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Lost in my Head Apr 2019
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I    just
                want                you               
to                        tell
me                       one
                         god
                       ****
                    simple
            yet
         so
          confu-
          -sing
         thing.

         why
        ?
My first go at shape poetry, doesn’t flow super great but I don’t hate it too much
Lost in my Head Jul 2019
The curses in your name
Pale in comparison
To the love that surrounds you
From my every breath

The memories in my mind
Fade with the likeness
Of a ghost in the nighttime
A phantom of the mist
Wrote this a few weeks back, I like the imagery so here y’all go
Lost in my Head Jun 2020
The voice
Laced with latency
Filling my mind with your agency
Taking my heart to your vacancy
Reminding me occasionally
Feeling your newfound saliency
Your aura has now taken me
I like this one, wrote it in one go so that’s kinda cool
<3
Lost in my Head Aug 2019
<3
.        I just                   Want to
          Be able to show  how I feel for you
         Maybe one day I’ll get the chance
         But hell, maybe I won’t and I’ll
            Just try and make the light die
          Out, just try and get over
        You and everything
         About you that
        Makes me
       Smile
You make me really happy i just don't know what I'm going to do about it
6
Lost in my Head Jun 2020
6
The savior of the strings
The blade that softly stings
There’s a lot here and in short I’m glad that **** is all behind me
Lost in my Head Apr 2019
The beast fell

but it rose again

No matter what was thrown at it

it rose again

Inching further and closer
pushing further back, less room to retreat

I fell

But I rose again
Lost in my Head May 2019
I need to self motivate
Stop the self medicate
Stop the self deprecate
In ways I can’t emulate
I
Just
Need
You
To
Be there for me
Show you care for me
Stop this travesty
I
Just
Need
Love
To help me get through this
I
Just
Need
Love
To push me on
I
Just
Need
Love
To make myself believe
Everything is alright
Tonight
Lost in my Head May 2019
I passed you by
just like that, i just walked away
I had no idea I could pull myself to
And yet I am no longer imprisoned to stay

You looked my way
Just like that, you glanced by me
I hope you see I'm happier without you
I finally feel like I'm running safely free

I'm losing sight of what is real
Not sure what to believe

But I don't want to fall into your snare
I don't want to be all tangled up
Not in your lies
Not in my life
Go away...
Lost in my Head Mar 2019
I sit alone
Taking in the view
Listening to my tune

I look at you
I think of what life would be without you
Then I stop

I look around
At all these people
Who say they care

I look inside
I see a wall being rebuilt
Stronger and less vulnerable

But I guess I’ll just sit
Alone and silent
Listening to my tune
Lost in my Head Jan 2019
My heart is icing over
Yours seems to be to
When I think about tomorrow
What is see I hope is true

My heart is icing over
My love is becoming frozen
Our lives could be forever bonded,
But I am not the one you have chosen

My life seems to have ended
But I'll rise from ashes
My ego I've defended
But still my life crashes

I am trying grasp to answers
On why I'm hurting so badly
But when I look, I see why

Why do I still love you
After all that you have done to me
But when I look, it's still there

There's still a glimpse of hope
In what is left of what we have
I still can't let you go

After all I still love you
Although I never got the chance
To say it to your face

My heart is icing over
My love is becoming frozen
Our lives could be forever bonded,
But I am not the one who you have chosen
Lost in my Head Apr 2019
The blade pushes deeper
And yet I smile
A sick enjoyment
Of torturous pain

The cage is loose
As so the beast
Within from depths
Comes with wounded hide

The gaze unbreaking
The bond unfaltering
The life unending
The pain unbearable

The enjoyment unwavering
Lost in my Head Mar 2019
I’ve hit a barrier
Between good a mediocre
A matter of writing well
And being able to produce

I know it should come from the heart
But call it heart burn
Because I’m burnt out
And can’t say the words I need

You’re rubber I’m night
My words bounce and hide away in the dark
Coming from the shadows
Snaring me like a hunter

And while I’m pulled as a bird from the sky
My doubts flood me
And I just have to ask myself
Is this the life I wanted?
I probably am going to slow down on posting a bit soon, just general stress building up, but I’m all good just gonna lower rate of release soon
Lost in my Head Apr 2019
The feeling of not knowing
Why you are
Or how to show it
Or what to do

This feeling has become a constant
It lurks behind a veil
A mask of confidence
A mirage of knowledge

Help me learn
Help me grown
Assist me in my blooming
Allow me to grow

Give me food
Give me water
Give me life
And give me death
I swear I’m actually not depressed I just write what comes out
Lost in my Head Jul 2019
My phone buzzed and your name popped up
The sweetest message filled my screen
I wish all this was easier

I want to tell you everything, empty myself out
I feel like I’m lying to you every day
Maybe one day it could

