Materialize, **** you!
I claw at floorboards, fingers grow ******
I know you're here, waiting and watching
Wanting me to slip
Slip back into a sedated haze
Throwing myself away in a gilded dumpster
With ****** filigree to adorn
The walls hung with pictures to my past mistakes
But I will rip you out of me
And cast you into time and space
As you twist wicked tendrils around the next fool
With soft silky face you ******
The unwitting and unwilling to change
But I will change myself
If I have to take steel spades and dig you out of my heart
I would rather lie ****** on filthy bedsheets
As cold shivers climb through my bones
Then let you grip me again
And bury me in black tar dreams

01101001 00100000 01101100 01101111 01110110 01100101 00100000 01111001 01101111 01110101

Expressed through a galvanized circulation system
Increase lubrication and lower friction
Temperature rises in the generator core
Coolant system is online, watch the gauges, Paul
Apply power to the speaker system
Recalculate the algebraic expression, remember to factor
Translate message:

01101001 00100000 01101100 01101111 01110110 01100101 00100000 01111001 01101111 01110101...  I love you

Note:  This is some random crazy stuff an old dude said to me on a bus and does not constitute an opinion of the artist.  I just wanted to share.

"Boy, never run backward
Through a cornfield
Without your overalls on...
Unless you have a *** of warm butter."

Heave **! Your cry astounds
Flummoxing your enemies ashore
Debonaire you brandish pistol and sword
Cutting down resistant scallywags

Thy treasure shall be mine!
You dash haphazardly between slashes
Excitement and *** course through
Fueling you to victory

Imposing is thy stance!
Booted foot on stack of cannon *****
Actioned-packed adventure
As you reave and raid the seas

Your adventure keeps me alert
But my ship's an iron beast of land
I think of daring combat
And your exploits give me hope

I load my rifle in hot anticipation
Prepared to write my own adventure
The giant steel hatch lowers
And hot iron rips through me

My adventure ends prematurely
My *** is without excitement and masks pain
A hospital bed now serves as my galleon
Your book by my bedside, untouched

[you] sat on a park bench
Thunderclouds surround [your] head
[you] glare harshly at passersby
None above [your] wrathful glance
The darkest storm withers
And yields to fogs of gray
As [you] eclipse once sunny skies

"Hey [you]"
Squeeks the smallest of girlish voices
"What. Do. You. Want, small one?"
[you] wheeze through gritted teeth
"Why do [you] look so grumpy?"
Elicits green eyes between blonde pigtails
"Buzz off you nosy mouse! [i'm] grumpy
Can't you see that!?"

"Why so grumpy, it's a lovely day"
[you] cross [your] arms defiantly
"Lovely?  Hah!  Dumb little girl"
Her face scrunches up
"I'm not dumb"
[you] turn your face away
To cast [your] glance
At other poor happy victims

"Life's pretty good, I think."
As she opens candies wrapped
"Who made you an exp..."
As [you] try to finish fiery words
She places chocolate in [your] mouth
Brown smear across [your] cheek
A moment hangs pregnant in the air
The building of a storm

Seconds drag through eternity
A twitch at corners of [your] lips
But a little girlish gap-toothed grin
Drains [you] of feelings so hostile
As brutal youthful honesty
breaks foul moods, and makes [you] smile

Mr. Frost, so prolific that you are
I was hoping that you could advise
For I find myself in a yellow wood
And I too am but just one traveler
My two feet can only tread in one direction

And I long to leave a black boot mark
While I continue down the right path
Leading me so expertly to destiny
But much like you, obstacles arise
But unlike you, my path further divides

Where you stood before a fork
I now spy a great and twisted rake
That fills me with impending dread
Paths varied in their wear and tear
From paved to grassy, or overgrown

Mr. Frost, here is my dilemma
You chose the path less traveled
And it made all the difference in your life
But how can one traveler ever know
Which specific path for them is right?

You left me empty like the vacuum of space
Each portion of me aching to be filled
But instead, my insides felt like barren planetary bodies
Loose red soil provides no nutrients
All life ceased to exist long ago
Everyone dreams of being the first human feet on mars
But I wish only to terraform my broken heart

I sat beneath the willow tree, forlorn at life's love lost
A hooded man came up to me, with smile like winter's frost
Why child do you cry so much, he began his inquisition
His demeanor was unsettling and gave me deep suspicion

Emily, oh Emily, has left me high and dry
I expounded sadly, as tears formed in my eye
He laid a skeletal hand upon my sobbing shoulder
He looked at me with awful glee, and I lost my composure

What horrid wicked cruel thing do you have to say?
Oh, poor dear boy, a piece of advice to help you through today
You think of love,
You think it's sweet,
A wondrous thing,
Makes you complete,
You have romance,
But dear boy I entreat,
Consider this...
You dear sweet boy...
Earthly insect child...
You are all,
Raw meat

such a thing
a little kiss
my lower lip
sandwiched between yours

no small occurrence
as your lips
drew me in
and I lost

my grounded inhibitions
my smooth resistance
my very soul
drawn into yours

-------To My Wonderful, And Growing Hello Poetry Family-------
Your kindness lifts me like a broken bird
So gentle I lay in your strong hands
Which bandaged me, and saw me through
Nursing back my strength and will
And with you, I now fly

