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"infatuations" poems
. **Crushes or infatuations •••don't last ••••this long. •They're never ••this intense •••••Never this strong. ••I am in thought, ••all day and all night. •••••Through •••••moments of ••••••triumph and •deepest, darkest fright. •••I see you in all there is, •••••I see you in everything. ••••••••Living in the present ••••but for the future I'm hoping •••You calm and get me all riled up ••••••••••••••••at the same time. ••••••••••••You exist in metaphors, ••••••••••••••••••broken sentences •••••••••••••and time worn rhymes. •••••••••••••••••You give me life ••••••••••••••and take my breath •••••••••••away altogether. •••••••••You hold the key to my erratic emotional lever. •••••••••••You fill me full ••••••••••but empty me out ••••••••••••simultaneously. ••••You make me want to be •••••••••••someone else ••••••••as well as being me. ••••••Paradoxes of the heart •••they can never be quelled. ••••When hopes and odds ••try to be one and meld. •••••This is how I know ••••••••that this is real. •••••••••••••I'm truly, •••••••••madly, deeply ••••••in love with you •and it's all that I feel.**
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Feb 23, 2015
Feb 23, 2015 at 9:12 AM UTC
He Said...
. **Crushes or infatuations •••don't last ••••this long. •They're never ••this intense •••••Never this strong. ••I am in thought, ••all day and all night. •••••Through •••••moments of ••••••triumph and •deepest, darkest fright. •••I see you in all there is, •••••I see you in everything. ••••••••Living in the present ••••but for the future I'm hoping •••You calm and get me all riled up ••••••••••••••••at the same time. ••••••••••••You exist in metaphors, ••••••••••••••••••broken sentences •••••••••••••and time worn rhymes. •••••••••••••••••You give me life ••••••••••••••and take my breath •••••••••••away altogether. •••••••••You hold the key to my erratic emotional lever. •••••••••••You fill me full ••••••••••but empty me out ••••••••••••simultaneously. ••••You make me want to be •••••••••••someone else ••••••••as well as being me. ••••••Paradoxes of the heart •••they can never be quelled. ••••When hopes and odds ••try to be one and meld. •••••This is how I know ••••••••that this is real. •••••••••••••I'm truly, •••••••••madly, deeply ••••••in love with you •and it's all that I feel.**
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I was a lost soul In this world so cold Where everyone knows the mind becomes corrupted Because everything in life is about money cars and that ****** seduction Just becareful bcus if u get ****** in Ull cnfuse love with lust Money for power   In it's self a contradiction But still has Everyman wishing For the life of a superstar when really it's the little ones that make galaxies but see we are confused by our own infatuations nd a touch of insanity So here I am trying to figure out my souls anatomy
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Aug 5, 2014
Aug 5, 2014 at 1:26 AM UTC
Souls anatomy part1
. **Crushes and•• infatuations••• Are but tricks•• played by•••• the heart.•••• Promises••• of love•••• That could•• tear you apart.•• Though you••••• look to••••••••••• The light of day.•••••• Listen carefully•••••••• To what I'm about to say.••• I may be the one•••••••••• Who'd grace your thoughts•••• all day and night.••••••••••••• But I implore you••••••••••••••• to look past tomorrow•••••••••••••• Into the future that's out of sight.••••••• You are ready to carve•••••••••••••••• Ever so recklessly,•••••••••••••••••• In your heart and thoughts••••••• And in the words••••••••• of your poetry.•••••••• But know that••••••• These sweet nothings• you chose to lay,••••• Right now are••••••• mere words•••••••••• With the intention••••••• to sway.•••••••••••••••••• I feel the urge••••••••••••••• To painfully declare.•••••••••• I feel the need•••••••••••••• To tell you what•••••••••• I've longed to bare.•••• That I'm not••••••••••••• remotely interested,••••••••• Nor am I taken in.••••••••••• For your words••••••••••••• have gone around•••••••••• I know where••••••••• they've been...•••••• Should've revised•• your material••••• Before trying••••• on another...••••• Because you•••• had conveyed•• the same••••• to my sister!**
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Feb 24, 2015
Feb 24, 2015 at 9:09 AM UTC
She Said...
