Fairytales builds the hope seen on children's eyes
Those stories control their minds, filling it with lies
If I learned one thing from my childhood
It is to stop believing, it doesn't cause any good

In order to have a good flight...
You first need to know falling
So if you're flying freely at the sky...
Failing won't cause fear, darling

We always wonder about the inevitability of the universe
We always think of it's extensions or infinity
Different theories rising but nothing prove anything yet, nonetheless
What if all of these are just illusion, how great is the feasibility?

We tend to make promises even though it doesn't fit
We don't care on what it can do to the situation we're in
It can hurt, break someone, or double up the heat

But NO

*We don't care if those promises can even be real

I hate how I care so much about the future

Every exam that I took made me afraid of failure

I just want something satisfying to happen to me

Knowing the feeling of satisfaction of what I am gonna be

I believe in the things that people like me says

I don't trust them anyways

Believing is different from trusting

*But in order to trust, you need to start believing

Life is just a game*
You are only known by other's through your character's name

The way it will go
Will depend on how much you'll know

So maybe we should all try to understand the lessons
Use it for good and uncover life's real reasons

I'm afraid of promises
Words like "never" or "forever" just ends with mess
I think words like that shouldn't be used
Especially if the promise will eventually loose

I can feel the wind
I can see the leaves
I can hear the whispers*

The emotions it brings
The truths I am seeing
The lies I am hearing

No other can feel
Neither can it see nor hear
The focus is me
It is what I see

The feelings
are tempting
My sadness
is addicting

I can't really understand
why?
But I thank God when I
cry

My depression
It kills
My happiness
It hurts*

At first..
The pain will feel like a cage
But at the end of the day
It is what I embrace

I've been wondering
Why do stars make people hoping?

What I mean is..
Even a little tiny star feels like a perfect bliss

Do they know the fact that they should know the most?
The stars they're seeing is actually a ghost?

A ghost of a past that can't come back
So the hope they're wishing isn't really with luck

Life is a short exemplary ride
Goes on and on until you lose sight

Like a train with railroad signs
Warning but offers a tempting fun

Will hurt like a *****
But, at the end, you'll surely miss

You'll never be sure of what it brings
But why not try and fly with wings?
Try it now, you won't regret a thing
You know yourself, you want to know the feeling

*So just tuck your belt
And let the wheels be set

I am a choice
We all are actually..
Even the tiniest specie

But I've always wondered though
Why are there second, third, or so?
We will feel much better if it's not like that
Every one of us would appreciate that a lot

I am a last choice living proof...

Not even second,
Always the last
In the meantime
I just hope everything would pass

Been thinking ..
Would I really express this feeling?

Well...
We've already started
So better just let it go and be written..

Before this had happen
I didn't know the little hole will grow and I'll be weaken
I've known you as a sweet little admirer
A boy that I thought will make my life better

With you
I'd experience almost all the "first time"
It's great before because I  thought our feelings really rhyme

But the world seems like they see it in the other direction
People judging, thinking what we're doing was a wrong notion
I don't care at first of course
But..
When my father told me what I'm feeling is wrong
I've rethink and had second thoughts if this should be stopped
If our love will stay forever or it will eventually rot
But you'd confirmed we're not doing something wrong
Cause you confronted and told him your love for me is strong

And you know?
Because of that my heart leapt with joy
Your love felt like it really replaced the void
In my heart which would really explode
If you ever lived me alone in the cold

Days, months, years passed by..
We've been together for a very long time
A perfect relationship, they'll say
And I won't deny, I'd also have thought it in that way

But seems there is something wrong
I've noticed the changes
When I seek your help and start to cry
You'll just look at me with a sigh
A sigh that started the spaces you've built
To ruin the things we've created with it

It is not accidentally built though
The barrier?
I've heard that you really do need space
From my dramas and doesn't need to see me a few days

That is the time..
The time I knew it would all stop
The time I knew you're already tired
The time I discovered you've found the girl who is really right

I've loved you.
Yes I do
Until now I can't deny
The feelings I have between you and I

You know the secrets..
The things I've shared with you even before we met
I'm not afraid though you'll spread and tell it to others
Because I know..
Even if you've stopped caring..
You can still be my sweet little friend

Now that I've had released it
Thank you dear friend for being there
And I want to tell you I'm not mad
At you or her, I'm not holding any grudge

As life goes..
It is normal that people change
It is normal that the feelings will fade
What isn't good is if you've not done anything
To change the things you know that doesn't have a meaning

Thank you

Little boy with a bit of hope
Just a bit ...
Everybody knows

Dreams filled his teeny tiny mind
Creating imaginations of different kind
Doesn't really understand what other says
Enjoying life with a blurry mess

Been a friend to a *weak fragile girl
Her tears were catch for it seems to hurl
Fakes in those times were epidemic
Lucky for her, he doesn't know how to mimic

They'd grown and grown as time passed by
Created memories they'll remember for life
Not only memories but also dreams
Dreams where both of them can be seen

But the boy seemed to loose it
A news from a far seems to hurt him
A pain that normals can't contain
But he knows how to keep it restrained

Not even a hint ...
The girl knows nothing

Until one day

Struggles hit the girl
Weak and fragile
but, learning from him,
Tried to be strong and also restrained

The day ended
And, as usual
The girl and the boy, they both parted ways
Saying goodbye but they know they'll meet again **someday

It's starting
It's killing
Again and again
It's hurting

Circling inside
Mixing alive
Can't settle
No one can meddle

It's numbing
Blood dripping
Open flesh
Guilted mess

Tears stopping
Head rising
Masking savior
I'm a survivor

Heard a new one
Another ***** you found
But you said she's already perfect
Times you spent are totally worth it

You said you don't regret a thing
Only the times when we're still one being
No problems and awful fights
Your relationship with her is your source of life

But tell me why
Every time you sleep you always dream of you and I
And in the middle of the night in your waking
My name's the one you utter and look at her, hurting

You might make the whole world believe
You might be able to make her feel relieved
You might kept your secrets from being revealed
You might be able to create the lies be weaved

But

No matter how much you try to pretend
No matter how much you think you and her are meant
I can see it in your eyes
You're feelings for her are just in disguise

Frightened
from the start till the end
Both felt same love, forbidden but still love
Love
the best feeling i have

Bearing it, Feeling it
Trying to be the same
Perfect for each other
but secrets should remain

Night and day
It feels like forever
Invisible but precious
Unchangeable and unexposed

If the world gave us a chance
Our world won't be apart
Barrier will fade
Uncovered inside our heart