Your kindness guides me in my infant ways
Showing me what's right from wrong
Taking me to greater understanding
Molding my youthful mind
And with you, I now learn

Your kindness pulls me in, your broken-hearted friend
Gentle fingers caress my hair
Your smile encourages my expression
Never a barbed judgment against me
And with you, I now write

You throw money at me
People smile and slap my back
Full-ride my boy!
You are set for life
I can't stuff dollar bills in broken vertebrae
Your filthy cash won't balm my burns
Nor wipe away my bullet scars
Your ******* money can't ease my mind
It isn't patchworked convalescence for wicked dreams
I would trade all of the money in the world
I would knock down this castle of pennies
To not be nickeled and dimed
For a quarter of the functionality
That my body once had

Righteousness of action
   Assimilation despite protest
      Gesticulating invalid points
         Excommunication for beliefs
                              &
Hypercorrection to fit in
   Accountableness and your actions
      Thermodynamic reaction
         Excuse me for a moment

Please forgive my descent in anger

he sat,
no noise,
dreaming art,
***** boy,
they shouted,
teased him,
hurt him,
he sat,
in silence,
so different,
finally changing,
quiet broken,
he cried

Perspective is reality
I sat contemplating my life
I dreamed of great fortune
Of beautiful women on my arms
When I was struck on the head by an acorn
An acorn from a great oak tree
Struck me on my head so soundly
The light thump echoing in my ears

I didn't conjure images of gravity
I didn't think in rates of change
I didn't hypothesize terminal velocity
Or in nature how science reigns
I didn't believe this moment kismet
I didn't imagine in algebraic terms
I didn't comprehend in physics
No science did this little nut affirm

Not miraculous, no calculus, no trigonometry
No differentials, exponentials, no divine symmetry
Approaching limits, I'm a cynic, nor solid geometry
I simply saw some nature, just a nut from an oak tree

The earth did not shatter with new theory
No new mathematic principle was born
All I thought was, "Stupid Nut!"
As I stared at this one tiny oak acorn

I make monsters in my basement
Horrific to behold
Titanic in their tyranny
With guns pointed at my foes

Monsters I tell you!
My chainsaw bladed army of the night
I will destroy your lands
Your destruction, my delight

Winged freaks with jutting fangs
Multi-colored ravenous dogs
Attaching to each other for greater strength
CRASH!

"Jesus Christ, Michael!" My mother shouts
As she gingerly removes the lego from her foot
"Get your *** upstairs for dinner!"

See you later, my monster friends
But rest assured I will come back
I think it's time for nation-building
And to create castles to attack

You never judged me for my two left feet
Your smile kept me on the dance floor
You teased me about my discomfort
But always ended with encouragement
We held each other close as the world faded
While you taught me how to dance

Never has a greater wretch walked on this here land
Her wrists are bound in iron
In torn and stained attire

Never has a sadder ghost drifted on this sand
Her sallow skin translucent
Atoning for cruel abuses

Never was a sicker girl seen on an empty path
Blood flows with every sneeze
Her lungs rattle with a wheeze

Never has a woman been dealt with so much wrath
Rocks bruise her skinny legs and arms
Wicked people visit her with harm

She walks in quiet misery
She drifts from place to place
She never stays in one town long
Or shows her tear-streaked face

She walks in utter silence
She never whispers a single word
She never notices those around
Their devilish faces all a blur

She walks in quiet misery
From civilization to the wild
She will always be in misery
Remorse at losing her only child

Absolve yourself, with sick rationality
Tell yourself that it was okay what you did
Never look back and face that sad visage
Sling your bag over your shoulder
And lie to yourself
Just like you lied to us

speak my name and I come to you
be it day or night, I'll run to you
you say my name and I am captured
whisper those two syllables enraptured

you shout my name and bring me grief
you growl my name through gritted teeth
spit my name out on the cluttered floor
she swears she'll speak my name no more

say my name, I still exist
I back away from your clenched fist
please, oh please don't close your mouth
her silence shoves me out the house

I miss my name upon your lips, the way my hands felt on your hips
the way you uttered it in glee, my name no longer your soliloquy

I still say yours more than I should
if I could stop it, then I would
your name bursts forth through muffled cries
but my names forever lost under our lies

A simple lonely street corner
Indistinguishable from any other intersection
Her face poked in the window of a loft
I imagine that her eyes were green,
I could be wrong

My attention was interrupted by her stare
So inquisitive and curious, maybe 6 years old
I didn't see him coming
His hard brown eyes glaring over a crooked nose
And cracked teeth

I felt the wave of anger and desperation
As he slid the knife into my guts
Cold waves flew over my body
Slow-stop-motion as I fell to the ground
like a poorly drawn cartoon

His grip was rough as he took my wallet
My fingers drenched in crimson
The concrete grew slick beneath me
I didn't try to grasp his arm or stop his hand
Or even acknowledge him above my pain

Each beat of my heart spilled life's precious blood
As I became the paint to a concrete canvas
Smeared sloppily without painterly strokes
A professional background of uneven greys
With a child-like smear of crimson

