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Matthew Harlovic Nov 2018
ive been depressed for years
the flex is weird

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Feb 2016
in a joking manner, he pulled my leg
out from under my mother’s womb.
sundered. i cried out like thunder,
beautiful view. magnificent desolation.
admiration flattered my mother’s frustration
with a standing ovation in a bedside vase.
faced with foretaste, greeted by starvation,
i was placed in my very own space station.
a part of a constellation and considered a sun,
i wondered just where i was from.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Jan 2019
I didn’t intend for the end to come near
then again didn’t I get us here?

The man in the mirror ain’t the man he appears
He vanishes after a couple of beers

Resentment is one of my qualities
so don’t ******* expect an apology

I’ll probably waste my time all day
wishing for you to call me

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic May 2015
To the naked eye,
the beehive cluster clutches
kin of lunatics.

© Matthew Harlovic
Try to decipher this one!
Matthew Harlovic Mar 2014
Dwell not in the past
nor dwell on what is to come.
Concentrate right now.

© Matthew Harlovic
Haiku
Matthew Harlovic Sep 2016
i hid cigarette
cartons from
my parents as
well as yours
because i knew
it was what you
wanted because
it was what they
abhorred.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Oct 2014
Cast [kast, kahst]
1. v. To throw or hurl something; fling: We cast our desires or ambitions into a river called life. 2. v. To shed or discard: We cast away our struggles and fears which eventually subside into the shallows of our shores. 3. n. A slight trace of color; a tinge: Although the cast of the sunrise upon the river’s edge leads us to a new-fangled dawn, it takes us away from our fate set by the current. 4. n. The form in which something is made or constructed; the arrangement: The cast of the river’s scenery is stowed up as memories so we can reminisce on the features later in our lives. 5. v. To twist or turn; warp: The river casts into various routes that carry us to our travel’s end.
Matthew Harlovic Oct 2014
Curiosity
it kills and conceals the keep
Generosity
it fills the mind up with cheap
talk, think cautiously

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic May 2015
You spread lies around town like a dandelion.
Don’t try to hide it, it’s written in your iris
There’s no need to cry about the crisis now
because it’s all crystal clear like a cirrus cloud.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Nov 2014
Two-sides, one mind, it isn’t easy to think.
Don’t blink but lip sync the lies fed from your shrink
The missin’ link is tied to the rails of our genes
Tinker with the braille when you rip apart the seams
I’ve seen kingdom come but it's visits are brief
Pay mind to the thief, small talk isn’t cheap
I keep to myself and that man in the mirror
Sharin’ one stare, my character is clear
The gears are still spinnin’ jenny, well enough
Peers leave in a feedin’ frenzy call it tough love
When push comes to shove we rid our resistance
Flexin’ up the shell, tryin’ to counter inhibitions like...

Flight or fight, it's a rite of passage
so you better be able to manage
Flight or fight, it's a rite of passage
so you better get those loose ends fastened

Just give me a second to make my amends
Anchor it down, bound it by fisher’s bend
Let’s pretend that your “friends” are backin’ you up
But the sum of one sums up your lack of trust
Yup, don’t dilly-dally, tally up some bums
If yah in the blind alley at the end of the run
Well you better have a pair of iron giant lungs
For if and when the worst is yet to come

Flight or fight, it's a rite of passage
so you better go and grab a bandage
Flight or fight, it's a rite of passage
so tell me what the damage is kid

© Matthew Harlovic
A little ditty about the fight or flight response. Read it here or better yet, check it out at: soundcloud.com/outtatune-1
Matthew Harlovic Aug 2016
she colors the cosmos
with brushstrokes
on my brain
as acrylic paint
plunges into my vein.
did you paint me insane?

© Matthew Harlovic
...i'm drawn to you
Matthew Harlovic Oct 2017
if you cannot read it,
you should not eat it.

© Matthew Harlovic
Aspartame, Acesulfame K, Saccharin, Sucralose
Matthew Harlovic Aug 2016
Piece by piece
the paint will peel.
Chiaroscuro,
tell me what’s real?
I touch, I cut
but I feel nothing.
In time, I’ll heal
but for now
I’m blushing.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Nov 2014
I drink coffee
                  She prefers tea
           together we make the perfect

               buzz.

