Sometimes
No matter
How much you hurt
You abuse
You mistreat
And how much
You push
Someone in your life...
They seem to always be there for you.

That is true friendship
Im sorry
It took me so long to see this
Im sorry
I have treated you as i have
Im sorry
Im useless
I really do care
I really am sorry
You've always been here

I'm just me...
An expectation by royal decree,
Why should you ask for so much,
Knowing I could never please you as such?

Set the bar high
So I know my place
When you were wanting to die
I was left as nothing but a disgrace

Set the bar low
So I know your trust
When you were wanting to go
I was left to nothing but rust

Set the bar fair
So I know of chance
When you were wanting to be happy my dear
I was left as a puppet to dance

Set the bar high
So I know how it feels
When you were wanting to break down and cry
I was left alone as my heart reels

Set the bar low
So I know where to fall
When you were wanting answers I didnt know
I was left with nothing at all

Set the bar fair
So I know you love me
When you were wanting everything to be square
*I was left patiently waiting to see

In your eyes,
I have found my home.
In your heart,
I have found my love.
In your soul,
I have found my mate.
With you,
I am whole. Full. Alive.
You make me laugh, You let me cry.
You are my breath,
My every heartbeat.
I am yours
You are mine,
Of this we are certain.
You are lodged in my heart,
The small key is lost.
You must stay *forever.

You are my inspiration,
And my soul's fire.
You are the magic of my days,
You help me laugh, you teach me love.
Each day I rediscover you,
You are my greatest gift.
I am yours
You are mine,
Of this we are certain.
You are lodged in my heart,
The small key is lost.
You must stay with me *forever.

1.) I wish I could live up to everyones expectations

2.) I wish People wouldn't double standard me

3.) I wish I was more than just a mistake to you

4.) I wish You could see what I do to me,  and just what I feel

5.) I wish I wasnt subordinate. Actually held meaning

6.) I wish I hadn't ended up at the nurses office from collapsing at school from crying too much

7.) I wish I could remember how to smile

8.) I wish the broken pieces of my heart would fit back the way they were before

9.) I wish I had an ounce of intelligence that might serve me well time to time

10.) I wish you'd stop blaming me for everything and making me try to live up to (fail) your high expectations

11.) I wish I could take back the horrible things I've said and done

12.) I wish I could give you a life you deserve

13.) I wish I was with you more... closer perhaps

14.) I wish I didn't have a reason to live anymore

15.) I wish that people will read this and choose better than to judge me

16.) I wish I wasnt always afraid...

Tell me once
I won't listen

Tell me twice
I will shake my head

Tell me a third time
I will glare at you and get angry

Tell me a fourth
I will start yelling at you

Tell a fifth and final time*
*I will snap and tell you to shut the **** up and leave me alone and to explain on what grounds you would have the right

Dear Friend,

If thats really what you are... Can I still call you that? I'd very much hate to do so.

Thank you
Thank you* for treating me so deservingly with your coldhearted, excuse ridden backstabbing attitude. It means the world to me that you would destroy the little happiness that had built up over the past couple of days.
Life is hard right now, all I need is people there for me and supporting me and keeping me distracted and happy, but
Thank you
Thank you for treating me like trash, like I am nothing, and like you cant talk to me cause youre "afraid to hurt and upset" me again.
You seem to be doing a fine job of that already.

*Thanks for nothing,
Me.

I'm so sorry...

Broken just enough
To feel empty inside
But still manage a smile

Hurt just enough
To have cried myself asleep
But still got up in the morning

Pain is just enough
To leave my arm burning red
But not cut

Heartbroken just enough
To find no worth in continuing
But remaining strong enough for us both

Everything just enough*
To break my spirit
To break my will
To break my faith
To ruin my happiness
To ruin me
But I keep going with a smile

Love together, or apart.
Our love resides within my heart.
Within this love, our souls entwine,
Together forever, yours and mine.

Somedays
Im not strong enough
To carry on

Somedays
Im not brave enough
To ask for your help

Somedays
Im not open enough
To show how I really feel

Somedays
I dont care enough
For how I am

Somedays
I dont eat enough
Choosing starvation

Somedays*
I dont want life enough
To wanna continue

Somedays
I just feel empty inside
Screaming silently

You can't* keep everyone happy
In the end,
Someone draws the short straw
There's got to be someone
Who doesn't get their happy ending

You can't have more than a few friends
When it comes to it,
They'll all get jealous of what you do for one but not another
Until you lose those closest to you

You cant do what you want
Always dictated to,
Being told what you can and can't do
Forever restricted

You can't talk to other girls
They're threats,
No matter who or what they are
You'll be stolen away by them

You dont get a say
About what's happening,
Word equals law, no ifs or buts
Subordinate

You are powerless
You are voiceless
You are relentless
You are subordinate

*You are the one who chooses to stay despite it all

I am far from perfect
As far from perfect as I am from you

I am tall
More over im intimidating and imposing, it just means I have further to fall

I am not at all bright
Lacking common sense I can never see the answer written in plain sight

I have a massive heart
Its worn on my sleeve. Vulnerable to everything, forever abused and falling. apart

I am far from perfect,
As far from it as I am to *you

To* Refuse to let her slip away...
Write To pass another day...
Love is all there is to us...
On her arms should our love be spelt out...
Arms** to remind her everyday...

There is no reversing it
You cannot take back
Whats said and done

There no bargaining with it
When your time is up
There is nothing you can do or say

Theres no taking back what was said
Anymore so than what wasnt
There is no taking back what one has done
No more so than what one forgot to

Just like my actions
I cannot take back these bruises on my thighs
Anymore so that I
Can take back the black around my eyes

Will things ever be the same?
Ironically
Only time will tell

I used to think I was
Thought nothing would ever touch me
Could ever
Yet once I awoke I found this was not the case
Seemingly everything got me

I used to think I would always be
Thinking that such thought would never plague me
Could never
Yet I found the more time passed
The more those thoughts hit me

I liked to think that I was
For the sake of me, for us
Impervious was a trait I had to hold
Without it, I'd be a mess

Over time I became Impervious
People words couldnt touch me
They held no meaning
Why do your words hit me?
How do they cut me through chainmail will?

I am Impervious, I am Imperfect, I am Impure, I am Ignorant
Simply I, *me
Am Impervious to the way of this world
All but to you, who solely holds my strings

I used to think I was Impervious
Now im not so sure...

Where will you be..?*

Tell me brave knight,
As the path in front of you became twisted
Did you falter?
When the skies turned puce, withered
Scattered. Were you afraid?

Along you rode, high and mighty
To what did you find nearing the end
Nothing but trials
Tribulations, set before you to prove your worth
Was it here that your spirit died?

Loves hate that burns inside
How long before you were choked on your own tears?
Before your darkest of fears stripped your honour
As the ground beneath you began to break and vanish
Did you wish to turn and run? You continued
As everything around you fell to the
Dark abyss, can you say you remained strong?

As it all fell
Where were you?
Tell me brave knight...
After it all, would you keep pushing forward?

Not once, but twice
Have I outrun this darkness
Yet behind me, it looms closer than ever
Its unrelenting pursuit halted, when we're together

Not once, but twice
Have I slain these demons
Fought with all of me, left battered and broken
Those battle scars are but my only token

Not once, but twice
Was my back against the wall
Forced unto it and pinned against my will
Fate had stricken me with the intent to ****

Not once, but twice*
Have I outrun this darkness
I wouldnt keep going if it wasnt for you
Nothing can stop me, this is what I do

*For you