Nice guys finish last
I loss hope on love
I miss nights of holding you close
A heart beat to feel.such warmth
I look  & I wounder
Where is my queen
I am so far gone
Is my heart too broken
I can't live in past
I look for today
My pain over takes me
I wounder where is warm my hand to hold with endless walks under the stars

I battle  myself
A war  that never seems be won
I give in to my own thoughts
I am trapped  inside  myself
I was just second class in  your life
You will never  understand me
So stuck in past as load  your gun
Not with bullets  but mistakes i made
The words cut my skin
Blood pours out on to floor
My tears mixed in
I look up for hope
see  only image you wanted to see
I wish i could be more in your life
But  i can't  be sheep if want become the wolf

I  have so much I want to say
But not sure how to put it into  words
My feelings out on paper
But my mind  is blocked
I write  but then I take  it away
I  judge myself  while  I tear myself apart
I start over  as my thoughts pour out
Still  thinking to myself
I want to touch people with my words
The negative  cuts in deep
The voice telling me  
Not to write and  just give up
who will I be

The feeling of  writing  
Overtakes me  
Being able  to
Give yourself to   the world
let  your words  tell the story
At  times I feel  free
I open myself up
And hope you can see me for being me.

The lies leave hole in your soul
The way you look at the world in 2d
Blinds the image you can't  see
all i u care of is green
You are so lost  and can't  come back
I can't  hope but you won't  change
You will never understand me or  see good in me
I can't walk same path
I fall but i get back up
My heart  ready for sun
I leave negative behind
The words flow threw my soul
Which leave this story untold
We live for today but see the path still goes  on

I wish I could change
The time will stop
I feel alone left in world no one understands me
I am me  this who I am
My heart bleeds I  keep going
The tears stain my skin
The hope is where the stars  shine
My cloudy day looking for my sun
I feel in moment  my heart becomes more cold
The warmth is of another
A  hand to hold as we walk
I am just complex heart looking for the warmth of another
The brick walls are there for reason

I  love you
I miss  your  voice
Way you laughed  at my jokes
Made me forget  everything
My heart was so full
Your beauty was  another wonder of  the world
I hope  grab this  gold ring
But woke up it was all dream

There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are the messengers of overwhelming grief, of deep contrition, and of unspeakable love.
Washington Irving

The time is now
A chnage is need
My heart is bleeding
Where is the path
My mask so broken
I fallen but keep getting back up
i want be better
i want see the sun threw the dark clouds
I can't  give up
I been threw too much
A man alone on his path lost  but still looking for change.

I miss the feeling
The head on my heart as we lay
Is my heart so torn
I feel like my heart needs be reborn
Can you fix me?
I miss the random texts
The kind words that stuck to my soul
A thought of hope, but always crushed with the past
A battle that seems that can't be won
i am just man with few words lost in todays world

Life and death on this cold world
The idea what  we could of done
The moments that were once were
I wish i could  went back changed my foot steps
the sound of nothing but my heart  beat
I wonder where this life will go
The dark moment that  will leave it finger prints
I wish i knew  is this all what it should be
Life and death that dance under the moon light

I must be living in my world to think things  will change. I  keep love and  hope in  my heart but  i see now it was just my mind playing with my heart.  I  wish i could be that guy in your life make you smile. I could put  back together  your broken heart but  in end  you use to it broken.  i smile when i think  the world slows down but is this lost image in my head . I my eyes  never been open  i was lost in your beauty . The beauty  is my weakness  that is like cancer to soul.  I don't  think people see way i do but i need more then PHD for this work.

So quick with words
A lack of logic
There was no words of love
She lives in past
My face full of dirt
A life with no path
A mask full of lies
My heart always torn
So fast to run away
the truth that were lost among the days
The story that need be told
My hopes torn and ripped
So lost in her own thoughts
The ties that were burned
Words left unsaid but never forgotten
The negative is her cancer
I wish u knew  the person that is you

They say diamonds are forever
You are just a Ray of sunshine
A understanding mind with a heart of gold
The up and downs but always saw  good rather then  the bad
The words flow from soul as this poem unfolds
I fallen but  you always gave  me ur hand pick me back up
I  am not perfect but you always saw something great
The memories we shared  i will hold close  to my heart
You are a Ray  of sunshine on this road we walk

I tend  not live in past
I live and learn as my words heal
I made some  mistake but  have wipe the dirt off my face
People live in past as way learn or rub mistakes in face of others
My words are my bullets
My pain is wake up call to move forward
It is easy rub someone face in the dirt
I don't  live in the past but  my words tell the story

I wish  you knew  the thoughts in my head
i fall down but where this going?
My heart  broken torn inside
The words cut my skin
Dug  a hole  that never went a away
I was never ment to shine in your world
so fast to judge me push me away
Too quick try to  mold me into what your views where
I am just to complex for you or did  you not care to understand
A work of art but  lost in your paint of negative ,
My love was my weakness
Beating my head on this brick wall
It seems to never  end
I wish you  can voice in my head
It time to pick different road.

