in my darkness..
forever black..
falling down this abyss

she smiled light..
she wispered glow..
she sang to me a song of shine..

for the first time..
i saw heaven in hell..
i was being pulled back up..

she held my hand..
she made my heart beat..
colors returned to my eyes..

heaven has always been here with me..
it was she..
i can smile yet again...

Once again a storm was coming in from the west..
I of course waited outside..
Its been almost a year since a good storm has come through..
And there the lightning shares with me the Hidden Giant..
My HEART was pumping as this one seem to be the most beautiful of them all..
His eyes lit with a deep blue..
Again he walked toward me..
But this time he stopped right in front of me..
He looked to me as his entire body lit up with a galaxy of colors..
I then heard the thunder speak to me..
I then heard the thunder speak to my soul..
I then heard the thunder say " I HAVE FOUND YOU MASTER!"

I wait and wait for a storm!
I watch and watch the news!
And a month later finally one is on the horizon.
I await the storm and the winds the bring me the aroma of atmosphere..
In the distance the lightning dances..
In the distance the Hidden giant walks..
No longer sad..
Just searching..
In the distance his eyes light up and look to me..
He then looks to the west..
The lightning flashes creating a false blue sun!
He then walks right on over me..
I am in awe once again as I watch him leave..
Thunder chase steps..

Forecast calls for thunderstorms!!
Lots of lightning!!
I wait for the storm and run outside!
Again I see one!!
He walks right over!!
Thunder is the silent steps of the hidden giant!
He then stops..
My heart stops for but a moment as he turns and looks to me..
His eyes fill with lightning as he turns back around and continues on with the storm!
WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

On this night..
During a 100 year storm I saw one!!
He was walking..
He was moving!
Cloaked to the normal eyes of the world..
Revealed to me through the whispering thunder..
The hidden giant walked the earth..
A grand machine!
Perhaps they are the storms!?
Why are they here!?
They are so magnificent!!!!
I wish others could see them!

i don't see them in the rain anymore..
The bright blue sun lightning would reveal them to me..
They stand in silence without movement..
None are the same..
But one thing they do share is the look of sadness..
They yearn for their masters that have gone missing..
They use to stand in wait..
I don't think their masters have return..
I wonder why they are gone..
Maybe they are now looking for their masters.. 
It could be they found a way to activate themselves and seek out their masters..
All I know is that I miss seeing them..
I call them the hidden giants..

Don't blame the stars.. they still shine for you, even if they are not there..

land of eternal light..
she walks with me into the glow meadows..
i tell her to close her eyes..
i run down the hill and bring her a shadelion..
we both make a wish and blow the dusk pedals into the shine..

Behind her all the stars fell.. 
the sky was full of wishes..
but all i wanted was her..
everyone one else can have the wishes..

Haze.. come on down to the slow storm in my head.. come on down to the black sunny day.. voodoo smoke fills my lungs.. absorbing of her soul.. Through airways I consume her.. I lose my way back.. shadows made of light chase me through the haze.. blackness here is beauty that I cannot seem to hold on to.. The day is passed.. The night is wishing for me to stay.. so much blood is falling.. slow storm finally clears in my head.. A sky there was.. voodoo smoke cloud sky... goodbye haze....

When I got dropped off the first thing I noticed was the floating islands passing on by.. 
They all had this blue windmill that would spin with a beautiful light at its center..
The windmills were soundless..
They did not whisper a noise at all..
I then turned around and noticed I was on a floating island myself..
I then looked over the edge  of this sky island and saw the clouds below..
I wanted to see what was under them..
My sky island seem to read my mind and took me below the clouds..
There were millions upon millions of people everywhere..
They were running after all the sky islands with their hands to the sky..
They were all screaming out " TAKE ME"!!

the structures, magnifcient beauty behold..
in silence i can hear their story be told..
long ago a race built them to sustain life..
to harness a great energy, a sort of astrial drive..

in a circle they were built..
at the center was a platform that tilt..
i stood at the center and looked to the stars..
it tilted slighly and revealed a pale blue light from afar..

or second home shined bright blue..
the structures powered a doorway through..
we arrived on earth so long ago..
driving out a race that was here before..

