the warm wind filled her dreams, while she dreamt of what she was missing
her eyes shined
and her cheeks blotched
the stars whisper a soft hello in her mind.
her hair gently floated,
the breeze playing with her locks
the beasts in her head nuzzle softly against her skull
tired
she watches the stars
guarding them in their slumber
collecting her crystal tears
to make a chandelier
her shadow twirls in the dandelions
catching fireflies underneath the violet sky
stitched together
as a blanket for the night.

soft blonde hair
plush kisses on my cheek
fingers tracing circles
at the edge of the creek
confessions
and blushing cheeks
wiping tears
fixing the leaks
lips on skin
gentle heat
a warm summer day
with a love so sweet

Lashes

Soft like petals

Eyes

Likes cloudy stones

Covered in soft soil

I like to watch you

Dreams like clouds

And roses

And rain

I think

You are pretty

And I like to watch

Your hands move

Your pencil,

Making

Your eyes, moving

I like to watch

listen to the sounds
the sound of my breath
the sound of my heart
the sound of my whispers
watch the world
as it slowly spins
the fireflies in the dark
the moon with her eyes closed
the shadows dancing

Water rushes down from the fall, cool and clear.
I drink my fill, hoping to forget.
Hoping to forget you.
I don’t want to, but I have to.
If I want to make it.
If I want to survive.
I sit down under the water, letting it rush over my skin.
The water pools down and flows across the stream.
My memories of you are already fading,
Your smile. Your laugh. Your eyes.
They simply fade.
I calm down as my mind get clearer and clearer.
I have to do this.
The water pounds against my skull, but the sound is soothing.
It fades more quickly.
From when I first met you, when you spoke to me for the first time.
When I left for a long time, and when I found you there, waiting for me.
“I have to do this.” I told myself.
But the tears running down my face told my brain otherwise.
They blended with the water and surrounded me.
Then, you were gone.
Just like that.
You were gone.

vapor
in the air
as he breathed out
and i breathed in
the taste of watermelon
lingering on my tongue

**** makes you happy
**** makes everything okay
It solves all your problems

i think there are too many colors.
what if
love was a color.
sad.
angry.
lonely.
love would be such a pretty color.

but then
would love be a "girl color"
and anger, a "boy color"

would little girls
fall in love with little boys
who are filled to the brim
with toxicity.
or little girls shunned,
for wanting love

or would love
be love.
without limits.
and anger
is temporary.

i think
that if you looked up from the sky
you would see so many colors
because every person
is so colorful
with love
and anger
and sad.
and lonely.

heartbeats
and starry eyes
what would love be
without you
lips
linger
touch
is tender
what would love be
without you

smile = speechless

touch = almost unconscious

laugh = warmth

voice = melting

What is it you want
Despite what I try to think
I know it's not me

When I die
I want
Roses to bloom
From beneath my grave
Violets and blue-bells
And emerald grass
Blooms in my memory
Is all that I ask
Daisies
And Daffodils
Poppies
And pink -petaled lilies
Ruby-like flowers
Amethyst strokes
Perhaps pearls
Scattered
I'm my resting place
Would be lovely
When
I
Die

feelings rise above the surface
bubbling up into my throat
sweet nothings form in my brain
my lips ache for yours
my heart beats fast
and the world spins slowly
i can't help but look at you
eyes like oceans
i could drown
an imperfectionist's perfect smile
when i see you

When you laugh
I feel like I've done what I was meant to do
When you speak
It's like listening to my favorite song on a loop
When you move
It's like watching a wave dance
When you look at me
My heart rises like a hot air balloon
When you say goodbye
My heart aches for more

Who am I
At the end of the day
Who am I, really?
No one,
But a desperate child
Waiting on their not-so-lover
No one,
But a lost girl
Who misses her brother
And her mother
And the father she never had
Some one
Who breaks their own heart
Each
And every
Day
Who are you?
But the one who once held me
Like I was the only thing left for you
Who are you, really?
But the glue
Holding my frail wings together
But the sweetness in my mouth
When my body starts to hunger
But the shine in my eyes
When I finally cry
You are everything
Except mine

I want to walk with you

Until everything’s gone

The scent of lavender

After my heart was drawn.

Covered in your name

And misty clouds.

The touch of your hands,

Lips on my skin.

It takes me a while

To sink it all in.

My blood is blue

My love is red

Thoughts of you float

In circles in my head.

