A lover can be either just good or bad
Nothing in between
Don't blame someone because they're not the person you want them to be or they did something unforgivable
Understand that bad news comes first before the good ones

It's not the fact that you're leaving that hurts me the most
The thing is I'm afraid that the memories will turn into ghost

I want you to promise that you won't forget too
But you can't  because you know it's possible that we do
The only thing I wish now is for you to be happy
For me, I'll move on and live life without "we"

Oh my little grass of hue
You know how I adored you
Although not until I tell
With your bearded smile I fell
Before no one knows, I stare
Deep within your eyes so fair
And I never looked away
But still you didn't want to stay

You know I could have been the flower
I could have been your faithful lover
Instead you chose the rounded bush
Then I come to realized and hush
I'll lie if I say I did not think
Since I've convince myself and then I sink
It can't ever happen now I know
I wish his love will fulfill you though

Oh my little grass of hue
You know how much I loved you

Started as a sun
Lighting rays that acts upon
But like a day with 6:00 ending
World will turn away without changing

Urging inside the core
Can't be stop like a bore
The flowing pain will feel like forever
Same with the blood that seems to be clever

Escaping the reality
Hallucinations that will linger within
The mind full of random thoughts
Toxicated with drug-like hoax

I hold onto you
Cause you came and promised
You'd be fair and true

I hold onto you
Cause you lend and help me
Whenever I need you

I hold onto you
Cause you appreciate and cherished
Everything I do

I'll still hold onto you
Cause you proved
Forever can be really true

What a rare kind of night this is
Searching for something that's not going to exist
Sensitivity varying from time to time
Feeling peaceful but pain in my mind

Tired of tomorrow, tired of life
Promises of better future looks like a blur in my sight
Might be true, Probably not
Proved to be good but cannot be enough

Life is fair for a beast but not for a prey
It can be fun for humans but not just this day
The feeling goes on like forever
It hurts and tries to stop the survivor

3 years straight, i know
I can stop it in just one blow
But i choose not to because of the hope
That one day i can make life feel fair for all

No one would care right now
No one would pay attention to the show
Show
For them it is just a show
For me it is the 1st step in aiming my goal

I'm not the face you see
Nor the clothes I wear
I'm not the color to be
Nor the perfect hair
I'm not the height you measure
Nor the weight you scale
I'm not the *** with pleasure
Nor the sight to tail

No I'm not those things and I think you should know
I just don't want you to expect those things I wouldn't show

I am the coffee I drink every morning
The sweet-sweet kiss of the sun
I am the book that I finished
The one which brought me fun
I'm the music we listen to
You would know which one
I am the challenges that I faced
Both I failed and won

I'm just not a girl or a creation
You can't describe me as none
I have my own dreams and ambition
I am unusual that I am

Your nonexistence makes me wonder
Would i ever feel something real?

...careful not to fall into the bottomless pit
monster lies in there beneath
chewing sinners with its gritting teeth...

I fell in*

Into your eyes
Into your heart
I fell in the skies
Then I fell down hard

I fell out

I stand in nowhere
I am right now
You saw me standing
Then I bow

If you want to gain fame
Use your talent, show no shame

If you want to express your feelings
An artist, we know, is very revealing

If you want to help the one's in need
Don't be selfish, share your seeds

If you want to see the future
Science will consume you, I can assure

If you want to travel to different places
Start taking little steps so you can have progress

If you want to see your real purpose and achieve success
Don't be afraid to lose, just give your best

There's a reason why there's present, future, and past
Tenses of verbs proves that nothing can last
It doesn't meant that when he said "I love you" but he left it's fake
It's possible that he really did but it eventually changed

"I love you"
"I loved you"
"I'll love you"

It's never the same

They did it again
"FAT" on my forehead is written

I immediately went home
Tried to tell my mom about how much I'm alone
Mom said "It's fine, just get over with it"
Those words added pain, in less than one minute
I went upstairs and cried till sleep
Knowing the fact that tomorrow it'll all repeat

Highschool for ****'s sake is just a joke
Students tormenting one another is a bad hoax
The ink they put on my body is an example
An example of how our society is not on a good roll
The truth is the marker might symbolize a tough one
But the good imminent things might not be gone

as you try to weave through your words
                                 without bothering to look behind
                                as i breath again the familiar scent
                                thinking 'please, if you don't mind'

if i could just picture a perfect story
                                                           ­        of us last night
                                                           ­                                      intertwined
if you will just let me
                                          for one last time
                                                                            just be blind    

                              but for this particular moment
                                        let me be delusional                                           
                                          let's make a deal

                                           because cliches
                                   fairytales and love stories
                                      **those weren't real

I wish I'm contented
Doesn't want to move from where I'm seated
Appreciating the beauty of mother nature
Saying thank you for what is brought by our culture

I wish I'm contented
Spring, summer, autumn, winter
Observing how the four seasons passed
Not questioning the fact that they won't last

I wish I'm contented
The stars and constellations they made
I wish I can just stare at them at this moment
Appreciating the gift given by the present

I wish I'm contented
But contentment and I aren't meant

I wish I can go to school and earn a degree
I'll find my way to obtain the profession I want to be
One day I'm planning to build a charity
For people who needs help and see how wonderful life can be

I wish I'll be an inspiration
For the little one's who can't find any hope
I wish I'll help them find what they seek
Create their own paths and know they're not weak

I wish to go to different places
Traveling the world at its finest
Together with my friends and family
I'll discover the world's meaning through reality

In not so long distance
I saw her standing there
In front of the classroom
Looking like a shy little girl