. **Crushes and•• infatuations••• Are but tricks•• played by•••• the heart.•••• Promises••• of love•••• That could•• tear you apart.•• Though you••••• look to••••••••••• The light of day.•••••• Listen carefully•••••••• To what I'm about to say.••• I may be the one•••••••••• Who'd grace your thoughts•••• all day and night.••••••••••••• But I implore you••••••••••••••• to look past tomorrow•••••••••••••• Into the future that's out of sight.••••••• You are ready to carve•••••••••••••••• Ever so recklessly,•••••••••••••••••• In your heart and thoughts••••••• And in the words••••••••• of your poetry.•••••••• But know that••••••• These sweet nothings• you chose to lay,••••• Right now are••••••• mere words•••••••••• With the intention••••••• to sway.•••••••••••••••••• I feel the urge••••••••••••••• To painfully declare.•••••••••• I feel the need•••••••••••••• To tell you what•••••••••• I've longed to bare.•••• That I'm not••••••••••••• remotely interested,••••••••• Nor am I taken in.••••••••••• For your words••••••••••••• have gone around•••••••••• I know where••••••••• they've been...•••••• Should've revised•• your material••••• Before trying••••• on another...••••• Because you•••• had conveyed•• the same••••• to my sister!**
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*I've been through illusions- feeding up my delusions. I called this love- while your's infatuation.*
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May 16, 2015
May 16, 2015 at 10:30 AM UTC
Infatuations.
*Electric Dreams Of My Radioactive Ex, Bio-Digital Jazz Tap Dancing Us Into *** Lucid Infatuations Infused In Whiskey, Cupid Fairytales Conceiving Frisky, A Perpetual Beauty Smoldered In Ecstatic Bliss, Sublime Sins Between Her Rosy Lips With Velvet Kiss, Romantic Burns Galvanized In Her ****** Desires, Seductive Stardust Enchanting My Feisty Fires, Encoded Serenity In Her Decoded Virginity, Recoding Obscenities Of Her Fragrant Sexuality, Hazel Echoes Raining Intimate Bouquets, Rekindling, Her Drug That Fondles In Her Moaning Glaze, Enraptured Catalysts Animating In Her Cuddles, Euphoric Elations Climaxing Into Her Satin Snuggles. - 02:17AM -*
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Apr 19, 2017
Apr 19, 2017 at 5:00 PM UTC
Bio-Digital Jazz
I’ve recently developed a hypothesis It’s crazier than the idea of an atheist The truth is the hardest pill to swallow when it stings like a vaccination So I’m dealing with the fact that my love may be broken I’ve had a broken heart but those can be repaired With time, effort and divine intervention The fibers of the heart can be re-stitched together But my love – my ability to love – seems to be destructive When you care too much, you lose what you wanted most I wanted you; so I said so That worked like a poison, numbing your feelings for me My love is like a broken boomerang I throw it out with heartfelt emotions Hoping and waiting for your love in return But my love never comes back at all It doesn’t even come back as a letter ‘returned to sender’ It simply died when it was on its way Whether in your negligence or on the journey love take us on My love died like a single drop of water in the desert I wish I could figure out the enigma of love and the defect mine seems to have My love is broken like a bird without her wings Grounded against her nature and denied to possibilities of true life My love is withering in my own heart – you can only love yourself so much I was ready to give you all I am But somewhere along the way I feel like my love is not only broken… I tried another time to love another soul My broken love had a heart attack and died in route to the grave It wasn’t taken to a hospital because my love was a lost cause Something unworthy of its name; love My love was never seen as love by any other being It was seen as infatuations or crushes that crushed life out of attraction So now that my love is dead, what do I have to offer the world? We all respond to lost love in our own way I would fight until I had no breath or strength – then again Maybe it’s not my love you need, or even want That’s the trouble with loving you I overstep, overlook and over-wish My love was just too strong for it’s own good Now I weep in the arctic for the faithless cruelty An arctic that I call summer from the frozen tundra of my heart Hell has frozen over – hell has become my heart
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Aug 20, 2012
Aug 20, 2012 at 7:40 PM UTC
Hypothesis of My Broken Love
I’ve recently developed a hypothesis It’s crazier than the idea of an atheist The truth is the hardest pill to swallow when it stings like a vaccination So I’m dealing with the fact that my love may be broken I’ve had a broken heart but those can be repaired With time, effort and divine intervention The fibers of the heart can be re-stitched together But my love – my ability to love – seems to be destructive When you care too much, you lose what you wanted most I wanted you; so I said so That worked like a poison, numbing your feelings for me My love is like a broken boomerang I throw it out with heartfelt emotions Hoping and waiting for your love in return But my love never comes back at all It doesn’t even come back as a letter ‘returned to sender’ It simply died when it was on its way Whether in your negligence or on the journey love take us on My love died like a single drop of water in the desert I wish I could figure out the enigma of love and the defect mine seems to have My love is broken like a bird without her wings Grounded against her nature and