What will it be today?"  
" I'll have some garlic, pepper and coke. "
" will that be all?"
"Yes."


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I made a short stop on planet earth.  I am back in route toward home.  Of course it's not every day one gets to stop and have the best spices and drink in the galaxy.

From above the stars, through the glass, I look upon you..
I put a fresh *** on..
The aroma fills this chamber above the stars..
I often think of going back..
I often remember us..
But here I am because of a wild decision I made so long ago..
From above the stars, through the glass, I wish upon you..
Coffee is ready..

It was the first darkness who saw it first.. The whirlwind, the tornado, the vortex of shine.. small at first.. But no matter the size it sent darkness running in all directions.. only to see from afar and fear the glow.. darkness learned to hide behind solids.. creating children called shadows.. The light shines on as the darklings hide from it..

Sad gray man..
Won many prizes in his time..
Award after award..
All because of his sorrow never-ending..

The sad gray man is a painting..
Forever drawn out to be..
A sad wicked eternal lonelyness..
But he still loves his creator, this artist..

It was one day, one week, one month..
He decided to draw her..
She was not gray..
And she was not sad..

Together holding hands..
The sad gray man smiled at last..
She found him..
As they set sail toward colors eternal..

Such colors yet again. In a black night sky at a beach at midnight. I explain the colors to everyone.. I spin and spin these colors behind clouds.. so beautiful this world.. I then fly over the oceans.. With colors spotlighting me from above.. 

In such a shift the floods have trapped a school bus.. the colors above are still there.. I go and help and jump into the raging waters.. I create a strong pocket of glass air around the bus.. no water can get through.. 

The waters calm and the children are saved.. but such sorcery has left my body floating and lost.. we search for it with spirit eyes. a water tiger floats beside it and sleeps with my body.. He has a job to guard it from law.. 

I awake with colors again..

the last city in my mind.. where everything was still kind of normal.. people followed others and others followed them..  but this last city was no refuge indeed.. it was a place where you went to die.. it was a place where you went to give up.. i will not become a part of it.. all i am doing is just visiting..  sometimes you have to visit such places to really find out who and what you are..  this place calls out to all of us..

They are leaving, 12 firey streaks in the sky, right before this planet dies..
the serenity before the oblivion, the sight of the mother and all of her salvation..
destination 2nd home,  for us to rebuild and rename for our own..

They are arriving, 12 firey streaks from the sky, light lines fill our eyes..
fear and awe fill our minds, strangers from above or perhaps angels divine..
should we welcome them with love, the strangers or angels from above..

I found the shadows living with the ghost..  This is what I was meant to see..  This is how I can make you remember me..
I found the sun becoming the son..  This is my way of letting go.. This is how I can truly know..
I found the river becoming the ocean..  This is where it belongs..  This is how I sing this song..
I found you loving me again..  This is what it means to end..  This is how I forever begin...

Here I am again..  This place is always ending.. I never really get to meet or talk to anyone here..  The moon has left for another.. This planet is leaving also..  There is no sound only music.  This chaos use to scare me to no end when I was a kid..  But now I see a beauty in the end itself..  I suppose this dream is trying to tell me something..  That it is alright for things to end..  Many of the people here are not crying or screaming in fear.. They are leaving in some form of rapture my mind conjured up.. Some smile while they leave and others have no emotion in their eyes.. They seem to know that it is time to leave..  Im still afraid to leave with them.. But I find myself wanting the chaos to take me..  I awaken................

Colors are not the same here.  This I have noticed..  Its as if something is killing them all together as all the colors slowly fade..  The stars are also very sad here in this place.. They burn ever so, with a sorrow of no tomorrow..  The sun now shines very hot rather than it lighting up a beautiful day for me to play in..  The air is just air.. It no longer carries with it the magic and wonder I once had for it..  To know the sun never goes to sleep in the woods somewhere has made me see it as just a sun.. The moon now has it stages.. The fingernail in the sky is called a cresent moon..  The night is just the night.. And the early morning is for sleeping..  This world has not changed at all.. But I have.. You see I have become an adult..  And knowing these small things has taken the magic away...........................................................

