mitus: Poems

9:25

mitus Apr 2018

9:25

you asked me what was wrong, as if you knew something had happened
you questioned if it was something you said, or did
you knew it was your fault
you apologized
i said nothing.

I don't know..

a better me

mitus May 2019

a better me

I feel okay,
I feel good
And upside down
And right side up
I feel nice
And cool
And fine and like a jewel!

Maybe everything does happen for a reason
A reason that we can’t wait to know
Yeah, sometimes everything blows
And maybe you think you can’t live without a person
Even though your life with them probably worsened

But,
Look how good it is now!
Ok, yeah, so you might have a slight cough,
But you feel fine and like everything is alright.

And you try your best to be distracted
And not to think about the bad stuff
And you love and laugh
But a little more cautiously this time
And, okay, well I guess you don’t open up as easily anymore
Or say much about yourself to anyone, anymore
Or do anything with your friends, anymore
But that doesn’t stop you from smiling and shining
And it certainly won’t stop you from styling and dining
Or dialing and defining!

But right now I feel okay,
I feel fine and not in despair and I don’t want to cry
I’m not going to cry over someone that I treated right
That didn’t want what I had to offer
Because I deserve more
Than to just crawl to my floor
To lay like a corpse.

I feel okay,
I feel good
And upside down
And right side up
I feel nice
And cool
And fine and like a jewel!

change okay good fine mood anxious

Absent.

mitus Aug 2018

Absent.

I sleep,
Mind cluttered with thoughts of you.
Tears rolling gently down my cheeks, furiously away from my eyes.
Knowing that you don't think about me anymore,
The way you used to.

#you #exboyfriend #tears #crying #cry #sleep #mind #thoughts #tired

aggressive poetry

mitus Feb 2018

aggressive poetry

i hate you more than i hate MYSELF
don't you see what you've done?
NO
YOU DO N ' T
because you dont pay attention to the hearts you break!

I hate you.

#you #attention #breakup #broken #heart #hate #myself

all happening so fast

mitus May 2018

all happening so fast

pretty girls snappin' away
straight ******* pretending they're gay

outside, older men catcall
in my room, i silently bawl

funny girls tweeting for fun
300 retweets make them stun

8 year old boys know what moaning is
thinks it's funny, making their girls his

school playground's bully is big
peer pressures nerd in taking a swig

movies in Hollywood are less dramatic than my life
when will the end come to this strife

#media #me #life

All I See Are Shapes

mitus May 2018

All I See Are Shapes

Your shapes are my colors,
and you don't understand,
Your eyes send me wonders,
Like a robot, I have you scanned.

Your voice booms like thunder,
You have everything pre-planned,
You sing like my mother,
So beautiful and grand.

I love you like no other,
Follow and take my hand,
I swear I'll show you colors,
As your shapes will understand.

#mae #shapes #request #colors #loveyou #understand #wonder #rhyme #poem

Almost the Start of a New Day

mitus Feb 2018

Almost the Start of a New Day

YOU are the reason I CRY
YOU are the reason I want to DIE
YOU are the reason I cannot TRY anymore.

you
           Y
                 O
                        U
YOU

YOU ARE MY WORST FLAW
YOU only ever liked me RAW
YOU scratched my back with your ratchet CLAW
YOU only ever liked me in my BRA, exposed.

Why did I ever fall for YOU?

YOU are one of the many millions of fish.
YOU were one of my favorites meal dish.
YOU were the only one who ever received my wish.

YEAH! YOU!
YOU don't even CARE.
Without YOU, I might not BARE.
I am so lonely, too many to count, a BLANK STARE.
It's like you never even wanted to SHARE either.

GOD! I GAVE YOU EVERYTHING! AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH?
I must never be good enough.

Why are you like this but why am I like this?

#you #lonely #stare #rhyme #everything #breakup #relationship #him #die #try

Bad Outlook

mitus Jun 2018

Bad Outlook

I'm happier in the evening,
At night,
And in my sleep,
But without you by my side,
I curl up, and weep.
I love the way your face lights up,
I love the way you get when you try to act like a grown-up,
I love the way you get angry,
And the way you get when you're sad,
I love the way you cry,
And the way you get when you try to act bad.
I love the way you get when you're kissing my lips,
I love the way you get when you accidentally slip.
I love the way we met,
In that crazy grocery store,
I love the way you fret,
Too bad that you're a *****.

