Let me slam the doors
And yell do not disturb me tonight
As I stumble back to my bed
And see my demons slither out of my mind
I promise I will smile tomorrow
But tonight these tears are stinging my eyes
Let them flow like a roaring rain
Let the constant drizzle
become a heavy downpour
Let my bruises bleed
I don't need bandages to bind my wounds so tight
I will revive by tomorrow
But tonight just let me struggle to survive
Let me toss and turn
And fall to splinters amid the dark night
You won't have to see this mess
I will be fixed and polished by the morning light
Let me pulverize
As I become powerless tonight

I'm delighted
To welcome you
Into my world
Follow me
As i stumble my way
Through the
splendid tapestry
Of vastly intricate labyrinths
In my mind
Walk tenderly
Holding my hand
through the
Melodically creaking corridors
In my heart
And feel the
Cooling atlantic currents
That may slightly dishevel
Your well groomed countenance
Standing within the
silent chambers
Of my soul
But before you
Turn to leave
Please don't forget
To tell me
If you'd like to
Visit again someday
Perhaps stay
For an extended period
Of time
Can i conjure
A blissful possibility
This time

outside my window
I see the setting sun wave me goodbye
It's salmon and scarlet hues
Sketch a beautiful sky
I see a silver balloon
Oh it's a shining moon
Like a young lissome lass
It rises up languidly from the horizon
To light up a sky
about to succumb to the dark
I blink once
And see a solitary star
I blink twice
And see countless stars
Flickering like fireflies
They adorn the world around me
Like a garland of glittering fairy lights
I smell the sweet delicate scent of lilacs and magnolias
The wind wears their perfume
And giggles and tickles across my skin
The moonlight plays with starlight
Upon a velvet stage
leaving me mesmerized
Outside my window at night
Nature becomes paradise
A beauty is being weaved
With such an artistry
It'll leave you spellbound

Even the most delectable elixir
Cannot wash this dismal taste
Of a profound yet nameless yearning
That appears to have immobilized
Every flavorful sensation in my mouth
Even the most euphoric scent
Seems to drown
in this overwhelmingly pungent smell
Of a wistful nostalgia
That appears to have sedated
The stimulus of every other olfactory receptors
In my brain
Even the most resplendent
Scintillating and ineffably radiant dawn
Fails to diminish the melancholic darkness
Which perpetually shrouds my heart

His rapidly regressing memory
Often leaves his mind
In a state
of utter shambles
While the ceaseless pain
in his arthiritic joints
Hardly alleviates
For more than a couple of hours
Even after ingesting
The strongest painkillers
His hollow bones
Continuously reverberate
with a crackling ache
That frequently disturbs
The meagre hours
Of his peaceful repose
And the flavourless diet
Decreed by his physicians
Warranted to keep
the increasingly fragile resilience
Of his mellow heart intact
Will undoubtedly
douse your desires
For any gastronomical adventures
As well as annihilate
your hearty appetite
Just by its vapid smell
Yet
The cheerful smile
On his eighty year old
Sagged deflated
And wrinkled beyond recognition face
Refuses to fade
Even by a single dismal shade
Cause he knows
That as long as he is able to breathe
Theres no reason at all
To believe
That the fleeting moments
Of his terribly unpredictable life
Cannot be spent
Happily

No one is chasing you
You're chasing that
Which is momentary
You're chasing those
Who aren't exceptional
Those that are mortals
Just like you
Does that which you chase
Follows you back
Or is it a one sided pursuit
That takes your energy time and again
A hunt which makes you believe
That maybe if you succeed
in catching that which you covet
Then something which you dream about
Will become a delightful reality
And you will be standing on the threshold
Of something new
A chase to find a new way
A race to discover a new place
A hunt to unearth a route
Which could erase the remains
Of that which is bound to stay
A pursuit for lasting bliss
Anything rather than nothing
Which will never chase you back
In this universe which is driven by
Utter changelessness

orange skulls open their
Large scary eyes
Amid a frightfully
Dark night
Only to make us
Laugh and smile
And celebrate
A life that exists
Very close
Yet beyond the realms
Of our sight

