Sand on my hair,
Salt in my ears,
Fish on my toe.
I grabbed a handful of sand
and tossed it in the sea.
A ripple formed.
The hardened sand scattered into the sea;
tiny little grains;
And I remembered why I did not choose you.
It's because you never really loved me.

She turns off the lights,
lights a scented candle- lavender, her favorite.
She lays her tired body
and surrenders to the needs of her inner self.
She knows she's empowered.
She knows herself.
She knows what she wants.

Her petals wet with her desires.
She reaches inwards as deep as the night.

Her body quivers while she lets out soft moans
until she can take it no more; but she knows what she wants.
She never stopped reaching for the glory of self love.

Her moans grow louder.
Her state of mind in disarray.

An earthquake.
A huge internal earthquake.

Non-destructive.
Recuperative.

Pulse.  Pulse.  Pul­se.

She knows what she wants.
She breathes in deep and smiles.

Tonight, once again,  
I'm left in the corner, broken.
Tonight is yet another night

But I refuse to leave.

Tonight is full of excuses.
Once again, my heart's so used to, it grew calluses.
Tonight is yet another night

But I refuse to leave.

Sores of the universe
Come by me
Every string that I pluck
Makes a resonating sound

Hum with me, my dearest
Sing this simple song
And smile just because
Your sores will disappear

Sores of the universe
Don't hate me
Every string that I pluck
Makes a new wave

It echoes in the wind
Atomic clashes of matter
Alchemy of love
Oh sores of the universe

*Be gone now

A slap to the face but you're all
Dense *******.

Give me my life.

You gave me life but
You do not plan out what I should be doing with it.

GIVE ME MY LIFE

I chose to step out.
A lie for a lie.
What'd I become if I let them eat me alive?
*Where'd I go without holding on to dear life?

I'm as weak as a category 5 typhoon
I constantly need help
A fury so soft, everyone looked up
to see the intense gentleness

I'm as weak as a magnitude 9 on the Richter scale
The graphs wild with every seismic movement
That gently rocks everyone to permanent sleep
with a gentle lullaby that soothes your nerves

And I'm as strong as a feather
That tickles your innards and brain
To cry and laugh without fail
and make you stop breathing with a smile

I am letting my eyes bleed from my heart until there's none left for me to shed.

I am squeezing everything I feel until I am dried up so that I may become whole again.

*God, hold my heart tight enough so that pieces will stick back together again; and it may become whole again.

The taste of your tongue lingers on me
A taste of honey encrusted in gold
It shines and sparkles even in the dead of the night
Our muffled voices echo in these four walls

The room smelled of animal musk
A mix of heaven and sugar combined
Your taste supressed the heavenly bodies' light
and gave me light brighter than Sun.

I'm hanging on a piece of thread as I
Carefully unravel my heart and myself.

Don't catch me just yet;
You're not ready.
Don't wait for me to fall;
I will. In the right time, you'll catch me.

I'm finally free.

There will come a point in your life
When you will realize that:

The thing that you fought for,
The thing that you held so close for years and years,
The one thing that had kept you alive and breathing,
The only thing that had you sane,
The only  reason you thought you had that made you exist

Can be taken away from you by choice or by fate
In a blink of an eye

Without any warning of any kind
Without a second chance

To make you realize that you are human.

*You are human and you are loved.

I love because I can.
You take
and take until
What's left of me is a shrunken heart;
But it will never
Ever stop beating.
Even if you make me feel like
nothing.

I see your sacrifices.
Yes, I do.
But think of me, too.
I'm an emotional machine that keeps on swimming in an ocean of dense *******' fish.

break the habits that are all too familiar

There. You saw me- my weaknesses, my strengths, my vulnerabilities.

My love, you are no longer "my love".
You kicked me out of the door
After all these years of me giving love to you.
Thanks, I needed the exit long ago.

My love that's no longer my love,
You never went out of your way for me
and I always covered you for it all these years.

You know what I could do
But I choose not to
Because I will NEVER stoop down to your level.

Thank you.
Thank you for the memories.
Thank you for the lessons.
Thank you for for raising my standards.

I will never settle for anything less than what I deserve.

A kiss that ***** the life source out of me.