I get tired smiling
Facing them beaming
Acting like a ray of the sun
Feeling like the tear of the clouds

Just wanna burst in tears
Just wanna shout my fears
But they need my beaming smile
And not my crying eyes

It slowly swallows me
Piece by piece being veiled
In the darkness I wish to see
In a place where no light may never come

I fear the light
To see what I wish to never see
The other side of life
A glimpse I never saw

I feel safe in the dark
Surrounded by a black veil
Unable to see through
Infinite darkness

I'm completely exhausted.
The fights, the screams, everything.
It makes my ears ring.

I cry myself to sleep.
Wishing I could turn back time.
When i was nothing but a child.
But I am stuck in this timeline

I gave you my everything
But all you gave to me was nothing
I promised you endless things
But now my sacrifices are just nothing

For I see you everyday
Wasting your life away
With the person I hated the most

Through thick and thin
I went through hell and back
My god what is my sin?
Why do I feel this pain?

You screamed "I hate you"
Yet I whispered "I love you"
I kept all the burden inside
Hid it and locked it forever
Within me it will reside

I tried to understand you
But you never gave me a reason to
All you cared for was yourself
Always your needs and wants
Never once of mine

All I need was you
All I wanted was you
But then you left me
And who was torn to pieces?
Nobody else but me!

While you were out there partying
I was in my room crying
While you were dancing the night away
I was slowly fading away

You had a drink in your hand
I had a razor on mine
Liquor was spilled on you
Blood was oozing from me

I am now waiting
For the darknes
It will soon engulf me
For I am long exhausted.

Maybe it was your smile that caught me
A typical smile that could light up a room
The one that awakens the butterflies
The one that makes the sparks fly

Or maybe it was your beautiful eyes
Those orbs I could get lost in
It twinkles likes a star in the night
It mirrors your very soul

Or maybe it was your laugh
The one that is so loud and contagious
My favorite melody of all
I could listen to it all day

Or maybe it was your voice
It is of an angel's
You love talking and I love it
It soothes me everytime I hear it

Infinite reasons could be written down
But all I know is one thing
I love you and not just a part of you
It is your whole being I am inlove with

She has her wings open
But it looks broken
She wanna fly so high
Up in the sky

Is something stopping her?
Is something bothering her?
Why can't she?
Why won't she?

Look into her heart
And you'll know what is her desire
True love she seeks
She sees it, but never sees.

There she stands
So pure and golden
Like the ray of the sun
She shines so bright

Her skin so white
It has never been touched
It blinds my eyes
Just like how she blinds my heart.

Was it worth it
When you ripped my heart in half
Like I was just a mere trash
Something you could throw behind

Was it worth it
When you crushed my whole being
Like I was nothing but scratch
Something you could dispose of anytime

Was it worth it
When you left me after all I did
Like I was nothing in your life
Something you could get rid after some time

Was it worth it
When you said you didn't love me
Like I wasn't your friend for a long time
Just someone who was behind the scenes

Was it worth it
When you watched me fade
Like a lifeless soul slowly drifting away
Just something you no longer care about

Was it worth it
When you saw me crying and begging
Like a person seconds away from death
Just something you stared at until the end

Was it worth it
When you saw me lifeless as ever
Like a person who lost a soul
Now something you could never see