Can you look beneath the surface
Beyond the meticulously painted
canvas of my face
You see me smile
Can you still say
There's something that I hide
You hear me talk a lot lately
Can you still tell
There's even more on my mind
But I never let it
slip out of my mouth
Inside these hazel brown
Mascara Laden eyes
Can you see the melancholic clouds
Sometimes sailing by
Can you hold me then
And whisper gently
That whenever it'll rain
You'll be around
Just in case I get too wet
I can take shelter in your house
Can you try look past my facade
Inside the window of my soul
Find out what's buried within
And then let me know
Will you stay
Or will you leave

Even in a stygian
cloudy night
I'll search for
A single flickering
streetlight
And with its
Shadowy glare
I'll find a
radiant star
Somehow
That would
Make you
Wish and hope
That everything
Will be alright
If not today
Then tomorrow
I'm sure

The aching brambles of this eternity
Pierce and rip through me mercilessly Tangled between their
inextricably intricate knots
I howl and scream indefinitely
Only to find my desperate voice
Get repeatedly trapped and ensnared within
It's razor sharp bars
And become evidently inept to turn into
A choral symphony
Buried beneath it's empty, vacant
Yet unflinching and determined grip
I struggle and strive to remember
Those dreams that caressed me
Long ago
With a vision that was blissfully distinct
and immeasurably distant than
The endless phases and facets of life
That now surround and besiege me
How can I freeze and pause
This ever-growing loop of perpetuity
Without waiting and wondering about
A constantly flickering yet elusive end
That too,
Refuses to cradle and embrace me
Wholeheartedly

In the midst of
Many powerful
Shrewd
Sharp
And loud voices
You suddenly
forgot
That your soft
Tender
And tranquil voice
Was worthy of
Being heard
And capable enough
To form
A sound opinion

In my dream
I'll be the one you'll be holding tonight
Slowly filling me with ecstasy
My eyes will be turning misty with joy
You'll see
How every tremble
every shiver
emanating from my body
Will sob your name
My sighs will turn to  moans
With every kiss that you'll planting
On the slopes of my skin
With our fingers intertwined
And your warm breath caressing my spine
You'll be making promises of forever
And I'll be smiling with delight
As the starlight envelopes us
I'll gather the courage to tell you
That which I could only write about
you'll pull me closer
And with the sunrise
I won't be leaving your side
As you'll be ready to tell the world
That I'm yours
And you are mine
In my dream tonight
Instead of her
Your lips would be pressed against mine

Don't turn your back to me as yet
Without any word or a glance
I've not yet mustered that much strength
To behold you only in a fleeting trance
/
I know I've made many mistakes
The price of my pride I must pay now
And before from your mind I'm truly erased
I'd do anything to help you recognize me somehow
/
apologies wouldn't prune my regrets
They won't bring that shine in your smile
Like the temporary relief from a burned cigarette
Later they'll remind me how I wasted your time
/
One last chance is all I ask, please trace your tired steps back
Don't let our friendship silently succumb, to this very last attack

A slight ache in my chest
Becomes clearer and stronger
Whenever I see that distant look
Slowly spread in your almond shaped hazel eyes
And those scarlet lips
Shiver tremulously
As if struggling to hold
Those last bits of resilience
Threatening to fade into an abyss of oblivion
At that moment
all I really wish
Is to traverse the distance of your gaze
Climb upon that nameless horizon
Dive into the infinite darkness
That has wrenched your source of happiness
Ruthlessly devoured a prominent piece of you
And return back with a speck of hope
Anything that stirs your anticipation
relinquish your source of misery
Revive your languished faith
Makes you gather your shattered pieces
And wrap you in one of those embrace
That turns you sanguine and buoyant again
Cause no matter what I say
Something inside me fails to believe
That you will ever return
To how you used to be
Before this calamity fractured your resolve
Beyond repair

