To this day,
your name
still hurts my tongue
but I still say it anyway.
Sometimes I like to
hear my soul
gently tear itself
apart.

You are a novel
gathering dust on my shelf
but not because I don’t want to read
but because I’m afraid
to turn the page,
afraid of how you’ll end

Like the sun,
she brightens up my day
Always there, never far away
Like Mercury,
She’s scorched with beauty
A dazzling image for all to see
Like Venus,
A goddess in my mind
A divine gift for all mankind
Like Earth,
Her heart is where I make my home
An aura so real, I never feel alone
Like Mars,
Her hair, it runs with red
she annihilates any tear I shed
Like Jupiter,
She has the largest heart
She herself: a work of art
Like Saturn,
Beauty surrounds her like a ring
So light and divine, almost floating
Like Uranus,
She goes against the grain
Free from the world, she breaks the chain
Like Neptune,
Her passion rages like the wind
she sets out like a storm to rescind
Like Pluto,                  
So distant but never forgotten
Dancing for eternity around the sun

You are like the sun
Everyone basks under your reflection
Soaking up your warmth and affection
Without you,
the world would be
a very cold and bleak place to live
a world I wouldn’t want to know

I love you sober
I love you high-
you have a kiss
that money can't buy.

It is paranoia which destroys a man
Like oil destroys the sea
It is anxiety which destroys a man
Like termites destroy a tree
It is jealousy which destroys a man
Like disaster destroys a street
It is hatred which destroys a man
Like cold destroys the heat
It is worry which destroys a man
Like pollution destroys the air
It is anger which destroys a man
Like bleach destroys the hair
It is lust which destroys a man
Like darkness destroys the light
It is heartbreak which destroys a man
Like sunlight destroys the night

I can sense you
in every sunflower-
in the scent of every petal,
the sweetness of the pollen
and the colour and light
you radiate.

Let our tongues
be our swords and
our words as arrows.
Let us duel,
blood for blood
and nothing less.

I’m afraid of living in a
dreary world without you
So I went out into the fields
And picked
ten thousand sunflowers.
As they brightened my room
I was reminded
of the way your eyes
would brighten up my life

Your lips-
the doorway to that special place
I have made my home.
There's nowhere I feel safer than
beneath the roof of your tongue,
within the walls of your mouth.
We store our treasured memories
in the attic and
house the butterflies in the basement.
At last,
I am home.

Lust,
an empty bed
and the lights turned down
is the perfect recipe
for you and me
tonight.

I never thought
I would envy the sun,
but here I am,
wishing I could kiss you
the way the sun kisses you
every day and with
as much warmth.

Maybe it's lust or
maybe it's her pheromones-
All I know is that when
I bury my head
into her velvet locks,
time seems to stop
and I must worship
this goddess beside me.

Toasted inner thigh
glazed in our honey and sweat
was always your specialty

12:21 AM
28/9/19

Loving me is like
watering a sunflower
but without the sun

12:21 AM
9/8/21

Let me rid you of your heart aches
With poetry and strawberry cupcakes
So stay with me but for a little while
You accelerate time in just one smile

But all things must come to an end
I’ll miss you more than you can comprehend
To this day I’m still finding goodbyes tough
Because time spent with you is never enough

Was it ever
about you?

The way the twilight
reflects off of her shoulders
tempts me all night long

4:01 PM
2/8/19

Another year,
another piece of me
that is getting
left behind.

There’s not a flaw in the world
that could keep me away from you
There’s not a bridge in the world
that could keep me falling through
And now you're all that's in my mind
Every feature, so incredible
It’s times like these i want to rewind
Because you’re so unforgettable

Kiss me in waves of
affection and shower me
with all of your love

9:49 PM
7/7/19

The lust you feel
is nothing more than
the need for physical validation
that you are still desirable
to replace the emotional
rejection of being
unlovable.