I’m tortured by the constant buzz knowing
That I cross your mind
Knowing that I probably have a shot
Knowing I’ll waste it
Gotta love the life of a hopeless romantic
Lost in my Head Apr 2019
We're like chromatics
So close together yet not in tune
We're like fanatics
So busy looking we miss our June

We're so focused on future
We miss what happening around us
We're so focused on the past
We miss the gardens and the flowers

Don't abandon me
Don't leave me alone
Please don't make me
Sit here with myself

We are lonely nightmares
Haunting pasts that will not leave
We are mental warfare
My livelihood you like to reave

Don't abandon me
Don't leave me alone
Please don't make me
Sit here with myself

Sitting in the dark
Your embrace like death takes me over
Wondering where's the spark
Just to hear you scream and lose composure

I want emotion
to feel your breath just one last time
Of pure devotion
to give it all up for my prime

I will take off my mask
just so long as you take off yours
I will show you myself
and all that's kept behind closed doors
please....
My brain is wearing concrete sneakers
It’s laces and tongue a coarse rock
Intertwining through the synapses
Disappearing into thoughts
My brain is wearing concrete sneakers
The sole a cold and lifeless plane
Unmatched from the start
Thrown off the pier of memories
**** I’m back and sadder that ever
Lost in my Head Mar 2019
Have you ever been at your breaking point
Not sure where you’ll end
But the actions and words are telling you different narratives
And you can’t decipher either

When you’re about to fall and crash
And you can’t quite tell what’s going on
But you know what you feel
You just can’t place it

You know when you’re broken
And you’re picking up the pieces
And then you figure out what broke you
And you make yourself stronger than before

You know when you find it
And you leave your armor untended
And then at the last moment of trust
You feel the warm blood drip down your back
Lost in my Head Jun 2019
Sitting here on top of covers
I’m missing every moment
Every waking breath

Slowly watching you before me
I feel something fully new
I cannot place it

I feel like a cover
Something already done
I’m just repeating it

Cover me with love
Like I know you have inside
The type I’ve never been
Hey thanks for all the support recently!! Ummm I’m gonna try and clean out my drafts and actually post some more
Lost in my Head Apr 2019
What do I do
Why the hell do I do what I do
I feel like a train hurtling towards another
Yet doing nothing to stop because I love the thrill of going fast
take me back to when I didn’t care
Dam
Lost in my Head Dec 2020
Dam
There’s so much I wish I could say
But as the dam holds the floodwaters
It shall cease till the day breaks
And the waves finally crash down below
Quick and ***** one
Lost in my Head Feb 2019
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A period
The end
I don’t want it to come
Yet I know it looms over

I don’t know who I mean to be
But I want to move past who I am now

;
A pause
But knowing you’ll continue on
Simply a break from reality
Lost in my Head Jun 2019
I’m never satisfied with you
No matter how much I try and change it I just can’t get a sense of fulfillment
Never wanting to show it
Not wanting anyone to see

I started writing this about my poems
It’s only now I realize it’s about you
Still not sure what I’ll do about it
I guess the world will have to wait and see
It’s been a weird week
Lost in my Head Apr 2019
I miss you...

But what’s the point
I don’t even know who I’m writing about anymore...
Lost in my Head May 2019
I sit here and wish I wasn’t alone

But I don’t want anyone to get close
Lost in my Head Jun 2019
I honestly don’t know what I feel at this point

All I know is that I want it to stop
I don’t even know if anyone reads my stuff anymore
Lost in my Head Jun 2020
I want to feel that way again
But it’s too busy being shadowed by the looming threat of pain again

Nothing feels the same anymore
I wanna throw myself back out there but I don’t think now is the right time
Lost in my Head Apr 2019
Break me down

Leave the rubble

Leave myself to build back up
Hi uhhhh yeah ****’s going south real quick
Lost in my Head Apr 2019
Cares too much

Loved too little
I SWEar I’m ok
Lost in my Head Apr 2019
The grass smiles and grows

Once covered in poison for the bugs
Just because it's meant to harm something else doesn't mean it won't harm you
Lost in my Head Apr 2019
I'm watching the vines pull you down

So intently focusing on the horror ahead of me

I don't notice sinking myself
Lost in my Head Apr 2019
It’s not getting any better

I just tend to keep to myself enough to suffer through
I’ll be ok
Lost in my Head Apr 2019
Maybe if I ramble long enough

I’ll catch someone’s attention

Maybe then I won’t be so lost
Thanks for pretending to care
Lost in my Head Apr 2019
I had so much hope

My hopeful, naive soul shall remain living

Like a brick wall, my impenetrable defense
"That's a lot of damage, let's add some more"
- Phil Swift
Lost in my Head Apr 2019
I finally see why you don’t like me

And while I agree, it’s my life, not yours
Don’t try and change who I am to fit your narrative
Lost in my Head Jun 2019
I keep telling everyone
I’m staying away from dating
Because I can’t control my emotions

But over time I’m pretty sure
It’s truly because
I’m too afraid of getting hurt again
Lost in my Head Feb 2019
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Lost in my Head Jun 2020
This used to be about you

