How many poems
have you written that no one
has a chance to read?

6:50 PM
7/11/20

How many times have
you said "why won't my heart stop
beating?" before bed?

6:46 PM
7/11/20

Who left you
so broken that your
eyes now cut deeper than
the sharpest knife?
We are left with such hatred
weighed upon our hearts
and all we can do
is laugh.

Why are we always
looking for love in the wrong
people and places?

6:39 PM
7/11/20

Do you fantasize
about never being heard
of ever again?

6:36 PM
7/11/20

Has anyone tried
to untangle the mess your
heart has endured?

6:33 PM
7/11/20

I am once again
torn between forgiving them
and forgetting them

6:29 PM
7/11/20

You are Virgo,
and I am a Gemini.
I want you to know
that I want you and I.

I do not belong
to a person nor a place
nor to anything

6:16 PM
7/11/20

How long has it been
since you felt the butterflies
flying from within?

3:49 PM
5/11/20

The stars still tell me
stories about you and I'm
so glad I listened

3:57 PM
2/11/20

We all have demons,
but only some of us try
to hide them away

3:57 PM
29/10/20

I can't keeping living
like there's a nightmare behind
every last corner

3:57 PM
28/10/20

The greatest men are
the most alone... at least that's
what I tell myself

9:20 PM
27/10/20

Loneliness is a
prison and I am serving
a life time sentence

9:22 PM
27/10/20

The sharp claws you hide
beneath your tender fingers
do not frighten me

4:06 PM
26/10/20

I do not need you,
I think I just need to not
need you anymore

11:02 AM
24/10/20

It is not death that
worries me, it's the moments
that come before it

5:05 PM
20/10/20

The nights
are growing darker
and the waves
are getting rougher
Surrounded by
darkness and disarray,
I make my haven
in this boat built for two.
This love is an ocean
beneath a sky of uncertainty-
it consumes us night after night.
But, together,
we take this voyage-
just me and you.

Like lavender,
this world is a brighter place
because of your beauty
and your grace.
Like lavender,
there is something about you,
so wild yet so soft,
that gets me through.
Like lavender,
you have a scent so divine,
and I have been blessed
to call it mine.

My relationship
with you is like that
of the sunflowers
and moon-
always distant
and dying in the absence
of your light.

I never liked the
smell of tea tree until I
smelt it in her hair

8:32 PM
19/10/20

I wonder if the lavender
yearn for her scent
whenever she's not present.

I wonder if the sunflowers
crave her little light
like the sun every night.

I wonder if the roses
envy her beauty
that captivated me.

stop carrying the
baggage of the past to an
unwritten future

6:31 PM
8/10/20

I don't hate you,
I hate what you did.
I hate the person you turned into
because I know that's not you.
I can forgive the person-
always the person,
but the actions
I can't forget.

We sat there in silence,
side by side,
hand in hand,
letting the crimson sunset
pour out its last waves of light.
Let it cleanse us of our
misery and hardship.
Tonight is about us, dear,
nothing else is real-
let time stand still.

I wish there was
another ending to
our story because
this isn’t one I ever wanted to read.
We are both to blame for  
this final chapter and
I am sorry it had
to end this way.

Dear diary;
and dear heart;
you broke your promise
when you beat for her
again.

I am calm and swell
but also a storm that
will never burn out

8:07 PM
1/10/20

You are the one that
my heart, my pen and paper
always talk about

6:07 PM
1/10/20

I don't know
what happened to Andri.
She was too good for this world-
few are.
I hope she is doing well,
wherever life took her
and I hope that she found the
anarcho-communist commune
she had always
desired.

I'm having
conversations
inside my head.
Whoever lives in there
hates me too.

We try so hard to
be perfect even though it
crushes us inside

4:02 PM
23/9/20

If I am a song,
you are the rhythm to my melody.
As for the lyrics,
they are written in a language
that only you could understand.

Happy?
No, not quite.
These days,
I'd say I'm more content.
Yeah,
content,
I like the sound of that.

Memories are traps-
look to the future and start
all over again

2:31 AM
20/9/20

We eat our shadows
so that nothing else can hurt
us ever again

12:17 PM
19/9/20

No one ever told
me that I was the villain
of my own story

7:42 AM
18/9/20

I'm still reading
the book she gave me
for Christmas.
Bukowski-
it's as good as you'd expect.
So why is it taking me
this long to finish?

Where is my peace
after burning your name
and all the memories it held?
Where is my peace
after drowning the love
that still remained?
After all that's said and done,
where is my peace of mind?
Where is my peace?

Remember all the
good times you had and all the
things you hoped to be?

11:16 PM
14/9/20

Hold my beating heart,
it's the only piece of me
I still live without

3:59 PM
12/9/20

Angry?
No,
just disappointed.
Are we good?
No,
but I wish we could have
figured things out.
I thought we were better than this.

our roots were tangled
beneath the soil but our
petals never grew

8:08 PM
11/9/20

Every smile,
every touch
and every word
we ever shared were
poems unto themselves.

Shakira on the radio,
a gin and tonic or maybe four.
The night is young, baby,
and we aren't
getting any older.

You deserve to win
the Nobel Peace Prize
for bringing peace to this heart.
It has known nothing
but war and disarray
for far too long.
Thank you.

I don’t owe
anyone my respect.
respect must be earned,
not assumed.
Don't trust anyone who says
that they respect you-
I need to see that
in action.

You’re all I have left
it’s the worst kind of theft
to lose a portion of your soul

I search and I search
from Pluto to church
Without you I’ll never feel whole

You are
no longer here,
but just knowing that
we share the same sky
is good enough
because those shooting stars
carry the wishes from
me to you.