denied to possibilities of true life My love is withering in my own heart – you can only love yourself so much I was ready to give you all I am But somewhere along the way I feel like my love is not only broken… I tried another time to love another soul My broken love had a heart attack and died in route to the grave It wasn’t taken to a hospital because my love was a lost cause Something unworthy of its name; love My love was never seen as love by any other being It was seen as infatuations or crushes that crushed life out of attraction So now that my love is dead, what do I have to offer the world? We all respond to lost love in our own way I would fight until I had no breath or strength – then again Maybe it’s not my love you need, or even want That’s the trouble with loving you I overstep, overlook and over-wish My love was just too strong for it’s own good Now I weep in the arctic for the faithless cruelty An arctic that I call summer from the frozen tundra of my heart Hell has frozen over – hell has become my heart
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There are two types of punches in this world and I'll take them both. Maybe one right in the face before I become the punch line to your insensitive little jokes (sorry I forgot to laugh this time.) And even then I'll take them gladly as the blood makes its acquaintance with my tears and my fears become entangled with fury. Hurry up. Tell me that no one will ever love me and that I'm just another ugly girl in a ****** up world that will do nothing but swallow me whole and purge me once it tastes my bitterness. I'm sorry I wasn't sweet enough for you. You. Craver of life's toxic temptations. Infatuations with the nicotine filled paper you place between your lips and the horror stories you read at three in the morning as you wish to become another doomed character created by your favourite authors. But you didn't even bother to realize that our lives are the horror stories and as much as I wanted to put the book down I kept screaming for more. Always craving but never satisfied. And all I can hear is daddy crying out "You could have died!" "You could have died!" You could have died. I don't care, god ****** I thought the tears in his eyes would have stopped me but the spilled blood on the floor was so taunting and I knew right then that I'd always want more. I guess I really am a ********* because you know for a fact that I would kiss the hands that punched me in the face one      too           many                    times
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Jan 30, 2017
Jan 30, 2017 at 12:05 AM UTC
Punch
Gene Wilder's ***** Wonka* once asked me to step into a world of pure imagination and I danced to his voice of sugary imperfections. The swelling strings drizzled on top falsetto inflections captured me childishly with candy-coated attentions But even the finest chocolate melts, and I learned to let purity be pushed by treacly lyrics or stern midgets secure in their fudge-topped zealotry. It sifts too pretty for me, powdering my grown-up infatuations with petty wants, getting a little messy What I crave instead's stained-glass contraptions to propel me past the stretches of biblical proportion where light and dark don't mix. I'm no Idiot, good-hearted in the veins of Fyodor or Akira, and I can't see beyond the pure tedium of a blurredly driven snow I like my mental drifts grime-choked and splotched with some savory do dropped in to dissolve flossy confections to a salted soup of imagined impurity.
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May 20, 2010
May 20, 2010 at 6:08 PM UTC
Impure Imagination
Your just sad, stupidity of the most flamboyancy you throw your arrow's catching others off guard, showing them the illusionary's to something fake. Oh no you don't!!! I'd **** for much less but I'd **** you slowly painfully if you stick me with that! I'd hurt you and make you suffer slowly- meticulously like you've made me hurt, cry, die a bit each time- so many many times. time after time I failed & fell prey to your games... your sick mind must be wondering what next you can do to me Baby baby baby........... I'm no longer blind to your wicked deeds and all your silly schemes. I got your number and yet you still think your gonna fool me, Not this round and never again, you should be ashamed of yourself for the misconducts and falsehoods you and your magical arrow's have shown so many, not just me. all kinds of being from ever walks of life, all around the world. Your silly & sad really, and truth be told someone must have ruined your love long ago I heard ya momma did you in and for what? Beauty is only skin deep or so they say. she must of hated that your love was given to someone else! Did you do it, huh did ya? Yo you fucked ya momma huh? Your a stupid bastard- yes you, Kama, Amor, or so they called you MR CUPID, I hate everything you claim to stand for if you understood true love You'd know ya arrow's cause lust & desire not love, not even real infatuations. you've did your damage and if you stick me again I'll **** you! You don't inspire romantic anythings. You wreck happy homes given young girls false hope false wishing and dreams. Cupid you son of a ***** leave me be and go away. Cupid stop playing go on now get outta here! Cupid......... ’’’’\̵͇̿̿\з=(•̪●)=ε/̵͇̿̿/’̿’̿’̿’̿ Goodbye... Man I swear......... Cupid must think I'm Stupid! Always Me Ayeshah
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Mar 30, 2010
Mar 30, 2010 at 10:57 AM UTC
Cupid must think I'm Stupid!
