You're everywhere
I stare
In the tunnel
I drift in
Seeing no ******* end.

I'm washed away
By the shame
I face

Skin yellow
Heart bruised

Open
Bleeding

Hola
Se la vie
Goodbye resend
The same lines again and again
The pain runs faster
Inside my head meeting me again
You're open to anything
Right?

Engorged breast
Supple thighs

Scent toking
Under neon lights

Leather strap
Near my neck

Tie loose
Around your ****** neck

You are mine tonight
Don't forget to
Come...back

Dissolving as you drop me in
Diving as if you were
The ends of the earth

Further more
Phatomed
Against nights light

You burry me

Take me
As the wind
To the winters
Turn

Coming up for air
Is not imaginable
To say the least

I am to tell
No more
Of this perfect illusion

Just dissolve me

Come back to me
Dry up the well
I've carried
In my pocket

Tears collected
Feel like an avalanch
And I'm ready
To fall

Burry me in it
Cover me whole

Always wanting
Never letting go

Is it wrong
To want to be alone
In your own solitude
Doing whatever
Soothes your soul?

Silk solitude
Cream based dream
Rhytmic pressure
Ohhh my...

I'm hopeless
Looking over
The wishing well
Full of gold coins

I throw one in daily
Never knowing
What else craving
To summon for

You're always it

So on days
I'm lost
Short of fuse
I grab my bucket
And use

Now not realizing
The coins have flowed
Outside of brick walls
Unto my doorstep

I am hopeless
Forever now
Forever will be

Are you thinking of me
Power on
Strong
Intense
Can't do a **** thing
You're popping up everywhere
And I love to
Watch you there*%+)

I'm having a minute
Waiting in line
Here in my own
******* life again

What better way
To capture
This moment
Of EXSIST!

Floating
Swimming
In my own mind
Downing my own head

I need to rewind!
I need to recreate
This moment
I say

Repeatedly
Repeatedly
Repeatedly

Already answered
This seldom
Lonesome thought

Lights off
Wake the **** up!
Cameras oN

Answer key: Acceptance and Begin Again...You Got This ;)

Spending time
Erasing plans
Trying to draw
Up new ones
In my head

Time spent
Procrastinating again
When will it
Ever end

Dun-dun-duuuuun %+p

I can't even pinpoint
When it begins
All I realize
Is that I'm somewhere else
Far away from here
Inside of loves layer
Built in my core

I'm lost in you

My mind spaces
What I was doing
Is now done
And I can't remember
Any of it
Cause I was there not here

Ahhhhhhhh

I don't even ask
For a ride
On loves wheels

It's like an alien invasion
Ur ****** up from the planet
Exsist in an open galaxy
Made of intoxicating inhales
And even better exhales
There is no other place
I'd think to be!

what if the sky
didn't fall so
blue tonight
and all the wishes
i had ever made
on crystalized stars
suddenly came true

Portrayed in absence
Nasty taste left
Under swollen cheeks
Bitterness

Twisted up nerves
Conclusive Skulls

Perturbation unraveling
Sacred kept
Unwoken
Dreams

Dwindling
Darting
Captured
Locked

Deep seeded
Frustrations

Viscera
upside down

Computed relief
Only
Just
Aspiration

How in the world
Can you be there
Once, twice, three times
I'm going crazy

What is it about
Your smile
Your being

I can't simply pretend
The one thing I want
To happen naturally
Can never really happen

But in my play dreams
We are simply
Sparkling

Then one into two
Three into ten

How many times
Let me ask you again?

Why write
When I can
Devour you whole

With spaces
Unorthodoxed
Purpetually
Unspoken

Convinced
To soften
Hearts
On sleeves

Condemned
Foragely
Burdened

For after life
After

I will touch
I will go there
Always and never
Outloud
Inside
Shoes wet
Left at doorstep tonight
From rivers trapped in
Sometimes
Sometimes...

I usually get lost
In one particular
Body part of yours

Then my mind explodes
As if in an
Infinite flight

Out to sea
Space and time

Matter not even
When lost inside

Lips, kneecaps, lungs
Or swollen hearts

I touch each part
I let hand rest

Deep inside
I memorize

I smile!

It feels like my bodies
Been spread over time
And these inches become miles
As particle cells
laughing in the wind
Following each other
Their giggles hold breaths
Of forgiveness
Leaving all the lies
On dandelion wires

Where can I play
When masters fall asleep
Can I crawl inside your
Warm dark cave tonight
Right next snuggled
Between two soft rocks

I like when you play
With my hair
Rubbing it back and forth
I feel your hips behind me
Thrusting in motions rhytmic
To my own

Are we the same tonight
Or am I just a plaything

I need soul
Sweet vibrational soul
To come out from
Within and rattle
The cages my bones
Lay in

I play with my thoughts
As if they were sinful delights
Taste filled licorice
******* on ends
Chewing up lil pieces
Spitting out used ones
Just to bite all over again

Wired wood
Carving inner mind
Into portraits
Of shoelace desire
Of things unbeknowst

Symptoms
Suicide

System in a panic
Finding answers few

What brought
This forth
From the back layers
Onto the floating
Clouds
Which laid
Dormant for
So long

Why are you here now?
And *** do you want?
I was doing
Just fine!!!