Your artistic soul is boundless
Speckled with a multitude of words sparkling like pearly dew drops
On  Verdant sunlit greens
Under a soft blue sky
Resonating with the jubilant chorus of a thousand cheerful birds
The air ripe with a citrus lemony scent
Your beautifully crafted words like vibrant sun-kissed flowers adorning the canvas of a rustic landscape in hues of scarlet salmon and lilac
The balmy breeze gently whispers your riveting love songs in my ears
Titillating me playfully
As the season beckons our love to unfurl
And my longing heart ardently beats your name
My spring love
Take me home

I passed by the house
I once stayed
Amid tall trees and Verdant grass
Where I once played
Although Covered in dust and rust
It looked the same
And I felt the cool wind envelope me
Like a mother's embrace
As I stepped upon the soft ground
Where my youth was spent
An avalanche of memories
Came crashing down
Feeding my parched longing for yore
And all I did was let it pour

They rose with their toes awash in snow
Breathing the crisp cool air
Their hands filled with icy crystals
Ready to ***** fat little snowmens
But that was decades ago
When the seasons repeated themselves
In a cyclical pattern
But now it hardly snows
It's getting warmer each year
And winter feels so balmy
That we barely need to cover ourselves
With  beanies and sweatshirts anymore
But this isn't how it's supposed to work we know
this is a just a silent warning
That something's wrong with mother nature
We need to open our eyes and listen to her woes
The air no longer invigorates us
It chokes us
Cause it's packed with emissions
As poisonous as cigarette smoke
A grey smog of toxic fumes traps the city
in a web of darkness
Obliterating the beauty of nature
Making us sick
The moment we step outside of our homes
Yet we turn a blind eye
And a deaf ear
To these explicit red signs of trouble
We dream of visiting gorgeous locales
Capturing the beauty of majestic snow capped mountains
But never do we dream
Of the imminent catastrophic collapse
That'll sweep us away
If we forget to get up and act
To save our planet
And thus save ourselves
From being wiped away
soon

Your scorched skin
And burnt fingers
Won't heal
With any medication
Over the counter drugs
Or elixirs
It will continue to hurt
As long as the cauldron
of boiling self hate
Inside you
Keeps searing your bones
As long as you let
your insecurities and regrets
Devour you like a devil
As long as you keep viewing your flaws
With a magnifying glass
Relentlessly condemn your every action
That couldn't win their approval
With marked ruthlessness
A gross feeling of inadequacy
Will spread inside you like an epidemic
The day you are able
To convince yourself
That you are more than enough
Worthy of infinite love
And profound affection
Let those unattainable standards
you've set for yourself
Crumble like a piece of dried earth
View your vulnerabilities
As assets instead of liabilities
That day you will heal
Completely and miraculously
Without any aggressive intervention
It would take time
Definitely
But better things never happen
In the spur of a moment
Although it is easier said than done
But believe me
It'll set you free
From the aches and pains
That you think
You're doomed to suffer
But were never meant for you to feel
In the first place

In an eerie silence
As the clock strikes 3
And the roaring black clouds
Pile atop each other
The coffin lids
of unmarked graves
Slowly open with a
Lamenting refrain
From its shadowy
soggy depths
Rises skeletal hands and legs
With ***** cobwebs
Tangled between their
Piercing bony fingers
And as the wind begins
To wail and howl
And the drooping willows
Begin to weep and sob
These restless
tormented spirits
Commence their march
To find those who
Sliced their life in half
Before they could ever hear
Their roll call from above

//

If ever you find yourself
Awake at this witching hour
And hear the distressing
disembodied cries
Of these wounded souls
From somewhere outside
Your doors
While everyone else
In your house
is warm under the blanket
of a sound repose
And your eyes become
Red with terror and dread
While your heart
Races at a perilous pace
Leaving trails of a fetid sweat
All over the skin of
your strained muscles
Then you should be
Thoroughly aware of the
Spine-tingling truth
That those bellowing revenants
Are hunting for
Someone just like you
Would you now
like to finally confess
That you committed
An unforgiving offence
Cause they will come again
Every night
they wont rest
Until they find you
Somehow
How long can you
Hope to hide inside
Its time for you
To say goodbye to life