© Matthew Harlovic
A poem in response to Maddie Henssler's poem "Happy buzz buzz".
Matthew Harlovic Sep 2016
i think* you want
the best for me,
therefore I am
and will always
try my best for you.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Sep 2016
this morning i watched
a cigarette drop from
the pocket of a man
onto the floor of the
train. it rained earlier
and bits of dew and
dirt drained into the
cracks, but there lay
the cigarette intact.
i could have reached
for this man and told
him how he misplaced
the nail to his coffin,
yet i said nothing and
let him off coughing.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Jan 2017
forgive me for my outburst,
i have a tendency to run wild
so from here on out, i'll live on
the outskirts of my inner child.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Sep 2016
will the birds sing or sit in a string discussing theories on a wire?
too tired for repercussions from prior trials by fire,
so they pile the pyre and sing for the choir
while the liars catch wildfire to a dire count of 4-5-1
by a child with a drumstick instead of a thumb in his mouth.
you can hear the percussion through his stomach for crying out loud.
are the parents proud of this juvenile behavior,
have they vowed to reconcile with its nature?
are they beguiled by how it reviles exile
but every now and then goes the extra mile?

© Matthew Harlovic
// burn // baby // burn //
Matthew Harlovic Oct 2016
you reminded me
we have to eat a peck
of dirt before we die
but why on earth save
the pie in the sky?

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic May 2018
I don’t go out
much anymore.
I sabotage dates
and relationships.
I like to tell my friends
you started all this ****
but that’s just another
creation myth.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Mar 2016
I’m a cry wolf
wrapped in steel wool.
I fell head over heels
for a part of the whole.  

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Oct 2014
There’s no “I” in noose but there’s one in noise

© Matthew Harlovic
cya
Matthew Harlovic Jun 2018
cya
I’m sorry Dad, I probably won’t be around next year.
Once I graduate I think I’m gonna be out of here.
I only say I think because I’m never really sure
where I’m going and whether I’ll endure.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Mar 2016
Neither man nor machine,
these beings; being pipe dreams
were conceived by the silver screen.
Unseen by the naked eye,
they have taken you and I
by surprise like a tractor beam.
Neither the factor of genes nor factories
nor anthropological capacity.
These beings, being faculties of thought,
predetermine the preface of the plot.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Jul 2016
through all the good times,
all the bad, all the happy
and the sad. i’m glad to say
you’re da best friend
i've ever had.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Jan 2017
perhaps if we bring our fates
together we will create
a date with destiny.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Apr 2018
I hope the flowers arrived on time.
I was never much of a “punctual type.”
Though I function, alright especially on the mic
when the speakers bumping something awfully tight.
Got me jumping in my sneakers reaching greater heights
to locate the light bright enough to melt glacial ice.
But twice I’ve been in the inferno wishing to return home
like clicking my heels will take me outta this turmoil.
I learned the most loyal friends are embroiled to the very end—
despite how the road bends. But it takes work on both ends
to make amends when things are blown out of proportion.
I should’ve known endorphins would’ve played my *****
with the sweetest melodies that I should’ve recorded,
but I didn’t have the courage.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Jun 2018
Dear Sophie,

Most these
nights have been lonely
so I wrote these poems
in hopes that you'd phone me.
I mean, if only.
I would take your hand in holy matrimony
because you've shown me how to be myself.
I know it sounds cliche but I used to keep to myself
like one little incident and my self-esteem might melt.
But now I see myself in a greater view.
I don't beat myself up no pay-per-view.
So I have to thank you for all that you do
You lifted my spirit when I was feeling blue.
Peace to my depression like see ya later dude.
I used to be a mess but then I met you.
You swept up the pieces
when you didn't have to
and I thank you for that.

