I want what I don't have
and have what I don't want
I thought I had what I wanted
But that was just a haunt
A glimpse of what could have been
But was no more than appease
He was only what I made him
Not true, that of a thieve
I speak not of just one
As they all seem quite the same
Tugging at my insecurities
Heart, left full of strain
I've given up so much of me
I don't know what is left
But I want, what i want, ******
so much I'm left bereft
I always thought I'd find 'the one'
The Ying to match my Yang
The one that would set my heart free
Relinquish the tender pang
Yet all I get is heartbreak
With the exception of this one
But it is just a matter of time
Before he says he's finally done
I pick the ones that are temporary,
Believing I don't deserve
Helping them get on their feet
For that I'm good, and serve
But for me, I lie alone at night
Wishing to be loved
The Master of this game I play
Winner!! Winning none
Want desire haunt issues deep love not lost hopeless