There's this unforseen announcement
An unanticipated dissemination
Of an abstract, unsolicited thought
That ricochets within every single cell
Of my facade
And furtively causes
A mass hysteria
A bedlam which I am
Unable to dominate.
Then there's this smoke
A bevy of pungent fumes
That rises insidiously from
The blight of all my sense and sanity
And the ensuing frustration
That yields nothing
But a night full of relentless tossing and turning
And a dawn full of panicked breaths
That renders my anatomy
As scarred and stricken
Yet leaves it to trail
Amid the gusty shores of life
Anyway

The radiance
Of your smile
Defies the need
For an elegant
Porch light
To brighten
The starless skies
Or the need
Of a beaming sun
To soften a
Frosty dawn
I just wish
That in your
luminous eyes
I could
someday find
A pleasing evidence
That'll make me
Hopefully surmise
That a few
Of those glittering
days and nights
I could happily
Spend by your side

A crisp cold day
Reluctantly makes way
For a pale spectral evening
Whose sky isn't willingly beaming
With even a single drop of star
That may rest like a victorious scar
Upon the dim dull curtains of a night
That seem to be enticed by nothing bright
Except dusting the landscape all around
With a deluge of derisive winds that hound
A mighty silence
And an aggravated sentience
Tonight

When the dusk
Grazes our back
We'll hold hands
And slowly undress
our deepest fears and endless doubts
And the things that make us frown
Toss them out like dust
Into the leaden sky above
And wait for the strongest wind
To take them away from us
In the darkness of the night
Perhaps in a very long while
We'll feel our chaos abate
And a long lost sense of ease
Will truly gratify our senses
As the clock ticks
And a chirping dawn
gently unwinds  itself
Perhaps we'll greet
our feathered friends
With a grin
That we hid
For so long
And didn't even knew
Was as wide
As this neverending universe

You made me believe
That i could never be happy without you
When in reality
I could have been reeling in euphoric joy without you
I talked a lot but you only heard what you wanted to hear
And skillfully evaded questions that would have lead to a confrontation
Cause you'd got no answers no response
Nothing you could say
To justify this unfair game you played
You reaped some obvious benefits from me
Like i was your last resort
A functional substitute that you used
When all your options stagnated any particular day
I was never someone you would have chosen willingly
And i was aching to become your primary priority
Sweating over your trivial issues
Thinking twice before replying you
So it never occured to you
That i was sad hurt and frustrated with you
Before leaving you
I thought about a thousand reasons
And fervently hoped
That atleast one of them would make me turn and i would come running back to you
But you'd exhausted all possibilities
Which finally made me realize
That i could never hope to be happy with you
And i was getting frail day by day
In pretending that i was on cloud nine with you
When actually i was nowhere near it
I had sunk into the depths
Of an inky black abyss
That grew cavernous
And threatened to engulf me anyday
If i didnt ran away from you

If I could
I would have
Undoubtedly
Decapitated this
Irredeemable longing
In a gruesome manner
Long ago
But I've never been
The strong or potent one
Ever
And In the sunless hollows
Of my broken and
Flimsy bones
I still slip
Slivers of strangled hopes
which although
Have breathed their last
Seasons ago
Yet their charred remains
Sluggishly fuel
My painfully exhausted
And perplexed self
To keep on weaving listlessly
Porcelain skinned dreams
With trembling hands
And don a glowing countenance
When their shattered and
razor sharp edges
Inflict countless wounds
On every inch
Of my scarred flesh
And bleeds out
The residual drops
Of perseverence
From my essence
Leaving me to start
From scratch
Once again