#happier #without #you #*****

Big frog, little frog

mitus Nov 2017

Big frog, little frog

Big frog, little frog
It’s okay if people don’t love
Big frog, little frog
Don’t frown

Big frog, little frog
It’s okay if parents don’t appreciate
Big frog, little frog
Don’t cry

Big frog, little frog
It’s okay if friends don’t care
Big frog, little frog
Don’t bawl

Big frog, little frog
It’s okay if families don’t want
Big frog, little frog
Don’t weep

Big frog, small frog
You can do it.

#poem

Bittersweet Thirst

mitus May 2018

Bittersweet Thirst

Spilling the juice all over the floor,
Missing you each day more and more.

Listening to music- new and old
My decisions getting a bit more bold.

Shutting the door louder than usual,
My mind is starting to get delusional.

Loving you without a doubt,
Hate seeing you with other girls out and about.

Scrutinizing every mistake I write,
Only to view every poem I spite.

Luring the unknown into my room,
Chimney blows wind in with a bad fume.

Securing my own locks on doors so fragile,
My body always wanting to move so agile.

Leaving your life and entering his,
Wisdom hit but so did his fist.

Sobbing on the cold ground,
I wish I still had you around.

Listening on what to do - my friend’s advice,
Maybe I have to start trying more than twice.

Sending mixed signals and causing trouble,
Will only ever lead to a burst in the bubble.

Lacking thought or too many to count,
So many problems I have to dismount.

Serving my old yet new figure,
My body tired, and oh-so-bitter.

Latching on somebody to stay,
Words cannot explain my feelings at play.

Shouting loud but not loud enough,
My brain's gone into a severe slough.

Crying for extreme help,
I cannot do this by myself.

#you #were #*** #mistake

Burden

mitus Mar 2018

Burden

I just cried.. again..
Seems like it never ends.
I thought I was okay,
But my mind could debate.

Every moment
I feel so broken,
My devotion,
Misfortune emotion.

Every moment
My feelings closest,
Roaming,
Zoning..
Uncondoning.

I'll always stay wishing,
I'll think about all the chances I'm missing,
The factors I'm risking.
The stories I'm twisting,
And the life I'm not living.

#cried #again #feelings #wish #sad #twist #risk #miss

Charging Your Phone

mitus Dec 2017

Charging Your Phone

You said you were charging your phone
But I miss you because you are my own.

And I wonder what you were doing for those three hours
I was asleep.
I was sad when I saw you didn’t text me.
So to conclusions I leap.

And those three hours
You could’ve spammed me with “hey babe” or “babyyyy”
But you didn’t.
And I wish you did, maybe.

Those two hours
That I ignored you
You should’ve marveled why I did that, boo.

And next, the one hour
I texted my friend.
She said if I was angry at you, I should text you sour.
It was true.

For ten minutes,
You didn’t respond
Please know your limits.
It was sadness beyond.

For the time you replied,
I ignored you for two minutes.
I sighed because
You said you were charging your phone.
But I miss you because you are my own.

#him #sad #want #you

Cons

mitus Mar 2018

Cons

Why am I always so sad
When nothing is wrong?
I don't have a reason to live.
I don't understand
I've been feeling this way for so long,
Please just make it stop,
But instead of expressing my feelings,
I write poetry with skittish slang,
Foul language,
The phone ringing and ringing till it only rang..
Is poetry my disadvantage?

conscience-stricken

mitus Apr 2019

conscience-stricken

Sure, it’s been months
And I know you won’t be back
But I can’t help but say,
I’ll still wait for you.

crying over someone who wasn't good enough

mitus Feb 2018

crying over someone who wasn't good enough

why am i still crying over YOU
I dumped YOU
you weren't good for me
i want to stop please
i hate this
i hate you
please
im de spera te
i cant help it
i think about you
so much
too much

I can't keep up.

#crying #you #dump #desperate #think #bad #sad #cry

Cute.

mitus Aug 2018

Cute.

She's so cute I see in it her lies,
A bundle of joy with wisdom in her eyes,
For every single love, she always ******* tries,
The boy shoots her down just because of her size.

She's so cute, even when she's upset,
Confident or not, she never breaks a sweat.
Her need for food always, we settle on anything but ****,
Everyone else is considered as a threat.

I am not paranoid, just protective,
Over my little girl,
My world.

