone.
Bones to dust,
Dust to wind.
Life to death,
And back again.

I saw your face,
From the corner of my eye.
I turned to look ,
But you where not  there.
I had almost forgotten that it had been years,
But For a moment i felt you so near.
I went to see your grave that day,
I miss you buddy,
And I'm still sad you passed away.

I watched the sunset over Sonoran skies,
It made me glad to be alive,
Though i am in great duress,
And most of the time,
It feels i have nothing left,
No one that waits,
When i get home,
In all things i feel alone,
Its sad to think that everyone I've known,
Now calls the graveyard a home,
Its hard to live when they have died,
And sitting here i wonder why,
When oh when will be my time.

From the corner... dark.
All yellowed teeth,
 leering eye.
A thing designed..
to steal your mind,
And break it all to shards.
Then take what once was you,
and feast upon your pieces.

Death is a cosmic joke, the punchline.
Something we fear so much,
Yet its the second gift.
We are born into pain and madness,
As a lock fits the key,
Locked in our bodies till the death that sets us free.
With the dying of the light,
Comes another chance to be.

Id like just be direct,and tell you what i think,
I'm not for this being coy, and beating round the bush.
If you have an interest in me, let me know,
And if you don't well then let me go.
If you did it would make me grin,
And i might have a while to let you in,
I could get to know you, and you could do the same,
It could be greater than the sum of our parts.
But if your not that in to me and what we could be,
Just say yes or no,
And i will stay or i will go.

I suppose id say I'm a **** up
All the things I've tried
They all withered up
And died
I guess some people
Are just born to cry
Lie on the side walk
And slowly die

Doused
             in living fire
                                 I burnt to ash
                                                       From the ash
                                                             ­              Hope springs
                                                         ­                                        An eternal ring

She touched my heart
I followed her far
Felt like she was gravity
Couldn't help the pull in me

There is something broken in my head,
It kills the happy thoughts ,
It wants me dead,
And though i fight the dark within,
With every tooth and nail,
No matter how far i run,
it always will be there,
What do you do,
when your worst enemy is you.