Why  is it so hard finding love
People  give  up  at  the start
Too lazy get know each  other
Put the work  in and  leave the past in the past
The mistake of others put on you
Here are my flaws
I show you who I am
I bring no faded images
You wanted perfect  
but  have flaws
here  is me  
A  man who wears  his heart  for the world  to seee

i need a change
I can't take this anymore
I fallen stuck in sea endless hope
i am too strong too give up
i can't let darkness takes over my heart
I  need get back up see that the road goes on
I want be not just another faded image
my mask so broken
my heart so hope
can i see past this
can i see the sun in the sky

i am not everyone cup of tea love or hate me in end i am just me. The ones who miss out don't see the greatness which is me. But in end you are just blind by the image you want to see.

In visions of the dark night
        I have dreamed of joy departed-
      But a waking dream of life and light
        Hath left me broken-hearted.

      Ah! what is not a dream by day
        To him whose eyes are cast
      On things around him with a ray
        Turned back upon the past?

      That holy dream- that holy dream,
        While all the world were chiding,
      Hath cheered me as a lovely beam
        A lonely spirit guiding.

      What though that light, thro' storm and night,
        So trembled from afar-
      What could there be more purely bright
        In Truth's day-star?

The past is the gone
The day is now
Be the sun in the sky
The darkness over takes the soul
I can t let my soul be over taking with negative
I keep walking putting my heart out there
The other chapters have t been read
The feeling of sadness and pain cut threw my skin
I break free walk away
I wish i didn't  care
So quick push the door away
I walk alone but in my heart i always will care

Words that cut heart but never heal. The sadness that over comes my soul
Left with only hope
I come back but with same ending
It just the same movie
You never understand me
My pain runs so deep
No love but negative outlook you see
I have break myself free rip apart those chains
Can you hear me or is my words so far gone.
By kenny diamond

Why  give your number?
If  you were just  going  slam door
Time that was wasted

why did  have battle the past?
If  i never hurt you
All i wanted  was be glue to your broken heart

Why did i care?
When i just wanted say goodbye
When you were adding up all  the reason to say goodbye
It wasn't  the mix of words but  i was just too good for you

I been on this frontline
We  miss out on the good
We  can t see  the  night past  the sun
My eyes wide open this was just wrong path

i can t see the sun threw the rain
My heart never feels like it will be the same
The ideas of the past once were just lost in mind
I wish i knew the path i was on
So alone deep in my thoughts to see the road
I hold so much in my head that i am left weak
People come and go but door stays open
At times i want give up walk away
The battle still goes on and change  is  the hope

At times it great being single  and other times i feel like is love really out there, I don't   want be one those people who  gives up and starts putting up great wall. I been on this frontline but i keep taking the hits from last guy or the other person  idea of perfect. I see couple holding hands in my own thoughts i think to myself  where is my queen. I am just joker in this deck of cards? The best feeling is holding someone close letting  everything go.  I am just hopeless  on this road called love................

I look at today just as another day
I don't know the other half of me
The thoughts and lies what could of been
The years past by with not knowing
And I ask myself why
Being in world  wonder  what could of happened
I can t go back in time change  or see the path
I just wish i knew my other half of me
A man lost  my name is lie but my heart still goes on.

Love  or hate
I am just another image
You can t see
Fade deep in your thoughts
A complex mind
A heart left me caring
As my feelings play on those strings
i wish i could be the image
That see
But  i wear  a different   mask

Where is she  my heart still wonders. I  look at other couples holding hands  and ask where is she. I wake up at night with the thought of warmth of another where is she. Is my heart not good enough or has the idea  is just dream where is she. I wish  we could  be  holding hands walking threw the store with no care in world  where is she. I  thought my self should i keeping  dreaming or walk another part  where is she. Love warmth  care kindness and endless moments but  i think to myself where is she?

