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Empire Sep 2019
Trigger warning: Self harm, cutting


can't think
read
hear
my mind... it's..... it's buzzing
no thought
just static
perfectly focused
on the lovely blade
dancing around my fingertips
i'm dizzy
anticipation?
excitement?
fear?
i don't care
it feels nice
i'm not thinking
but... the desire
it calls the blade back
to my delicate, smooth wrist
and i haven't decided yet
if i wanna fight
Empire Sep 2019
Don’t get attached
You know it’s not like that
You know that’s not how he sees you
You’re not pretty enough
You’re not tall enough
You’re not slim enough
You’re not even any fun tbh
Why would you think he’d want you?

But just...
I thought maybe... maybe there was something there...
The slight prolonging of contact
When we stood a bit too close
Mm... how soft and warm you felt...
I think you make me feel safe
I’m comfortable
I don’t have to hide
I don’t have to change
And... that seems to be enough for you

But don’t get attached.
It’s not like that.
It will never be like that.
Don’t let yourself believe it.
Don’t let yourself feel it.
Because honestly
You might be a good friend for him
But you’re not enough to be more
Maybe I need to be honest with myself about what I want... perhaps his feelings are an excuse to hide from myself....
Empire Jul 2019
Apathy is rather dangerous
Isn’t it?
I just don’t care.
Not sure I want to care
I could do anything
Because it wouldn’t matter
If you don’t worry about others
You can do whatever you please
Danger, warnings, signs
Utterly meaningless!
Feels rather free.....
When emotion dies
When your chest grows cold
Heartbeat sickeningly steady
Breaths a bit too even

Do I run to pleasure?
Find myself a lovely vice
Intoxicating, sensual, invigorating
To awaken my spirit

Perhaps pain will do
Play with the little silver toy
The one with the sharp tip
Jarring and thrilling

Take some risks
Cause why the hell not?
Shock loved ones
Laugh at their concern for you

When the heart turns to stone
Anything, everything
Is fair game

So, what shall I do with mine tonight?
Empire Sep 2019
please just don’t leave me alone
that’s when they come for me
monsters, demons
dark shadows from the abyss
my smile melts away....

when i’m alone
i have to face them, fight them
i struggle for my every breath
for they all want me dead

i’ll do what it takes to distract myself
tricks, games, sabotage
anything
i’m so **** desperate
i’m weary
i’m weary

CAN’T YOU SEE I’M WEARY

i’m suffering alone
grasping blindly in the dark
for anything
to take my mind off it...
Empire Dec 2019
Are there things that don’t hurt?
Are there things that don’t make me angry?
Are there things that don’t remind me I’m empty?
Do you have to remind me?
Do you have to remind me?
Do you have to remind me???
I see it
I feel it
I know I’m alone
I know I don’t want to be alive
I know my heart is cold
I know I’m unlovable
I know
I know
I KNOW
SO STOP REMINDING ME
Empire Mar 2019
Don’t tell me you know
What it feels like
When your own mind
Is your arch enemy

Don’t tell me you understand
What it means
To be a prisoner
Inside your head

Don’t tell me you know
The terror
Of thinking you are
Properly insane

Don’t tell me you get
Being enslaved
By compulsions
You don’t understand

Don’t tell me you know
About causing so much damage
To yourself
You are afraid for your life

Don’t tell me.

These are not things
You can pretend to know
Not feelings you can simulate
Unless you’ve been there
And I hope you haven’t.
Empire Aug 2019
you go
you work
you play your role
you smile and laugh
take care of everyone
eagerly awaiting the moment they leave
you release the tension
allow your smile to drop
feel the weight of gravity
drawing you downward
just be
just breathe
ahhh yes...
the discontent
i was expecting you...
something is terribly wrong
it’s probably you, you know...
start thinking, what did you do?
i just want it to go away
i crave the ability to forget
the option to feel content
just for a while...
Empire Feb 2020
tw self harm


Do you care about me?
What if I hold the blade to my wrist?
What if I tug it across?
What if I bleed out?
What if I’m dying?
Do you even care??

No. Well, maybe you would
But you’re so caught up in yourself
Keeping busy so you can ignore me
Pretend I’m not a problem
Pretend you shouldn’t worry about me
Ignore all the signs
Because you don’t really care
None of you do
And I keep making new scars
Because as long as you all continue
Hating and ignoring me
I’ll never have to show anyone
The lines I’ve drawn in blood
Empire Apr 2019
Do you feel it?
The rage within
Bubbling and boiling
Filling to the brink
I can't even comprehend
How broken this place is
We all are...
There is so much pain
The injustice
That surrounds existence
I can't linger on it
It hurts too much
This world
It doesn't make sense
And it leads me to nothing less
Than rage
Do you feel it too?
This isn't right
Empire Dec 2019
She dressed herself up
Did her hair
Perfected her makeup
Then she looked in the mirror
And smiled at her corpse
Really hate holidays...
Empire Dec 2019
I just... I just...
I just wanna lie in bed...
Take some more pills...
Take several more pills...
Until I drift back to sleep
Away from life
To be suspended in the unconscious
To forget
To flee
To escape
Empire Mar 2020
Frankly,