The chair that you rendered
Permanently empty
So suddenly
and unintentionally
Without any prior warning
That would have given me
A moment's worth of time
To prepare my heart and mind
Not to succumb
In the depths of
the excruciating void
Of your aching absence
From my life
Still sits
At the solitary corner
Of our house
Hopelessly wondering
If you really wanted to leave
Without saying
a goodbye

From the edge of a highest cliff
on a dark night
all you can see
is a sable terrifying wilderness
with a few shards of warped shapes
their edges as sharp as serrated knives and razor blades
littered all over a tar black abyss
Glaring at you ferociously
Making you tremble
And drops of sweat may begin to gather above your lips
A wickedly cold wind may blow against your shivering flesh
Making it ideal for tiny goosebumps to crawl all over
And the eerie silence surrounding you
May only be broken by the incessant chattering of your teeth at regular intervals
Right then
At that moment
Life looks really scary and frightening
But then youll notice a tiny little spark of dim light flickering and glowing
Slowly coming up from behind the horizon
Before you blink for the second time
You may find your eyes struggling to adjust to a blinding light
Pouring over you
Drenching you in a shimmering radiance
As you look up
Youll find a crystal clear sky
Shining like a soft white fabric of silk
Adorned beautifully by  shafts of golden sunlight spreading far and wide
Illuminating the sodden corners of the world
While a flock of chirping birds create melodious ripples in the air
As they fly past rustling moss green leaves
With pieces of food in their beaks
To feed and nurture their young ones and see them grow
Like tender buds sprouting into supple luscious flowers
Youll no longer tremble
Every drop of fear stained sweat will evaporate from your skin
Even though your standing face to face with the vast orb of flames
On that same spot
That edge of the highest cliff
On which you were shaking with terror a few hours ago
With a wavering resolve
But now it appears a distant part of the past
You no longer think about it even once in the entire day
Would you feel surprised
If i tell you
That this sudden change of nature that left you breathless a moment ago and fearless a moment afterwards exactly mirrors this thing called life

I believed it wholeheartedly
When you used to say
That I was like honey
Soft smooth and sweet
Glistening like the amber shafts
That coruscated upon your tanned skin
When you yawned turned and moaned in your sleep
Before opening your caramel brown eyes
And uttering my name
from those dusty red slightly chapped lips
Without any reason
Just like you breathe or blink
And my eyes would sparkle
With a rapturous delight
Just like that empty glass bottle
Near your windowsill
That shone resplendently
When the sun smiled and winked at it
Or the wisps of grey misty clouds
That wandered despondently
But glowed luminously
When the scattered light of an aureate moon
Caressed them tenderly
You were the radiance
That engulfed the stygian darkness
Bleeding from my heart
Suffusing my veins
You were the vibrant spring
That restored my shattered pieces
sealed them with an undying warmth
And watched me replenish
As I bloomed from a withering bud
To the most exquisite flower
When your unconditional love
Percolated through my dead roots
But a blunder you committed
For you made me believe
That this happiness that you gifted me
Would never ever recede
it diminished and vanished
At that agonizing moment
when you left my side
And entered inside the gates of heaven
Now you don't seem to hear my cry
My tear ducts have long dried
My throat stings
I can barely speak
My skin is swollen and ruddy
Covered in bruises that don't seem to heal
My wrists are scarred
My lips crack and bleed
My complexion has turned sallow
And i believe wholeheartedly
That im not like honey anymore

Maybe we shouldn't try to quit
Those typical habits of ours
Which makes them smile
and shake their head
With affection
Maybe we should try more often
To touch those topics
In conversations
That makes them relive
A delightful moment in time
Maybe we shouldn't get
Too busy too often
That they're forced to share
With silence
the things that they want to share
Only with us
Maybe we should try our best
Not to become
A memory
During the time that we have
To spend with them..

