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615 · Jun 2024
To build a home
Phia Jun 2024
Some moments I think I’ll be okay.
Like the earth beneath my feet isn’t shaking
Like my castle isn’t crumbling
Like every fiber of my existence doesn’t belong to you.
But then the earthquakes come
And the waves of emotion ensue
And I’m forced to face the fact
That now I’ll have to cherish the thought of you
For longer than I had you
And I’m forced to face the fact that I will not know The amazing things you’ll do
Nor the amazing person you’ll grow to be
I will no longer know what it’s like
To kiss you
To hug you
To laugh with you
To hold hands with you
To wake up everyday next to you.
To make memories with you

I’ll no longer know what it’s like to grow old with you

You brought me peace
And happiness
And home
I don’t want this
607 · Aug 2024
Love
Phia Aug 2024
I would crawl
across broken glass
just for another chance
at a love like ours.
For the most part I'm okay. I love the relationship that we have now and I wouldn't change anything about it. Sometimes though I wish it could go back to the way that it was.
601 · Aug 2016
What we call love
Phia Aug 2016
I think that we are all made to be alone,
But when we find someone who makes
The loneliness seem less lonely
And the silence a little lighter,
We call it love
Not exactly true
600 · Sep 2016
Take time
Phia Sep 2016
Good things take time,
I like to believe this can be the case
For people too.
600 · Aug 2023
A. B. (Part 8)
Phia Aug 2023
In you I found myself
And in you I lost myself
590 · Aug 2024
Different days
Phia Aug 2024
Some days are good days
Some days are bad days
Some days I simply exist
I live for the in between
589 · Aug 2016
6w
Phia Aug 2016
6w
I wanted it to be you.
585 · Jul 2016
Saving
Phia Jul 2016
Don't fashion me into someone who needs saving
I'm not a princess,
I'm a fighter.
577 · May 2016
Life or die?
Phia May 2016
Do you want me willing to live for you
Or willing to die for you?
573 · Aug 2016
Next to me
Phia Aug 2016
Maybe one day I'll be lucky enough
To have you next to me
But for now I'll just have
To keep you in my poetry
571 · Jul 2016
Nothing
Phia Jul 2016
I gave you
The whole world,
The sun,
Moon,
Stars.
It wasn't until you left,
And I sat in the sunless days
And the moonless nights,
That I realized you took
Everything
And gave
Nothing.
564 · Sep 2016
Thoughts
Phia Sep 2016
And so we hold on,
despite the heartache
we hold on.
Despite the pain
we hold on,
despite the scars
we hold on.
Despite the sadness, and loneliness and tears
we hold on.
Why do we hold on?

We hold on out of hope
that one day things will be okay
we hope.
For the person that we fell in love with to return
we hope
that the mask we fell in love with wasn't really a mask at all
we hope.
that maybe we didn't get ******* over
and that this will be the person who finally loves us for all that we are.

So we hold on to hope, despite it all
thinking maybe
this will be it.
I kind of rambled and it makes no sense written out but it did in my head. Hope I got the point across
564 · Nov 2016
Maybe
Phia Nov 2016
Maybe we were meant to fall together
Maybe we were doomed to fall apart.
563 · Nov 2016
Dont forget
Phia Nov 2016
Don't forget who you were
Before the world tore you apart.