Your just sad, stupidity of the most flamboyancy you throw your arrow's catching others off guard, showing them the illusionary's to something fake. Oh no you don't!!! I'd **** for much less but I'd **** you slowly painfully if you stick me with that! I'd hurt you and make you suffer slowly- meticulously like you've made me hurt, cry, die a bit each time- so many many times. time after time I failed & fell prey to your games... your sick mind must be wondering what next you can do to me Baby baby baby........... I'm no longer blind to your wicked deeds and all your silly schemes. I got your number and yet you still think your gonna fool me, Not this round and never again, you should be ashamed of yourself for the misconducts and falsehoods you and your magical arrow's have shown so many, not just me. all kinds of being from ever walks of life, all around the world. Your silly & sad really, and truth be told someone must have ruined your love long ago I heard ya momma did you in and for what? Beauty is only skin deep or so they say. she must of hated that your love was given to someone else! Did you do it, huh did ya? Yo you fucked ya momma huh? Your a stupid bastard- yes you, Kama, Amor, or so they called you MR CUPID, I hate everything you claim to stand for if you understood true love You'd know ya arrow's cause lust & desire not love, not even real infatuations. you've did your damage and if you stick me again I'll **** you! You don't inspire romantic anythings. You wreck happy homes given young girls false hope false wishing and dreams. Cupid you son of a ***** leave me be and go away. Cupid stop playing go on now get outta here! Cupid......... ’’’’\̵͇̿̿\з=(•̪●)=ε/̵͇̿̿/’̿’̿’̿’̿ Goodbye... Man I swear......... Cupid must think I'm Stupid! Always Me Ayeshah
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That's not a God, that's a sense of entitlement A sugarcoated dishevelment in disguise You don't have dreams, just infatuations Turning hope into self-indulgent lies I turned away from New York just to know you Silver showered soldiers singing serene I turned away from myself just to love you But I don't think you know what love means You're not alone, just afraid of isolation Afraid no one will be better than me I'm not that great, I say without hesitation Someone will love you more, just wait and see My opinion of you changes like the skyline A star among the cascading dark Baby, don't let yourself flame out Before the rest of your fire starts
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Apr 19, 2014
Apr 19, 2014 at 2:48 PM UTC
You're Not Alone
She frolicked through trouble, and dandled with mischief. Alison Wonderland; everything I wished I was and so much more. Ever emanating her doe-eyed façade; proclaiming our jests mere “mischief.” Yet, an unspoken verdict (Foretaste? Conception? Notion?) had cloaked the truth: wickedness rippled beneath our parade. I nuzzled her contours; my peripheral eye – nailed to her profile, her blueprints, her chassis. I stalked her mirage – dancing with vapor. She glissaded about, no fool to my truth, varnishing my mantle. I belonged to Alison: perpetually at her side. Our couplet became a “we.” So, We regretted nothing. We veered for the pyre: caroming(skimming?) those embers alit with vice. She narrated my mental seminar. Discarding my dogmas to uphold her own; and thus, my mind was hers. My mind was her mind. Alison made heads turn, and mouths water, as we sidled – hand in hand – down the street. She was my Christmas morning: each colloquium – giftwrapped with finesse. She personified paradise, she illustrated utopia. Hatching our Carnival; netting us, enamored, sidling the Carousal. We’d skim, we’d sail, her halo – my fossil. Her lips, her eyes, her hands… they echoed the innocence of a child. Niave, innocent, and giftwrapped in wonder. Little Miss Wonderland: my very own fairytale. She was mine alone; she was mine to keep. Did I want her, or did I want to be her? Alison Wonderland. Her aura – so celestial – paralleled my prose. When she banished my husk – Maple Thatcher – I cackled good riddance… And I grew a new personality to accommodate her own. For, without Ali – devoid of our we – I doubted the very existence of me. On my composition, she bestowed rhythm. She gave tune to my silence; her chimes, her cadence. My ink was her song – fusing a symphony. A symphony of Alison: the melody to solidify our tryst. My mind was her mind. And yet… somehow, I missed a carriage – or two – aboard her train of thought. For, the same felon spiting my existence, was the angel I loved to life. Gladly, I huffed, and I puffed, and I blew Maple down. Fused against Alison, I needed none of Maple. Carnival infatuations… Alison Wonderland.
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Jan 23, 2016
Jan 23, 2016 at 8:04 AM UTC
The Heterosexual Duo ...In Theory
She frolicked through trouble, and dandled with mischief. Alison Wonderland; everything I wished I was and so much more. Ever emanating her doe-eyed façade; proclaiming our jests mere “mischief.” Yet, an unspoken verdict (Foretaste? Conception? Notion?) had cloaked the truth: wickedness rippled beneath our parade. I nuzzled her contours; my peripheral eye – nailed to her profile, her blueprints, her chassis. I stalked her mirage – dancing with vapor. She glissaded about, no fool to my truth, varnishing my mantle. I belonged to Alison: perpetually at her side. Our couplet became a “we.” So, We regretted nothing. We veered for the pyre: caroming(skimming?) those embers alit with vice. She narrated my mental seminar. Discarding my dogmas to uphold her own; and thus, my mind was hers. My mind was her mind. Alison made heads turn, and mouths water, as we sidled – hand in hand – down the street. She was my Christmas morning: each colloquium – giftwrapped with finesse. She personified paradise, she illustrated utopia. Hatching our Carnival; netting us, enamored, sidling the Carousal. We’d skim, we’d sail, her halo – my fossil. Her lips, her eyes, her hands… they echoed the innocence of a child. Niave, innocent, and giftwrapped in wonder. Little Miss Wonderland: my very own fairytale. She was mine alone; she was mine to keep. Did I want her, or did I want to be her? Alison Wonderland. Her aura – so celestial – paralleled my prose. When she banished my husk – Maple Thatcher – I cackled good riddance… And I grew a new personality to accommodate her own. For, without Ali – devoid of our we – I doubted the very existence of me. On my composition, she bestowed rhythm. She gave tune to my silence; her chimes, her cadence. My ink was her song – fusing a symphony. A symphony of Alison: the melody to solidify our tryst. My mind was her mind. And yet… somehow, I missed a carriage – or two – aboard her train of thought. For, the same felon spiting my existence, was the angel I loved to life. Gladly, I huffed, and I puffed, and I blew Maple down. Fused against Alison, I needed none of Maple. Carnival infatuations… Alison Wonderland.