#girlfriend #crush #like #cute #her

Disappointing

mitus Aug 2018

Disappointing

Your mom calls you an accident,
I call you regret.
You were supposed to be a divine sacrament,
But all you caused me is severe debt.
I wish you weren't around,
But I'm not allowed to say that to your face.
You are so **** hell bound.
What a waste of space.
You're the only daughter,
I wished to ever have,
You only prove that other girls are hotter,
Than in my day and age, they were only ave.
To me you have no value,
But believe what you want,
I'd leave your mom and you in an instant,
But that'd leave decades of haunt.

#dysfunctional #family #dad #pov

emotional carving

mitus Nov 2018

emotional carving

i wear hearts on my sleeve,
literally.
i engrave hearts onto my forearm,
blue shards of glass,
sharp scars along the trace of my skin.

failed attention

mitus Sep 2018

failed attention

i tried to apologize
yet you had no care in your eyes,
i wished you took me more seriously,
than not at all.

For However Many

mitus Mar 2018

For However Many

For however many petals I've picked,
For however many spells I've wicked,
For however many clocks I've ticked,
For however many needles I've pricked,
I still think about you.

I still think about you but not in the same sense.

#you #picked #petals #spells #clocks #needles #however #many

Frustation

mitus Aug 2018

Frustation

I have always wanted to be like you,
Yet I'm never enough,
It never fails to frustrate me,
I wish it's myself I love.

Knowing I can do better,
Be respected,
Form a trendsetter,
Feel connected,
Only can I imagine.
Somehow think that I'm an attraction.

I have always wanted to speak like you,
Yet my voice tortures,
It never fails to frustrate me,
Sounds like chanting from warriors.

Many have fallen asleep to yours,
Wish I knew how to do that,
It's not that you're a bore,
Just a soothing, calm chitchat.

I have always wanted to be you,
Yet I'm me,
Without your inspiration,
I wonder where I'd be.

#inspiration #wonder #love #respect #idol

Good Mistakes Happen

mitus Dec 2017

Good Mistakes Happen

I’m glad I met you
I’m glad we split
I gave you a nickname and I called you boo
It was cute until that very day that you hit
Me.

“It’s okay, it’s okay,”
I cried
To myself
“This is the way it’s supposed to be.”
It was hard to see the light that day

I’m glad I met you
I’m glad we split
I no longer pick up your phone calls at two am
You sob and plead and beg me back
I disagree and do not crack

Here we are, once again
You show up at my door
And swear in vain
I slam the door
And your heart breaks
I don’t mind
For you hurt me
I wish for you to no longer plea
As I will press charges against thee

You come back
I stand away
You hold a rusty pipe found by the corner coming up the staircase
You strike me right in the face
You continue to beat me
With no remorse
I force
My way elsewhere from you maniac
You flee
I curl up in the closet near the pile of your *****, old shirts
I should’ve burned a long time ago
My neighbors find me
Soaked in dried, scarlet red, blood
They know no English
And scream in Spanish
“¡Juan, llama a la policía! Tenemos que ayudar a Missy a salir del armario.”
I feel her large body swish around paper towels and wet them with tap water
She returns back with aspirin and everything she could to
Help me?
“No no no no no NO. Quédate quieto, no retrocedes. La ambulancia estará aqui pronto.”
Frustration occurs.

You return
Couple weeks later,
See me in pain
I call you insane
You are documented
Not only am I fermented
But my wish came true
For you are an official abuser and violator.

For when I see my last true light
I will always finish this fight.
So I’m glad I met you
I’m glad we split
Next time bud,
Stick to the script.

#okay #abuse #cry #split #break

Grand Sacrifice

mitus Aug 2018

Grand Sacrifice

I always knew that you weren't the one for me.
But the way you stared at me,
Cared for me,
Fooled me.

My heart- it was yours and yours only.
My soul, lonely.
You kept me waiting closely,
Reminiscing remotely.

You were my sunshine. Always there to wipe away my tears.
Your kindness blinds, erased all my fears.
Without your warm signs, I realized you wasted my years.

To you, I must've been only a vulnerable creature dying.
To you, I must've been an innocent friend crying.
To you, it must've felt like you weren't lying,

With the way you stared at me,
Cared for me,
Fooled me.

#sacrifices #cafe

Green Faced Mice

mitus Nov 2017

Green Faced Mice

Bright red
Comfortable bed
The green faced mice said,
“We’re here for you. Don’t dread.”

Open eyes
You won’t die
You’re alright
They said,
“Don’t fright.”

