Ever wonder what it would be like,
If the world suddenly ceased to exist?
Like a flash of light, a snap of a finger,
Gone in an instant.

Everything we’ve ever done, seen, and thought,
All in vain, like it never even occurred.

For what purpose is life, if all of humanity becomes equal in that instant?
Perhaps it is true that the only guaranteed equality in life is that of death.

“Seven”
“Four?”
“Seven”
“Five?”
“Seven”
“Ok fine, six”
“Seven”
“Ugh, ok, here”
“You know I would’ve given it to you if you just asked instead of bartering for— Hey! You only gave me six you little...”
“Haha, what happened to just giving it to me?”
“Shut up”

Incessant worries
About someone I know
Never knowing how they feel

Bout time I told you
Indeed most of these are about you anyways
Never should have been so quiet
If all I wanted was to be your friend
One day I’ll learn
No one is ever really alone

I get angry with myself
When I don’t talk to you
When you’re right there
But all I do is stare

The person who I respect the most is the same person I pretend doesn’t exist when I see him walking towards me.

It’s not your fault
I have a million and one excuses why I don’t stop and bore you to tears
But not one of them could ever fix the fact that I never think of how you must feel when I do it
My insecurity turns talking to you into one of my biggest fears

Even though I say this now
I have a funny feeling I’ll do it again
And maybe you don’t even care
Or maybe you feel the same
All I know is that I don’t know

I feel like I’ve been a ******* sociopath my entire life and I’m just now realizing what emotions are
When I look back, I’ve always been selfish
My therapist said I had good reasons for that, but I never could except it
I used to be a wild child and even got thrown out of my fist daycare
Now I’m afraid people might reject me

When I look at you, I see pure confidence without ego
Yeah, maybe I’m a little jealous of you
But I’ll get there too
I think that’s why I’ve always been afraid to talk to you
I’ve felt inferior, and that’s not your fault

I tried to take some time to grow
But they say absence makes the heart grow fonder
And it did
And I started appreciating the time we had

Back then I felt like no one cared
Never realizing that I never cared for anyone else in return
It all makes sense now, but hindsight is 20/20

To me, passing by you is like passing by a celebrity
I don’t know what to do or say and I come up with 50 million reasons I should keep walking
This is so ******* stupid it’s its own level of *******, but I do it anyways.

If you managed to make it to the end of this, thank you so much. It means the world to me.

Wandering eyes shifting
Gorgeous smiles lying
Friendly spirits lifting
Quiet voices dying

I walked past him again
My quiet overcoming me
I walked past him yet gain
My quiet destroying us

I have girlfriends who’ve never spoken to me,
Comrades who’ve never fought with me,
Acquaintances who’ve never seen me,
And friends who’ve never chastised me.

This constant, never, fills me with pain,
So let it be crushed to dust by the weight of April rain.

I can’t tell if I’m waiting for you to reach out,
Or if I’m scaring you away.
Either way, I’ll be there.

When a dog chases it’s tail,
Does it get bored after it catches it?
Or does it hang on tight,
Running circles through the night?

If I chase you again,
Will you continue to run?
Run away forever,
Some sick idea of fun?

And if I become as fast as light,
Will I be the dog that hangs on tight?
Or will I too get bored,
And leave your life fragmented and ignored?

Long ago where the White Oak grew,
Far beyond where the west wind blew,
In fresh spring air and ****** skies,
A young boy severed his emotional ties,
Ones that brought him only pain,
So he thought he would not stand to gain,
But so very little did I know back then,
My foundation never laid; it’s time to begin.

I sewed my eyes shut, and shoved my palms through my head,
At that time and place, I would have rather been dead.
But my eyes were always closed, and the world I could not see,
The world was always calling, summoning in perfect harmony.
Hearing it so faintly, its melody soft and soothing,
I stumbled in my darkness, to find this voice seducing,
But I never did locate it, my eyes were always blind,
So I lost my ******* sanity, and demanded myself confined.
It was only in my imprisonment that I truly felt alone,
I felt my fingers ripping, the string I'd tightly sewn,
The darkness was so blinding, like nothing I had known,
I found myself digging, dirt below my tombstone.
When I reached the grassy surface, I heard someone intone,
It's been an eternity old friend, but you've never been alone.

Can you tell me why I stare at the sun,
When I know it makes me blind?
Can you tell me why I don’t hang with friends,
And complain about being lonely?
Can you explain to me the joys of your life,
In a way that I would understand?
Can you light up the path that leads me to you,
When I have my head crammed up my ***?
Can you give me back my childhood?
I want it back so **** bad.
Can you give me one good reason to move on,
To not be depressed, but glad?
To me, it’s as if you’ve always seen the light,
You stare at the sun when you know it’s bright,
But unlike me, you don’t go blind,
It seems to be all in the state of mind.

I was so busy living another man’s life
To realize my own was falling apart
So I handed my independence the knife
And purged the insecurity from my heart

Her beauty haunts me.
She crept into my soul uninvited,
Took my sanity,
Left my vanity.
But I have no name,
That’s the biggest shame.
I don’t know who to be,
But then again,
Neither does she.

I wish upon eternity
For how things used to be
I wish upon eternity
For life as younger me
I wish upon eternity
For a trip back to when happines was reality