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Ameed 1d
I never thought I'll ever long for walking during the afternoon
or watching the sunset calmly.

I never thought I'll long for waking up early
or crossing the road that's buzzing with filthy cars and grumpy people.

I never thought I'll long for smiling back at random humans
or forcing myself through a crowded sidewalk.

I never thought I'll long for talking insecurely or
whispering amidst an ongoing class.

I never thought I'll long for things taken for granted.
It's not the case anymore
Feb 25 · 170
la fin
Ameed Feb 25
nothing matters anymore
different paths were taken
emotions will degrade themselves
e v e n t u a l l y
...
la fin = the end (from French)
Feb 20 · 90
Hazy Convictions
Ameed Feb 20
I had built my confidence out of fragility
It was like a sandcastle, so beautiful and bold

I almost believed in it; I was almost convinced
That this confidence will endure the strongest of tides

But then and with the first wave of reality
The sands moved under the castle that was swallowed by the shore.

And denial swallowed my presence along with the storms of insecurity and fear ...
Feb 13 · 95
Fall
Ameed Feb 13
Like an old stone in the backyard
I root down to the ground
And the soils of change below me
Try to twirl the roots around

I lay down there imprisoned
Not capable to move
And the waters fall upon me
Carving in their flawless grooves

The greenery surrounding me
Suddenly turns so old
And the cornfields at the corner
Sink into endless folds of gold

The leaves all above me that
Used to gleam and grow
Are eaten by oblivion
With every reckless blow
Dec 2019 · 150
Pillar II
Ameed Dec 2019
Those who are young are not to be equated
with those who are older.
And those who are bright are not to be equated
with anyone but themselves
for they are the builders of
our new world.
Dec 2019 · 268
Pillar I
Ameed Dec 2019
what was written by
Fire and Blood
will never be erased by
Water or Ice
Dec 2019 · 216
oblivion
Ameed Dec 2019
I love oblivion
it's harsh sometimes
because it makes me forget
moments of joy, love, and ecstasy

But oblivion helps me heal
it makes me aware that
the past in all its forms
will
never
come
back

Oblivion makes me live
the 'now' and enjoy my present moment
Dec 2019 · 169
~
Ameed Dec 2019
~
Let them leave for now
The wind will always
bring
them
back

Dec 2019 · 450
life
Ameed Dec 2019
winds blowing
through your hair

age meddling with
your mellow skin

slithers of gray with
wrinkles of strifes

you dissolve into life

you're absorbed by the soil
and as simple as that you are
forgotten

what was yesterday turmoil
is dead and cold and possibly
rotten
Nov 2019 · 448
escape
Ameed Nov 2019
there's always a way out
it might be vague at first
possibly opaque
but, at the end of the day
you will look back
at the dark tunnel behind
and you won't believe that you were there
once
...
Nov 2019 · 126
summer
Ameed Nov 2019
lanterns of gold
waking up late
breakfast for lunch
days with no date

long beginnings
with uncertain ends
sudden adventures
and making new friends

losing control
with thoughts unleashed
made up excuses
"i'm heading northeast"

writing in bed
and sleeping midway
waking up late
dates with no days

final goodbyes
we're back on track
farewell golden lanterns
for winter is back
Oct 2019 · 134
Leave me
Ameed Oct 2019
Leave me in the past, leave me, I just want to be where I belong
Leave me in the woods, in the forest amongst the noble trees and sturdy grounds,

Leave me with the leaf that shuffles with the wind and hisses with the breeze,
Leave me in the cornfields, under the golden God that makes me feel different about myself.

Leave me when orange surpasses the green when yellow becomes so seen.

I want to be left alone with my simplicity and spontaneity,
I want to be left there away from the lights, gasps, and whispers …
I want to return to my old self, to when innocence controlled my words and smiles never left my face.

Leave me there, oh time and I’ll be just fine.
Jul 2019 · 702
Incomplete
Ameed Jul 2019
Send me back to where I belong
Cut the wings you made of feather
I cannot live where I feel wrong
I’ll never stand this change of weather

Make me feel good once again
Let the aching leave my head
I feel the dribbling down my chin
While trying to sleep in my so-called bed.
.
.
.
.
Ameed
Jun 2019 · 1.2k
I don't care
Ameed Jun 2019
I don't care
I never did
I never will

I don't care about the stabs
I don't care about the lies
I don't care about the loss

I never did
I never will

I don't care about you abandoning me in the middle of nowhere or making me doubt every single person I meet or forcing me to look at the mirror and despise the foolishness I had.

