I hear people
Speak of such things
Such feelings
Such thrill
Something utterly
Useless
Empty
Stupid
But that makes
You feel
Euphoric

Something that
Provides escape
From the harshness
Of reality
Something that
Floods the
Mind and
Body
With bliss
Euphoric

But I
I have so many rules
So many regulations
Expectations
That I am not allowed
Something so
Ridiculous
Tantalizing
Intoxicating
Euphoric

So instead,
I pretend
I write
I read
Reaching for that
Which I am
Not allowed
My ever-elusive
Euphoria