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with all this sleepless night wide eye like butterflies fields of yesterday's pain take a step to look feel the whispers at the back memories again haunted me with all your pretty lies words of shredded disguise a promising of dreams only to have realize a state of foolish paradise storming forever haunted me with every blinded glass musing images of our past infatuations overtaking wondering why it never last weeping every tear to fall sleep a finished love that haunted me with every sickening heed a figure keeps to overdue fragments, a drowning sea twisted disenchantment on the floor, now gently fading ending, but still haunted me
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Sep 8, 2017
Sep 8, 2017 at 11:14 AM UTC
◦ Haunted Me
I'm cautious to a fault I've never stared down The barrel of a gun I've never held A blade to my wrists But I've thought about it. I was never a girl of extremes I've never drunk Poison until I passed out I've never let my lips Inhale ash But I contemplated it. I was never careless After a few painful infatuations And unrequited feelings I fell in love And this time, he loves me too But somehow my heart is still fractured. I cannot help but wonder How someone so sensible So careful Can still be so messed up When they have done nothing but Tread without fault. The thoughts and feelings That I do my best to ignore Stifle me, suffocate me Even overwhelm me, sometimes I'm cautious to a fault And it terrifies me.
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Mar 8, 2015
Mar 8, 2015 at 7:25 PM UTC
I'm cautious to a fault
Pharmacopoeias Pseudo psychedelic phantasms Kaleidoscopic deliriums Mushroom acerbic cloud igniting Truth denying exposition Chemical makeup Dressed to **** From seed To harvest To market To dinner plate To grave In wooden box decaying Infatuations with infrastructures in frustration Genetically modified bullets BT Corn ripping organs Exposing the explosion Imploding on a sunny afternoon in March Ants on the streets Trampled by elephants’ ***** in the parade Rats in slavery’s maze Corporations’ corporate mandates Sold out government conspiracy To cover up the conspiracy of conspiracies TV eyes ratted out you and yours A fist-full of dollar bills Some odd change to clink in the wishing well Monsanto seeds die at plantation Reincarnation of a deadly virus Sow the soil and reap rewards of petulance pestilence
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Mar 26, 2012
Mar 26, 2012 at 7:18 PM UTC
McMonsantonalds
Life without her is like life without the sky, 70% of what it could be. Those were the first words i heard of her and they've never left me since. She could make anything and anyone sound enticing; she does make everything and everyone sound enticing. She makes me complete; she makes me a poet. Maybe it's because she's so poetic simply by the way she is. The way her words flow out of her so effortlessly; the way she'll pick up and leave at a moments notice if it means an adventure with one of her many human infatuations; the look she gives when her words aren't enough to show her affections; the way she gives me that look with those cherry eyes of hers. The way she looks when i speak of those cherry eyes cause the meaning of that description still baffles her to this day; how she doesn't know the way her eye lashes curl up and flare out, more than ever in those moments; how's there's a sparkle in her eyes she'll never see because it only comes out when she gives that look, a look im sad to think she'd never give her self. She'll never see herself. She sees energies and dynamics and persons and places and sometimes it's through a lense of grey, but her view is spectacular unlike any other; this is why when im with her i get caught up in the moment, nothing but what matters matters. I share a glimpse of that view just for a while; it's like driving when the sun is setting and finally coming to an open field with the perfect view. But the view of her is better. I don't want to experience anything new but with her; each and every abandoned house, nights of wasting a full tank of gas, adventures on bus rides to unplanned places, all the seasons and random trips without reasons. We first met in summer, sometime in june. The days were sweet and we'd only fall asleep to our tune. Now fall will come and as the wind will carry away our bad thoughts we'll only be left with the good ones that we'll leave on the pages of our notebooks we found together. I know we'll carry on until winter, drinking our coffee to keep us warm after cold sleepless nights because i wasn't there to be her blanket and she wasn't there to block everything out of my mind. Then spring will be next, our last new season together. When the cherries blossom and you'll still wreck the car before you hit that possum and ill never want those cherry eyes to end watching those morning skies with me. And when those cherry eyes can't see the colors of those cherry skies ill show you its colors through a not so poetic description, hoping that in your world of grey i can accurately portray the beauty of its rays because my eyes are the same color as your view and my soul wants to share any part it can with you.
