The wasted years — four years of my life Demons of mind, battles I'd to strive The poor choices and all my hidden fears The mess of my life and unseen tears
Blue Eyes begin to strain and heart starts to race Can't even face family, friends and a crowded place Shivering body and a bunch of crazy thoughts Tightened chest and heavy breathe, the drought I'd fought
Finally, it's all over wishing a happy new year It's the end of 2018, the month of December 2019 — a new beginning I've been waiting for 2019 — a new beginning I've been waiting for
Writing a new book... With new characters... And new story line... I have been fooling myself... Holding on to an older book... With past characters... Which have already wrote new chapters... Without me... May be it’s time for me be part of a new book... And not the rusty old book... Even though the rusty old book was once my life... Let you be reference for my new one... Not my griefs or broken promises...
Warm Summer Day, 2018 Sun on our backs, Wind in my hair Sweet tea kisses, Sunshine smiles Ed Sheeran and Slow dances Twinkling blue eyes, My glimmering brown What goes around comes back around
Hot Summer Night, 2019 Piercing words, Thorns sticking out Waterfall tears, Red hot anger Secrets and lies coming to the light Your true colors showing as bright as the 4th of July Cutting you completely out of my life
This is two memories put into one story formed into a poem about a nine year chapter of my life that I'm finally finished writing.
What was I thinking wasting my time with you I can’t wait to shed my skin I can’t wait to give to it to the wind You ****** my soul and left me thin I can’t wait to shed my skin What was I thinking letting you in You took my heart and left my head to spin I can’t wait to shed my skin Seventeen years wasted, gone like the wind Just like a scorpion it hurts, when you sting I can’t wait to shed my skin No more tears I won’t give in You’re a Narcissist, I won’t let u win I just can’t wait to shed my skin Filled with feelings of misgiving I won't fall for your gas-lighting God please help me to shed me skin I Pray, I Pray for a new beginning