Pink
Passion
Pulse

Forgive me for what I'm about
To do
Draw you inside of me
So now you can see
What it's like to let go
Of the World and venture
On the edge where
The girls play and shadows
Come in

Where the dark purple
Skies submit to
A land of candy canes
And butterflies

Colors begin
To obscure
My diluted
Distained
Avatar vision

Soon I Will
Wonder
What I was fussing
Over in the
First place

The ones
That matter
Grow stale
And distant

As my mind
Begins
To drift

Useless
I sit
Disregard
What's left

Moving without sound
Seems pointless

How else
Would I know
I exist

I'm tired
Of trying to
Fit into a box
Which has no category

To belong
Is where I want
To begin

Isolated
Trauma state identity
Who cares
As long
As your grinning

I can't even
Do that anymore
I feel there's
No one out there
That remembers
My name

When I want
To collide with
My words
And unite

This feeling
Of guilt
Strengthens
My desire

****** up
As it sounds
No one
Does care

So why are they
Still FOLLOWING me
Everywhere

I got these feelings
I can't freely explain
One of explosion
One off uninting
And one I haven't
Even Sat fire in

But you're there
In all my belongings
In my etchings
My longing
My reminiscing

Is it wrong
That I dont truly
understand
What you
Mean to me

You mean
All The sunflowers
Wilted from the
Springs bleeding

And ice aroma
Crept up my nose
And I sneeze
Them away

Because you
Unearth me
Stepped foot
On my soil

I think you
Reached up
Before the
Roots grew here

Far off
In a constellation
Of galleries
You were
To me

Somewhere between
Sweet sunlight bliss
And a never-ending
Moonlite lust
For his
Beating blues
To kiss

I bargin for simplicity
Of life
To come and haunt me

Instead of dry
Dusty leaves
Stone temple
Voodoo curses

And late night
Sun rides

Do you want
To go under
The earth
With me

Or am I
A delinquent
Melody

Unchain me
Please

Gently go
Where it's unseen

Quiet please
If they see us
They'll sneeze

1-2-3
Hold your nose
You go first

Go under the sea
To a dark epiphany

Flowing with trees
Of ancestrial bleeding

Time and land
Misleading

Too common
The obsession
With meeting

Birthrights
In succession
Balanced confusion
Roots guided

Earth still
Breathing

We are all
Just proceeding

If we were graphiti
Youd still lie
On top of me

Tracing the after effects
Your breath marked across
My lips

Lit up
Like ecstasy lovers
Your mind incased
Something I'd soon
Discover

*******
Heroine
Never had a taste
As tempting
As your marijuana laced
Face

And the altitude
Words from you
Put me higher
And I won't
Stop penetrating
Your thoughts
Till I've had
My desire

You will
Be there
Covered in dripping gold

And I will stand under you
Chin up
Lips wide apart
Tasting you
FOREVER

Lovely
Don't you think?