First period past
She doesn't talk to anyone
Everybody laughs
Thinking a loser invaded the town

My friends thought she's a dork
I tried to shut my mouth
Going with the flow is how society works
Everybody just wants to fit in the crowd

i tried ignoring everything i had for you
and i had a million reasons to continue to
to keep ignoring what i've always knew
but you said one word and it all blew

Then the day came...
The day when I realize-
I realize that I'm not living anymore-
Jusy trying to survive

...Might not even trying
Just for the future
... Just hoping

i regret not sending the letter
and i am trying to send it to you now
but the fact that i just erased the whole poem i just wrote
i don't think i'm ready
and i am not expecting for you to wait
i am expecting myself to send it
one day
because i am not doing this for you
not anymore
you can go now

My friend, my friend
I'll wait for you, till the end

I have never lost someone important like you
I have never experienced to feel like a blue
Yes, I have expected to be hurt
But no
I don't want you to leave me by this world

We are the fallen stars
Rejected by the night sky
Accepted by the light

Earth became our home
Humans as we're called
Thinking we are special
Though just specks of dust
Falling through the core
Landing on the crust

We used to be out there
Made up galaxies and its parts
We used to bring out light
Now we're just broken little shards

i lost the key
to the treasure chest
of imaginary memories

A raven was searching for her voice
She used to hunt and prey
It is what she was taught
She'll flap her wings so high
Scavenging every one
She wants to badly impress everybody
Nobody appreciates
She didn't stop

Then she met a falcon
Same intelligence, same speed
But falcon knows how to have fun
Raven can't understand
How can someone be victorious but also happy
He taught her how to
He shared with her a playful nature

They laugh for a long time
They became partners in crime
But in time when falcon needs to leave
Still raven doesn't have a voice
He then said to raven

"Stop searching
You already have a voice
The way you fly
The way you think
The way you live
It is what you only need
To be happy, to succeed"

inch by inch
i feel the fire around you
its not warmth but rage and hate

inch by inch
i felt ice burning my fingers
while i tried to hold and touch your soul

inch by inch
i moved further away from you
from cold and glares
from hateful stares

inch by inch you looked at her
inch by inch you left

Blame for a blame
Trust for a trust
The opposite is unacceptable
Simple but unacceptable

How funny it is to care?
To believe something that does not exist
The pain will remain
It'll grow until a scar is etched

Thought it is the right
Cause the feeling felt bright
I swear that it'll stop
**** me if it does not

I
Felt
The
Blade

The one you used to cut me

I
Beg
To
Stop

You didn't, remember?

I
Bled
To
Death

Now you're trying to heal me

Blood
Continued
To
Flow

You killed me, now you know

"Are you mad at us?", he asked.
She look up at him and stare in his soulful eyes. She can see the concern and guilt behind.

"No I'm not", she whispered. "I am not mad at you or her. Actually, I am annoyed at myself because I did, once again, hold onto something that I don't have control over."

"Best friends forever?"
He says forever
With that I conclude-
Bad times won't matter

Walking on sidewalk
Eating icecreams
We talk and talk

I don't have a sibling
He became one
I don't have a friend
I don't care-
I don't need some

With him, nothing else matter
He became my savior
I'd cherish him forever

But in times of contentment
The perfect bliss fades
I don't know what happened

"I'm leaving"
Ok, fine
No worries
No goodbye

I don't know
No one knows

RELIGION

A greatly diverse word
The complexity from each Gods can't be explained

Christianity or Islamic?
Hinduism or Buddhism?
Confucianism or Taoism?

I don't know
No one knows
Which of these is the one?
Which God is the Man?

Each have their own beliefs
Each came from different myths
How the hell would humanity know?
How would a religion shatter every other's ego?

Just what if?
What if Christianity tells the truth?
Would it mean that homosexuality is just a bluff?
Is it just a wrong "choice" and can be cured by having faith in God is enough?

BUT what if?
What if Atheism tells the truth?
What if atheists just have so much strength?
Strength in facing the truth that after we die it will all end?

Until now, evidences are still vague
Even the most religious one had thought this inside their head
What if the world we have now is just an illusion?
No one knows for sure how to cure this confusion

RELIGION

I don't know
No one knows

I looked you in the eye
I listened on your rants
I heard it when you sigh
I love it when you smile

You've never seen me once
No. It's not a lie
But then again...
I looked you in the eye

Oh God, Oh God
I had wished a perfect life

As seeds grow into sprouts
Which dreams were possible
Sprouts into seedlings
When life is started to be filled with doubts

Seedlings into trees
Which when failure starts to crossed our minds
Most expectations tends to be lowered
With the reality which hopes and dreams can't empower

It is then we start to think of another option
For the dreams, we thought when we were seeds
Is cleared and decided to just be wrong notions

BUT, the replacement doesn't mean worse
IT doesn't mean real life is cursed
Imperfect openings can lead to the best endings
Especially if you know victory's worth greetings

Quality has more significance than quantity

Which would you rather choose?

A friend who won't leave you till the end
Or a bunch, talking behind your back as long as they can
A lover which values the word commitment
Or the hoes which pop-ups for the pennies you gave them

Trillions of money which makes you greedy, wanting more
Or a hundred dollar which can help the homeless knocking on your door
30 years of life full of happiness and contentment
Or a hundred though it's filled with chaos and resentment

A prayer from a child filled with uprightness and integrity
Will always be better than a politician creating lists of lies and anomaly

Wipe your tears up darling
Life's imperfections can't just end
Be yourself and please don't hide your feelings
Being true feels better than pretend