All I really want is to drink myself to death.
Unless I can convince someone to let me drink, I’ll have to wait another ten months...
Empire Jun 2019
And there I was
Feeling the sweet flames
On my tongue
Down my throat
In my gut
For the first time
And all I wanted
Was more
But I had to stop.
Empire Dec 2020
She hates herself
Everything about her makes her cringe and cry
So she climbs inside a bottle
And tries to drown
Empire Feb 2020
Leave me alone
Give me a bottle
I promise I’ll drown
Don’t check in
Don’t care
Just leave me be
Let me bathe in my misery
I’d like to be out of my mind
Just for a little while

Please

Please, just give me a bottle
And let me drown
Empire Aug 2019
louder.

more.

Turn it up.

Louder.

LOUDER!!!


LOU
DER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!!LOUDER!!!LOUDER!!!LOUDER!!!LOUDER!!!


and the realization sets in
that no matter how loud
no matter how much noise
how chaotic the sounds
how desperate the screams
how tragic the lyrics...
                                ..            ..       ­  ... .
                                                     . . . . .           .                     ...
                                .. ...           ... . . ..      .
...

i couldn't drown out
the voices torturing me
in my mind
Empire Mar 2019
Something strange it is
To drown oneself
In darkness

From above
The waters seem
To sit in stillness
With a haunting gleam

One little dip
Is all it takes
To become infected
And raise the stakes

When you start
All you want
Is that little spark
From this, your jaunt

You take it slow
Maintaining control
You've seen what it does
To the heart and the soul

But then you grow tired
Of your little game
You start to go numb
The spark becomes plain

So, in you go
Just a bit further now
Up to your knees
You're in control, anyhow

One day you don't
You walk away
You hear its voice whisper
Calling your name

You aren't free
As you thought
To dip out as you please
It seems you've been caught

So back to the pool
Back to the rush
That now owns your soul
It will certainly crush

But now all you want
Is to sink in deeper
To let it wash over you
Let it be your keeper

So when you return
Again the next dawn,
You dive right in
And let it feed on

In response
To your cooperation
It offers release
From the desolation

Its words are all lies
You know this deep down
But it feels so good
You want to drown

So you do
Empire Dec 2019
I don’t need this medication
It’s not helpful
But man... I keep wanting to take it...
Every night it’s like a treat...
Swallow the clonidine
Then very very soon...
Sleepiness sets in
Getting drowsy....
Mind... drifting....
Until sleep.... sleep saves me
My rescue from the pain
It’s a good medication
I don’t need it
But I really really like it....
Mmm.... goodnight, everyone...
Empire Nov 2019
I feel ******* drugged
I mean... yeah... I guess I am...
Artificial feelings
Laughing a bit too long...
Missing things...
Miscounting..
I’m just... scattered
But I feel okay
I feel better...?
Empire May 2019
Caffeine’s always my favorite drug
I can abuse it quietly
No one has to know
And if they do
I can laugh it off
I love it
But the high is sweet
Dragging me out of depression
My whole body buzzing
One more can, bottle, cup, glass, shot...
I can feel it
Everywhere
Mind racing
Eyes open so wide
My hands tremble
Muscles twitch
Little jolts of pleasure
Of course I want coffee
I’m an addict
And I’m not even sorry
Empire Nov 2019
I’d never been drunk before
But six drinks in
I’m certain
I don’t want to be sober
Cause sober...
Sober’s all those things...
Pain and grief and... sadness
Sober is depression
Everything is so good now
Don’t take this from me
I’m happy
Finally
Ahaha I’m intoxicated lolol
Empire Mar 2019
I just want to get
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n
w
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r   d   s
Empire Jan 2020
****
Everything is spinning a bit
I’m not even kinda sober
Finally got what I wanted
I ******* win!!!
Ahhhahhha I am so ******* drunk
I’ve wanted this for so long
And I have it
And I’m so happy
This is it!!!
This is what I’ve wanted!
Ah yes!
I feel high
But like drunk
I love it
Empire Apr 2020
My head’s so **** fuzzy
My skin is hot
Room spinning just enough
I’d take three more shots if I could
If you offer it, I’ll drink it
I’ve the makings of an addict
I know
But I’ll be fine
I’ll just keep drinking
You keep pretending it’s fine
It’ll be great
I’ll feel like living
You’ll think I’m fine
We’re good
Duo
Empire Jun 2020
Duo
tw self harm





I want a bottle on my lips
And a knife to my wrist
Numb the pain
Feel something
Intoxicated
Bleeding
Broken
Crying
Dying
...
..
.
Ugh I just want to give in to it all...
Empire Nov 2019
I;ve done it
escaped
from that ******* hell i''ve been livng in
can't ******* think striaght
but i don;t feel the pain
I can dance and be free
and just not give a ****
hahahahaha I WIN
Intoxication and rock music are a good pair
Empire May 2019
On the edge of sanity
I teeter
Never sure which side
I’m leaning towards
But the edge
It burns
It’s unbearable
To be taunted by the voices
Calling from below
Whispering, beckoning
But I’m gripping reality
Too tightly
To fall in
Even though
Something within
Would like nothing more
Than sweet release
Empire Mar 2019
I have never
Ever loved anyone
In any kind of a
Romantic way