Butterflies are restless,

No words left to say.

Nothing but thoughts of you,

left in my brain.

If I die,

Then darling stay awake.

Don’t forget me,

I wanted to give you all the love you could take.

talking to you
through your window
while you face me
on your bed
visions of sweet kisses
dance around in my head
lips so soft like velvet
gently touching mine
tell me why it is
i think about you all the time

In a flash of silent thunder
You appeared like an angel
The rain wetting your hair
Sticking to your face
Your wings were made of light
Void of liquid
No feathers to be matted by precipitation
You cast upon me your gentle gaze of stone like jade
Your white gown was weighed down by nothing but water from the clouds
There was no sun to brighten the planet
You lit up the entire earth by simply being
My heart falters as I think back to that moment
You fell to the ground, wings dimming as the moon rose
I had fallen to my knees
In awe of the beauty of dying seraphim
Tears mingled with the sobbing of the sky
I didn't dare to come any closer
But I could hear your sweet words
Poetry sang in my ears
Love songs told stories of a life I would never know
Until that point
I had thought I understood what it meant to live
But I could never truly live
Nor could I understand

I like to make wishes.
Sometimes,
when the time is right.
11:11
2:22
Dandelions,
are also
an excellent source of wishes.
Occasionally,
fallen eyelashes
flutter down,
and I blow them from my fingertips.
The clasp
or a necklace
touches the charm.
How
do you make wishes?

Don't you wish you were good enough?

hands on my waist
listen to our favorite song
lips pressed together
smile against yours all night long
fireflies on your car
wishing on every star
that this could last forever
holding on to this
a special kind of bliss
i'll be there whenever
lie beside you in the morning
golden light on your face
all these things about you
i'd never erase
the taste of you
i never knew
that'd we get this far
there are things that i still chase
i hate the look on your face
when i show you my scars
you're so gorgeous
i could never say it enough
you know i'm weak without you
but i'll try to stay tough

I love the way you smile
And I'd like to stay a while
But it's really hard to know
If I should stay or I should go
If I should love you even more
Or if I should let you go

I love you
I think I need you
I don't believe you
When you took speak
Your mind

Say you love me
Even if you don't
Say you want me
Promise you won't be alone

Darling I wish you would stay
Darling I'm going insane
Darling we're playing a game
Darling love me without shame

words don't mean much to you

but they mean the world to me

hold me
i know i say it too much
love me
i'm not afraid of your touch
im scared
that i'll never be enough
i'm starving
for a taste of your love

he said our story was over
and that it had to end
i said i wanted us to have a sequel
he said we already did
i keep reading it over again
tears smearing the ink
as i feel his presence fade
my heart begins to shrink
i started out running out of black
so i decided to use red
no more fluid midnight
i used my blood instead
my pen is sharp
right at the tip
liquid ruby
pooling at my wrists
looping letter
fancy scrawl
sobs escaping my throat
as salty tears fall
i wrote in cursive
i wrote it every day
but even the brilliant crimson
couldn't make him stay

acid
dripping
bodies
writhing
worms
crawling
in my lungs
bones
breaking
eyes
shaking
nails
scratching
my flesh

there isn't a star
brighter than you
a rose
softer
than your lips
a cloud
lighter
than my heart when
you look at me
there isn't a place
that we could go
that could take my eyes
off you

The sun was going down
And you had your hand in mine
We were laying down
And watching the sky
Pink
Lilac
Midnight blue
But none of those colors
Were as pretty as you
You turned over
And placed your lips on mine
They were soft
Like petals
Gently pressing
Your hands
Skimmed my body
Tracing
Causing friction
My heart fluttering
Face flushing like the sky
Running my hands through your hair
You leaned in
And you whispered
"You are mine."

You said
You didn't
I cried
You didn't
You promised
I didn't
You died
I didn't

if i held your heart
in my hands
i would kiss it
and hold it to my chest
i would give
you mine
and all
of my time
and i wish
you'd hold
me dearly

i want to taste it
i want to taste your pride
i want to feel it
firm in my mouth
i want to feel it against my tongue
to taste it's fruit
smooth like cream
i want to feel it my hands
to caress it gently
hard against my fingertips
to feel your pride
soft against my lips
would be undeniably
heavenly

And I heard
Your song

"Angel
Fly me above"

You say

"Lovely heart"

And my heart blushes

"You deserve better"

And I feel more than ever

"But dream on, my darling. We will get there some day."