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lost girl Aug 2014
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I'm scared to admit this
but, I miss you.
Is it bad that I wonder
if you think of me too?

(a.d)
lost girl Oct 2014
Be grateful for the darkness
that conceals your tears,
breaks your heart,
and brings forth your fears.

(a.d)
lost girl Jun 2014
I want someone to make me feel like I am
drunk when I am sober
alive when I am feeling down
And
free when I have restrictions.

(a.d)
I had this idea for a while and just didn't know how to put it together.
lost girl Jun 2014
Just don't give up on me
I need a second to breathe
I need you to see
Just how ****** up I can be.

Don't give up on me
I'm trying hard, don't you see?
I'm trying hard to be a better me.
I told you, I just need time to breathe.

You're giving up on me
Forgive me please
I couldn't be
All that you wanted me to be.

(a.d)
lost girl Sep 2014
stop crying
put on a smile
and keep trying.

(a.d)
lost girl Jun 2014
How long will it be
for you to finally see how twisted I can be?

How long will it be
before you realize I am not all that you thought up to be?

How long will it be
before you realize you would rather be free?

(a.d)
lost girl Aug 2014
I had a friend once
who taught me
what it feels like to have someone to truly care for.

I had a friend once
who taught me
the importance of not saying
"I Love You Too."
Just because someone wants me too.

I had a friend once**
who I started to love
but now it's through
cause it was too much to lose.

(a.d)
lost girl Jun 2014
I just really need a hug
From my mother
A kiss on the head
And a "Everything will be all right."

I just really need a hug
From my mother
A pat on the back
And a hand to wipe my tears away.

I just really need a hug
From my mother
A story from way back when
And a good laugh to make me feel whole

I just really need a hug
from my mother.



(a.d)
I love you mom.
lost girl Jun 2014
Anxiety
I can feel it coming
That shakiness in my hands that begins to spread throughout my body.
My heart beat begins to pick up speed. Getting louder & louder, until it's all I can hear.
Anxiety
Worry fills my every thought
And those thoughts consume me.

(a.d)
I suffer from anxiety
lost girl Jul 2014
i want to be part of a world
that feels alive every once in a while.
not like the city that never sleeps.
that's half dead most of the time.
i want to be part of a world
that recognizes life
that breathes
and
comes alive.

(a.d)
lost girl Sep 2014
i know the moment i fell for you.

it was when the skies were bright
and there was a twinkle in your eyes.
you were shaking your head
at something i said,
you were smiling widely
and your head was slightly bent.

i knew in that moment i was completely and utterly *******
and it was all because of you.
lost girl Jun 2014
Call me Day
            For with each day comes a new sunrise that chases away the darkness.
Call me Day
                  For with each day comes thousands of possibilities.
Call me Day
                     For each day brings new hope. Hope that life can be better.

(a.d)
can
lost girl Aug 2014
can
You can run but you can't hide
from the monsters that hide inside
ready for you once you close your eyes.

You can sleep
but you won't be able to keep
what you so desperately want to hide.

You can cry
but that won't stop the monsters
from attacking you from the inside.

(a.d)
lost girl Jun 2014
I can't stop crying
but then again, I haven't really been trying.
I don't even bother to wonder why
I know it's you who makes me cry.
I just can't stop thinking about the time you said bye.


(a.d)
lost girl Jun 2014
Can I make it?
Am I strong enough to take it?
Can I face it?
          It's coming.
          It's coming.
                              I'm shaking.
But let's face it.
I can't take it.
                              I was never that strong to begin with

(a.d)
lost girl Sep 2014
you asked me the other day
if i ever got afraid
"you are so fearless."
you said.
i let you believe it
while i laughed inside.

i am no where near fearless darling.
i'm sorry but it's true.
for one of my biggest fears is losing you.

(a.d)
lost girl May 2014
If I didn't write
I wouldn't be able to keep sane
'Cause, then there would be no way to deal with the pain.

(a.d)
lost girl May 2014
I'm sorry for being a bad daughter
Especially since you were both my mother & my father.

I'm sorry for all the times I snuck out & came home late
Especially since I knew the sight of my empty bed would make you faint.

I'm sorry for all the times I made you cry
Especially since I knew how much you would try.

I'm sorry for saying all those words of hate
Especially since it is now far too late.

I'm sorry I realized late
That you were far too great.

(a.d)
I love you mom
lost girl Jul 2014
I am desperate to find that sense of normality
I grasp for it
as if it is water
and I haven't had a drink for months.

I am desperate to find comfort in my life now
Rather than later
I am tired of waiting and feeling
as if I am an alien
in my own skin.