F* my style
I don't
Have to
Rhym

Maybe I'm back there
Doing my time

In this room
Called attitude
You work me
Like a dime

I ain't gotta
Make money move
Just living
A hell of
A ride

Bittersweet
That's what you
Said to me

An epiphany
That's what you'll
Always be

I want
To live
Off you

In a sea
Of dew
Spilled
Shimmering

Rocks
Smoothed over
Tragedy

Spewed paper
Becomes me

You left me
Completely shocked

As I lie to myself
Liquid crimson regret
Starts pouring over
All my words

You had me all wrong
I didn't mean to hurt you
I just don't know how
To say NO

I'll never forget
The way you smelt
Like sweet epiphanies
Or lillac breezes

Each carried
A different note

Thank you
For all
Your seasons

Do you forget me
When we haven't talked

Have you thought
About me
After dark

Do the memories
Ever touch
The fringes
Of your mind

I wonder
And so do i

Each one
A piece

Tied in cloth
Hardly breathe
While loosing sleep

Jokes
Pleasures
Masterpiece
Earrings

I like to
Collect ears
And hearts❤

What if
I liked the way
You grinned at me

I knew youd
Be the death
Of me

Playing it off
You told me to lie

Never speak of this
Or she would cry

I kept it
Every time
Each time
Getting harder

When you grow distant
I chain you again

What if
I liked this
Kind of sin

I want to be spanked
HARD
held down in knots

Black tar dripping
From my
Porcelien body

Yours forever
If you'll
Keep me

I want to be begged
Jadded and screwy
All the ****** up
Things that we
both need

I need to be alivened
Dead and
Frozen
All at
Once

Hanging from
The ceiling
While you
Watch me

At night
My heart
Sang to you

That even
The moon
Slipped down
A silioquint tear

Holding on to
What ifs

Drawing on
Heart pounding

Maybe now
You'll feel
Me drowning

I don't have to worry
About life's little wrinkles
Or lack of love

Just trust
Consumes me
And all is forgiven

I craved
You in ways
My body
Never knew
Possible

Overacheiving
Overdose

Looking for
A haunting high

Set fire
To night drawn
Skies

In colors
So bright
My tongue
Burst
With electricity

And all truth
Spilled on top
Of me

Like a mountain
Of fantasies

You came and
Saved me

You downgraded yourself
For the sake of humanity
Get off your knees
And come with me
No more games
No lies
No flaws

Lay burdens beside cross
Fly underneath
Through is lost

The tides
Overroll me
Your breath
Sabatoges your leaks
Your oars aren't moving
You eyes keep fluttering

The fireflies
Under your tongue
Are escaping

Yearning desperately
For forgiveness
From intrusive abuse

Save me!

I need novacane
I need stimulants
I need someone
To explain
Why you're not
Next to me

I need relief
I need forgivness

The world becomes unclothed
And everything becomes nothing
And you are free

Live a
Drunk exsistance!

Meet me at the doorway
With silence
Let me unfold you

He longed outside
Mourned inward
When the nights rained
He poured it out

Infinite is Sun
Pure power
Infinite is it's solar kenisis
Born of passion and fire
Infinite is Moon
Blue bliss
Infinite are the oceans
It pulls

Divide and cease yourself
From your outercore
Break open in habbit
Pour
    Pour
        Pour
Liquid gold
Of soliloquy
Eulogies
Rebirth and bathe
In esctasy

Dipping down
Beneath the cloud
I float unbending
Landing on soft ground
Thinking out loud
"What will I be?"

Man or woman
Adult or child
Devil or Angel

Singing
Set free

From all around
Who try and
Drown out my sound
I SHOUT with Integrity

I AM ME
I AM UNIQUE
What I am
Is who I'll be

Do you stare
At a devil
In your shadow
I do?

Does he ask you
Or threaten you
Where to begin?

Rhetorical functioning inhibbited
Playing once again
With the demons
Called friends

Some are nice
Yet some too revengeful
To let in

Do other angels
Call like she used to
Singing sweet lullabies
But all you give
Them is fables

Spotlighted gaze
I hunt this maze
For self denying sacrifice

Only second
Isn't right
And turning left
Is now
Out of sight

To lick the salt clean
To unearth me from
These ashes
I've made seen

To recoup my backbone
And repent my sin's
To forgo what
Could have been
And make me
Whole again

We all pour expressive concrete
On our faces
From time to time
We all lay paralyzed by our
Own imagined fears

What we do next
Is what cuts the cord
Or plunges the knife

Why you did not
Open to me
Is a gift
Your soul
Could not
Spill
******* and your SOUL My Dear!!!!!!!

I run from the Present
Living in my past.

Where are the towers
We crumbled together
Why won't they rebuild for me
When I need protection
From my own greed

What kind of spell
Did you put on me
Opening my heart
To you was silly

Now all I want
Are my wings
So I can fly away
From the shame
That I failed you

I wish I could
Bring your eyes
Inside of mine.