You are the star
That I seek
Whenever I'm drowning
In the murky depths
Of a dark turbulent sea
When the pale moonlight
Fades between the stormy skies
And Im caught in the undertow
Desperately struggling
To find a way out
That's when I look up for you
With desperate eyes
And there you are
Wearing that same stoical smile
Shining like a diamond
Brighter than the sun
The divinity that you exude
Gives me  infinite strength
You illuminate my path
When shadows become bigger than before
With your radiant coruscations
You gently guide me ashore

March gallops swiftly ahead
Ensnaring February's vital essence
As frigid gale and Grey skies
Make way for efflorescence
Languished lands begin to revive
Verdant abundance greets abound
Adorning world in assorted hues
Like a bejeweled bride
With sparkling eyes
United with her lover
After years of strife
Like a bereaved mother
Shedding tears of love
Jubilant when her barren womb
Begins to nurture a life anew

I vanquished my feelings for you
Burned my love for you
The extent of which could never be traversed by you
And buried myself under oceans of tears
The day I realized
No matter how much I crave you
My love shall always dissipate
Into the  ashes of a great sorrow known by the name of Unrequited

Beneath my painted skin
Caramel brown eyes
Lined precisely with a black ink
Flicked at the end
Forming the most exquisite wing
Roseate lips coloured with an oxblood maroon
A peachy radiance
Emanating from the apples of my cheeks
There's a heart
Tenderly beating
And a soul
That desires love
Try to look beneath
And reach for it
Rather than gaping and grabbing a corner of my surface
Which causes nothing but sheer pain in me

She walks with starlight in her hair
And sparkles with a radiance
That lights up the abounding darkness
Wherever she steps
Her father says
That she is his greatest asset
That no one can compare
Her brilliance shines brighter
Than a scintillating July afternoon
On verdant sun drenched avenues
Her friends say
That she is their savior
When all hell breaks loose
And chaos ensues
She never loses her poise
She is a Rockstar
In their lives
As for him
He still marvels at his luck
Cause he never thought
That what he wished
on countless shooting stars
would one day be fulfilled
She is someone whom he cannot get enough of
His heart beats for her now
She is everything that his soul has ever desired

A resplendent moon
Bequeaths an enchanting night
The silken dark skies
Glimmer and gleam
When the stars flicker
And a beautiful silence
Feels velvety soft against my skin
A  humming breeze
Soaked with a scent of vibrant night blooms
Kisses my cheeks tenderly
And gently persuades me
To fall in bed and dream
As the silvery sound of nocturnal Symphony
Drifting through the open window
tries to lull me into a deep sleep
Washing the dusty remnants of a long day
From by body aching for just a few hours
Of  peaceful repose
Before a blazing sun
Blights this soporific ambiance
But the heavy gusts of thoughts
Raging inside the walls of my mind
Vehemently oppose and assault
Even a transient rule of silence
And the view
Of the imminent day becomes smaller and smaller
Through the vision
Of my swollen eyes

I'm tragically alone
In the bed
Of my own desires
Which shrieks
And groans
Under my weight
And the piercing sound
Of its cries
Richochets ceaselessly
Off the gray walls
That incarcerates
My restless body
And brutally
afflicts me
With an excruciating pain
Is this the fate
To which i'm bound
To slowly rot
And woefully succumb
Staring at the
Surreal visage
Of my unfulfilled wishes
With wrinkled eyes
On the sunken
Ceiling above
Or will i hear
A muffled knock
On the rusted doors
And a balmy fragrance
Of blissful serendipity
Would gently renew
My weary senses
And slacken
The reluctant grip
Of resignation
Seizing my muscles
I wish i knew
I really do

You made me realize
That my laugh
Couldn't hide
the pain inside
You gave me your shoulder
To cry
Rather than
to feign a smile
As you held my hands
And wiped away
the tears from my eyes
My lips stretched
In a genuine smile
For the first
and the longest time
With you
I laughed
But never cried