Look for the clues..  They are all around!!  They will tell you of a world of your creation.. Of a world that has no rules at all..  Where the stars in the sky are made up of the memory of your memory..  At some point I finally find a clue..   It was in the pictures on the wall!!  They were all upside down.. I knew then this was a dream.. This was a world of mine..  

I go out into the night and look to the memory stars above..  I begin to float a few feet from the ground.. And then above the town.. Its so beautiful and calm from here.. All the lights of this town are lit by my memory of light.. There truly is no electricity here but just memory, memory of shine, memory of how a light looks to the eye that beholds it as the shadows run away from its glow..  

Floating quickly turns into flying.. As I begin to dive and rise toward the town and the creasent moon above..  I swear my stomach reacts to the g-forces I create from the memory of roller coasters..  Its then I rise above the clouds..  There is silence I cannot describe up there.. And when I truly listen I hear the hum of the the Earth itself. A melody, a song, a beautiful message that tells me there is no limit here.. I bolt through the clouds and over the dream oceans in my mind..  

There on the rocky shore I see an orange glow..  A window in the rocks..  There are others like me there.. Inside this dream chamber.. There is a flame that burns at the center of this room.. As I enter the winds begin to move the gold and silver sands on the wooden floors..  I see the flame and it calls to me..  I place my hand within it and it turns storm blue..  Its then I awake from this beautiful lucid dream!

Take me somewhere nice..  Its dark and cold the winter is here..  This endless grey is making me dream again..  Dreams about you, dreams about yesterday..
Take me to the sun.. There is none here..  This endless black is making me sleep forever in the white night.. I miss my shadows playing in the light..
Take me with you.. There is no music here..  Silent and ghostly voices remind me that you are gone.. I miss your voice, I miss your song..

At long last you have come back.. But you now have color.. I can hear your voice (tears flow)..
At long last I feel free.. I flow into you..  We are together (Hands grasp)
At long last I realize it all.. How my suicide brought me to this place.. Death has brought you to me..

But only for a moment.. This is my punishment..

iTS OK TO SOMETIMES UNPLUG YOURSELF FROM YOURSELF..
a WELCOMED RESET IS SOMETIMES ALL THAT MOST PEOPLE NEED..
tO SEE THINGS THAT WE HAVE BEEN BLIND TO FOR SO LONG..
mOST TIMES I SEE IT TRUE IN THE RAIN..
lIGHTNING, THUNDER, MYSTIC BLUES ON THE HORIZON..
i WELCOME YOU TO MY RESET..
hOW I LOVE TO SHOW YOU MY LOVE ALL OVER AGAIN..
sWEET PRINCESS OF MY LIFE, LET OUR SOULS COLOR EACHOTHER..

Its those who have been through the hardest of times that I see create the most beauty..  I cannot imagine what you have been through..  But for you to create another universe means that you have gone through hell below hell..  And some how you have made it back.. Please welcome me to your creation..  Dear God she truly is a prayer..  One of the most least understood..  And she is happy.. Seeing her happy helps me create another heaven..

Among such structures was the  pools of creation..  The airglow here was ambient and beautiful beyond all measure..  This is where I set fire to all the stars in the universe.. I smile before I do so..  Signals and twilight fire flies fill the black void..  And there echoes creation eternal..  A nexus travals across forever..  Feeding colors to life..  To the eyes that will one day behold them..  This is how wonder is born..  I think of all this as I look to the stars.. I am just a human.. But my imagination is a GOD...

