So much pain in the bottom of a seally bag
And it reminds me of the life I could of really had
For every scar on my arm it never made me stay clam
Left my head ringing like alarm
The itch always burning like its ******
A need that I just couldn't run away from
And when I look around today and wonder where the hell have all my mates gone
Shackled up in chains I can't see they will ever break from
An this is only take one
But there's no take two
Thousand hits of Dimitri
still couldn't break through
So I'll have to make do
Knowing there's a part of me that loves and a part that really hates you
I never meant to hate you
I never meant to hate you

Upon to mushroom hill
Where the floor is bouncy
And anything you fancy
Can be yours at will

The clouds are cotten candy
Relax and chill with Mandy
When Lucy whispers in your ear
"Its time for another brandy"

Nobody believes me
My own mind deceives me
Why would you concive me
If your just going to leave me
But I've been alone before
And found it quite easy
Just waiting about for the world to release me
Finally lay to rest in the underworld that's beneath me
Where Mr Reaper will greet me
Whilst demons eat me
Finally breifily we could be at peace .. see ???

When the blood hits the barrel
My whole world unravels
It's time to time travel
As I sink into the gravel
Words become babble
Everyday's a constant battle
Please free me from this shackle
As i wake up in the morning
Feeling free and newborn
But ready for the rattle

Hollow names
Clogging veins
Rotten brains
Locked in chains
Shocking pains
Blocking drains
plotting change
"I'll stop I'll change"
"I'll stop I'll change"
"I'll stop I'll change"

If I could do anything
I would be controlling clocks
And go right back to that mouldy box
With the broken locks
And the electrics off
Those days when I would sold me socks for cake and drops
Whist cooking rocks
***** this K detox
I feel like a baby fox
Thats I been ***** by all 3 bears and goldilocks
But day by day with my tool box and theese building blocks
I'll build my very own fort knox
Il see the light shine when I stike the  fire from my matchbox
Listening to my old jukebox

Cool breeze of death on the back of my throat
Is there light at end of the tunnel
Or just no hope
Walking on the tightrope
Sliding down a slight *****
Is it only me who just can't cope
When all I want is to look down my kaleidoscope
Puff the magic dragon with the gunsmoke
Am I being real or is this just a joke

When you were younger they planted a seed
To seek to sucseed
But over time this seed
Succeeded in greed
Now what do you really need?
Material possessions
Just to feed and breathe
Or maybe just belive
we can all exceed
And create something positive to leave

What the hell you know about getting upset?
What the hell you know about living in debt?
What the hell you know about pinning up ket?
Then wondering why you have no self respect

What the hell you know about living a dream?
What the hell you know about leaving your team?
What the hell you know about being a fiend?
This is the first time I seen you on the scene. .

What the hell you know about breathing this poverty?
What the hell you know about not eating properly?
What the hell you know about using candles to heat and light your so called property?
Five days straight eating  nothing but broccoli

Maybe it's just my own shadow that's stopping me
Got me under lock an key
But when I break free they'll be not much stopping me
The weight of the world will not get on top of me  
My grandfather already clocked you watching me

She was divided ÷ by the times × her new addition + was taken away -

I could see the lies in her crystalized eyes
I never meant for me to be your demise
It was only for so long I could wear the disguise
Until we broke way more than just our ties
As I watched you deteriate
There was no time to contemplate
My whole world stopped through the fear of fate
Soon as I grasped what was happening
It was way to late!!

How do you feel today?
How will you feel tomorrow?
I wonder how I was feeling yesterday
Maybe I wondered yesterday how I was going to feel in the future or the past
Maybe I wondered how you would feel tomorrow or had felt previously
Maybe I didn't even feel anything
What is a feeling ?