They are our illusions
They are our degree
The roots of what we step
Foot in
And the lack of unseen

Muderous tribes
Come to the feast
Sparing nothing less
Leaving only
Good intentions

Dibolical plans
A roast
Somewhat innhabbital
A little more hostile
Less hospitable

Carving out reflections
Communion overdose

Salt life

The taste of spirit on my tongue

Salt life

The sound of my heart after it drums

Salt life

The opening healing to my childhood wombs

Salt life

Hounds curl up against my throat
Like a sinking anchor
Going under!?
He cares again to whisper

Silent sweet satanic hummmms
None like other ones
None like ever before

He wrestles me down
Bellowing screams inside my
Belly

Eyes a flutter
Body transcendent
The fear too highly grounded
To ever lift up to another
As I had before

Come sit beside
The open door
Devilish curiousity
Takes over me
As it had
Many moons before

Wondering
Giving
Impatiently ashamed
Too scared
Curiosity core

Release the inner beast
Drums hummms of ****** beginnings
into the wild nature of the earth

Calling you down
Below your very own surface
A small light
You will always hold
To the sounds
Of wanting more

Religious frustrations
A hideaway oasis

Laughter unknowing
Face unshowing

You dance around you
Fire rings
Until the light comes
Seeping in
After midnight

Your hearts on fire
It quakes the very
Core of men
This stronger will
To pursue the
Earth beneath me
And dig all my bones
Up again

Just to leave me
In piles of ashes
Carried off by
The coffins
Where they
Lay inside

No longer in
My room
No longer in
My life

The coffee sip
At 3am
Is just another
Punishment
They say so
But I kind of
Like it

Take me my soul
I'm Bleeding in
Take me my soul
Bring me home
Again
Take me my soul
I'm Bleeding In
Take me my soul
Make me KNOWN again

Sparkling drops
Run down my face
Reaching the floor
Burning holes until
title ends

She sent me to a hellish destroyer
Called loves angel
Where I fall
I fall hard
Spinning square
In a circle of
Obsessive thoughts
Words
Music
Memories
Clips
Of me and you

Wasting my day again
Over thinking
All my problems
And asking myself
How I can fix them
Instead of acting
I'm stuck in a loop
Thinking...

Seldom do I go
Around
Putting words
In order
The way they
Should be

So tell me why
I live by those
Shoulds in
Real life

When words I just
Let them fall
Not giving a
****

Of the order
And then I realize
How *******
Beautiful
They sound
And how it came
Through so *******
Clear

But life
Ha life

I try to control
And do what
The voices
That embedded
From birth
Tell me

Then wonder
Why nothing
I really want
To do ever
Gets done

And why
My face looks
So ******* sad
All the time

Instead of
How I feel
When I read
The words
That I CREATE
Not them
But I

Makes more sense
Now that I'm writing

I am
NOT living
For I

I'm living
For a them

I DONT WANT THAT!!!!!?

Sublime majestic light
Where did you come from
When was I born into thee

Making colors arise
Out of passions
Unverbed and unique

Madness and magic
Completely
Incomplete

Variance in moods
Attitudes wane
Sway

Dark tunnels
To oceans blue

Light breaking
Surface

A pill or two

Bring on highs
Like a balloon

Will the seams
become unglued
the moment I
open you

With such force
mounted fingers
on top of
your surface

Will I need
to sew you
back up
after I've torn
through you

Release of
bonded fantasies
play with
intentional
focus

Lying on my back
I flip yours over
then spiraling your spine
I'm in love
all over

I close both sides
of heaven and hell
noctournal persuasion
held within
dust leaves
walking shadows
casting souls
to find another

Pervious notions
pulling eyes down

touching
pressure points
roaming all over

nibbles turn to bites
as red surfaces

lashing whips
burning ambers
into ashes

trying to run
your lips
speak the
unspoken

Lost inside
Pages of you
Torn clothes
Ripped veins
Dirt colored floors

Face planted
Head spinning
Whipped lashes
Against dry
Faces

Numb
Paralyzed

Flight
Flight