Well...
I guess i shouldve just stayed in bed

My brother
In limbo

20 years
Of stasis

Someday
Freedom will be

Stay well

Abandon all hope ye who enter here.
Thats what she tattooed just above her *****.
Seems at least a little disconcerting....
Eh **** it.

I think today is the day i make a change,
For if i don't ill lose everything

Oh migraine
You are the ****** of the headache family

Leaving me trembling
Wishing only to lay in silent darkness

Looking up at the moon
*My god she looks lonely

Its never enough
                               We always want more
From day to day
                                Where just looking to score
Yet once we've acquired
                                             The peak with our peers
Its on to the next thing
                                           Through all of our years
Its funny the hole
                                  That gapes in our chest
We scramble to fill
                                    But its never enough
Its easy to forget
                               That its not what we need
We always forget
                                To calm down and breathe
Reminding ourselves
                                       We'll have all we need
When the pillars falls down
                                                   Leaving no need to breathe
We will pass on
                                and have all we need

I was supposed to be somewhere...
But i don't know where.
All i know is i don't belong here.

There was a rumble in the west
As the sky opened
And the rains fell
The earthy smell that rose from the soil
These are the times
When I'm glad
To be alive and free
Oh rain
Baptize me in an earthly essence  
I hope when I'm laid gently in the ground
That the smell of new rain will follow me down

It was the ravens crow as it lit apon the remains ,that brought his head up through the blood and tears, darkest angel it looked through the veil,and laying back the darkness availed

The energetic crackle
of lightning lanced down
Moments after the strike
and the streaked sky
Came the thundering rolls
Like grumbles from the grave
From at light already fled
Sleeping dreams yet to come
even if i haven't long
Ill sit and listen to the evenings orchestra

Away away,
Shes gone away,
No more days for us to sit and play,
Away away,
They've gone away,
Lost are the days we sat on the porch,
We watched the rain come to wash us out,
But away away,
The rain blew away and the sun began to shine,
And all those deep puddles are a memory now,
There are left and lost behind,
Away away,
Oh please wont you stay its sad that everything has to go away,
Today today,
Ill keep today in a jar by the window where my memory's lay,
Your face your face ,
Ill keep in its place deep in my heart where it always will stay.

Bring up the light , let the birds march in,
Singing tunes i cant understand,
The rain falls down, the clouds blow away,
I take my shoes off, to feel more,
The earth between my toes,
Kneeling on the ground ,
I feel connected, not to other humans,
But to everything with a heartbeat, everything with life force,
Realizing this makes me realize ,
The biggest things that happen to me are minuscule to scale,
Its only when i don't feel grounded that i feel alone,
I know it my body that tricks me into the corner,
I know that someday i will die,
And when that comes there is no need to cry,
I am with the birds that fly, i am my child's eyes,
I am the magic that come with the rain,
I am the cool summer day, i am sun on citrus trees,
I am you as you are me,
And when we die you will see.

In your veins you wear ice,
Fear brought death ,
And death sent sorrow,
Mornings whispers blew on till evening,
The basket brought bitter poison growing black,
And the weeping wounds grew midnight tears,
A thousand diamond shimmering rivers,
The streams that take you home,
There remains the autumn leaves,
A brilliant gift cast out to sea,
As we cascade to everything.

The sun is high ,
The air is hot,
There is no breeze,
Desert waste.
Looking for an oasis ,
A place of rest ,
Where i could lay my burden down,
Perhaps drink of cool clear water,
Yet if not that a speck of shade would do,
But all i see are the plains,
And the shimmering heat off the sand,
If rest cant be found,
Then perhaps only my bones will be found.

I was whole
                        Not broken
                                              Before my soul
                                                                          Took this body
                                                                                                      For its own

I wasn't always broken

In days of yore

I was bright and happy

Unfortunately that light

Made this darkness all the more

I saw her beauty by the pool
As wind caressed her cheek

The frawns of a willow tree
Shrouded her mystery

She listened quite intently
To the weeping of the tree

It was almost like it spoke to her
Through softly rustling leaves

Such beauty lay beside the pool
With evening in her hair

I wish i'd known how sad she was
to pass with the autumn air

Now she only lives in dreams
*And will always be there

Be the light.
Be the light,
So they can see.
Be the wind,
So they can breathe.
Be the mind,
So they can dream.
Be the son,
For them to love.
Be a father,
Who is strong and true.
Be the light,
That lives in you.