If I could only find a space in time to let you know what was on my mind
But I could only tell you what I couldn't find
I couldn't find the words to talk with
I couldn't find a way to not feel awkward
I said at the time I couldn't take any more of being morbid
But just couldn't find the strength to move forward
I couldn't feel the pain that I feel so
I couldn't believe that anything was real
I couldn't comprehend it all had to end and when I needed you the most
I just couldn't find my friend
I couldn't choose a life to take
I couldn't sleep so I stayed awake
I looked in this mirror
But this couldn't be fake
But this guy looking back
It couldn't be Jake
I couldn't detriate
An I couldn't even think what the hell I had done
I could think this was all just for fun
But I JUST COULDNT STOP
I couldn't keep it on the lowdown everything was on top
But if I hadn't met you
I couldn't of got what I got
But I couldn't cry
I couldn't laugh
I couldn't fight
I couldn't bath
I couldn't try another path
I couldn't ask
Because who on earth is there to ask !

I could be anything, anything at all
I could be an archeologist or a doctor out on call
I could be your therapist and help you when you fall
But I know what I want to be and it ain't any of the above at all.

You see I could be an astronaut zooming into space
But I don't think that would help me
I'd still feel out of place
People make me sick
People are just waste so I'm here to rid this beautiful world of the disgusting human race
I want to be a serial killer
There I've let it slip
I've been holding this back for years but somehow I've lost my grip
So I tried to be a serial killer an started with my own wrists
Not much of a serial killer, not Much missed

How do you turn off the voices?
There's only one way I know
How do I make the right choices
Will I ever know?

So please do as you please

But when I find my peace of mind
Please take a piece of mine
There's lot of things to see and do
As I wander round without a clue

Time watches me
Tick tock
For a second I wasn't me
But the hour glass smashed
And i was sinking in sand
Time stands still in a distant land
The past was a present for the future a new generation to tutor

I tried to help but made it worse
I cannot shake this lonley curse
Everything I touch I destroy  
But look to the future for the hope of some joy
Only for it to be snatched away
I don't deserve your time of day
A loner surrounded by people
One side of me is filled with love
And thoughts of being peaceful
The other side is tainted with thoughts of just pure evil

Confusion
Illusion
Pollution
Delusion
So what's the conclusion?
Keep using and abusin'
Until I find a solution

I can fly
I'm just afraid to jump

The human race is a disease
Bringing mother nature to her knees
If you open up your mind you can hear her screams in the breeze
If you listen to what she says you'll find that find that wisdoms in the trees
Listen to me please , this has got to stop
People are really dying and your not happy with what you've got
Just take a good look at your self chasing fortune and the wealth
Happiness is not something you can buy of the shelf
If only more of us would help we could all live well
And no longer have to live under Lucifer's spell

All I wanted was to give you a rose
But as you snatched it from my hand
You ripped me to pieces with every thorn

I ******* hate you
I  ******* wish you'd never been born

Or maybe I didn't appreciate you
An it was the heart on your sleeve that was torn

Either way
Day by day
The petals are slowly dying

One by one they fall
Just like the bricks on the wall
Or my tears when I'm crying

As I wipe them away
I can see so clearly
Your lying

The games that you played
Never considered the thought in my head

You put blue in my soul
So I'll paint rivers in red

Losing control
Alone in our bed

Every word I whispered
Would of been better unspoken

An maybe we both wouldn't be twisted bitter or broken

An behind my back
No *******' n joking

But I'm getting of track
It's not about me not coping

It's about the freedom I'll feel when my body starts floating

Back and for I will swing
Like the waves in the ocean

No more commotion
No more commotion

As I sip on my potion
Devotion turned to destruction
Cutting the tension
With motion

Without Emotion
Or Seduction
I no longer function

I got to the cross roads
But I'm stuck at the junction

Just a ****** with junk
An a case of corruption

A Space cadet
"This is Major Tom to ground control
I think There's been an abduction"

Come in major Tom ......
Major Tom??
Major Tom??