You may have
the most breathtaking
Almond brown eyes
Glistening with the warmth
Of a sparkling summer dawn
But I can only see them
Brimming with infidelity and deciet
Most of the time
You may have
The most charming
Genuinely sweet smile
Exuding a comfort
That would make me forget
All the unpleasant thoughts
But I can only see
An ingratiating leer
Stuck upon your face
With a titanium bond
You may possess
The voice that makes my heart throb
The words you speak
May stir and rouse
My slaughtered hopes
But all that I hear
Everytime that I try
To envisage
an imminent possibility
Of us
Are the painful shrieks
Of grievous wounds
That I acquired
in the name of love
And their thick scars
That time refuses to erode
From the seams of my heart
Perpetually rendering
Your tireless endeavors
To embrace my soul
With an abiding affection
Indelibly futile

Among the assortment of memories
That homogeneosly mix
And settle inside a corner of my mind
Your memory refuses to blend
Just like your stubborn self
And reappears vividly time and again
While I concede to relive a few moments
In a bygone paradise
It becomes so difficult
When I need to confront the realm of reality
And wrench myself out
From the torrent of emotions
That accompany this short lived Renaissance
In my tender weary heart
They come out of nowhere
Perhaps I've forgotten
That they still reside
In the deepest recesses of my soul
Where I can never reach
No matter how hard I try
I cannot find the hidden interiors
From where they surreptitiously make their way
And grip me with a tenacity
That reminds me of those winter nights
When you held my shivering hands
And warmed me up like sunshine
At the same time
They unleash a profound yet hopeless longing
For you to be by my side
Cause you had always been there
In moments like these
When I felt overwhelmed
And all I needed was the comforting touch
Of your soft supple fingers
Across my cheeks
To wipe my tears
And the curve of your strong shoulder
On which I could rest my leaden head

I feel ashamed
When i see the extent of damage
That you've inflicted on my heart
There are too many splits and cracks
Too many irreparable fractures and fissures
From twisting and tossing it like a ball
Too many gashes from words
With edges as sharp as an exceptionally chiseled sword
Which will take a lifetime to heal
I wish I could say that my heart has become an extremely fragile entity now
But you've actually rendered it obsolete
No longer capable of loving anyone
Nor being loved by anyone due to its pulverized condition

Take me
Trace constellations upon my skin
But do not pull your hand away
When your fingers brush against the dark uneven skin of my scars
Try to ask the story behind them
Do not tell me about different ways to make them fade
They are a testimony of my strength rather than my frailty
And I don't mind their presence
Even if they aren't pleasing to look at
Kiss my fingers slowly
But don't squint at the sight of my chipped nail polish
And don't drop my hand
When you notice that my nails are bitten to the core
And the skin around it is colored with dried blood
I know it doesn't look pretty at all
And im trying hard to stop it
But my mind seems to have a mind of its own that overpowers me most of the times
Do not tell me that Im in dire need of a manicure
Ask me about the things that trouble me so
And assure me
It'll get better
No need to worry at all
Dive deep into my eyes
Note how my pupils expand and contract
I know there is too much puffiness and darkness around it
But try to ignore it and try to read the message written for you upon it
Do not tell me that I need to sleep more or stop drinking so much caffeine at a time
Trust me
I sleep more than usual
Just not at the usual time
Just hold me and let me burrow my head in your chest
Ensure me again and again
That you're with me always
You won't stop loving me at all

You scratched
Me with your
Lesser love
And its stubborn
Painful scars
Continued to
Brutally remind me
For the longest
Period of time
About the presence
Of a fatal flaw
Within my system
That rendered me
As an
Ineligible seeker
For an unconditional
Infinite love

Our recent conversation
Swelled my heart with solace
I needed to talk
So the crackling silence of the night
Amplified by the relentless pulsating of the clock
Wouldn't keep me awake
Even though you didn't utter a single word
I felt content in believing
That you were indeed listening
With a ferocious attention
And an ardent curiosity
that furnished me with ample strength
To keep going
Without gasping for breath
Or clearing my throat
I drenched the moonlit air between us
With infinite words
divulged my heartfelt thoughts
And deep accumulated emotions
Making sure that you heard every one of them
Cause you understand me like no one else
Until the layers of ephemeral night
Receded and waned your glistening silhoute
I never stopped to hear your imperceptible replies
It was only when a gilded light
Warmed my skin and hugged me tight
I realized you were nowhere in sight
Perhaps you had gone to your home
But I forgot to tell you
I will be waiting eagerly
To talk to you again tonight