I have been in the shade far to long..  Even walking in the sun this darkness looms over me..  Yesterdays haunt me to a point of seeing no tomorrows.. I can still hear the bell toll its one note song..  It was 12,000 years later,  12,000 years of being in such shade.. That I finally saw the sun above this sky..  The ghost and dreams of my children have brought me here to this place.. A sun sized planet that is home to the divine gear..  A technology built by a higher being.. A technology that can take an immortal to the next realm, to heaven..  The divine gear will complete my star drive..  And there it spun.. Driving the life on this huge planet..  I knew I could not take it with me now..  As taking it from this place would end all life on this beautiful planet..  I could feel it calling to me.. I closed my eyes.. It begun to spin in all its divinity..  It made me see, feel, hear, and make real all of its dreams..  For the moment I moved throughout all of the universe, I saw what it wanted me to do.. Then I would be awarded the passage to heaven.. When I opened my eyes I felt different.. I saw things different.. I heard things different.. I felt things different.. Through the eyes of a God I could see emotion..  On my right hand there was now a tatoo of the divine gear itself.. But this tatoo spun within my hand guiding me on where to go next.. It was time to bring life to this vast dead universe..  It begins with me..  Heaven awaits..

The Lancer:  Life Lancer...
The final sweep through this once dead planet is done..  
This is my favorite part about this job..
I land in a desert lifeless, golden sand mixed with black..
This wasteland will come to life..
I look to the sky and see life reborn..
It starts with a magnificient spirial of colors as the atmoshere begins to awake..
I stand in the sand and watch this world come to life..
The first storm is on the horizon..
Deep blues among deep blues I swear the sky is the ocean..
All colors of lightning begin to arc the dead away..
The entire planet is quickly engulfed in the Ultra storm..
I can feel the planet smile again..
LIFE has become the apocalypse for the apocalypse..
Its time to leave..

Sunset.. the last colors of the day..
Fall to the silver moon as it bathes the newborn night in ribbons of haunting luner glow..
This is where I think of you..
Alone I am, dreaming while awake, forever driving away..

Sunrise.. the last weep of a haunting lunar princess..
Fall to the rising sun and its aura of shine and colors..
This is where I meet you..
Together for a day, remembering, holding your sun filled soul..

At last the final visit..
For over 12,000 years I have been building a machine..
The main purpose at first was to simply have this machine get me to point A to point B..
I discovered all the secrets and codes of the planet I had forever lived on..
The ones I had truly loved were taken from me..
Death took them away..
You do not understand lonelyness until all is gone..
On a planet where I out-lived all other forms of life..
I had forgotten some emotions..
Love being almost one of them..
As there was nothing else to love..
I did however loved that I missed them ..
But hated that I will never see them ever again..
You see I am forever..
I cannot die yet I cannot live..
It was then I had to have this machine somehow get me off this old lifeless planet..
To find what my thoughts had hope to build..
After 2000 years I had finally built The star drive..
I travelled from planet to planet adding on more and more to my Star drive..
I met other races, some beautiful, some horrible, some welcomed me while others wanted nothing to do with me..
There were times where I stayed at certain planets because it reminded me so much of home..
I travelled on through what is known as the Tao Nebula..
This Nebula made all of your dreams real..
I was with my family again or should I say the memory of them..
I got to relive these memories over and over..
For 200 years I did this..
Finally I was ready to leave when both my son and daughter came to me...
They had with them a beautiful floating gear of some sort..
They called it the divine gear..
It was then I thought of building something more than a vessel able to jump me across the stars..
I needed a vessel that could take me to heaven..
So that I could meet them again..
This was just the message I had been needing for so very long..
This sun sized planet is the home of the Divine gear..
This will be my final visit in this realm..
The Universe is just as it says..
Uni for only one..
And the verse for the spoken word of the creator whom built it..
This divine gear will drive me above and beyond it all!

Before the jump..  I have a song list.. I play it and the jump begins..  Its the best part of my mission.. Its then I know the mission is done and its time to jump.. I have songs that put my soul at peace and make beautiful memories float atop this mind ocean..  I remember times sweet and sad.. Times where some of the strongest emotions were felt for the very first time.. Like the time I fell in love.. Or the time I realised beauty in and of itself..  Those memories drive me forwards and backwords..  Im off to save your soul..  Or perhaps mine..

