"Nah...

                                    *she just..

          *reminds me of someone."

It took me months to find the words
Months to cotemplate
And months to say
How much I loved you

I realized after a year
That those months
Never mattered
If until now

I am still in love with you

am i not*       .                    ..
        .                         ....       .          
              allowed
    ..                                ..­             ...
       to love    ..              ...
                     ...                 without
              ...
    ......             consequence?
         ..
...

I too have feelings I cannot hide
Words that I must set aside and
Trust me when I say
We are all just children inside yet
Till now we still make mistakes
And often we cry when we're awake
By midnight you're fast asleep
Yet you're always in my dreams
That one day I would slip and fall
With your arms stretched out
Ready to catch the burdens
Deep in my chest because
Let's face it
You know me too well and
I know only little of you
I know you're blind on both eyes
And you'd choose water over wine
And half the time you'd drop by
To say hi
But you left your glasses
On my balcony last night
Your sight is 50/50 and I am miles away
We're only young once and
Mistakes are better done now than later
So set down your arms
And let me fall into an abyss
Because I know very well
You've fallen way too many times

It may not look like it -
Because I'm always by myself,
Reading a good book with a cup
Of coffee on the side, enjoying
Long walks on streets on windy days,
Just sitting on a park bench
Looking at families fly kites together;
And they know they'll never be alone,
- But I fear being alone.
Though it wasn't for long
And for all the wrong reasons,
You made me feel I was loved
You made me feel what it's like to love.
You're gone now and I'm not sad that you are
It was all thanks to you
That now I know
I can *
Be loved.

You start the day waking up in blight

Staring at the ceiling, neither nor bright

struggling yourself left and right

feeling down and never delight

You gaze at your left to a wonderful sight

A hand has reached out

Grabbing it without doubt

You’ve sat down with a straight spine

Everything seemed all fine

Pulling you to a bright light

A dazzle you’ve been waiting for a long time

A pious voice whispers “You are safe”

But many screams “Farewell”

A great epiphany hits

You’ve lost your tomorrow.

At first I thought it was nothing
For you to plant that small seedling
Not knowing what it was
Waiting for it to grow
I suddenly felt
This great urge to know

I picked up a rose and searched for you
Place after place, day after day
The rose starts to shrivel and wither

It seems like the seedling you've sowed
Has sprouted to something yet unknown
To my surprise you've planted a heart
But you never cared for it
You left it alone
As it also withered