Wide awake
“We won’t take.
We don’t break.
Can’t be fake.”
This is not a mistake

Eyes shut
They strut
In my head
The green faced mice said,
“We’re here for you. Don’t dread.”

grizzly

mitus Apr 2019

grizzly

i gave you my everything, you were my everything
how am i supposed to get over you now
when i have nothing
and no one
and nowhere to go

#heartbreak

had enough

mitus Mar 2019

had enough

I want to stop writing about you
And start writing about somebody new.

Hey, I miss you. I love you. Hope we can meet another day in another year and become friends or something.

here's to trying someone new

mitus Sep 2018

here's to trying someone new

i tried for a new start
with a new person
who now wants nothing to do with me

i wish i hadn't had ****** up. i wish i hadn't texted

High Energy

mitus Aug 2018

High Energy

Feeling disconnected from reality,
Feeling unaffiliated with religion,
Feeling unattached with your pure skin.

I know that you're out there,
Out there listening to my cries,
Listening to the pounding on my walls,
My unpleasant calls.

I hope you know the way my emotions tangle through my body,
I hope you can feel my revenge through the blood in your mouth,
I know you will forget the way you treated me and move on,
But baby, you're all I can think of even when you're gone.

#you #ex #revenge #gone #okay

How

mitus Mar 2018

How

How do you just disappear within moments?
How do you just let go of someone who was once the closest?
How do you just stay alive without feeling broken?
How do you just bare being your best while feeling your lowest?
How can i show my fullest extent of being potent,
at times like this?

#how

i did this just for you

mitus Aug 2018

i did this just for you

now who am i supposed to say good morning to?
or wake up to a text saying i love you
where am i gonna find someone like you
i dont want anybody stealing you,
you're not even mine anymore
but it still hurts to know somebody else likes you
and i know this is for the best,
our split,
i know someone will treat you better than i could have ever treated you
and im sorry we werent meant to be
and im sorry for how much it pains me
and im sorry if you want to talk to me but ive been crying too much and i cant see
we both know someone better will come along for you
i just want no part of it
i dont want to see pictures of you two
holding hands,
having fun,
hugging,
kissing,
loving each other the way we used to
and im sorry if that's a problem
but i cant stand you being happy without me.

and i still love you.

#heartbroken #my #fault #change #sad #tears

I'm Okay, Okay?

mitus Mar 2018

I'm Okay, Okay?

For those who worry,
don't.

My nature is poetry,
To hurt myself I could, but won't.

All I do is write and write until I can't anymore,
But once that fuel dies out, the words become an eyesore.

It's hard to put feelings into words,
but poetry often symbolizes miswords.

So I'm sorry if you don't understand,
But nothing bad is planned,
I follow rules but no command.
Lastly, I do not feel stranded on an island.

So for those who worry,
don't.

My nature is poetry,
To hurt myself I could, but won't.

#okay

i'm over him

mitus Aug 2018

i'm over him

what was i expecting
what was i thinking
why would my ex keep me as a contact
why am i an actual idiot
why is that i remember everything about him,

       i have our first date ticket stub, still
             i remember the day i met him
                 the day i first started talking to him
                      where i talked to him
                          how i met him,
                            the day we started dating
                      the first time he said i love you
                           when we took a break
                     when we broke up
                his birthday.

impotent

mitus Jun 2018

impotent

i wish i could stop messing up.
i wish i could start being enough.

Intimate

mitus Jan 2018

Intimate

Drip drop
Drip drop
The sound of an empty cloud top
The air is anything but loud
Although it speaks so proud
The wind recites particles
Full of several articles
Spelling out its love for the sky

#empty #love

i promise.

mitus Feb 2018

i promise.

i promise you im trying
i know its not visible and i keep crying
and you always tell me what not to do, then i do it, and there you go, back to sighing
he keeps lying
but i keep prying
inside i am dying
but please promise me that you know im trying

#trying #crying #lying #dying #rhyming

It's Not You, It's Me

mitus Mar 2018

It's Not You, It's Me

The tears in my eyes have not yet to fall
Because I remember when I do cry, I don't cry but bawl.
Then I structure and build a great wall
And grow and grow in reverse, anything but big, oh so small.

The hair in my face still glistens as it snows
My blinking eyes flicker at the reminder that it's me you chose.
The cheeks on my face as red as a rose,
But thoughts in my mind, as they quickly slow.

Makes me wonder, what are our plans?
Will you leave as the tears on my face dance?
Would you ever give me a second or third or fourth chance?
Will there ever be another incident where we touch hands?

Am I overthinking already?
I'm so sorry, I'll try and go steady.
My thoughts can be so destructive and deadly.
But I can promise you that someday I'll be ready.

