i aint afraid of nothing
   but myself
myself is all there is

i can see me sometimes clearly
   but mostly
cloud of doubt

called the ghosts of heaven
   to fill me
with all blessings

sometimes see the the devil
   in a fog
of make believe

myself is all there is

this time of compassion
my effort so small
ha   one tiny step

gun man comes into
i try to **** him hard or
hide behind a child

i thought i saw a
god in my mind it was just
you in a mirror

i heard a distant thunder
acknolgment of truth
it called me to make a wonder
from memories of youth

sat upon the stairs afraid
heard a painful cry
asking for assistance
i sat upon the stairs afraid

an unrepentant poet
walks among the world
seeing and not believing
anything perceived

he dreams of inconsistent
anomalies of existanse
sees to the end of time
in imaginary universe

and no one says a word

the story begins in this sentence
and ends when you stop reading
you are the creator of all that will be

the door opened and you were born
did you knock or just drop into
it does not matter you are here now

male or female or something else
life was needed and you became it
walk if you can is a metaphor

the world is but a reflex
and dreams are made by god small g
a mess of confusion is it's problem

alluring in mind
a temptation of the soul
maybe no or yes

the mountains are so
beautiful i do not see
the path before me

pain does not become
pleasure it becomes nothing
but pain

first you have to be
a river not a piece of shore
then journey begins

never heard angel
speak outside of dream this life
dream on brother dream

the dog barked loud twice
the cat cried out in death
i went back to sleep

i see the elephants
   in the room
they are so beautiful
   why should i want
to get rid of them

to see enlightenment
in the mirror
no other choice

the empty air falls
to mind nothing here again
reality not

the wisdom of the
ages ugg killing something
with a big ol rock

shallow river
on the sandy bed
bones beneath

the sky was blue the clouds were grey
   the sun shone now and then
she came to me from far away
   her name was Adolen

Adolen oh Adolen you tore my world
   in two
never seen a woman since with
   heart as sad as you

we travelled on to here and there
   and walked a grassy field
we wondered and we wandered near
   an edge that did not yield

the echoes of the fallen down
   controled our glassy stare
you lept into the near beyond
   i did not follow there

Adolen oh Adolen you tore my world
   in two
never loved a girl so much that
   was as sad as you

dolma walks the earth
touches loves honors people
she is a mountain

ashes in my mouth
drank wrong beer can oh shitsky
drink up brother drink

i wander wonder thrive and plunder
steal **** expel in thunder
the i i am am manifest god

sorrow a mind as long as you want
happiness a place to be if you want
i choose the dark side
long ago i made a decision
happy face or sad face
my choice,, sad face. if
only i had the protector anger
to back it up
i'm working on it.
don't tread on me.

the eagle high flys
among us in sky mind
you see what you see

the conquered waits
chooses time and place
to bite the hand

dead lizard on the
tumultuos road crooked
under the machine

i saw a heaven
no i did not not really
the mountain is cold

poor me oh poor me
have everything i need
no excuses left

with compassion my
food i travel and growl and
the world pads my feet

the vagaries of
love push pull this troubled mind
to balance hard fought

God, give me the strength to get down on my knees
        Give me the strength to accept my disease
        Give me the strength to surrender my ways
And to know I need fellowship for the rest of my days.

        Give me the strength to continue to live
        Give me the strength to know You forgive
        Give me the strength to approve of myself
And to reach out to others for comfort and help.

        Give me the strength to live with life's pains
        Give me the strength to work for my gains
        Give me the strength to know I'm not less
And to give up my efforts to be better than best.

        Give me the strength to share what I have
        Give me the strength to play and to laugh
        Give me the strength to live in each day
And to listen to others and hear what they say.

        Give me the strength to cry and be sad
        Give me the strength to smile and be glad
        Give me the strength to know I have worth
And to know its an attribute of everyone on earth.

emptiness steps on
land mine ripples flow until
they don't who knows when

haiku 20/11/5x

you coward amen
not soul saver till the end
no you were just a man

drunkeness echoes
soft air breathed in again
and i want nothing

emptiness is a
young mouse ******* on cotton
that you do not see

only know where i
have been going to a new
place again again

the elephant dreamed
he was god he fell into
a mud hole and died

beautiful woman
revolver pick up truck beer
on ice a real sight

where does love begin
in your own head only source
in the universe

humans turn heaven
into hell sometimes control
worthy of a god

ripples are power
resonance is a soft flow
amid universes

internal seeing
is formed by external things
look around close now

three hundred pound woman
screaming my children are starving
saw it and just cried

could there be a place for me tonight
up to heaven in the sky of lights
thinking of a place for you and me
any where's okay with me
where were going i don't care i'm there
and want to be with you forever

old warrior
sits on riverbank
katana drops

i saw a venue in mind
walking towards the shore
of consciousness once more

many generations of me
splashes among the sea
and it is a heartfelt kind

the echoes resound dimly
i think i hear words
or just an error simply

softly i transverse
in my dreams
the whole universe

awake i am human

white snow hard as ice
old man barely walking with
cane happy to be

kneeling behind a grave stone
smiling for the pictures
ha ha ha ha ha

i opened my mind to the cosmos
    humanity flooded in

the world revolved once more
    here we are again

what time is it the present
    as has ever been

do not believe these words
    you are creator

lost in the desert of noise
eating greasy gobs
pain is the penalty of life
drugging in the hotel bathroom
spitting out the window
trashing all there is
complaining about the ****** mess
screaming no i didn't do this

warm sweat on my back
hot days of reality
world has truly changed