It makes my heart ache and burn
Restless and eager
For someone to decide
That maybe I'm worth pursuit

Here I am
19 years into life
And I have never
Even come close to romance

I don't need a man
But I want to know what
Butterflies in my stomach
Feel like before a date

I am capable and bright
Strong and passionate
But I long to be known
So deeply and
To be loved

But love eludes me
The other kind of lovesick.
Empire Mar 2019
I can’t breathe
My body is tense and trembling
Tears rolling down my face
Which I cover with my hands
I can’t open my eyes
My head is racing
I can’t think
Just hold me
Wrap your arms around me
Pull me in close
You know you don’t need to say anything
I just need you
Make me feel safe again
Just let me be in your embrace
Until my heartbeat slows
The tears cease
And once again
I can breathe
Empire Sep 2020
Alcohol is the embrace I lack tonight
Warming my skin
Calming my nerves
Soothing my soul
As I forget my loneliness
(Which makes itself more apparent as of late)
A little peace
For a little while
Just lull me to sleep
In your sweet, easy comfort
Empire Aug 2019
My dearest, what have you done to yourself?
My beautiful lady... my sweet love...

Do not believe him, girl, you know your worth.
False kindness will only make you proud.

You're breaking my heart!
Dear, your whole body shakes...
You're not alright at all, are you?
Please... let me hold you...
Don't fight...
Yes... yes just cry...
Let me carry the weight of your tears
You know... you really are quite lovely...

You know you can never believe that.
That is a word you are not allowed
It belongs to those who are worthy of it.
Do not listen to he who tries to flatter you out of kindness

Are you bleeding?
Let me see... no... that's an old one...
My fingers will trace it gently
It's there. That's okay.
You poor thing....
What have they done to you....
Stolen the light from your eyes
Leaving them cold and dead
Dark lines underneath
That cannot be hidden
They have made you terribly ill

Oh, come on!
You know you've done all this to yourself
You little attention-seeking *****!
You ******* coward.
Can't just face the world like the rest of them.
You know you're the weakest of them

Just allow yourself to rest...
Let's try and quiet your mind, shall we?
Let me lie with you
Feel my presence
Match my breaths
I'll stay as long as you need
My beautiful darling,
I'm not letting go.
Empire Sep 2019
What would I like?
Oh... what's that fantasy..?
Been there for years...
Longer than I'd care to admit
The image, the sensation
The story of my fall.

There's always been something
About a fall
When the body just... fails
Exhilarating, isn't it?
To just... fall in defeat
Forced surrender to your flesh
Knees buckle
Ground sways....
Maybe the vision blurs
Then the world's encompassed
In a peaceful darkness

You've fought for so long, darling
Isn't it about time for a surrender?
Even simply a retreat?

Ah... but you want to fight to the end...
You want the point of failure
Push until you break
'Cause you deserve it, don't you?
You can't give up
Not until every last drop of blood is spilt
It's your job
You are the one to fight
Until you succumb to exhaustion
Until you can fight no more

You're ready, aren't you?
Ready to fall
You'd force it now
One last push
Take the final blow
That sends you reeling
The one that you can't get back up from
You're ready to be finished
You desire the delirium
Of being so near death
Just to drink in the exhilaration
Empire Jun 2020
Unsettled
Heart, mind, body
All uneasy
All on edge

There’s something wrong
Something missing
There’s nothing there
This life is empty
And I don’t know how to fill it

Does my soul need to seek God more?
Is my medication making it worse?
...or do I need more of those **** pills?
Am I just lonely and bitter?
Am I too selfish?
Will it pass?
Will it fade?
Is everything really so dark?
Is hope really so gone?
Empire Aug 2020
Everything is empty
My being is void
A singularity has drained my soul
I feel nothing at all



ha... it’s getting darker...
Empire Jun 2019
My heart’s beating
Pounding actually
But my chest
It’s heavy
My mind
Is empty
I’m trying
To smile politely
To hide it
But I can’t feel
I can barely hear the words
Falling from your mouth
Empire Sep 2019
It’s all fake
The smiles
The laughs

I don’t really feel them
But I know how to act
I know what you wanna see
I know what’ll convince you
I’m perfectly alright
I’m thriving
I’ll even believe it myself

But once my audience disappears
I empty out
There’s nothing left inside
Sometimes a dull ache
Or pain if I look far enough
Who even knows why anymore
I just... I just hurt
No reason
Just pain