"Dam we lost him"

I was in a vortex
A very complex place
A feeling that I just have to chase
Take me there and make me safe
Wrapped up in cotten wool
For the the world no longer seems forever dull
Keep me here forever
And never let me go
A bright light shining with an everlasting glow

Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious
Can I get a super tab of acid liquid at some psychedelic doses
And we can crush our noses snorting osteoporosis
Time to process psychosis
I don't know if you know this or you've noticed
But I'm certainly not the oldest or the wisest
But the surprise is that the thing that made me write this was that little bit of happiness that lives inside us

Bored of these games
Screwball scrabble your monopoly
I'll take the risk not pass go or bow to authority

I wanna Poke your face with a hot poker
Just to see your poker face  
I might just be a pawn but the queen's I have to chase

And who would of thunk
I lost all my marbles
When I went and played kerplunk
My battle ship sunk
And it's now not the rope swing
I want hang from that tree trunk

So check mate this was my only first draughts
The mouse has been trapped warhammer's looking for a blood bath on the warpath

So don't go and pin the tail on the donkey
Coz' you might get a buckaroo though
But look for the clue'do
And you might find more
But only if your a hungry hippo and can find the hidden meanings in theese words and connect all four

Even questions are questionable
Half empty or half full ?
Should we push or should we pull ?
Are people bright or just to dull ?

The roots grow deep into the earth
The tree stands strong
Vines hang in the trees one hundred ft long
Whilst birds sit on branches singing there song
I pine to be back in the pine trees
Where my mind leaves under the devine leaves
Enchanting flames flicker in the night sky
As I sit back and ask why???

I listened but it made no sence
Buried in thoughts
Feeling tense
My mind consumed by others
A quite moment in time
Nope not for me
This is my time to shine

Follow every track on my vein
And you can map out the pain
I use just to black out my brain
Captain deranged
Acting insane
Sat back with my backpack back in the rain
Blackout , snap back and I'm back in the game
Racking my brains don't want money but I'm begging for change but for now I'll keep acting the same trying to maintain in the main frame an keep focus on the main aim
Any way to rot the brain

I took this ******* a date to the Purple Pakora,
Lil did I know how much this girl would order,
I met her on tinder-loo, she orderd a vinderloo madras and a korma
What the actual tandoori duck ??  how many animals does this ***** wanna slaughter?  
  
I'm already thinking **** how much they gonna charge me,  
When she puts  an order in for another 12 oinion bhaji  

I could stop what was going on,  
Next thing I know she wants a side order of poppadom with extra ******* yogurt on  

Then she looks me in the eye an says " shall we get a starter coz I absolutely love a chiken tika masala  

Holy ****,,,,, ****,,,, god dam!!!  
Now to wants to try each different  flavor of naan

10 cocktails that didn't even touch the ******* coaster,
Then she goes " I'm on a diet. So I'll just have 1 vegetable samosa
  
Burn a hole in my pocket the size of the equator,  
And she didn't forget to tell me to tip the ****** waiter

After we left this girl wants to party
She goes I'll come with you if you get some charlie

All I got to eat was her sunbed barbecued punnani,  and that ******* tasted like a gone off seafood biriani,,

BEWARE!!!!

I should of never bought the story that the devil sold me
He said he'd put demons in my head so I'd never be lonley
Little did I know they would try to control me
And now my heads to heavy for the angles to hold me
Listen very carefully I'll tell you what they told me
"Why would you want to be OK when you can O.D slowly

But what is really going on
Can you really tell me?
Or are you just hoping I'll buy the story's you tell me
Your nonsense makes no sense
So I doubt that you can help me

But go ahead and talk
Tell me you schemes
But I'm not really there
I'm away in my dreams

I'm a sociopathic narcissist with suicidal tendencies
I never had no friend disease
I only see in enemy's
And eat these evil entities for energy
And hope they will be the end of me  
But something lives inside of me
And controls everything I'm meant to be mentally
Says I'm free from empathy and sympathy
With out no remedy
Now I'm pretty sure there's something your not telling me
Something that's propelling me to therapy
And never ever can it let me be
Simpley Ill sell my dignity for equality
Take bear s* but no goldly locks wants to swallow me
But you can follow me
It how it has to be
Drastically rapidly pulling apart your anatomy.
Deep in the game but only catch birds
Like a mathematically **** dastardly
Only FRACTIONLY