.                                                                               .
                           I am the forth
                                  The last
                             The unwanted
                               The mistake
           And all of my life it has seemed this way
          My brothers both where my fathers sons
               And i was always more like my mom
              Yet my sister is first in both their hearts
         Its like i had no chance right from the start
                Still I'm alive though no one cares
         They through me out to make room for her
              My sister was always horrible to me
               She left scars burned into my skin
            They never heal though i try to forgive
             My life it seem there's no point to live
   My flickering flame becomes dimmer and dimmer
                   the light fades from my eyes
                         As worlds turns grey
                  And i lay down to pass away.

Ground down to the quick
*Hardly anything left of me

A leaf in shadow
Blown gently down darkest path
Dancing with the wind

Goodnight goodnight
                              My sweet blue moon
                    Close your eyes
   You'll be dreaming soon
Goodnight goodnight
                           A last little kiss
           Before my boat sails
As i lose consciousness
                 A dream
                        An eye
             The cold midnight sky
        The moon setting softly
   With a gentle sigh
Goodnight goodnight

I suppose id say I'm a **** up
All the things I've tried
They all withered up
And died
I guess some people
Are just born to cry
Lie on the side walk
And slowly die

There is something broken in my head,
It kills the happy thoughts ,
It wants me dead,
And though i fight the dark within,
With every tooth and nail,
No matter how far i run,
it always will be there,
What do you do,
when your worst enemy is you.

~                       Flickering
                                                                                Fluttering
                                                Candle Flames

                                             As wind rushed by
                                            And cut like blades

                                              A shuttering kiss
                                             As deaths embrace
                                                                                 Flames
                          Flickering
                                                      Fell silent

There comes a time in some lives
For great change
A true metamorphosis
And hope for tomorrow
For mornings radiant glow
Believe waking will bring joy and not sorrow

Life before death
Love over hate
Kindness before rage
Peace over war
The lives we live
Are the choices we've made

Where do i go,
Send to the sun to kiss the moon,
Mornings and evenings coming to soon,
The splash of the spring with rustling leaves,
A gentle cascade of sun through trees,
Trickle down to wash over me,
Brilliant streams that float with debris,
Those simple truths astonish me,
A crippling wound a dying fiend,
The blood that creeps down,
Flows inside the tree,
And back we go to the birds and the leaves,
Around again to circle back,
Yet every time is new again.

Through forlorn eyes i watched days sit on the window,
Ticking of time slipped by,
Through time and time a seed to vine,
It grew above the lintel,
As days went past it grew so vast,
The ivy grew over the door,
From young to old from hot then cold,
We are born in the morning and pass in the evening,
In the great sunset of life,
We may lie and deceive for what we achieve ,
In the end a pillar of sand,
We all make our circles ,
Some large some small,
But in the end its the beauty that we make of it all,
That will step with us into the gentle last goodnight,
As we close our eyes no pain don't cry,
As i die with a gentle sigh my light will slide into the evening.

Bathe in waters sweet
*To wash the pain from me

Watching liquid light caress the night

Sitting near beauty
Yet worlds away

How can we be close enough to touch
And still feel a million miles from you

~              I woke early one morning
                  Turned to her and said
                      Irene i love you so
            But i just have to let you know
          The things you do are killing me
           Even though it seems real slow
                You say that you love me
               And you'll never let me go
If thats true why are you as cold as winter snow
           A queen of ice on a throne of bone
         The winter palace you call your home
               Unfortunately i hate the cold
          And cannot live on thorn and bone
                      so it occurs to me
            That you seem like a winter rose
               Beauty for the looking glass
                    But not for me to hold

~                         Where's the me as i am too
                 The red The green The brown The blue
                       Broken clocks the ticking stops
                          All above our chimney tops
                     Mantle brown yet greyed with age
                    On it we keep the lives we've made
                        Earth and ash as dust in bone
                        Where we live we call it home
                      The place we hide inside our lies
                          Reside today its slow decay
                       Tomorrow dreams of yesterday
                       Watch the sun with mystic hues
                 The red the orange the green and blue

~                               Im never coming back
                               Why would i anyway
                The way you looked at me and ran away
                         As if your hair was all aflame
                      It made me wish you never came
                         So if your going to run away
                     Just tell me now and go your way

Through his smile
*I see an empty soul

Give me one more shot of whiskey
And one more cigarette
Then i can leave this place
a pretty happy man

The light is slowly fading from the sky.
There is the steady hum of cars passing by.
The birds are tuning up for their evening symphony,
And as a plane flys by it takes the lead.
A dog snuffles around the corner looking for something to eat,
Or perhaps a bunny to chase then she looks at me.
A beautiful evening no rain autumn is coming in.
Another day is done again with evening creeping in.