How strange... to realize
The false demeanor is gone
Cheeriness melted away
Replaced with a stern countenance
For my burdens are heavy
But I can’t put them down
Empire Dec 2019
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Ï̶͕̠̞̻̳͚͕̝̎̃̔̇̈̍͌̔̄̈͂͘’̴̛̣͔̟͗̈́̄̅̅̀̀̌̿̅­͊͑̌̃̌̉̈́̽̄̚͠͝m̵̧̢̞͖̱̩̯̪̉̎́̓̑̕͠ ̶̛̱͍̲̞͗͊͆̉͊͐̔̌͂́̚̚͘̕ḏ̴͉̮̍̾͂̀̈́͐̉̍̽̑̇̈̅̿͊͗̑̕̚͠õ̸̙̭̯̝̩̟̼̝̺͔̫̓͑̈̎́̋̐­̀̌̑̕͜ͅn̴̜̟͉̟̹͔̗̳̈̚ḗ̶̢̢̡̘͖̼̤̖̱̣̹̼͈̞̠͇͕̫͕̩̖̖̣̉̈̐́̅̔̊͛̂̒͛̔̌̓̐̽́̆̂̈́̕­.̶̡̫͓̤͈̠̣͔̘̜̫͓̫̗͍́̂͂̈́ͅ ̶̦̥͖̠͍̤͎͇͇̰̺̮̯͔̉̊͜










Ĭ̴̛͓̜̟̝̟͉͓͙̫̜̱̉͒̽͂̽̿͛̄̐̊͠’̸̢̧̧̧̛̛͎̟̱­͙̯̬̬̝̦͚̼̝̠̙͗̄̀̊̎̀̂̓̃͊̏̆̉͋̃̑̉́̍̒͋͑̏̓̈̈́͂͆͊̈́̈̓͛͐͐̂̓͑̓̈́͆̎͒͂͋̆͐̒̊̚͜­͜͝͠͠͝m̵̧̡̢̢̡̨̢̙̜̰̼̘͙͇̣̥̤̣̤͍͓̤̠̗͕̹̩̞̜̫̺̦͔̀̎̇̽͒̔́͗͒̌̈́̒̈́̋̎͐́̈́̽̒̆̈­̑̓̅͊̐͊̑̇͑͋̈́͋͌͌̅͋̽͒͒̈́̎̕̚̚̕͝͠͝ͅ ̸̢̢̢̨̧̨̡̠̳̪͖̤͉̱͖̘̱̱͖̗̳͚̥̗̳̹͚̖̜͖̣̣͉͔͎͇̜̻̠̣̦̻̪͈͉̖̟͉̺̞́͜͜͝ͅͅͅd̴̢̧̨̧̨­̨̡̨̢̧̦̜͔͕̠̯̮̙̲̯̫̹͓̩͔̥̩̤̣̪̼̳̺̳̹̠̥̥̭͕̪̰̟͉̹͓̪̺̠̙͈͚͕͎̼͙̘̻̱̱͇̙̖͚̝̪̬̝͎͙­̠̃̋̈͛̍̑͗̂̌̓̀͗͒̽̈́̈́́̑̂́̒̆͊̋̒͂̃͐͒̆̈́̾̉͗̀͂̅̃͛̐́̽́̍̓͆̈́͋̅̏̎̓̍͋͐͊̕̚͜͜­͝͝͝͝͝͝͝ͅợ̶̢͙̦̻̘̺̮̺͎̼̫̥̱̙̿͌̽͌̀̾̏̒̑̉̑̊̀̃̿̄̈̈́͊̅̓̓̈́͘͝͝ͅņ̶̢̧̨̨̧͇̼͔͉͚­̱͓̣̦̮̹͚͉͚̜̙̦̭̐̎͂̃̾̏̊̀̀͂̽̓̎͆̾͝ę̷̡̢̢̢̢̢̧̡̛̲͙͕̜̞͍̣̦͍̙͕̜̼̤̼̩̱̺̣͉̱͇̞̻͚­͈̗̥̳̹̟̬̭̭̘̱̫̠̞̬̪̲̺͆̀̄̏͗̐̓̓̿̈́̌͑̽͛͂̽́̌̏̄̾́̑͐̈́͗̈̍̕̕͝͝ͅͅ.̴̢̨̛̞̖̬̥̹̹­̥͔̠͕̤̟͉̤̠̇͆̌̓̐̈́͆͑̍̀̀̉͆͋̈͗̐̋̄̂̎̾͒̑͒̃̒̓̾̍̀͐̔͑̈́̐̑̈́͐̎̓̒͒̽̈͂̅͆́͆̄̑̋­͆̄͛͆̇̾͛̈́͂̕̚͘̕̚̚͜͠ ̷̧̛͑͂̓́̈́̿̉͑̈́͌́͆̔͗̌̽̅̽̌̃̂͛̔̋͂̂̀͆͌̈́̅͑̐͗̅̅͐̾̃̂̄͆̑̌̈͒̈͒̂́̉̓̈́̊̿̽̓́­̌͑̈́͘̚̕̕̚͘͘͝͝͠