I reached out frantically as the temperature dropped
It was so impossibly cold in this temperate spring
Her face still pressed against the old bay window
Her expression never changed as I reached for her
Her innocence was lost
In a human painting of concrete and crimson

It was on summer's knoll that I found you
Gentle soft skin and quirky quick smiles
My breath was taken and I knew
One day I would take you from sun-soaked isle

And in forest wreathed of vibrant autumn
I laid with you amongst the leaves
Quick, flirting laughter as we lost our decorum
We were rapt in love and stories that it weaves

And on winter's doorstep, I finally found you
Tear-soaked cheeks and hurtful accusations
You swore, "twas no love" that bound true
Two souls, one heart, now empty formations

I sat alone in windswept meadows of spring
Yet to thaw from arctic winter winds
My prayers as of yet unheard for better tidings
For I am here, beckoned to summer knoll
As spring ends and summer finds me

I live every day in a self-inflicted wound
With self-destructive tendencies, my insides are festooned
I fill my lungs with nicotine to keep me calm
Adderal to keep me going as the day drags on
Alcohol to slow my breath and make me smile
Caffeinated beverages push me through each mile
Streaming television at all hours, night or day
To forcibly make vicious thoughts of self-loathing go away
Painkillers are administered every night for sleep
Behavioral modification so crazy thoughts won't make a peep
I drank, I smoked, consumed, and used
Altered, Changed, Rewired, Abused
Danced in the streets, a wistful fool
Clearly a vagabond, with pharmaceutical tools
     Can't I stop?
Dance for us you idiot, give us delight
     Why can't I stop?
Stand up like the stupid puppet you do each night
     I'll stop!
Make merry like the fiend you are
     ...and it stopped
With the screeching brakes, horrible crash, and flipping of a car

Oh for a poor vagabond like me
My only drug now is the long road of recovery

I stand in line with everybody else
She keeps tap tap tapping on cell phone screens
He keeps crying, bored of shopping cart seats
They won't stop coughing, hack hack hack
I feel the jungle start to beat in me
tap tap tap hack hack hack
Louder and louder the wilderness beckons
Run free in me, roar to the sky
tick     tick    tick   tick  tick ticktick
My heart beats so quickly
Her nails scrape across her makeup caked skin
scratch scratch tap tap hack scratch tap
I have thunder inside of me it wants out
I streak across clouded skies filled with lightning
Sweat slicks my palms, my chest rumbles
The jungle recedes
The wilderness quiets
The sky grows dark
And I stand there waiting in line
tap hack scratch
tick tick  tick   tick    tick     tick

I couldn't help myself
Addicted to the taste you gave
The way you held my hand
Your fingers through my hair
I felt you
You felt me
You said you'd hold me
And I felt you
Drift away

Mechanical and Robotic
Sentences in line of Code
Schedules and Timestamps
Clockwork and Progressing
Power down, power Up
Maintenance performed Regularly
Uploading to the Cloud
Mechanical and Idiotic

go Where You Are told
perform Your function
analyze The data
upload To The cloud
prepare To Power down
you Have Functions tomorrow
goodnight You automaton

"Lo, tremble before my might
Shatter ye, all trees blocking me
I needn't pay heed to birds of flight
Nor great beasts beneath the sea

For my wings are powerful legs
My wake the thunderous echoing
Scatter beta predators, you dregs!
As I give chase that's harrowing

Dear prey, your futile efforts fail
Beneath teeth, your meat I shall annex
I am gigantic from teeth to tail
The legend of Tyrannosaurus Rex"

The small boy snarled and sat alone, the fearful quickly exiting the sandbox

why would you say those things?
why would you?  don't you know the hurt?
can't you feel what i feel when i feel?
your callousness irks me
ican'tthinkstraight
why? why would you?
don't you know words have meaning and gravity?
are you so blind and deaf and dumb and stupid
to not think i'd carry this ache
didn't you take a second before flapping your big dumb mouth?
words have meaning and gravity
they bear weight and matter
they matter to me
i am angry
i am angry
i hope your feeling of triumph is worth it
i am angry
and it hurts

music is abound, it's all around, and it surrounds me
from 90's revolution, this absolution, it astounds me
heavy metal, sentimental, it does blare and it does pound me
classics of an older day, it's sweet complexity confounds me
twangy rifts, from country gifts, it's upbeat melody deftly hounds me
choir songs of the church, belting praises quite profoundly
and then the blues pick at my soul and leaving me spellbound, see?
music is abound, it does surround, is so unbound, in you and me

This universe so massive, complexities galore
Yet terrified I am, to exit my front door
This massive world beckons, a seductive cry
How can a one-bedroom apartment dweller
Understand the sky

Circulation and life complete with each heartbeat
Each pulse pushes life throughout city streets
Microcosmic revolutions of electron protocols
As massive heavenly bodies orbit
Above us neanderthals

Why do we know so much yet understand so little
As we arrange life's pieces like a puzzle made so brittle
Around us everywhere life continues to be in bloom
We are but hungry ants
And this universe, we'll consume