Erupted corrosion
Distorted perception
I need time
All I need is time

To let the air
Blow thru
These cracked
Pencil shavings

Reaching my tinder
To set my heart
On fire

I Desire
Your name
On the back
Of my veins tongue
Piercing delight
Into hollow caves
Vibrational vocals
To lungs
Inhaling her face

I held your eyes
In the parenthesis of
A smile
And your gaze
Was a pain
I slept with

Triggers last
After memories fade
I still can't get
These messages
Out of my head
Every song
Ever mentioned
Replaying

Continuous
Preluded tenses
Too Torturous
Gravity defying
Lustful longings
Completely enamored
All at once
HALTING

Now as I leave
I stare off
At the pictures
As I flip light
Into dark
For the night

Wondering what
It is your doing
And then I leave you there

Returning
Again
In the vaccant
Singing
Still frames
Of
Remembering

I Inhale
I Exhale
I ground myself
I face reality

Lay me down
Between two pillars
Onto ocean seas
Rowing toward
Sunlight tonight

kisses that
deepen together
lungs that inhale
the exhale

kalidoscope realities
have seemed to
disillusion me
speaking of the times
my life was in
the clouds

journys end
new spirits
begin
wondering why
im this
all the time

wheres my art
wheres my dreams
why do i feel capable
but never do anything

and when will the gun
bang inside my brain
to start off right foot
to race out of gate

searching for a grin
a comatose state
does not seem
to suit me well

i would like
my suit well
tailored
with screams
of colors
and sissors
and paint......

Your words
Drip
Like a tap that's
Always on

Or a trashbag
That's ripped
And never ending
Garbage
Rolling down the
Highway

Blowing out
Inside the
wind of fear

You cause
Destruction

Then need repairing

Can't you hear
Your own
Words

Echos
Instill
Deliberate hollows

Rip me
Find me space

Until i fall back into you
i'll stand here waiting
chasing after sweet afterthoughts
constantly craving

You've released
in me a passion
and I can't resist
the satisfaction
of coming under
your spell

You have me
you've locked
me there!

Aggressive at first
Turned quiet overnight
As bones settled
With what the
Heart already knew

i can't think of her
when you enter
the sentence
i quickly end hers with a period
and enter yours with a grin
and an exclamation point
enough said

If I could paint your toes
in colors of feelings
pinkie would be pink with desire
king would be green with envy
middle would lie and cut off and bleed
pointer would disagree with king and
instead look at me
and tom, ha
tom would stick his whole
****** up family
inside my mouth

I feel your fingertips
clawing at my chest
spreading apart my skin
so you can crawl within

I feel you
now tickling each
rib bone
finding spaces to hide
and torture me from the
inside


To be continued...

Under burning lamps
My skins touch
Scorches yours

Do you like
The pain
The fear
My penetrating love
Brings on

In the end
It WILL dissolve
All that's left
Of you

Turning yours
Black and blue

Mine still bursting
In flames

Over what you
Can never give me
what I ask
I want

There was a passion
a fire
an energy that threw
sparks out of our lips

As I watched your eyes
crystalize them before
they reached me sometimes

I tried
and when I didn't
then you tried
we're both exhausted
we're stuck

We'd get frustrated
with lack of own
and then feed
off each others
bits of glow
for days

Journeys end
new ones begin
I have to close chapters
but will always revisit
this one

over and over
as if it were new
each time

My eyes will always
light up
at even the slightest
thought of you

Possibilities are created
from that place
if I stay long enough

But somewhere between
the corner and the middle
is where I find myself
on the page

And I turn over like
a car trying to start
but no one is here
to help me recharge

I must recharge
I've not even began
and I drain so quickly
if it takes forever
I'll wait

Until edge of ice
reaches out it's hand
and dulls my shame

Till things of pure
gold replace
all the trash in this place

I know there's a spot
you'll save
I'm just not sure
when I'll regain
strength and courage

To say
to sit face to face
without falling
on my face

I'll keep trying
till then
I'm here

Knowing
what we had
was enough

To keep soul happy
and I'll try to stay
on trail you showed me

My own
and if I need you
I'll ask again

I am going on a radical sabbatical
At least for a month
Time to collect
What I have learned
And knowledge to know
Where it is
I want to go

You have to let it go
Lose control
Unthink
Penetrate
Lockness gone

The bizzare twist
Ironic plots
Synchronisations sake
Alive

Feel fuel burning
From fingertips light
Inhaling conscience
Desires

Center points
Plotting x and z
On scalic demeans

Concentrate
On the higher
Things

Ploring through
Time zonic tonic
Discussion closed

Rebirth
Reaknowledge
Stories told

Simple and divine
Asking heiresses
Jabbing hearts

Reliquient unheard of
Fortunes found
For hours on end

She will
Be mine

Inner demons
Crawling back up
To ear shots ring

Unbelievable belligerence
Low self esteem

Enough enough
Demeaning screams

Outside
Hitting
In

Please please
Let me peak
Over this hell
(A pact of peace and Concord)

Loneliness can
cause a panic
In doubt
of mind and body
To crave
any passion

Makes momentary
sincerly imagintary

Real
For a moments
Use
For own
Insecurities

Trace back
To when
Playgrounds whispered
Haunted memories

Redundant
Sound control

Freeze dried
Pebbles onto
River banks flowing

Following transcending ringing
Summoned
Feathered down
By scavengers

Hence feasible
Recipes

Unorthodoxed swallowing
Rocks churning appendixes

His round twine
bunddled up tight
unwinding slowly
unraveling marvouleous
Makings

Untold adventures
down the road

Future twist
Ironic plots

Keeping up
time in his
own way

Feeling free
amazing high

Can I tailor my life
in a way
that suits
my every need

And feels the most
intimate details
that circumference me?

I want to supplement you
Is there a pill I can use?

Not an herb
not on a vine

I'm looking for something
periodically
to give me a rush
a high
to hold me over
for a little while

Some say man cannot eat by bread alone
but i swear i could live an eternity
off the crumbs you leave me
feeding slowly

Sitting alone
in the Dark
can feel
so Bright!

If our nature
is to go beyond,
how do we not
do that without
being presently
drawn