I̷̡̧̡̢̫̬͎͕͕̬̫̪̝̫͙͇̺͔̲̥̳̺̥̟͚̩̭̭̹̣͓̻͍̪̙­̹̱͂͜͝’̷̢̨̢̡̛̛̰̰͙̣͚͚̠͇͕̰̭̳̳͙̩͈̖͎̗̱̱͉̠̞̘͙̘̐̏̑̇̿̈́͗͗̅͒̋̃͆̀̓̔́̿͗͂̌̋̓̔­͌́̉̀̊̈́̐̎̈́̏̋̃͌̃̿́̀̀̓͗̅̽̅̚͜͝ͅM̴̛̛̛̭͉̩͇̱̱̱͍̋͊̊̅̓̉̋͂͆̐̾̽̈́͐́̓̍̎͆̓͆̉­̂̋̈́̌̌̈̍̊̅́̇̆̾̔̋͊̔̔̆̔̄͊͆͐̊͋̍͋̆͘͘̚͝͝͝͝ ̶̡̡̛̯̥̩̝̤̙̜͚͍̪͓̻̭́͗̊̔̊̈́̔͋̒̑́̉̎̈̔̈́̌́̔͗̈́͆̎̒͘̕̚͝D̵̨̨̨̨̛̘͎̙̼͕̮̟̜̙̮­̞̤̯̠͉̱̦̮͕̺̫̼͉̼̟͍͙̄̿̌͐̊̈́̆͌̃̊̄̓͂̂̍̇͗̃̑̏̓͑̅͊͒̐͐̓̿̓̓̉͒͗́́͛̂̃͂͐̃͊̆͊̔̏­̎̉͘̕͘͜͝͠͝͠͝͠ͅƠ̴̡̧̢̢̡̛̛̛̛̪̰̮͇̳̫̣̺̠̮̱͙̥̖̠̙͙͎͈̟̹͓̻̦̥̻̖̣̻͚̣̥͎̹̘̣̞̺͔̇̀­̈́̈͑̎̋́̌̄́̓̂̈̐̔͒̏͆̽́̔̎̋̆́̅̎̂͑̈̃͐̄͗̅̓͑̈́̆̒̎̈͂̈͑̂̚̚̕̚͜͝͝͝͠ͅŅ̴̨̛̛͚̣̼­̫̘͍̗͙̞̱͎̞̬̲͍̄̾̎͐́͛̅͂̈́̓͐̾̾́̓͗̌̽͛̌̐̈́̃͑̈́̇̉̊͒̆͂̉̅̀̕͜͠͝ͅÉ̶̡̨̛͉̞̻̥͉͙­̩͈̲̦̩̳͎̪̙̦̙̯̗̯̫͕͖̜͓̭̹̠̆̒̎́̈́̇̇͛̊͒͋̓́͛̈́̑̉̌͒̇͛̑͂̂̉̽͛̐̊͆͐̒̔̏̎̄̀͒̒̇͂­͐̃̅̿̉̍͊̚̕̚͘̚͘͘͘͜͝͠͝͠




Į̶̢̭͎̫̠̫̗͚̤͙͉̖̝̘̗̲̥̪̰̺̹̬̱͍̤͇͚̤̣̟̩͔̻͕͎̮̞̀­̍́́̏̒̾̆͜’̵̢̡̛̛̛͈͙͔̰̟̦̲̩͖̮̮̮͉͉͙̬̤̱̭̳̹̝̟͕̩̰̖̥͚̰̦̭̣͙̞̗͔͇͈̓͌́͒͋̾̀̑̑̇̓­͌́̿̅̕͘͜͜ͅM̵̥̟̯͙͇̫̣̰̖̭̳͖̦̹͙̺̣͎̞̾̈̐͐͊͌̔̀̅̈́͌̃̎̊̍͊̉̓̑̂̓̋͗̇͌̈́̅̄̋̓̃͌̂­̽̓͗̑̑̀́͆̄͜͝ͅͅ ̷̢̡̛̭̪̻̼̗̦̹̖̙̲̰̮̗̫͓̞̜̘̆̂̈͌͆̈́̐̓͆̅̈͑̍̒̄͋̈́̓́̆͊̽̈́̚ͅD̸̖̥̼̍̇̑͐́̈́̇͗̓­̓̀̇̏̎͐͌͒̇̊̐͐͐͑̀̌̿̂͊̐͘͠͝͝͠͝Ò̷̢̡̫̘̻̱̞̩̮͓͇̪̹͙͙̭͖͚̬̰̦̻̗̺̱͇̙̩̘̯̎̽͗̉̊̈̓­̍͛͑͒̒̿͋̑̓̔̒̉̃͆͊̓̍̃̐͌̓͑̉̽͒̿̅͋̅͗͊̚̚͜͝͠͠͝ͅN̷̙̗̫͈̖͈̤̮͈͉̼͉̞͓̪̥̲̳̭͙̝̿̍͊­̋͑̽̐͋̒́̆̒̒̋͌̀̈́̊͋͗͌̑͑̏̉̽̅́͋̏̀̑͆͗̕̕͠͠ͅͅÉ̷̡̧̢̲͖͓̤̲̺͑̓̾̇̋̽̄͊̇̅̑̅̄̇͌͐­̍̓̄̽͑̈́̍̒̏̀̕̕̚͝͠͠͝