I am desperate to start living
I am stressed out
and tired of watching life
pass me by
as if I am invisible.

(a.d)
lost girl Oct 2014
My mother always tells me--
"Sweetie make sure you're not out too late, you wouldn't want to get *****.
You never know what will happen when you're walking the streets alone, always carry your phone.
Honey, never dress too provocatively you never know which eyes will see.
So please, cover up. Are you sure you don't want to wear the fleece?
There are sick people in this world
always be aware, you can't trust anyone anymore.
Never leave the house late and alone
You might not come home.
Always pick up the phone.
Honey, I want you to come home."

(a.d)
My mother is always telling me this and I am sure many other parents are having this talk with their daughters about this as well. It's sad that the world has come to this. That humans have resorted to taking away others rights. That they have made others live in fear. Little girls shouldn't have to hear this and grown women shouldn't have to constantly look over their shoulder when walking at night. Women shouldn't have to live in fear of other humans taking advantage of them. They shouldn't have to considered being ***** when walking out at night or when picking out what to wear.
It's sad that things are like this now.
lost girl Jul 2014
don't call me
when you're high
or drunk
don't call me
just because
you're sad and alone
and you just want to have some fun

(a.d)
lost girl Jul 2014
oh don't
throw me away
like a crumbled piece
of paper when you're
done with me.
when you have finished telling me
all your sorrows
and using me as a pillow.
don't discard me
and act like you don't care
'cause i do
and i don't think
i could bare.

(a.d)
End
lost girl Jun 2014
End
It's all coming to an end, I'll miss you my friend.
I close my eyes and count to ten.
I start thinking of that time way back when.
And I begin to cry
Again.

(a.d)
lost girl Oct 2014
Nothing lasts forever
I shouldn't have been naive
I'll always remember the times we had together.

Sometimes I wonder if it was worth the fall
Cause I landed and I landed hard.
I doubt things will ever be the same
And I only have myself to blame.

Will time stitch things back together?
Or will we stay scarred
and broken forever?  

(a.d)
X
lost girl Jul 2014
if time were flies
we wouldn't waste our time
on slapping them away
instead
we'd grasp them,
and try to
catch them.
If only time were flies.

(a.d)
Fly
lost girl Jun 2014
Fly
I wish I could fly
Because then I could say bye
To all the things that made me cry

(a.d)
lost girl Aug 2014
Oh honey, I am more free than the bird who flees.*

(a.d)
lost girl May 2014
Boys don't like sad girls
Boys don't like girls with cuts on their arms
Boys don't like girls who scream at night
Boys don't like girls with monsters in their head

Boys don't like girls like me.

(a.d)
lost girl Aug 2014
I thought what we had would last forever
but I guess nothing ever does.
Eventually it all would've died down.
I mean even the brightest flames eventually burn down to nothing.
Is that what we are? Nothing to each other now?
Have we gone back to being s t r a n g e r s ?

(a.d)
lost girl May 2014
I should be happy.

I woke up alive and well,
I should be happy.

I have new books to read,
I should be happy.

I have 490 songs on my iPod,
I should be happy.

I have good grades in school,
I should be happy.

I have friends who I can talk to and fangirl with,
I should be happy.

I'm young, I have my whole life ahead of me,
I should be happy.

I should be happy,
I'm not happy.

(a.d)
hi
lost girl Jun 2014
hi
if I could look back and see
the first moment my life
began to fall to pieces,
it would be to the moment
when
you
first
said
hi

(a.d)
lost girl Jun 2014
Your words hit me more than I'll ever admit.
Each word pushes me closer to the edge of this pit.
Your words of hate will soon seal my fate.

(a.d)
lost girl Aug 2014
she had broken parts
in important places.
hollow eyes
in meaningful gazes.

(a.d)
lost girl Jun 2014
Hush little darling, don't you cry
The more you cry, the more the demons will come by.
Hush little darling, don't say a word
You wouldn't want to be heard.
Hush little darling, don't move an inch
The more you move, the more the demons will make you flinch.
Hush little darling, don't you dare sleep
For once you close your eyes, you're theirs to keep.

(a.d)
I wanted to do this for a while; I like how it came out.
idk
lost girl Jul 2014
idk
I don't know
how i feel about
anyone
myself
you
I don't know
if i want to
cry
fly
or sit and watch as time passes me by

(a.d)
lost girl Jul 2014
i don't usually write love poems
but when i do, they aren't about me
they're about observations.
Observations
of others in love.

- lost girl-
just a note.
lost girl May 2014
I hear the stories my books tell, all the different stories I hear.
Each one carries a new way of life.