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Jul 26, 2015
Jul 26, 2015 at 8:29 PM UTC
Cherry Eyes
Life without her is like life without the sky, 70% of what it could be. Those were the first words i heard of her and they've never left me since. She could make anything and anyone sound enticing; she does make everything and everyone sound enticing. She makes me complete; she makes me a poet. Maybe it's because she's so poetic simply by the way she is. The way her words flow out of her so effortlessly; the way she'll pick up and leave at a moments notice if it means an adventure with one of her many human infatuations; the look she gives when her words aren't enough to show her affections; the way she gives me that look with those cherry eyes of hers. The way she looks when i speak of those cherry eyes cause the meaning of that description still baffles her to this day; how she doesn't know the way her eye lashes curl up and flare out, more than ever in those moments; how's there's a sparkle in her eyes she'll never see because it only comes out when she gives that look, a look im sad to think she'd never give her self. She'll never see herself. She sees energies and dynamics and persons and places and sometimes it's through a lense of grey, but her view is spectacular unlike any other; this is why when im with her i get caught up in the moment, nothing but what matters matters. I share a glimpse of that view just for a while; it's like driving when the sun is setting and finally coming to an open field with the perfect view. But the view of her is better. I don't want to experience anything new but with her; each and every abandoned house, nights of wasting a full tank of gas, adventures on bus rides to unplanned places, all the seasons and random trips without reasons. We first met in summer, sometime in june. The days were sweet and we'd only fall asleep to our tune. Now fall will come and as the wind will carry away our bad thoughts we'll only be left with the good ones that we'll leave on the pages of our notebooks we found together. I know we'll carry on until winter, drinking our coffee to keep us warm after cold sleepless nights because i wasn't there to be her blanket and she wasn't there to block everything out of my mind. Then spring will be next, our last new season together. When the cherries blossom and you'll still wreck the car before you hit that possum and ill never want those cherry eyes to end watching those morning skies with me. And when those cherry eyes can't see the colors of those cherry skies ill show you its colors through a not so poetic description, hoping that in your world of grey i can accurately portray the beauty of its rays because my eyes are the same color as your view and my soul wants to share any part it can with you.
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It may be the simplistic idea of remembering something you wish to forever forget Or realizing the well known unimaginable as a futuristic reality Perhaps the sad final solution to your seemingly endless suffering Could it be the fact that what once was there is everything less than dust? I am unable to fathom what it truly feels like Due to registering only my own emotions and mental infatuations So, let me describe a stilled serene place in time Where through overwhelming tension and all that disregards any sparks of hope and happiness ​A smile is enough to hold a thousand defined words Words that tell stories of anything that could and could not be The deranged evil and the vicarious good Which smile you wear is that of your choosing
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Oct 17, 2014
Oct 17, 2014 at 4:26 PM UTC
Smile
most of us aren't in love we're in lust or like or crushing or swooning or "in the honeymoon stage" we're infatuated, "in love with the idea of love" ...lonely... it seems silly really that love, true love, real love the kind that isn't a feeling in the morning that changes with your mood is so rare, almost unattainable like the infinitesimally small atom resting at the very tip of a needle but we still hope us non-lovers i mean. we strive like gatsby for that green light we want to be (in) love(d) we go about it different ways-- through crushes and infatuations and "s(he)'s hot" 's but all us non-lovers we're trying to love
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Sep 7, 2013
Sep 7, 2013 at 1:39 PM UTC
"in ________"
Everyone's searching for something they can't find; wanting something they can't have. We're all stuck there, wondering what to do. Wondering if we'll ever find what we're looking for or get what we want. And then there are the times we realize that the answer is no and we stop searching, stop wanting, and come to grips with the fact that life is just not fair. It's a fault in human beings, thinking that everything has to go their way and that life has to be fair. The scars on my arms have almost completely faded away. Is it strange that I feel a sense of loss? They were my company, my best friends. I could sit there and stare at them for hours, fascinated with how ****** up I'd become. But now they're leaving and I can either bring them back or find some new "friend" that will occupy my time and my mind. I'm not sure if I'm ready to let them go. There's a post I saw on Tumblr that says "I'm sorry I gave you everything I had without making sure you wanted it." It reminds me of all the ******** in my past. It reminds me of you. I'm not meant to fall in love or be loved. It seems I'm just destined for shallow infatuations and brief lust affairs. I'm wary of "forever"s because forever has always been measured in days, weeks, or months when it comes to me. The worst part is that I can't blame anyone for leaving. No one in their right minds would want to deal with me.
