Ek zindagi hain farheen ki
Aur hain dus mod
Farheen ki khoish raktay hain sabhi

Par farheen ki khoish hain koun
Souchtay chalogay tuh shyad smajaogay
Milingay sabhi tumay
Par phir bhi farheen ki khoish raktay phirogay
Dhondna chatay tuh dholo
Har gali har mouhala

Milingay haar koi par
Dil ki baat hain dil tuh sirf
Farheen kay pass hain

There  is no light
That can take my darkness away

I was born  with a  bright heart
But like a night to every day
My light was taken away

There  is no sun to my moon

Loved by the stars
I found my world

You aren't the caged bird who dreams of the sky
Instead you have the whole sky
It's simply that some fellow beings have made you believed that you aren't capable of the sky .....



False for every being that made you feel any less that who you truly are,
Which is
Not the caged bird
Instead
THE CONQUEROR
Of the SKY

In the process of shielding
My heart
I broke it
Thousand more time
Before anyone could ever do

I find myself searching for something
That can comfort me
Some old memories
A scarf and piece of paper
Searching something that is dead inside
And debating whether it is good to let go or to hold on ,

I find myself searching for memories that I'm proud of and some that I regret.
I think of it everyday, I think about you everyday .

Somewhere deep down I know your happy but still  I deserve to miss you,
And to love you for all .

Do I ever get a second chance
To things i could never have again
To love i  could never feel again
Is guilt and regret that necessary
Why can't I just get
A second chance

In the night full of stars
I found you shinning bright.
I wonder and wonder,
Is it real or a dream
Hard to believe yet I found love in your eyes it's so surreal.
I wonder whether to kiss you or just stare in your eyes forever.
Whether to end this moment or make it shine.
Choice is easy yet difficult,
But I'm ready
I'm ready to choose your happiness over mine.
I'm ready to let you go
To let you find your peace and to let you find your  home which you would never find in me...!!
Just for you..

Just another day were people say that I mean the world to them
And fail to prove it

Just before I thought of you
I was happy
Happy on my own
But then you made me feel
Whole again
Which never lasted
Illusion and too good to be true
But even with my last sense of life
I still wish you happiness and
Nothing less
Maybe one day
I will be courageous enough
To be back again
With my whole self
On my own again

I know what I feel is never worth
There is no-one that cares
I don't mind but still
But still
I expect
I know things can never be positive for me
Like how my anxiety can never let me
Feel the real joy of happiness
Without having a thought of pain
But just like my
Poetry
I have a life
Full of imperfections
And I embrace it all

Here I write again
Something that I can describe
Maybe
It's time
Maybe not
There is always a void
A piece trying to find its place

Is it too much for a sad stone to
feel loved
And not stained
Here I write again

Stone never felt stained
It was the world that
Labelled it's cracks
As stains
And never did the stone
Once complain
Here I write again

Faith let the stone in pain
And each day stone cursed it's pain
But the destiny played it's game
Stone learned it's way
And accepted the pain
Now the world had to stop it's game
And Here I write again

And here my words have stopped
Flowing
Everything seems still
And the way I feel
Is just through trails of
Sadness from my eyes
Flowing
And here my world stands still

Often times is just my mind
Whenever I try
To hold and control
My heart breaks flows
All its stored emotions
But now it's just teary eyes
And a pillow to soak

And all I have left to say is that my words have stopped flowing

My  scars were never seen
Everything this world has ever given me
Was pain
The moment when I was used
For someone's so  called pleasure
I was dead inside
They took my  soul
And left me empty
But it's wasn't end to my pain
It was the beginning
Everyday i was  called with names
That I never thought was me
When i tried to speak up
And the only  time I thought
Someone atleast someone will listen to me
I got more scattered as Thier isn't any soul who understands me
Every trial I had to explain and justify myself
As if I'm the criminal and asking for justice was my biggest crime
I had to tell why I was wearing what I was wearing
I had tell why was I alive and not dead
I had tell how it felt as if my pain wasn't seen
****** me  everytime with thier questions
And all those eyes burning on my face
Asking me
Why was I in the position I never wanted to be

But  with the power of sunshine
I fought
Because giving up was never an option
Fighting back was
And I did it
I did everything to see them where they are now
I did it for myself and for all the girls of my nation

Is there any remedy for sadness
Or do you have any medicine For my tender heart
With all my flowing emotions
Can I ever get the grip
Will all my tears find their worth
Can't this world provide me a  home
Or  atleast a sense of belonging ,
That I'm longing for
Will I ever get to taste the flavour of comfort
I know i have way too many things to think about
But in the end it's just me and my everlasting pain
No way to end

Sometimes I wish I could write a
Happy poem
But all I do is  think and wander
Around the empty cells of mind
Where everything appears grey
My mind is just full of thoughts that
Are either sad or regrets
Sometimes I really wish I could write a happy poem
A poem that can give a smile to someone
A poem which can be happily touching
I really wish I could write something like that
And just not this grey  matter