I promise it's me.

#wonder #plans #unready #cry #chose

It was only four months.

mitus Jan 2018

It was only four months.

It was only four months
but it felt like forever
and i'd miss you so much
but my heart was already severed
though i knew i had to move on
i never wanted to end it with you, never

It was only four months
and we saw each other about 9 times throughout that span
you stole my heart like kidnapping a child with candy and a van
i knew you and i had some sort of plan
but with the time i'd gone without you i couldnt stand

It was only four months
but i couldn't do it anymore
you made me bored
taking care of you felt like a chore
you never gave but you always wanted more
But you told me you love me like the ocean loves the shore
And to me you swore
you would never intentionally make me sob on the floor
my eyes are so sore
with my tears continuing to pour
and my heart that you tore
am i just a score
to you?

Actually, it was only like 5 or 6 times I got to meet up with him.

#you #cry #heartbreak #more #greed

I Wish I Could

mitus Feb 2018

I Wish I Could

I wish I could write better poems,
The kind that everybody could enjoy, not necessarily relate to.
I write poems about the explosion of emotions,
The kind where words left and right are skewed.

I wish I could be a trendsetter,
But most days I can't even get up from bed.
I cry into my hole-filled sweater
And continue to view nothing but dread.

I wish I could feel feelings the way people do,
But I find it hard at times.
I wish I was normal and could get through
But all I have are my rhymes.

I wish I could but I can't.

#cant #wish #feelings #normal #rhyme #poem #emotions #explosion #enjoy

i wish i meant this

mitus Oct 2018

i wish i meant this

i'm not going to ruin your chances of happiness
just because
i am
upset

Just a Kiss

mitus Feb 2018

Just a Kiss

Just a kiss, buttercup
Remember not to **** me up.
Maybe it’d be best, to promise
Just one kiss.

Strangers after all don’t have business with each other.
That’s what mother
Said.
It will always wander in my head.

But little by little
My hands would fiddle
Every single **** time I saw you.
But knowing you’d never be able to come through.

Our promise broke and one kiss led to two.
Then three.
And so forth.
God, I shouldn’t have trusted myself with you.

The last time our lips felt each other
Was when your girlfriend caught us under your covers.

She came by with a surprise
But left with numerous lies and sobbing eyes.

You yell at me.
“Stupid ***** couldn’t keep her mouth shut.” Yell he.

I too, left with sobbing eyes.
Then despise.
And a part of me dies.

Ever since we stopped this secret
My weakness
Is you.
But I can’t do this,
I have to stop thinking about your kiss.
The thoughts continue to spew.

This is wrong.
I should have realized sooner you were just playing a puppet’s song.

#kiss #****** #strangers #sob #weak #secret

last breath of his

mitus Feb 2018

last breath of his

am i stoic
for not feeling anything when in the presence of death
for not feeling anything when knowing it was his last breath
am i sick
for my heart not enduring pain
for my heart disconnecting with my brain
is it heroic
for my own body not to go through the stages
for my own body to be trapped in its plentiful cages
will it click
that he's actually gone
that i should be drawn
to it?

My grandpa died today. 2/8

#death #grandpa #died #cage #stage #brain #pain #last #breath

last one for today

mitus Sep 2018

last one for today

i don't know why im writing about you,
you have no significance in my life,
only that i fantasized about you,
and how i'd the best wife.

we've only seen each other around,
never knew a single thing,
one conversation made you frown,
now it sounds like i cling.

i never would have texted you in the first place,
i was only jealous of a friend,
i was trying to show you who i am, who i want to embrace
instead i showed you a friendship to end.

Lavender Oil

mitus May 2018

Lavender Oil

Her eyes lit up like the fireflies that dance.
She has me yearning to beg another chance.
Her wild body moving side to side,
She leaves me in a silent stance.

Her arms so still, she wants another flight,
She wants to stay, just for one more night,
Her hair flows, like the whooshing wind runs,
She wouldn't dare to resign without causing a fight.

Her skin so soft like lavender oil,
My heart pumps and pumps, so much it boils,
Without her, who knows where I stand,
Only her personality is the one I would spoil.

let me

mitus Jan 2018

let me

let me place my finger on the dot
let me bring out the heart that you shot
let me visit the soul that does rot
let me remember the arguments we fought
let me remind you that you speak and feel like a robot
let me let you remember the lessons i taught

#break #up #rot #rhyme #speak #robot