With iridescent eyes and bewitching smile
Your vision warms these wintry nights
And though I try not to fall into the same groove
Still I sink in a bed of ambrosial dreams about you
You grace me with your ample presence
Without fear I confess that I'm drawn to your essence
These pining heartstrings strum your name
Their hopeless yearning's too strong to be maimed
Yet the jarring reality strikes me hard with daybreak
I realise the futility of coveting you as I wake
In your eyes I'll never see a longing to hold me close
But I'll keep craving you despite knowing there's no hope
Why is it so incredibly hard for you to love me
Why is it so incredibly easy for me to keep falling for you selflessly

Im a devastated and dilapidated wreck
With loads of ******* scattered all around
You'll discover no valuable asset in me
Even if you dig through me for hours
Or drill holes inside me with the sharpest and searing tools you've got
You'll only pierce yourself
And end up with a fairly bruised flesh
With throbbing pain
Dust will cloud your vision
Tears will cascade down your eyes
Grime will clog your lungs
You'll gasp and grasp for breath
Filth will settle on the creases of your palms and will make you feel nauseated
But no treasure will you ever be able to unearth
You'll only find yourself slowly submerged under my derelict mess
Before long
You'll become a part of my shattered dominion

I'm reluctant to admit
That these curtains of flesh
Hide static empty rooms
The cold hard floors of which
Have shrieked with so much pain
When thick calloused feet
Trudged shamelessly upon it
That a timeless ache
Now reverberates constantly
From its sodden interiors
I'm reluctant to admit
That the numerous clusters
Of sparkling galaxies
Which used to shimmer and shine
Resplendently within me
Have been swallowed
Veritably
By a ruthless black hole
Which has rendered their shine
Imperceptibly weak
I'm reluctant to admit
That I've slowly become
a pale ghost
Of who I once used to be
And so I'm always afraid
To admit distressingly
That you will never
be able to find
The epitome of
A happily ever after
That you so desire
To seek in me

That rustling
Leafy canopy
Still shines
Like a famous painting
In the hues of a
Vibrant autumn
It hasn't stopped
sheltering smiling
And sad faces
Without any obligation
Yet
The placid waters
Of that sun speckled lake
Still reflect
iridescent rainbows
Even after torrential
Bouts of rains
They always find a way
To look beyond the
Clouds of gray
And the sky still reverberates
With the songs
Of halcyon winds
They never let
The silence stretch
Endlessly for an eternity
There
Believe me
The only thing
That has
Steadily changed
With time
Is that we've
Become too busy
In our lives
And have slowly forgotten
That such a place
Used to exist
In our ideal
Blissful friendship
Once upon a time
I guess

The air we breathe
Is made up of our breaths
That means even if we're no longer together
I still inhale and exhale you everyday
An inherent part of you still manages to touch me leave me and repeat
Just like you actually did
And no matter how hard i try
It makes forgetting you harder than it is
I hope you know
I may never be able to fully forget you
For doing it
I'll have to stop breathing
Suffocate and choke myself first

I still believe that we'll meet again
Maybe in another life,we'll find each other again
/
With open arms we'll greet each other soon
Without any doubt,we'll embrace each other again
/
Together we'll swim against the tides of fate
From the spears of grief and sorrow,we'll save each other again
/
Under the bright skies of fulfilled dreams
we'll forge new bonds of love for each other again
/
Lets spend this life learning from our irrevocable mistakes
Trust me,in another life we'll never say goodbye to each other again

Not enough ink
In my pen
To express myself
With an enticing
poetic brilliance
But more than enough ink
In the same pen
To write my thoughts
Plainly
with unadorned words
And conventional phrases
Often adding
a rhyme or two
To impart
A reading experience
Which I hope
Is at an arm's length
From being dull
and monotonous