I wiped it all away

Like the rain from a windshield

Your poem, my dismay

And yet with it still gone

And all the memory cleared

You will haunt this poem now

Exactly as I feared
This used to be very different
Lost in my Head Dec 2018
We all feel
Whether it be to others or yourself
Feeling encompasses all
Swaying decisions
Changing us
Hurting us
Saving us
The more we feel the more we learn about ourselves
The more we understand about others
We all feel
Don't hide it from those who should see
Lost in my Head Apr 2019
Be free my lonesome, wandering mind
For you have taken the toll for too long

Be free my aching, pilgrim heart
For you have searched for a lost love too long

Be free my helpless, shaking soul
For you have suffered the cold and dark too long

Be free my crippling, growing fears
For you have crushed me too long

Be free my loving, trembling self
For you have felt this pain too long
Hey things are kinda better, it’s been a good day
Lost in my Head Apr 2019
He thinks she doesn't care

She thinks he cares too much

A big mess of convoluted madness

It's a little bit funny

Is it not?
Lost in my Head Mar 2019
You looked past today
I tried to catch your eye
But when I didn’t
I realized my fault
About a friend who I’m not suuuper close with but close enough, but apparently not
You drag me along
Fields of glass
Pushing my face in the
Shards resembling dirt
To your crystal cliff
Release me down
The spectral drop
Might be beautiful
If it weren’t the end
Man I’ve been going downhill so quickly
Lost in my Head May 2019
I want to be happy again
I guess I’ll just hide behind
My cold eyes
And empty smiles
Looking at you
Under the guise
Of childish hopes
And broken promises
Wow this poem looks like Minnesota
Lost in my Head Apr 2019
I just removed your memory

so full of raw emotion

reminding me of the times

the feeling

your poem

with a button has vanished

maybe I'll regret it in the morning

maybe I won't

maybe I'll ***** the world and run away with myself

or maybe I'll just sit

and think

about what is now

gone.
deleted a poem about someone, hit me hard which kinda shocks me
Lost in my Head Mar 2019
They say the grass is greener
On the other side
We’ve all heard every iteration
Every delineation

So hear my quiet refrain
I will try and repay
Of how I was the first grass
And right by me you passed

A tear of dew runs down
Drifting into the soil
As you went over to the land of green
I hope he brings you to what you dreamed
Lost in my Head Apr 2019
Breathing down my neck
like the truth ****** out from hotel hallways

tears fall by the window
out past the scaffolding of emotion below

a breath of lifeless air
as a boulder falls upon you, and crushes my being

the snap of my heart
when you say things are getting better

the hall's silence
as you see my broken eyes looking upon you

glares falling upon me
as i chose the wrong path yet cannot turn back

the truth becoming free
from the hotel hallway
i think this one is actually pretty good, which doesn't happen too often
Lost in my Head Apr 2019
I'm happy

Your sweet embrace
and your soft lips

The beautiful betrayal
and your brutal pain

Your delicate face
and your deadly tethers

my selfish mistake
and your selfless love
Lost in my Head Feb 2019
I know we aren’t as close
As we used to be
I know we fell apart
Into the sea

I know I should have been better
And done more for you
I know I feel it’s all my fault
But you think the same for you

We push through this abyss
Running from the pain
Hiding from our monsters
Not seeing our true potential

We are our own main hinderance
We hold ourselves back with fear
We keep ourselves innocent
This dark world that we hold far too dear

But through all the pain
Through all the hardship
We pushed through
And made it history
Lost in my Head Feb 2019
You’ve given me hope
Not in the sense I imagined
But  none the less

I feel a sense of calm
Burning in my mind
Taking contol
Taking me away from myself

You give me hope
Your given me dreams
I know what I desire
I know what my heart says is true

You’ve shown me your light
You’ve shown me my life
I brought my own emotions out of my head

I can tell what I want
I know what I need
It’s not what I imagined but it’s here

The answer lies in the next step of our lives
And yet at the start
Keeping me glued together
Yet pulled apart

Why do I feel this way
Oh help me through this hell
You have brought me heaven

I am whole alone yet still broken without the pieces of my brain
Lost in my Head Apr 2019
I sat alone
the train car bouncing
and saw the flash of red

Perhaps if not
I might just be
Going out of my head

However it's true
the crimson blaze
that was set before my eyes

I watched the world
get burned to ash
yet I don't feel surprised

This dreading feel
That pours within
from the depths of my soul

Takes me o'er
And leads my out
assuming all control

As horsemen clad
In various garb
pour from within the flame

I hear a voice
call out to me
so violent and yet so plain

The voice tells me
That I must run
lest I face my doom

Still i'm enticed
To further on
into the smoky fumes

I fall to the ground
my head on the dirt
body and mind both numb

You see my love
the horsemen sang
the end has already come
It's a long one but i think its alright
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