Sincerely,
Matthew

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Nov 2014
oh* Don’t you Ever be
Afraid hush That is Him

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic May 2015
Ever since my birth,
her stretch marks
have caught my age
on sycamore skin.
If you were to
peel back her bark,
you could pin point
the years she spent
nurturing her saplings;
two fair oaks,
pitted like pine needles,
that ***** her fingers
every so often.
But she does not
weep like a willow,
she continues to give
her life away to raise them.

© Matthew Harlovic
A Mother's Day Poem...
Matthew Harlovic Nov 2014
I don’t deserve
to have someone so
deserving of another

© Matthew Harlovic
Just thinking.
Matthew Harlovic Oct 2014
I’m not at all different
I’ve never made a difference

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Feb 2016
If three-dimensional objects
cast two-dimensional shadows,
then fourth-dimensional objects
cast three-dimensional shadows.
If this hypothesis holds true, then
we are the shadows of the fourth dimension.

© Matthew Harlovic
Try to wrap your head around that.
Matthew Harlovic Oct 2016
she's not a damsel,
she doesn't need help.
she lets her hair down
for herself.

© Matthew Harlovic
as you should.
Matthew Harlovic Nov 2016
i often wonder where the time goes
when i watch my calendar
like a slide show.

© Matthew Harlovic
and yet the show must go on.
Matthew Harlovic Feb 2019
tell me you fear me
tell me I scare you
tell me what I wanna hear
and maybe I'll spare you

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Aug 2015
If the world revolved around you,
injustice, insufficiency, and insolence
would get stuck in your dreads.

© Matthew Harlovic
Short but sour.
Matthew Harlovic Nov 2014
I’ve been babbling in Babylon with all the scholars
dabbling with dreamers,
thinking like a toddler,
mocking the monsters
dancing at the masquerade
and walking with the wickens waiting for my wake.
I’ve been rambling in Rome,
hanging with the hippies,
skipping some stones,
gambling with gypsies
getting dizzy with the drunken monks,
putting pity parties on for the pacified punks.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Oct 2014
Dreads are not dreadful
They are jaw-dropping deadly
Drop-dead. Looks can ****.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Nov 2014
Raindrops
will drive
you *wild

if they hit
the same
spot

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Oct 2016
though all things in this mundane world
are conditioned, subject to cessation,
and objects of impermanence,
i will be more than happy
to suffer on the behalf
of inevitability.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Sep 2019
You profess to value all life
so you don't strike to ****
You hype the truth, and
gorge on the fear you instill

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Sep 2016
you straddled
my mind with
the way you
drew a narrow
line between
what i knew
about you and
what i have
come to find
but you raddled
my body with
addle-brained
designs, never
once drawing
one of a benign
kind.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Nov 2016
i write to remember all
the memories we made
because without them,
i'm afraid you'll fade
within the next decade.

© Matthew Harlovic
eve
Matthew Harlovic Aug 2016
eve
i met my
better half
on adams
yet, she left
my side like
an atom.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Apr 2016
In existentialism, despair
is often described as a
loss of hope in response
to the breakdown in one or more
of the defining qualities of one's
self or personal identity.
As a verb, hope is perceived
as an expectation of fulfillment
but if I were to hope without expecting
fulfillment, am I the one in despair still?

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Sep 2016
the day we first met,
you manifested your will
to depart from me.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Sep 2016
i like my women like i like my flowers,
down to earth and she was rooted to the notion.
she sprouted out from under the cracks of paper-white pavement
with tulips curled to the cosmos greeting morning glories
as graciously as angel horns. i was hung up on her like a hollyhock.
she was sweet, fragrant like a balm, mellow like a mallow but she
turned a new leaf and called out to me like coral bells.
i rose like a plume of smoke with whirling butterflies in my belly.
i looked into the iris of her baby blue eyes and asked,
“what’s up buttercup?”
she took a baby’s breath
and “forget-me-not”
stemmed from her bearded-tongue.
though knowing she spoke
out of honesty and passion,
i raised my candytuft cuff
and bade her a clarkia.
farewell to spring

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Mar 2016
you made me promise
to never lose hope
but who would’ve
thought you were
the one to lose it.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Jun 2018
You make me happy,
You make me sad.
But all in all,
you're still my Dad.

© Matthew Harlovic
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