I don't care about all the above.

I try to convince myself every night that I don't.
But, I do;
I fully keenly wholesomely do care and my care was my doom.
© Ameed
Jun 2019 · 312
The Timeless Realm
Ameed Jun 2019
Certain things are bound to an end:
Your favorite school bag that you got from the mall,
The flower necklace you made out of chamomile the other day,
And the freshness and gleam of your juvenile face.

These things will gradually leave you
The schoolbag will rot and crumble
The flowers will fade and disappear
And your skin will wrinkle up and change
...
Certain things are bound to an end,
And other things are not:
The memory of holding the bag to school will remain
The photo while wearing the necklace will be cherished
And the smiles radiating your skin will become immortal.

Life is not bound to physical measures
Life is a series of memories, photos, and smiles.
Cherish them and forget everything that exists in the realm of time.
© Ameed
Apr 2019 · 994
Lost
Ameed Apr 2019
Let me go
Set me free
I lost myself
Whilst trying to find you
I lost myself
Whilst trying to find love
But, now I know
That I've been diving in a salty sea
A sea that throws me back to the surface
Every time I go deeper
...
And floating for me is as worthless
as walking is for a bird
...
© Ameed
Mar 2019 · 430
Listen
Ameed Mar 2019
Listen to the voices that you hear at night
Listen to the whispers at 3 a.m.
Listen to the words that pop up when you're alone
And most importantly believe these voices
Clench to them deeply and
Trust
Them All
The Way
...
© Ameed
Feb 2019 · 297
~Unraveling
Ameed Feb 2019
Eyes can sometimes say nothing
And sadness cannot be uncovered
Smiling with pain always happens
And secrets are buried deep down
You can never know what's in there
...
Even
in the hearts
of the
closest to
you
...
© Ameed
Feb 2019 · 707
Oblivious Memory
Ameed Feb 2019
The Former
and
The Latter
aren't the ones that
Matter
they're both in the past
and the past is gone
and it's never returning
...
Don't cling to people from your past
Just leave them behind
Just As They Did
...
© Ameed
Feb 2019 · 2.7k
Harmony
Ameed Feb 2019
And yes,
I searched for acceptance
from the inside
outside’s rejection was only
a shadow of the one in there that

faded
slowly
inside
out

© Ameed
Jan 2019 · 1.1k
Sand n' Gold
Ameed Jan 2019
Some waves came by, hitting the tender shore
And a lot of sand freckles left the poor thing alone
The shore was weakened not holding anymore
It felt so fragile with no flesh only bones

The shore was a person left far behind
A person with no one to care for and trust
The shore was a person who was seen as blind
A person with no feelings, that’s typically a must.

The waves were the challenges everyone would face
They were bumpy and grumpy all the way till the end
But challenges are not there for us to only ace
They’re there to expose these sandy suspends

When you’re being hit, the honest only stay
Liars will leave you not even looking back
They will just hit the road, running away
Leaving you as dusted as a book on a rack

But space has been emptied for a new set of sand
A set that is truthful, loyal and bold
The shore is now happy with this beaming land
Instead of trusting sands, it is now trusting gold
© 2019 Ameed Shehayeb All Rights Reserved
Jan 2019 · 853
*Rise*
Ameed Jan 2019
Hold your shattered pieces together,
Don’t let them go.
Don’t leave your mistakes behind; never forget them for they were there for a reason.
You must rise after every fall, just like a phoenix.
Dust yourself from the sadness and misery you put yourself in,
The fiery flames in your eyes should never dim despite the endless salty floods that strike them.
The confident smile you form should never relax or vanish.
You are strong; you will persist.
You are noticed; you shall resist.
Leave the ashes of the past behind; learn the lesson and just move on …
© 2019 Ameed Shehayeb All Rights Reserved
Jan 2019 · 267
~BrokenTides~
Ameed Jan 2019
How painful it is to be given freedom for a tiny glimpse?
Your ropes are unleashed, you can think without being scared;
You can talk, run, jump and maybe soar without caring about others.
But then you must go back to reality, to your world where thoughts are frozen awaiting execution,
And tongues are rolled in awaiting permission.
This is pain itself, pain that is more painful than remaining blind and not tasting this simmering sip of freedom.
It is that aching because it is sudden, because it is dragging us from our caves and throwing us in an utmost sunshine for only minutes.
However, freedom is worth a thousand pain like that, freedom is worth everything, everything.
© 2019 Ameed Shehayeb All Rights Reserved

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