Hes a narcissist
Tricking his prey to love him
And once she has nothing else to give him
He lets go
Shes melting in the snow

Shes melting in the snow

Like the warmth of the sun
Like the green of the grass
Like the breeze of the wind
She was April warm and kind

Looking out for everyone and smiles at strangers
You wouldn't notice the cold of the winter
But it was freezing cold, it was intense
Shaking and giving her shoulder and shirt away
"Take it" she says until she is left with nothing

The cold removes her smile
People start noticing yet they do nothing
She has nothing left to give so they forget

Another warmth of the sun comes along
The grass is even greener
The breeze is even stronger
This is summer

One glance
One look
Once smile
And she would fall for him
And she would love him forever

Its been a while since I wrote
The thing is, I wanted to show
Show who I am
And for what I stand
Without saying a word

Too bad it didn't work

I could wait for you all my life
With only simple glances to keep me going

"Smile for me"
he never did

I keep wondering what it would be like
To have feelings
To smile or feel sympathetic
To have a reason to live, other then yourself
To not see people as objects and tools
But then I see everyones tear and pain
Because they love someone so much
Its funny
Maybe im better like this

"Sorry there isn't enough seats for all of us"
"Sorry I forgot to tell you"
"Sorry you don't have that shirt"
"No your my best friend too... its jus-"
"Stop... no worries"
the last part was whisper

“Why do you always distance  yourself when we get closer...like if you don't want to be friends just say it”
“Okay... I don't want to friends”
When I was 8:
I met this guy
He was nice and kind
He was short and shaped like a ball
He still made me fall
Deep in his eyes
I felt alive
After a while we stoped talking and I never saw him again

When I was 9 my best friends of all my life:
Left
With no regret in their eyes
Like they see something they despise
And all those night thinking I wasn't enough
Were very rough
Losing the only people you love is very tough

When I was 11 :
I understood that they were gone
And I moved on
Thats when I met him
The only one that could make me laugh
Like back then

When I was 12 :
He didn't like me anymore
Says he got bored

When I was 13:
I saw him again
The short was shaped like a ball
Except he wasn't like that at all
He got taller
Taller than my father
He got toned
And it showed
I felt a blush creep on my face
I said hey and he smiled

When I was sure there wasn't any love left:
I trusted her
I told her I liked him
She understood I could never walk up to him
So she did
She got his number
His hoodie
His love

When I gave up:
“Yeah he likes me a lot but I dont”
I then understood  that if you love someone
They will leave
So sorry
But I dont want to be your friend

"What did you do this summer"
Flashbacks of me waking up at 2am to eat
Flashbacks of me up all night watching the office
Flashbacks of me sleeping in the day
"So much" I answer with a smile

I never thought you could be that type of guy. Yet deep inside I always knew you were, I could see it in your eyes when you looked at girls. I could see it in your smile when you talked to them. I could see it in your legs when you walked to them. Everything about the way you looked and acted showed you were a bad guy for me. But I couldn't get you out my head, so I started to think about all the good things you would do when we were kids. I started seeing that little boy in you. I was too naive to see the truth. Even when it was right in front of me. The truth is that you use girls, to you they are something you can throw away. Sadly, I wished you could have used me...at least got to know me… that something about me could make you change and stay. But nothing I do could make you see. Cant you see...im the person that really cares. But you cant see that. We haven't had a conversation longer than 3min in 4 years. We drifted apart. And now I wont see you again. Ever again. Next month is the party I will see you. I wont see you , I will see a boy who was once my world but is now a memory of a painful hell he didn't know he was giving me. I never thought you could be that guy, but you are.

I spent the last night of summer with you
I know ill see you again soon
Till then I will look at the moon
And cry in my room
Im going to assume
But I know for sure
That I love you

I cant really say how you make me feel
But there something about being healed
This deep pit of emptiness
Suddenly gone
Replaced with the warmth of your arms

I hope you find
Just what you seek
What you couldn't see in me
I knew it would end in goodbye

Acting like I have no feelings to protect my feelings

Our minds are surrounded
Our minds are trapped
Of memories of people who
We love but will never love us back.

She changed
He noticed it in her eyes
The last time he acknowledged her was
before he left
When fresh tears came out her eyes
When she dedicated her love to him
But no matter what she did she couldn't stop him
from leaving
Her eyes held sadness and love
That he had never seen in anyone before
The kind of eyes when someone betrays you
This time
Her eyes had fire
And as he stood and looked at her
Her hair and the wind
Her eyes and the sun
This time
This time he saw her worth
Her love
Her strength
But this time she was strong enough to fight
Strong enough to say no.

Time separated us
It grabbed my heart and forced it into your chest
You now had a heart
I gave you everything
It grabbed "your" heart and gave it to her

I wish I could talk to you
But we are separated by too much time

Im sure we met in another life
Because no matter what you do
I keep going back to you
Time after time
Again and again

Do you understand how your eyes shine?
Do you understand how I love you?
Do you understand how I could never live without you?

Your on my mind
Most of the time

Once he left
She new things would never be the same
He would inevitably change

Tears because of uncontrolled fears

I wish you saw me
As something other than a friend

She made me realize what a bad person you are

I can see you
Slowly pulling away
Even though I beg you to stay

I smiled at you
When I was broken inside
Never realizing
You were always the reason I cried

Grow out my hair
Make you stare
But its not like you care

I swore I wouldn't love you
But its true
Theres something about you
That I cant find in anyone else

Because my pillow dosnt block the sound
Because they think im asleep
It dosnt matter if im sad
If they dont know

The only thing I want
The only thing I want is for all the tears to stop
The only thing I want is for everyone to smile
The only thing I want is for people to love each other
No matter race
No matter gender
No matter size
Because at the end of the day we are all born and we all die
Might as well make life the best of it

The thought of another human forming
Inside me

Oh my
I guess its not all so bad

She isn't weak
She really isn't but she was scared

My brains on the floor
Might as well smash me with the door

Why am I living?

Stop saying you love me
Just never say it again
Because I pretend
But if you keep saying that
I might stop lying to myself
That might stop your crying
And I might confess
That deep down I love you too.

The beating of my heart
And warm smiles
Is it okay to love you?

I annoy u, dont I?

That sick feeling
When you still want him
When you feel like you need him
When your heart hurts when you think about him
Even after all the tears
You still want him
But you could never have him
Because he dosent want you

Screaming and crying
Its funny because
I'm always lying
Words like "i'm fine"
Cant change the truth
But can hide it.

And when there's no more tears
Not even fears or feelings seem to be around
Not a sound comes out
So you just kinda look around
Feeling your heart break

It's a funny thing, really
You felt so much pain
But at some point
You changed
And now you feel nothing

How could you forget so easily?
Even when it was meant to be

You cant try to forget and forgive
But the scars will remind you

Roses are red
Violets are blue
I bloomed into a flower
So will you

I try not to eat
To give my brain space
To think

You will always go back to  her
And I will always love you

I rarely look at the night sky
Because one glance
And I would give you another chance

“The only reason I write  poems is ... is to say  the things I could never  tell you”
“So can I read it”
“NO”

You are so close
Why would you give now

Everything you do seems to be bad
From the way you walk and talk
I could tell you think your all that
I think I hate you
For hurting me a way no one has
But I know I love you