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Jan 30, 2015
Jan 30, 2015 at 9:19 PM UTC
Reflection (Not A Poem)
It was 2 a.m, as usual. The doorbell rang and I knew right away who would be slouched against the rusty gate stuffed with cylindrical flyers full of food i'll never buy. Hunched over in a hand me down coat with that strange scarf I never liked tied around your throat. You flashed a smile, a brief “hey” slipping through it's lack of authenticity. and I mimicked you, as babies do, and stepped barefoot onto the cigarette littered leaf scattered stoop, a bowl of knock off cereal cupped in both my hands, my hair still wet, my mind still drunk. I fumbled to the stairs and placed myself atop them and you mimicked me, as babies do, placing your fragile frame beside me, a few more inches away than usual. Without hesitation you slid through your speech and I nodded and smiled and continued to attempt to attract you despite circumstance, despite that glowing ominous ornament dangled high in sky, distracting my eyes and passing the time. We agreed to demolish whatever was left standing from that wall we built, of awkward breakfasts, yearning eyes across parties, anonymous hairs on jackets, make out sessions on tattered couches, greetings with waves. All the details deleted, left unfinished, perhaps one day to be returned to. As unlikely as I figured it to be. I rose to my feet, the wind whipping down 21st street, my tar black makeup still loosely lining my eyes, I gently rested my head on that shoulder I so briefly admired, and admitted to my early infatuations; the poems I had written but would never share. You protested, said you were curious of them. I denied you, and you didn't ask again. But if you would've- just once more. I would've read you them. Maybe even this one. But you didn't, and much like babies, we mimicked each other and crawled away.
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Nov 17, 2011
Nov 17, 2011 at 10:22 AM UTC
white wine whine.
It was 2 a.m, as usual. The doorbell rang and I knew right away who would be slouched against the rusty gate stuffed with cylindrical flyers full of food i'll never buy. Hunched over in a hand me down coat with that strange scarf I never liked tied around your throat. You flashed a smile, a brief “hey” slipping through it's lack of authenticity. and I mimicked you, as babies do, and stepped barefoot onto the cigarette littered leaf scattered stoop, a bowl of knock off cereal cupped in both my hands, my hair still wet, my mind still drunk. I fumbled to the stairs and placed myself atop them and you mimicked me, as babies do, placing your fragile frame beside me, a few more inches away than usual. Without hesitation you slid through your speech and I nodded and smiled and continued to attempt to attract you despite circumstance, despite that glowing ominous ornament dangled high in sky, distracting my eyes and passing the time. We agreed to demolish whatever was left standing from that wall we built, of awkward breakfasts, yearning eyes across parties, anonymous hairs on jackets, make out sessions on tattered couches, greetings with waves. All the details deleted, left unfinished, perhaps one day to be returned to. As unlikely as I figured it to be. I rose to my feet, the wind whipping down 21st street, my tar black makeup still loosely lining my eyes, I gently rested my head on that shoulder I so briefly admired, and admitted to my early infatuations; the poems I had written but would never share. You protested, said you were curious of them. I denied you, and you didn't ask again. But if you would've- just once more. I would've read you them. Maybe even this one. But you didn't, and much like babies, we mimicked each other and crawled away.
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I've fallen fallen badly to be honest I'm hooked on you infatuations a lot more of a dangerous drug than you'd think you said we'd never be that you were broken I want to fix you but I'm not quite sure I can I'm not sure my clumsy hands can handle your fragile heart held together by only the faintest hope that maybe true love does exist I wanna tell you that I adore you but I won't take the chance cause I'm terrified of your random nonchalance you told me I was your world but how was I meant to feel special when you bounce from world to world like some 21st century space traveling Columbus I was always told myself I was in love with you but as of lately I've come to realize I was less in love with you & more in love with the dismal idea of being part of an "us" I guess that I've learnt that it's only from the shards of a broken heart that we learn the dangers of infatuation
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Oct 20, 2014
Oct 20, 2014 at 3:05 PM UTC
Dangers Of Infatuation
Romantically, it is when we lie in a pool of passion where dreams flood our souls and engulf our hearts. It is the ****** of all infatuations when lust changes into love. In reality, it is much simpler. It is when we reveal the rips on our jeans, the crumbs on our floor, that weird freckle on our backs, the shirts we have stolen, the keys we have lost, the dust on our shelves, the journals we wrote, the letters we never sent, the stories from our past, and the lives we thought we deserved. Intimacy is the privilege to witness someone in their most vulnerable state, to accept all their blemishes, and somehow remain in utter bliss. That my friend is intimacy.
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Jun 6, 2014
Jun 6, 2014 at 11:33 AM UTC
What is Intimacy?