I fail get back up
My heart keeps going in this battle
My heart so broken
Where is the glue to put  it back together
A  mistakes of kindness is my  weakness
I wish i didn't  have to care and walk alone
I have my eyes on you
I wish the battle was over
I just want hold you tight
I just want look deep into eyes
It so hard being in this battle looking for love
i wake  up see the stars as my heart beats for the warmth of another
A battle to find love in lost world that love is forgotten .

it is always dark before the sun
My heart never  felt the same
The pain leave mark on my chest
A moment lost but tied together with lies
I can;t turn back time
It was too late fix your broken heart
I was no doc but need a degree put this back together
We don't  think of  things we  lose
We are so stuck not thinking
Only thoughts of needs of what we want
We had something great but now its gone
Just like magic trick in the wind

I am left with so much pain
The  sadness  takes  over  like cancer that can t  be stopped
I wish  i had words  and power to make  it stop
There no password  or  sun shine
Just  the pain in my heart
As  i watch my life slowly  faded  away

Can you helo me?
Do  you have the key unlock
Or is my mind so far gone

I look as i am down on kness
Grab my chest as this sadness flows  through
I miss  your warm  hands  sound of hope in air

I scream break me free
I want rip my mask apart
Let   my pain be go
The words inside my head
This never  ending  song that needs  to end

i am not everyone cup of tea
love or hate me in end i am just me.
The ones who miss out don't see the greatness which is me
I can t be sheep that u want  to see
I am man just in deep in my thoughts
Looking in world with an different light
I hate the feeling of the mask
There no smoke and stain glass windows
But in end you are just blind by the image you want to see.

I don't want  walk by
As life pass me by
The time is now
Your beauty  takes my breath away
In my eyes you are   the reason i  smile
I just want take my time
And hold your  hand to the end of time
I  want be the reason
I want be the warmth when you are cold
I want be reason you smile
My heart begs for your touch
I dream of nights of holding you tight
never looking back the time is now
My heart is ready for yours
The dream of endless walks under the stars.

I was just  stone on your path
The words  crushed  by lies  you told
I couldn't  be  your star in your star
You never  saw night past  the day
My heart  was nothing more then  a  cheap toy
A dream of you but all it was just smoke
I was so blind but know  i can see image that is you
I wish deep my heart  i knew the words  to say
I just got  put back together my heart  on this cold day

My weakness is  that I cared
We  can't  help who we love
I care about  things  i shouldn't
I should  just walked away and  broke those chains
Why waste my time
Why waste my heart
Does this make me better person to care
When you never gave it your 100%
I can  never settle  for less
Why did i not hear  my mind cry out
My heart was playing tricks with inner thoughts
I stand here and still care  
In end the it want drives my complex soul

you will always see the negtive
But never saw the sun
Words that cut into the skin
That sink in like a cancer
Going into the past
Loading the gun with my mistakes
I wish you saw me
In end i was just another faded image

I used to  have  hope but knows its gone deep into my soul
The day turned to cold
The idea love on this winter night was just an idea
The wind hits my face  but only  thought is u
I wish i knew the warmth of other
A endless walk under stars
The moon shines above
My blood flows threw my skin
Is my idea of love so far gone
Sweet , caring and dream what could of been
Filled the night air
I live alone under stars
A man who  belived  in love on

My mind is blocked
The only thing my body feels  is the sadness
The tears no longer flow
My heart scared and torn
I wish I? could  break this
The sadness is my cancer flowing in body with no care
I wnt scream but no hears me
break free  break free break free
My words  are the pain  that give  this  hope

it warms my heart  that u saw me
My heart and words all wrapped in one
A complex thoughts  but so thankful to those who take look into my mind
The feeling u get when someone else  understands  how you feel
The warmth and feedback of others
I just hope i can get this tree grow and become great
This is me love or hate me
I am lost coconut looking for his tree

I been doing poems for many years of my life.
As i started on here i felt more to let my feelings out
The idea of writing  and maybe someone else feels the  same
The words leave my soul flow  threw air
The idea of writing  see where it goes  
I always aim learn  and become better
I hope see  one day get book and leave behind my feelings.
Hello and just  another good bye to this poem which is me,

In my eyes
I can t be the perfect image you want   to see
I walk alone on path of shattered dreams
My heart will go on
Your warmth wasn’t good enough to feel my soul
Daylight shines over the night sky
Love or hate me you will   never understand me
I am just faded dream, which lost in the world you live in.