I want to make that journey
from your knees to
your hips again-
it was always my favorite route.
Soft plains,
colored of oats,
and each road
I know like the back of my hand.
With my destination in sight,
it's getting more humid
by the inch.
Hotter,
wetter,
hotter,
wetter.

It's just your voice,
your heartbeat,
your laugh
on repeat.

Before I met you
I thought that
poetry was just
a collection of words,
that music was just
a collection of sounds,
that art was just
a collection of
shapes, colours and stokes
that life was just
a series of
years, breaths and steps
Indeed, I see things differently now
Through you, I am reborn

You have the only
hand that does not feel foreign
between my fingers

3:40 PM
7/8/21

I miss you
With the intensity
Of a thousand
Burning suns

Your absence
It crushes me
With the weight of
A thousand tons

a deep long lust
followed by a deep long kiss
followed by a deep long sigh

No one likes a mystery-
we hate being left in the dark.
To not know is to suffer
night after night.
What a cruel fate
to be void of
clarity.

You can sit around
and hope that time
solves the puzzle,
or you can put
yourself back together.

Life is a double-edged sword
Life is an everlasting chord,
It stings when you are alone
As it sings its bitter tone
Life is a double-edged blade.
It cuts deep, you’d better be afraid
Wake up tomorrow and let it start
Feel it pierce your fragile heart

Life is hollow; life is pain
I’m never coming here again
There’s no one left, left at all
You built me up to make me fall

It’s a sick world, sick, sick, sick
It’s a world so full of hypocrites
It’s a world I can’t relate
you fill me up with so much hate

I don’t feel like myself today
I need some sort of getaway
This place will surely melt my brain
And you all cause me so much pain

I was reading over your poetry,
again.
Like somehow, if I repeat it
enough times
you would come back
and I would find myself
in your words
again.

I feel it everyday
Tattooed on my brain
It keeps me at bay
Its origins unexplained
It greets me in the morning
It greets me in the midnight blue
Each day, I feel it like a sting
Each day, I know my shame is true

You may be unreachable
Like an island across sea
But I’d make myself miserable
Just to make you happy

I drink the poetry
that flows from your mind
like rivers of honey.
So sweet are your thoughts
and so pure is your soul.

Every time I
talk to my demons,
it always comes back
to you.

Beckon to me
and call me over-
I want to be seduced
into forgetting just
how lost I am
without you.

The closest thing to
heaven I've known was between
her hips and her thighs

5:50 PM
16/5/20

she was forever
the withered petals
of a beautiful sunflower
that never learned to bloom.

Sometimes,
when I am lonely,
I will stare up at the moon
and smile knowing that her
twilight will kiss
you too.

It does not matter
anymore but that does not
mean it does not hurt

8:50 PM
23/6/23

Memories are like stones
Time and distance erode them like acid
and I’m standing alone
I was certain that I found a diamond
I felt myself fading away
Like a memory of yours buried in the past
If only you would stay
You’re my diamond that cannot be destroyed

I hear your voice and
I hear poetry, music
and everything nice

6:11 PM
9/8/21

Suicide;
it doesn't stop the pain.
It packs it into a grenade,
amd throws it
to your loved ones.

This feeling returns
Like running in circles
It's getting old
It leaves me at the
bottom of the bottle
lonely and cold

I like
being alone
but not
feeling alone-
is there a word for that?

Your breath
was as warm as fire,
your kisses raw and relentless.
Your tongue went wild inside his mouth
as if its life had depended on the taste.
We had caved into each other-
a hunger we could not satisfy.
And while I searched
for ways to justify our sins,
you were already exploring all the places
upon me that had gone untouched
for far too long.

I could tell that
the drive home would
be a bitter one
Her purple lips
They plagued my mind
How could something
So sweet
Leave such a bitter taste?
Her scent
Still fills the car
So close
Yet so far away
So sweet
so bittersweet

Always reading too
deeply into dreams that are
better left untouched

5:25 PM
11/12/20