My life is a game
Of jenga.
The blocks are everything I love
But the tower is falling
So fast.
And the pieces bounce off
Of my hands as I try to catch them.
At the end of the day
I have nothing.

I guess the step I took
Was too heavy.
The thin ice finally broke
And we are slowly sinking
To the bottom.
Unable to breathe,
Conscious every second.

i whisper
"you are my everything"
into the darkness
in hopes that one day
you will echo them back from within

People don't change
Their masks do

Remember the nights we got drunk on moonlight
And shared secrets
But I sit here alone
With heart heavy as stone
And so many regrets.

I turned myself into an umbrella
To protect you from the rain
But even though you were dry
You still felt the pain

I yearn for the warmth I felt
When I looked into your eyes
And for the strength I felt
In the fortress of your arms
And I search for the colors of the universe
That disappeared when you left

They say “eyes are the windows
To the soul”
And yours, my love,
Are made of stardust

Sometimes I stop and ask myself,
was the poetry worth
the pain
in the end?

People say,
Be happy,
But for me,
Happy doesn't write
Good poems.

You didn't give me a set of wings,
You simply showed me the beautiful pair
That I had never knew I had.

Here lies the memory of a girl
Who used to have a heart of gold
Who was filled with warmth and happiness
Until the world went and made her cold.
Here lies the memory of a girl
Who heard music and sang along
But now she lays vacant with tears in her eyes
When she hears that exact same song.
Here lies the memory of a girl
Who wished upon the stars
But instead of counting wishes
She now spends her nights counting her scars.
Here lies the memory of a girl
Who would play in the rain,
And now she spends that time using it
To wash away the pain.
Here lies the memory of a girl  
Who didn't guard her heart
But who now has 6 inch steel walls
To keep it from falling apart.
Here lies the memory of a girl  
Who believed in happy endings
Who's heart is now broken
One she's constantly mending.
Here lies the memory of a girl  
Who is now dead,
Who paints art on her skin with needles
Replaced by the demons in her head.

Without you
I can be me.
Without you
I can breathe.

In another life,
You’ll come home to me.
But for now I’ll just have
To miss you
In this one

Wake up
Go to work
Lay in bed alone
Feeling the crushing weight
Of loneliness
And all my past mistakes.

Repeat

I don’t know the last time the skin
Kissed itself on the corners of my eyes
My laughs are as hollow
As the smile they emanate from

I don't want kisses on the lips.
Kiss my forehead instead.
I don't want movie dates
I want walks in the rain.
I want nights on the couch
Curled up with you.
Reading poetry
And drinking tea.

She kept making herself smaller,
Putting herself into a box
To try to fit into everyone else's world
Silently praying that one day
She would come across someone
That would open her up

As I look at you
I fall in love with all of the things
I feared about my future
And for the first time,
I fell in love with the idea
Of getting there.

His soul was as colourful as a rainbow
And I,
I,
Am black and white
With a little bit of grey

Oh my,
You have no idea
How much you mean to me.
You saved me,
Losing you would
Destroy me.

If I am left,
Then he is right.
If he is day,
Then I am night.
If he is right,
Then I am wrong.
If I am dusk,
He is dawn.
If I am here
Then he is there.
If he is grounded
Then I’m in the air.
If I am weak
Then he is strong.
And if things don’t change
Soon he’ll be gone

How many times
must I fall
before I stumble
upon the right one?

She wears her scars like trophies  
And tells each story proudly
Whenever someone doubts her strength.

Someone please save me
I'm starting to choke
All the words I never said
Are getting caught in my throat.

And when your demons
Are stealing the air from your lungs
I will put my lips to yours
And breathe life
Back into you

Why do I try so hard
To keep you in my life
When clearly you have no desire
To be in it?

Help me ease
My troubled soul.

I knew he didn't love me
But I adored him anyway
And even though my heart was screaming
I just couldn't stay away

I’m dying of starvation
For the love that I crave,
And the soul
That’s no longer mine

I wanted to spend forever with you.
I guess I didn’t realize how much
I already intertwined our forever
Into my life
Until I had to spend my nights alone
Trying to create a future
With the leftover pieces of my life
That Weren’t touched by you.

I want to remind you of the sun,
Its light will come again,
And no matter how dark it seems to get
The darkness always ends.
And I know it may seem impossible
Like it will forever go on
But I'm telling you the darkest hour
Is just before the dawn.

But I don't mind
I'll stay behind
with you.
While everyone's chasing the stars
Trying to find who they are
I'll stay here with you.

I have always been an incomplete song
You were the chorus
I have always been missing

Anyone else feel like they're
dreaming their lives away?

Anyone else sick of sleepwalking
through every day?

No matter what time
No matter what life
I will find you,
And our souls can become
One again.

Remember when I said
I was scared you'd get sick of me?
You scoffed and said not possible.
What a fool I was
To believe you.

The thing about pain,
is it never goes away,
but with one single tiny pill
you can escape it for a day.

Lately I've been sleepwalying through everyday
My life is black and white and I am dreaming in grey
Red letter day but I'm as blue as the sea
I'm falling fast, somoney please save me.

I sit here broke
Because my angel has choked
On its halo.

How do I keep tripping
Over something that is
So far behind me?

You are so full of life
And so full of love.
So full of emotion to share.
Full of smiles and laughs.
He deserves less
And you deserve so much more.

I can distract myself
Long enough
To forget how much I love you
Until it’s 2 AM
And my restless thoughts
Echo your name.

And so I wait
For the ghost melodies in my favorite songs
To stop whispering your name

These unspoken words
Are the noose in which
I hang myself with

I think it's hard to give you up
For the same reason a drug addict keeps going back,
The high is amazing,
Regardless of how deadly it is.

Maybe one day I can stop simply dreaming of happiness
and find it for myself.

The hardest part
Of letting you go
Is the fear that
I’ll lose myself too.

Good things take time,
I like to believe this can be the case
For people too.

I would crawl
across broken glass
just for another chance
at a love like ours.