Those of witchcraft and wizardry tells stories of magic, spells, and potions. Carrying the many whispers of witches and wizards, warlocks and giants.

Those of angels and demons tell of epic battles and fallen angels. The cries from the battlefield as heaven and hell clash call out to me.

Those of vampires tell of monsters that only come out at night, with cold touches and bloodlust. Of temptation and desolation.

Those of forbidden love tells stories of love lost and found again. Of happily never after's that carries broken promises. And soon the tears from the heart broken begin to match my own.

Those that tell of innocence lost, yearn to be consoled and heard. So that perhaps they're not alone and that their pain is shared. With the possibility of a silver lining.

I hear my books calling for me, I hear them loud and clear.

Each book yearning to unleash its story, welcoming me with into its world with open arms

(a.d)
Reading is a way of life for me.
lost girl May 2014
I like how I am slowly
                                          fading away
                                                           ­       and you don't even notice.

I like how I desperately
                                             need you
                                                  and you don't even give me a hand.
I like how I need you to
                                           notice me
                                                      and you don't even look my way.
I like how I am
                                          dying inside
                                                         ­             and you don't even care.

(a.d)
lost girl Aug 2014
I can't say that you broke my heart... exactly
'cause you were never really aware that you held my heart
in your hands
and I guess I wasn't really aware of it either.
Until it was too late.

(a.d)
lost girl Aug 2014
i don't want to, but i do.
i promised myself i wouldn't, but i did.
i wanted to protect the heart
and feelings
that i hide so deep inside.
but then you smiled
and now whenever
i close my eyes
that's all i see.

(a.d)
lost girl Sep 2014
I'm overwhelmed and it's all my fault.
I'm bleeding and I'm the one who pulled the blade.
I'm endlessly crying and I caused the tears.
I'm working hard and I'm the one holding myself back.
I'm having nightmares and I'm running from myself in those dreams.

(a.d)
I'm my own worse enemy.
lost girl Jun 2014
You say you love the rain
Yet you shield yourself from getting wet.
You say you love the sun
Yet you cover your eyes when it gets too bright.
You say you love the wind
Yet you turn away when it becomes too much.
You say you love the snow
Yet you stay inside when it gets too cold.

You say you love me
Yet I don't think so.

(a.d)
lost girl Jul 2014
I'm sorry
that I was too
"metaphorical"
for you
and
that
instead of showing
you
how I felt
I wrote about
you
instead.

(a.d)
lost girl Jul 2014
Just because you are insecure,
doesn't mean you aren't
beautiful
or smart
or pretty

(a.d)
lost girl Oct 2014
I'm alive but I'm not living
I'm walking around as if I am in a trance
I think I even forgot how to dance.
I am going through the motions
But I can never catch a chance --
A chance
to slow down and pause for a second
or maybe two
maybe then I would be able to see
what is really true.

(a.d)
lost girl Jun 2014
I've been having a hard time lately
I'm sorry about that baby.
I close my eyes
And thoughts of what would have been flows by.
I squeeze my eyes to keep from crying.
I've been doing that a lot lately.
I just haven't been the same since I lost the baby.


(a.d)
Not about me.
lost girl Jun 2014
lost girl
It holds so much truth
But then it doesn't.
I mean
I know where I am.
But do I really know *who
I am?
I guess not.
lost girl
It holds so much truth
But all the same
That's not really my name.

(a.d)
lost girl Oct 2014
If I could write a love letter to the dead
I would write a letter
to our star crossed love that came when we were young
and seemed as if it would last forever.
That made us feel as if we were infinite
As if we can live forever, together and alive in each others love.

That's not possible anymore.
Now all I have left are my love letters to the dead.
〰(a.d)
lost girl Sep 2014
I'm scarred to admit this but -
I think we made a mistake.
I know that something's are better left unsaid
and that this is a huge risk to take
But I don't think things are going so great.
I don't know if I'm the only one feeling this way -
or if you see it too.
Sometimes I think that we would be doing better
if we had never been together.

Just know that I will love you forever,
I just feel that loving you from afar would be better.

(a.d)
Written on the back of an envelope
lost girl Jul 2014
Make way for the depressed teen
they're all like that nowadays
someone probably just broke her heart
she'll learn to deal.
No big deal.
I mean as long as she doesn't steal

She's just a teen
she'll get over it real quick
Probably come home late
trying to take a break

she's not trying.

Did you see the cuts on her arms?
It's probably a new thing now
it shouldn't cause no harm.
It's just an arm.  

Oh she's just depressed
Like the walking dead, but just better dressed.
She'll get over it real quick,
I mean it's not serious or anything.  She's just depressed.

(a.d)
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