All along it was there.. The reason on why you and me are here..  The image was in the palm of our hands.. The lines there are the beginning and end to which we never truly start or end..  But some have learned to read the lines in their hands..  Thus transcending beyond this life.. The soul map of the hands..

There were 7000 of us left here on Earth..
At least 7000 of us that wanted to leave..
The true number is more like 250,000..
They want to stay till the end..
They feel we do not belong anywhere else..
As we depart for Eden I am sadden by the sight of a child that is waving goodbye to us..
So full of life and no fear of knowing..
She waves and waves with a grand smile and beautiful long brown hair that dances neverending in the wind..
I see the blue blazing Earth behind us now..
Although beautiful, the Earth has nothing on that little girl waving goodbye..
Onward to our new home EDEN..

Do not be afraid..  From the moment I saw you was the moment I truly knew beauty at its whole..  I have been moving through the stars for thousands of years.. That is your sun we are passing on by..  Such a young star..  It is truly no match for your beauty..  We are going to take a few light bounds.. I will bring you back home soon..  This is my sun.. Notice that half of it is dead..  But it does its best to keep shining..  The 12 moons are what sustain life on our planet..  4 of the moons also sustain life..  We start life on the smallest one.. It is called Lorasec.. There we learn to live and die..  The second move is known as Cesarol..  As we die our spirit transcends into a realm that only exist there.. Its what you call heaven..  The dark 3rd moon is known as Shadatos.. Its what you call hell..  There are many still trap there that do not know how to get out..  And the 4th moon is known as Divintis..  This moon is a mystery to us all..  No vessel can enter..  It is very beautiful, but again does not match your beauty..  This moon is a splitting image of your planet..  Today we ask if you would enter for us?

The cure is in the tone.. At the right tone you can cure all..  I found out how to do it last night..  But when I awoke I could no longer remember the tone..  This is when the tornados came..  From all over, from all directions..  But this time I did not run.. I see from above that the tornados themselves are writing on the earth..  They write symbols at first.. But these symbols soon make sense to me..  They are a mystical musical note that will cure when sang.. Each note does something different..  Simply looking at them I can sing the tone they represent..

We were to late.  Everything is gone!  All that was left was an afterglow from the weapon used to destroy the city.. The rumors were right.  They did in fact create a weapon of light and used it to shine away millions..  Amazing! How in just a moment the tied can be turned.. We were on the brink of taking over..  And now we are being shined away..  I do have to admit.. The afterglow is very beautiful..  The afterglow of death from light..

you always knew right/ about how you viewed things in and out..
you knew you would one day leave/ beyond it all, to observe and create again..
you knew it never ever ends/ it just seems to always begin..
you smile at the thought of it/ the first leap out..
you finally see it/your imagination has come to life..

mY OUTLOOK HAD CHANGED IN AN INSTANT..
Without hope for so long..  
And found in just a second..
I looked toward the setting sun..
For once I felt alive..
I walked alone in the night with this new found hope..
Oh where oh where did you come from?
I smile at the thought of knowing it was always there..
Never was I truly without it..
The music is beautiful to me again..
The color of your eyes light up my soul..
The rememberence of magic colors my aura again..
This nightmare is ending now..
I hold the hand of hope as we wake up together hand and hand..
I say goodbye to the void..
I say goodbye to the gray me..
I awake to a sun filled room..
The last image I have is that of the gray me smiling at me..
His tears were blue..

I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I can make you see galaxies!
I can ignite your skin like a small lightning storm..
I can pour out your soul and return it..
Time and time again..
But I will only do so if you let me....
The beauty of your waterfall fills my shadow with light!

The sun shines today.. No clouds, blue sky ocean above..  The day is wonderful..  And I am happy to begin it..  I never really knew how beautiful the day was to my eyes and soul.. I feel ashamed that we stole it long long ago..  Last night a mistake was made, or at least I think it was.  Perhaps it is part of the bigger plan, maybe I was meant to find out for a reason.  But it could simply mean I saw what I saw for a reason or by chance..  I question that because they or we have been to careful for so long.. The invasion happen long long ago..  I know that now because of what we are becoming and because of what I saw..  