I̵̡̢̢̧̧̨̨̛̛̬̲̬̤̗̻̟̹̱͖̜̘̘̪͇̼̞͙͈̹̤̹̗͎̫̬̤͖̤̲͇­̺̟̫͓̫͉̰̙͕̱͚̪̻̣͈͍̖̞̪̰̮̤̊̆̃̐̓̃̔͋̾͛̈̍́̐̈́̆̇̅̉̉̐̂͊̀̂̈́̈̎̆́̐̃̂̾̑̈́̒̊̋͆­̓͋̾̄̽́̂̿͒̑̔́̄͆̒̀̌͂̌̎̊͛͑̀̄̉̋̈́̈́̋͐̑̏͒̌̌̽͗͊͊̒̑̈́̒͘͘̚͜͜͠͝͝ͅ’̴̳̜̘̻̀͆̆­̌̌̒̽͊͑̈́͒̓̈̓̔̈́͆̅̃̓̾̒̄̓̐̔̒̽̄͘͝͠͝Ṁ̷̛̛̛͍͇͛͊͒̐̏̉̉̏̾͌̇̓͐̆̎̓͊͊̈́̓̅̒͂̾̈­͒́̐̈́͑̊̎͒̓͊̓̈͑͆̒̈́͋̈͛̇̔͌̅̄̍̀̽͌͂̈́̏̉̌̔̽͗̅̾̂͘͘͘̕̕̕͘̚̕͠͝͠͠͝͝ ̸̨̡̡̡̢͙͖͖͍̣̦̣̩̯͍͍̣̞̰̞̮̤̼͍͓̞̱̬̜̩̠̦̤̅̅̒̋͗́̋̌͌͆̔̇̍̂͒̿́̆̀̂͛͊͋͊͌͆́̋͛̍͑­̍͂̽̍̉̃͗͛̍̈́̑̆̒̈́́̾͗̒̃̈̿͌̕̕͠͝͠͠Ḑ̵̧̨̧̡̡̢̛͖̣̤̥̣̖̻̬̳͚̣̦̥̜͍̹̯͔̻̼͇̩̦̘̭̖­̩̠̺͕̲͍̲͉͔̩̩̞̖̩̪̙̣̤́̎̈́̒̃̆͒̃͒̈́́͗̈́̓̆̃̾̒̋̍̒͌̈́̋̋͊̎̌̈́̿̎̈̌̊͑̊̓̏̏͛͊̍­̉̄̈́̈̓̋̋́̄͆̈́͐͂̂̈́͆̽̏͆̍̾͐̃̈̋̎͋̃͆̋̿͌̇́̐̇̈͒͆̈́͑̔̐͋̾͂͛̔̚̕̚̕̚̕̕̕̕͜͜͜͝­͝͝͠͝͝͝ͅͅͅŐ̴̢̢̡̡̨͉͇͍̖̬̘̬̖̞̦̱͉͍̫̩͖̤̜̼̪͕̩̰̲͔̣̣̠̟̥͖̝̱̜͖̜͇̭̮̦̝̺̙̳̜̦̣̰̳­̱̖̜̲̙͙͚̺̯͙̗̲̫̄̌͋̀̓͝ͅṆ̸̡̨̻̩̪̱̬̽́̚ͅẸ̶̡̨̧̡̢̡̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛͇̱͎̹̳͕̥̟̗̲̻̣͎͔̥̺­̳̝̺̩͎̰̠̲̣̮̪̤̞͖͙̙̦̝͍̪̬̗̺͇̬̻͖̳͈̹͈̹̖̦̠̺͇̟̰̾̿̉̅͌͂̑̓̒̃̏̄̄̉̇̿̈́̈́̌͂́͛̉̂­̏̉̆̓̔̂̅̾̏͛̍̄̑̈́̈́̈̂͌͑̈́͒̎́̂̂̑͗̂̂̔̇͌̏͂̅̈̿͛́̂̂̃̅̑́̊́̍̈́́̚̚͜͝͝ͅ