*Darkness cracked by the beam of my halogen lamp, the glow illuminates the emptiness within the night.* *The blood drips from the ***** of my fingertip, creating the shape of a distorted rose on the dusty table.* *The tip of my tongue stings from the poignant taste of acrimony; the depth of tender thoughts muted.* *The words I desperately need remain hidden within the convolution; speechless, the silence wreaks havoc on my eardrums.* *My pen is dry, the ink evaporated from the inconsistent flow of diction; these infatuations longing to touch the paper.* There is nothing so, I quietly wait.
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Nov 26, 2013
Nov 26, 2013 at 11:19 PM UTC
Silent Night
I hear the song of this street a happier song than the blues of Denver destitution with gaiety more hope and love, worn souls and bodies hoping for the loose change that usually ends up lost between couch cushions in exchange for a simple show instead of begging for sympathy carefully arranged planter boxes to match the seasons and jubilance of passers by juxtaposed with the whitening beard of a ***** old man hustling for a buck for **** or food or ***** you will never know except for the few honest cardboard signs the two a.m. *** happy and ****** eagerly striking a conversation with lone students out for a simple walk looking only for someone to talk to because no one is a desert island, we need imports and exports of thoughts, ideas, and emotions to keep the small piece of land bearable the man in a mask with no skin showing playing congas on a hot Colorado day hoping for a pocket full of change, face hidden; like his beaten past he is humble— anonymously playing for a dollar or few without shock or pizzazz adults buying a drink while a block down children buy an ice cream cone both a vice modern jazz, which flows over the red bricked street guitars, bongos, violins, Home Depot bucket drums melding together into one, spontaneous song improvised by the ebb and flow of tourists and natives with changing verses of a woman’s opinion strongly voiced to a survey while her husband keeps the beat with his foot —never allowed to sing the chorus of children shrieking and crying in the dissonance of youth reflected in early couples sing infatuations short and fleet, struggling to keep a foot hold, but fading like pop songs… the experienced couples creating movements of pain, joy, and maturity, dynamic blues riffs full of emotion only those who have felt could understand
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Feb 28, 2013
Feb 28, 2013 at 10:15 AM UTC
Pearl Blues
I hear the song of this street a happier song than the blues of Denver destitution with gaiety more hope and love, worn souls and bodies hoping for the loose change that usually ends up lost between couch cushions in exchange for a simple show instead of begging for sympathy carefully arranged planter boxes to match the seasons and jubilance of passers by juxtaposed with the whitening beard of a ***** old man hustling for a buck for **** or food or ***** you will never know except for the few honest cardboard signs the two a.m. *** happy and ****** eagerly striking a conversation with lone students out for a simple walk looking only for someone to talk to because no one is a desert island, we need imports and exports of thoughts, ideas, and emotions to keep the small piece of land bearable the man in a mask with no skin showing playing congas on a hot Colorado day hoping for a pocket full of change, face hidden; like his beaten past he is humble— anonymously playing for a dollar or few without shock or pizzazz adults buying a drink while a block down children buy an ice cream cone both a vice modern jazz, which flows over the red bricked street guitars, bongos, violins, Home Depot bucket drums melding together into one, spontaneous song improvised by the ebb and flow of tourists and natives with changing verses of a woman’s opinion strongly voiced to a survey while her husband keeps the beat with his foot —never allowed to sing the chorus of children shrieking and crying in the dissonance of youth reflected in early couples sing infatuations short and fleet, struggling to keep a foot hold, but fading like pop songs… the experienced couples creating movements of pain, joy, and maturity, dynamic blues riffs full of emotion only those who have felt could understand
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this summer has been a mix of intoxications. of infatuations and complications. someone who wanted to spend the entire summer together no longer wants to communicate past a simple "hello". someone who i wanted to spend the entire summer with vanished after the final graduation celebration. my closest brother took one step too far off the diving board and closed his eyes before he knew someone was there to save him. the perspiration on my good friends lip caused me to turn away in fear of change and therefore abandonment. I'll leave this hometown in less than two weeks. Summer will be over and all its intoxicating breaths.
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Aug 5, 2014
Aug 5, 2014 at 12:37 PM UTC
senior summer
Quintessential, Queen of Emotions, Sensational, Brings out passions For what you never Cared before... Flabbergastingly Seduces the quill To scrawl about her... Queen Love, With a fiery crown Of Blue Diamonds, Pink Hearts, Red Roses, Olive Twigs... Desire throbs On her fingertips... Melodies sprout From her lips... Queen Love, With a proud crown, Bringing everyone together With a swish of her gown... Turns the Sweet Brier Into Roses of Love, Her elegance, Skill to tame... The wild succumbs, The cruelly powerful Kneels down before Queen Love... Healed the wounds Of a heart Fractured by Infatuations, Queen Love, The Queen of Emotions... June 15th, 2010
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Jun 18, 2010
Jun 18, 2010 at 4:05 AM UTC
Queen Love*