The eyes of children are filled with light,
The eyes of children know not of plight.
The eyes of children are innocent,
But purity's death is imminent.

Children become slaves to this world,
This world that tells them to obey,
Slaps trauma onto their souls,
Reprimands them when they play.

Too many kids, tears in their eyes,
Stare into mirrors, faces they despise.
Too many scars, on too many wrists,
Too much instability, too many shifts.

Some kids have known only pain,
Seen petrifying things from early age.
These kids must overcome,
Turn the world's book to a new page.

These kids are the ones who can teach,
These kids are the ones who see,
They see the world is broken,
This is not how it should be.

Cigarette between my fingers,
I watch the smoke drift away;
Not normally a smoker,
But I am today.

Smoke meant to ****,
Somehow makes me feel alive.
I inhale it as deep as possible,
But internally I cry.

Who am I?
I do not know.
Time to carry on
This tiring show.

I have not endured the greatest tragedies,
Which adorn the pages of history in black ink,
But I do know what heartbreak is,
How it feels to fall apart and sink.

Few would be allowed to bleed their emotion,
Were we to compare our struggles to those.
Each experience deserves notice,
Even those struggles of which few know.

Words are for all of us.
Engage in this art.
Sometimes it will be how
You do not fall apart.

When I made the decision to leave behind everything that I loved, it wasn't my choice, it wasn't me giving you enough.

When I endowed with you my trust, it wasn't my intention to surrender to your endless suffering attention.

I was never enough for you, never the boy you wanted, I never earned your hate, always avoiding being confronted.

You hated when I would cry, hating me, cursing me, telling me to die.

And now the thin red marks, lining my wrists, show everyone how much I will never be missed.

When my life ends soon, they should all blame you, the one who said never to yourself should you stay true.

Poetry is a complex expression,
Used to erase our present reality;
It can't properly represent
Or even explain mortality.

It is beautiful even when morbid,
Appealing even when distressing;
It goes to work on life's issues,
Caressing and confessing.

It makes my soul happy,
These words written in emotional haste,
Serving to remove my soul from
This unchanging place.

This life is yours.
Cradle it in your palm.
Build your own doors.

Your appearance is yours.
Your personality is yours.
Your mind - yours.

Reach for the stars.
I know it can be hard.
But never stop reaching far.

My mind is on fire,
And I'm out of control.
The choices I make
Wreak a heavy toll.

You learn in life that
No one gives a ****.
You learn that in the end,
You're **** out of luck.

People are full of empty promises,
All talk and no action.
Dividing you into broken
******* factions.

No more mincing words,
I am ******* ******.
Your lack of transparency
Will not be missed.

Goodbye,
I hate you.
Thanks for nothing.

He told me that he loved me,
But his actions said this:
"I love what you do for me,
Now give me a kiss."

"I will not help,
But I want this and that.
Don't you love me?
Please be my doormat."

And I did, because I loved you.
My family saw it before I;
They saw what you were doing,
How you made me want to die.

How you pushed them away,
So I would depend on you alone.
Your resentment quickly grew,
If they even called my phone.

I don't even think you knew
How controlling you became.
You made me question myself,
Made me feel I was insane.

And even now, though it's over,
You have a hold on me.
I hate to admit it, but truth is,
It is plain to see.

im going insane
i cant feel the pain
theres nothing to gain
blood is a stain
how do i refrain

On this lonely night,
My mind travels to the past.
Why didn't it work?
Why didn't it last?

A whole year later,
Your name is still on my lips.
I hold it in but
Sometimes it slips.

Do you remember the beginning,
When we talked all day?
We would last forever.
That was what we'd say.

You were my peace,
My solace, and my rock.
We thought it would endure,
Could outlast the clock.

Love morphed to resentment,
Trust, to deceit.
Reassurance to fear,
Endurance to defeat.

People change,
But I thought we'd change together.
Our resolve blew away like
The wind tosses a feather.

I don't know how to believe in love.
I thought I had it.
I thought I had you.
I thought that we fit.

How can I trust myself,
When I was so wrong?
Five years with you
Didn't even seem long.

I hope you are well,
And that you know,
I'll love you forever,
Wherever you go.

Lies leave your lips
Like water from a leaky faucet

I weep for the children,
Nurtured in denial;
Taught to hate themselves,
As if living were a trial.

They say be yourself,
But don't be too bold.
You can express yourself,
But please fit our mold.

We love you unconditionally,
Unless you are gay.
For that is sinful,
You will surely pay.

Hypocrites raising children,
Are like a hammer to glass.
Destined to devastate,
Destined to smash.

Like whispers in the wind,
My words have gone.
What can I say?
What excuse can I don?

Being silent is easier,
Than conveying this grief.
The death of who I was,
The birth of disbelief?

Inching through life,
A broken shell.
I thought I had hit rock bottom,
But yet again I fell.

I stare into a stranger's eyes,
When I look in the mirror.
But behind the dull look
Is an overwhelming fear.

What if this never changes?
What if I can't come back?
If I'm gone forever?
If myself I'll always lack?

But more so than that,
I'm afraid of myself.
The atrocities I commit,
Cannot be good for my health.

I'm supposed to heal?
When I hate who I am?
Is that even possible,
Or is even trying a sham?

Take your medication.
Like candy each day.
If it's not working,
Then take it twice a day.

You don't feel like yourself?
You're complaining about that?
I thought after what you've done,
You'd be patting me on the back.

I guess it is better to be numb.
Than to feel this weight.
When I took that knife to my throat,
I had already decided my fate.

Like whispers in the wind,
My words have gone.
What can I say?
What excuse can I don?

Send me to prison.
The joke's on you.
It can't be worse
Than what I put myself through.

Take me away,
From this "life" that I lead.
It has grown unfamiliar,
So please hear my plea.

I don't know me,
But my family pretends to.
"We'll talk about it," they say.
But then we never do.

So judge me and hate me,
Critique and berate me.
Because even I
Cannot stand the sight of me.

Words can't hurt me,
Or at least that's what I say.
Because admitting it hurts,
Only creates more honest prey.

Small in your eyes,
And small in mine.
Like a speck of nothing;
Give me a sign.

Is there any meaning?
Should I go on?
What is the point in
Staying past dawn?

Let's be honest,
And tell the truth.
You hate me,
And I hate you.

You don't even know me,
Not that you want to.
You live your life in red;
I live mine in blue.

We have nothing in common.
That used to not matter.
But any semblance of friendship
Was led to shatter.

I fell in love with the idea of death;
A knife became my best friend,
And despite my goodness,
I wanted my life to end.

Sensitive by nature,
I cannot understand.
The hatred that people feel,
The answers they demand.

If you could see my soul,
You would live in shock;
Believe me, my friend,
I wish I could turn back the clock

A road that never ends,
Is terrifying to travel.
Will I be born anew,
Or will my mind unravel?