Į̵̢­̨̛͇͙͈̰̝̣̱͙͓̝͖̻̝̺͎͍̞̠̭͓̺͇͖̺̝̺̣͍̯͕̼͕̖̙͈̜͔̯̻͕̞͂̏̄̑̓̓̿̑̌̓̔̏̅͌͛̍̓̈̐̍̈́­͐͆̐͋͗̿̎̀̌̾͋̈́̇̾̒̀͊̿̐̀̊̈́͘̕̚̚̕͠͝’̴̧̨̛̘̳̰̗͎̮̩̙̥̬͚̦̹̖̜͉͚͈̯͎̲̟̳̰̣͔̦͍̭­͖͙̺̯͈̗̭̳̮̗̥͍͔̣͒̔͌̆͛͜͜ͅͅM̶̛̙̭̞̞̋̓͐̌̾͒̅̉̀̐̑͆̋̃́̇̃̄͋̀̓̌̆͐͑̋̇̋̅͂̉͑̀͛́­̽͂̐̃̐̆̈́͋̿͒͂͑͘̚̚̚͘̕͠͠ ̴̢̛̤̹͔̳̜̏̃͋̎̓̎̇̀̾̕Ḍ̵̛̛̳̪̃̏̽̾̈́͆̈́̊̆̏̂͂̔̑͛̽͛̒̑͆́͛̀̔̀̔̋̋̒̋͋̀͋̅̀̿̂̽͊­͂̋̃̆̌̽̉̒̿́̉͊̈́̚̕͘̕͘͠͠͠͝͠͝O̷̢̧̧̨̢̨̲̣̰͚̩̳̮͈̣̜̺̗̭̦̝̯͙̱̙̜̣̣̻͎̤͉̰̬̦̐̒̽­̈́͑̑̍̃͌̀̒͆̐̾̈̊̅̉̓̉̋̇̌̄͐́͂͗̇̑̿̂̈̓͘͝͝͝Ń̵̛̛͈̼̮͙͎̪̼̙̆͋͋̅̉͊̄̀̈́̍́͂̓̊̂̐­̐͋̏̋͂̈́̓̍́̆̋̇͛̉̓̉̓͂̋̊͊̈́̑̑̈́̈̓̉̓͛̕̕̕͝͝͝͠Ë̴̡̡̢̢̢̨̯͍̰̪͕͇̠̻̖͕̮͖̻̣̭̤͈­̰̩̞̼͓̤̱͚͚̺̙͙͚́̓̓̃͊͜ͅͅ

I̵̡̢̢̧̧̨̨̛̛̬̲̬̤̗̻̟̹̱͖̜̘̘̪͇̼̞͙͈̹̤̹̗͎̫̬̤͖̤̲͇­̺̟̫͓̫͉̰̙͕̱͚̪̻̣͈͍̖̞̪̰̮̤̊̆̃̐̓̃̔͋̾͛̈̍́̐̈́̆̇̅̉̉̐̂͊̀̂̈́̈̎̆́̐̃̂̾̑̈́̒̊̋͆­̓͋̾̄̽́̂̿͒̑̔́̄͆̒̀̌͂̌̎̊͛͑̀̄̉̋̈́̈́̋͐̑̏͒̌̌̽͗͊͊̒̑̈́̒͘͘̚͜͜͠͝͝ͅ’̴̳̜̘̻̀͆̆­̌̌̒̽͊͑̈́͒̓̈̓̔̈́͆̅̃̓̾̒̄̓̐̔̒̽̄͘͝͠͝Ṁ̷̛̛̛͍͇͛͊͒̐̏̉̉̏̾͌̇̓͐̆̎̓͊͊̈́̓̅̒͂̾̈­͒́̐̈́͑̊̎͒̓͊̓̈͑͆̒̈́͋̈͛̇̔͌̅̄̍̀̽͌͂̈́̏̉̌̔̽͗̅̾̂͘͘͘̕̕̕͘̚̕͠͝͠͠͝͝ ̸̨̡̡̡̢͙͖͖͍̣̦̣̩̯͍͍̣̞̰̞̮̤̼͍͓̞̱̬̜̩̠̦̤̅̅̒̋͗́̋̌͌͆̔̇̍̂͒̿́̆̀̂͛͊͋͊͌͆́̋͛̍͑­̍͂̽̍̉̃͗͛̍̈́̑̆̒̈́́̾͗̒̃̈̿͌̕̕͠͝͠͠Ḑ̵̧̨̧̡̡̢̛͖̣̤̥̣̖̻̬̳͚̣̦̥̜͍̹̯͔̻̼͇̩̦̘̭̖­̩̠̺͕̲͍̲͉͔̩̩̞̖̩̪̙̣̤́̎̈́̒̃̆͒̃͒̈́́͗̈́̓̆̃̾̒̋̍̒͌̈́̋̋͊̎̌̈́̿̎̈̌̊͑̊̓̏̏͛͊̍­̉̄̈́̈̓̋̋́̄͆̈́͐͂̂̈́͆̽̏͆̍̾͐̃̈̋̎͋̃͆̋̿͌̇́̐̇̈͒͆̈́͑̔̐͋̾͂͛̔̚̕̚̕̚̕̕̕̕͜͜͜͝­͝͝͠͝͝͝ͅͅͅŐ̴̢̢̡̡̨͉͇͍̖̬̘̬̖̞̦̱͉͍̫̩͖̤̜̼̪͕̩̰̲͔̣̣̠̟̥͖̝̱̜͖̜͇̭̮̦̝̺̙̳̜̦̣̰̳­̱̖̜̲̙͙͚̺̯͙̗̲̫̄̌͋̀̓͝ͅṆ̸̡̨̻̩̪̱̬̽́̚ͅẸ̶̡̨̧̡̢̡̛̛̛̛̛̛̛̛͇̱͎̹̳͕̥̟̗̲̻̣͎͔̥̺­̳̝̺̩͎̰̠̲̣̮̪̤̞͖͙̙̦̝͍̪̬̗̺͇̬̻͖̳͈̹͈̹̖̦̠̺͇̟̰̾̿̉̅͌͂̑̓̒̃̏̄̄̉̇̿̈́̈́̌͂́͛̉̂­̏̉̆̓̔̂̅̾̏͛̍̄̑̈́̈́̈̂͌͑̈́͒̎́̂̂̑͗̂̂̔̇͌̏͂̅̈̿͛́̂̂̃̅̑́̊́̍̈́́̚̚͜͝͝ͅ