There was someone here before us.  This beautiful blue blaze that shines from afar that we call Earth did not belong to us..  You see we were the invaders..  Humans.  We took this beautiful day from someone else's eyes and soul..  We had to believe that we were from here.. We had to somehow think that we never came from the stars..  It is built in our D.N.A to one day leave this place and invade another world and start this cycle all over again..  Thosands of worlds have been invaded by us..

What I saw that brought me to this revelation was one who was here before us..  She told me and explained to me what we truly are..  She told me what we have forgotten about ourselves!

When I got dropped off the first thing I noticed was the floating islands passing on by..
They all had this blue windmill that would spin with a beautiful light at its center..
The windmills were soundless..
They did not wisper a noise at all..
I then turned around and noticed I was on a floating island myself..
I then looked over the edge  of this sky island and saw the clouds below..
I wanted to see what was under them..
My sky island seem to read my mind and took me below the clouds..
There were millions upon millions of people everywhere..
They were running after all the sky islands with their hands to the sky..
They were all screaming out " TAKE ME"!!

The little white orb moved from room to room.. showing me the sadness and happines of ghost..
  But for small moments like this mean the biggest of answers..
To such questions I only asked when I was on the otherside..
I found truth where it later had to be cut out from existence that truly did not exist..
Or did it?
What I found where answers inside the fire..
Even more so when there was nothing left to burn..
I pulled branches off of dead trees and continued my midnight fire..
Just for a little longer..
The words came to me there..
The white orb is real..
It has always been there..
  In some form or the other..
And I smile because I know of the existence outside of this realm..
  I wish there is some way for me to show all of you..
But you will all see what I see soon enough..
Or later.. (SMILES)

I have found myself thinking of the end.. weather it will be darkness or light.. I often think of the music that helps me write.. How someone else's creation helps me create new ones.. But I am only left to wonder.. My dreams have been showing me a heaven from all different strange angles..  I really could not begin to describe it to all of you..  There are colors there that we have not yet seen.. There are emotions there that we have not yet felt.. These warm nights have been showing me a clear beautiful sky.. I sometimes speak to the stars because I know something out there hears me..  I truly hope I am forever as well as the ones I love!

Oct 12th 2016:   The day filled with beautiful beautiful oranges after the passing of a horrible storm..  I suppose God paints these oranges in the sky and atmosphere as a starting point for the relax time that has been long overdue..  "I'll just color it all orange for now and rest the colors.."  My brother and I found it a perfect time to pull out the bikes and ride in the cool the storm has left for us on these hot summer days..  And of course its time to ride through those huge lake puddles on the road!  

After a day of bike surfing we both rode home with hamburgers on our minds!!  The sun was setting and the night was being born..  We rode in right before dark..   Our mom made us the most awesome cheese burgers!  After we ate we went into our room to get down on some videogames.. Both our phones were going crazy with notifications and we both decided to see what all the fuss was about..  

The first thing we saw was pics of the moon..  At first I thought they were a different moon but it turns out it was ours..  We both went outside to see and sure enough our moon had changed.. It was a bit darker colored and had a strange glow to it..  The next strange thing was that the sun was starting to rise again! Only it was rising in the west were it had set before!  

The news was going crazy with this as people started to panic everywhere..  Some experts on t.v shows said that we were looking at the otherside of the moon.. Through out the month there were videos poping up on facebook of people doing strange things..  There was a kid in a town not far from here that could turn himself into a bird..  New flowers were starting to grow, flowers never seen before..  Strange things were happening..

Videos were pouring in on all the new things being found throughout the world.. Some sisters in japan found some faries flying around a river.. A family found a colony of little people in and around the mushrooms growing in the back yard.. Many strange shrines were also appearing..  This day is now called, " The turning of the moon."

I have been visiting the outer rims of heaven..  Seeing first hand the memories that live again in this place..  Only toward the end I realize that I have to leave and I cannot stay.  It is sad but at the same time I carry with me the new memories of a heaven that I never knew existed.  Suppose everything is as real as you want it to be..  Suppose you cannot break from such a lucid loop.. You go round and round reborn with no memory of the many yesterdays that have long passed.. You live and die again and again.. Soon this world will be to full with those who do not know how to pass on through the outer rim.. They see it a dream...