Don't forget who you were,
Before the world told you
who you should be
559 · Dec 2024
AMB V
Phia Dec 2024
I truly think our souls
Are eternally intertwined.
I will find you
And love you
In every lifetime.
558 · Aug 2016
Choosing me
Phia Aug 2016
I don't blame you for not choosing me.
Why choose something broken and damaged,
When you can have something beautiful
And whole instead.
551 · Aug 2016
Last dance
Phia Aug 2016
It's okay,
Dance with as many people
As you feel you need to in order
To tame your wild soul,
All I ask,
Is you save the last dance
For me.
543 · May 2017
Dust
Phia May 2017
You beat my heart to dust
Then used it too make a wish
For the heart of another girl.
It's 1:03 am here on the east coast of America and I can't sleep. It's finals week for us seniors so I should be sleeping but I feel like I have something in me that needs to come out. I guess this one's for you jack, another poem for you that you'll never read.
543 · Sep 2016
Your scars
Phia Sep 2016
I want to know about
all your battles and wars
And I'll show you my scars
If you show me yours.
542 · May 2017
Cuts
Phia May 2017
The worst part about it all
Is that it stings in the shower,
And I'm so sorry, if you're
One of the poor unfortunate souls
Who knows exactly what I'm
Talking about
I've recently self harmed, within the last 10 minutes of writing these few little thoughts. I need help. God please send help
532 · Aug 2016
Being alone
Phia Aug 2016
Being alone
Makes me feel less lonely.
531 · Jul 2024
Another one for you
Phia Jul 2024
I am defeated
As I lay myself bare
I have nothing left to give
Just some ramblings after another difficult conversation
528 · Aug 2016
Why i haven't left
Phia Aug 2016
You asked me why I haven't left yet.
I haven't left because you are worth fighting for.
I haven't left because you mean the world to me.
You brought light into a world I thought was doomed to be dark forever.
I haven't left because you didn't give up on me.
I haven't left because I can honestly say,
I think I'm in love with you
For jack
526 · Nov 2016
Wes (pt III)
Phia Nov 2016
You are the perfect song
I've never known how to write
And the melody
I have always been searching for.
524 · Jun 2016
Every molecule
Phia Jun 2016
Every molecule
Every part of me
Aches for you
522 · Jul 2024
Catharsis
Phia Jul 2024
The sky is crying
And so am I
It’s been a hard month
513 · Aug 2016
Breathe life into you
Phia Aug 2016
If the demons
Are sitting on your lungs
And stealing all the air from you,
I will put my lips to yours
And breathe life back into you.
505 · Jul 2016
Your beauty
Phia Jul 2016
When did the world
Start determining
Your beauty?
505 · Sep 2024
Miserable consistency
Phia Sep 2024
And now,
the only constant in my life
is my depression
i'm sorry that most of my writing is about my mental health and depression. This feels like the only place I can let some of it go so that it doesn't **** me
503 · Jul 2016
What do i look like?
Phia Jul 2016
If you were an artist
How would you sketch me?
With dark colours
But carefree pencil marks?
If you were a writer
How would you describe me?
Would you use sweet words
But meaningful ones?
What do I look like to you?
501 · Nov 2016
Kyle
Phia Nov 2016
They say that sometimes
The people who build you up
Are the ones to tear you down,
And the saddest part is,
No one realises it until
It's too late.
497 · May 2016
Unsinkable
Phia May 2016
They say friendship is an unsinkable boat
to those still here I must say "Thanks",
But remember the Titanic was unsinkable too,
but in the end it sank.
490 · Oct 2016
10 words
Phia Oct 2016
Don't let them question you,
But always keep them wondering.
489 · Sep 2016
Perfect time
Phia Sep 2016
I need to understand
That just because the timing was perfect for me
Doesn't mean it was perfect for you.
And no matter how hard I pray
There may never be a perfect time
For us.
489 · Aug 2016
The silence
Phia Aug 2016
It's not what you said,
But the silence you left
That cut through me
Like a knife.
484 · Aug 2016
To my father
Phia Aug 2016
After 16 years,
You'd think he would be able to spell
His own daughters name.
476 · Mar 2016
For Those Who Self Harm
Phia Mar 2016
Today is the day
to throw the razors away.
It’s self harm awareness day.
I know that it’s a hard thing to do.
But I know that you can make it through
There are other’s out there that are just like you
I’ll give you a list if it will convince you it’s true
so put down your razors, your scissors your knife
It is just a bad day and not a bad life
Replace those red marks with orange butterflies instead
and remember you are stronger than what’s in your head.
You are strong beautiful and never alone
you are amongst the bravest people I’ve ever known.
The month of March is Self Harm Awareness month; specifically March 1st. If you read this today, in support of the cause I would greatly appreciate it if you would wear orange, or draw an orange line on your wrist. Thank you. Stay strong, stay alive.
475 · May 2017
Tell me
Phia May 2017
Tell me,
Was my love not enough?
No, of course it was enough,
I loved you with everything I had.
You were just to blind to see it.
And now as your world keeps spinning on
Il be stuck standing still
Waiting for you to come unfreeze me
It's 1:17 am now. I'm tired, this one's for you jack
474 · Jul 2016
Romeo and Juliet
Phia Jul 2016
I snuck out to see you
Last night.
Romeo and Juliet style.
474 · Aug 2016
I cannot
Phia Aug 2016
I cannot stop the storm
But I will shield you from the rain
I will do whatever I can
To help you ease your pain.

I cannot keep your world from crumbling
But I'll help you start again
And if you need help picking up the pieces
I will lend a hand.

I cannot keep you from walking away
But just know I would love it
If you stayed
473 · Jul 2016
Our kiss
Phia Jul 2016
My lips still tingle
Whenever I think about
Our kiss.
472 · Jul 2016
Memories of you
Phia Jul 2016
I stood there in the rain
Hoping that maybe
It would wash away
All of my memories
Of you.
469 · Jun 2016
The girl you left behind
Phia Jun 2016
You can look but you won't find
The girl that you left behind.
An idea for a new song, please comment and let me know what you think!
465 · Sep 2016
Your arms
Phia Sep 2016
I would give up 10 years
To go back to that night
And relive being in your arms.
464 · Jul 2024
Our little infinity
Phia Jul 2024
And in those moments,
However fleeting,
I thought we would make it;
I thought we were infinite
I miss you
459 · Sep 2016
The Storm
Phia Sep 2016
Oh honey,
you're not strong enough
to handle me.
459 · Aug 2016
You told me
Phia Aug 2016
You told me that you loved the rain
I should've known it was a lie
When you realized I am a hurricane
You quickly said goodbye
Phia Sep 2016
Life is a locked door,
but somebody stole my key
labeled "happiness".
They say happiness is the key to life, but I can't find my key.
Phia May 2017
What happened to the little girl
The one who dreamed of fairytales
What happened to the little girl
Who played make believe
Who wanted to grow up to be an
Astronaut?
What happened to the little girl
Who thought the world to be a magical place
Who dreamed of reaching the stars and keeping
Them in a jar to light her way
Who dreamed of prince charming on white horses
Well she now lies in bed with tears streaming down her face
Begging to die.
She now paints pictures on her skin with a metal paintbrush
She's more broken than she is beautiful.
She no longer dreams of stars and fairytales
Now her only happily ever after is

Death
Sorry I'm a wee bit rusty with my poetry.
456 · Jul 2016
Clock
Phia Jul 2016
As I stare at the clock
I begin to realize
That time waits
For no one,
If you wanted to spend time
With me,
You would find it.
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