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Just­ ******* end it
Empire Jun 2019
I’m so tired
Tired of fighting
I just need a break...
A little reward
For all the turmoil
Something to quiet my mind
Cast out these demons
I’ll pick my sword back up
I swear it
It’s just... I’m growing weary
And I’m not sure
How much more of this
I can endure
Empire Jun 2019
I am my own worst enemy
I want to blame it on something else
Blame my parents
Blame my school
Blame my brain chemistry
Blame the universe
Blame the demons
Blame God...
But honestly...
It’s me.
Something within
Wants to rebel from goodness
Wants to feel the thrill of pain
The pleasure of sin
And I know it’ll be my end
But I hardly care...
I’m always at war with myself
Because in the quiet of night
It becomes so very clear
I am my own worst enemy
That was oddly freeing....
Empire Apr 2020
I just want to throw all the ******* pills
Out of the ******* window
But they’re the only things keeping me sane enough
To not slit my wrist open tonight
Empire May 2019
I think I understand now
I’m not looking to die
I’m just looking
To be reminded
Why I am alive
Empire Jan 2020
I don’t want to celebrate my birth
Because right now
It feels like a massive error
I’ve lost my desire to exist
And if I could simply
Blink myself out of existence
I wouldn’t hesitate
To go through with it
How do you fight suicidal thoughts when you don’t want to...
Empire Mar 2019
I need you to know
You have to let me go
I’m not helpless
I am relentless

My body cries out
It screams in frustration
And I have no doubt
That what I crave is liberation

You have no right to control
It’s taking a toll
I’m not your toy
That you can destroy
Don’t tell me I’m strong, treat me like I’m weak, then wonder why I don’t trust you.

You’ve made me your prisoner. Just because you left my gate open doesn’t mean I’m free to go. I know better.
Empire Jun 2019
Abba, be my peace
When lucidity becomes
My arch enemy
“Abba” is an Aramaic term for “father” used in translations of the Bible to denote a loving and deep paternal relationship with God
Empire Mar 2019
I hear people
Speak of such things
Such feelings
Such thrill
Something utterly
Useless
Empty
Stupid
But that makes
You feel
Euphoric

Something that
Provides escape
From the harshness
Of reality
Something that
Floods the
Mind and
Body
With bliss
Euphoric

But I
I have so many rules
So many regulations
Expectations
That I am not allowed
Something so
Ridiculous
Tantalizing
Intoxicating
Euphoric

So instead,
I pretend
I write
I read
Reaching for that
Which I am
Not allowed
My ever-elusive
Euphoria
Empire May 2020
I’m not going to survive alone
I can go through the motions
I can push through the days
But in the quiet privacy of solitude
I’m faced with everything I hate
Staring back through the mirror
Looking into my cold, steel eyes
Everything I hate
Everything that makes me want to implode
I want to disappear
Empire May 2020
I don’t want to go to the lake

It’s too cold
I don’t have a swimsuit
I haven’t been eating well
I don’t like swimming
I don’t like being outside
I just don’t want to

These are all my excuses
But in reality...

I don’t want to have to tell you
There are dark, fresh scars on my thigh
On my wrist as well
I don’t want you to worry
I don’t want to have to explain
I haven’t had scars this time of year before... I didn’t expect it to get this bad... I thought I’d be able to hide them...
Empire Jun 2019
I don’t really want to be cold
I don’t really want to be in pain
I don’t really want to be fighting

Honestly, it’s exhausting

I just sort of....

I want to be wrapped in a warm embrace
I want to be caressed by someone kind
I want to be affirmed gently

Perhaps it would ease my burdens
Perhaps it would bring me peace
Perhaps it would allow me to rest

Because, frankly,
I’m exhausted
Empire Dec 2020
tw suicidal thoughts



There’s no purpose in this life
No joy to be found
Every bit of pleasure is just a reminder
Of how empty this existence is
I’d like to say I still believe
But my faith is failing
My purpose is disappearing
And it would now seem
That the only reason I continue to live
Is because of the hassle it would take to die
I’d like to get drunk but that too will fade... so will the pain of cutting... the pleasure of lust...
Empire Jan 2020
Why is it
That this depression
Is the only thing in my life
I can actually count on
?
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