The time machine used to take you back has indeed already been invented..  Look upon your bed or where ever you may sleep.. Behold your time machine.. When you go back and change things you do in such a way for a different stream in time... Although you awake in your stream you will find that you changed your someone else's time stream...  I have already changed the stars in many of my travels..  I have also seen that in doing so I have created a second universe..  Tonight I create a third..  So what we have here is a time change.. A ripple created by me, from me, to me, at the very source of me..  We begin from one and guide him to heaven infinite!

The path made of me.. The soul within that becomes the energy engine that drives this beautiful soul filled Bike of the 9th universe..
I travel on the belt of Athena.. This is where stars are made and sent off to be born among those whom have the pleasure of gazing at their beautiful luster.. It is also the place where stars still shine even after thay have long faded into the blackness spirial abyss they roll on..  My lightcycle, soulcycle, Emotion engine machine streaks me across the cosmos..  I transcend my dreams and become the rider of the new universe.. I cross on over my heavens and pass all that emotion could ever feel..  This moment I see inside my Lightcycle the formula of creation..  Life rides with me.. Where ever I may go.. Because now I know how alive even a beam of light is..  My Lightcycle shines STARFIRE BLUE..  The creation.. The music..  The love..  I feel all of you here..  Watch me blaze! Watch me Blaze!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It was what was left.  Adrift at times and sometimes in route to nowhere..  It took billions and billions of us to finally realize it all.. Or at least it grew tired.. Among the expanse beyond,  it decided to one day stop here.. It built around it a tangent place..  A place it could touch and feel.. Through this place it grew at random..  No sort of real order..  And then the first 2 became many.. Many became to much.. And in the end the many tore down this beautiful tangent it created for itself..  It resides at the core of this place..  It has experenced love, and hate, hope and despair, happiness and sadness, laughter and anger..  Thus said the dead bodies float among the beautiful cosmos in this system..  Where it has tried many other times to try and get life right..  But it seems to be failing at the moment..  And the reason it is failing is because we have discovered it..  This beautiful heavenly machine at the earth's core.. This machine with a soul..  Our should I dare say with the ability to make one..  But the question is,  Who built this machine?

The sight of it is so beautiful.  Its what beautiful is to me.. Its how its described to the eyes if there was no word beautful..  But I ask myself why am I seeing this? And what is it? Let me describe it to you and the circumstances that must take place for me to see it.. First and foremost I must be asleep and dreaming..  Many times the dream takes place in the past but sometimes in the present and very seldom the future.. The sky in my dream is all black with no stars or moon.. Just a black shadow filled sky..  There above is a lone cloud.. Its white even at night but begins to turn gray.. Lightning then fills and dances within it.. But this is no ordinary lightning.. The bolts and arcs of lightning are all different colors within this lone cloud.. Each bolt does not create thunder but rather creates tones.. Like a song cloud singing from the black skies.. The tones are even more beautiful to the ears and surpass the beauty the eyes see..  This lightning color filled lone gray cloud gets bigger and bigger..  I then float above my dream earth alongside this aura of colors and lightning..  What I am seeing is an idea!  It is an idea that I have had all along inside of my mind..  As this profound unknown idea grows within my subconscious it will one day storm upon my dreams and flood on over into my waking mind..  Ill bring you all back.. I promise!

There are some moments that become still..
In a sense they become a time stop..
If you need me please tell me..
I am at a flux in time where I can meet you for the first time yet again..
Where I see you for the first time yet again..
The sight of you helped me invent the universe..
And I want to invent it all over again..
It was your eyes where I saw the need for galaxies..
But what I am really asking is what did I help you create?
I'm willing to go back and try to see what you saw in me..
I tourment myself with such understandings..
Because they are in no form understanding to me at all..
Is it all real?
This is more vast than me..
At least I will think so when some day I will realise it all..
Imagination really does scare me to no end..