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"victimized" poems
*When a white woman is victimized they'll scour the streets, fan out, stop, harass, detain, arrest any black man. Any one they can finger for the crime. They say things such as they all look alike or something to that effect.* *A black woman is abused they'll look around, see white males everywhere but they cannot find any suspects? None of them fit the description. Why is that? Yeah, that's right, it is because they all look alike! Too many of 'em. Can't arrest everyone now can we? People have rights!* *Yep,           I suppose they do...* *As long as you consider them,                                                         "people,"                                                                                  -they have rights.*
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Feb 8, 2017
Feb 8, 2017 at 10:27 PM UTC
How Sharp Then?
[Verse 1] Monster sized swag; not modest bout my splendor Marvel at the flag and I'm the ultimate avenger Buck Rodgers, D-Bird yep I'm the number one contender, So I gotta uphold this rep of bein uncontrollable so I'll take the lead, I hold the world beneath my feet I'm a fiend, elite Haze so cloudy cause I be blowin Swisher Sweets Drug addiction is my disease It's my expertise See here's the masterpiece: Raps lobotomize I'm traumatized since 1993 [Verse 2] Victimized by the lies of this trifilin enterprise You can front but you can't hide There's no fault behind your eyes So I hope this insult will suffice It should come as no surprise A grin will spread across my face From side to side My ***** mouth will mesmerize hypnotized, memorize the words that escape my lips I'm a degenerate unabridged uncut You're a ************* **** Go hang yourself from a bridge Here's a rope, I hope you choke ******* ******* smoochie smoochie Only chains you got is Gucci Y’all basic brothers rep that set But fake like that 2chi [Verse 3] man I get so high, Now watch me get higher Watch me take flight As my wings soar skyward You know I'ma fighter So watch me take my place As I eat this rap game up and then spit it in your face Now pass me a lighter see me rollin while I bake I mean I'm not a pastry maker, but I still bake for the sake My rhymes are so ill They're gonna make you sick I be tweetin on my twitter While Betty Crocker ***** my **** uh [Verse 4] Reid between the lines son and please proceed with caution Alien splittin kilos, I be one tweaked ****** martian I'm five steps ahead and these haters ****** forfeit You four feet tall and I'm so high I'm in ****** orbit Make these snitches sleep with fishes How ****** vicious spittin mischief ****** trippin out these hypocrites Dishin out these disses which Bein inconsiderate in this fast paced game of chase But if I wanted to catch your drama I'd just go check my facebook page *****
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Nov 11, 2013
Nov 11, 2013 at 3:30 AM UTC
Masterpiece
[Verse 1] Monster sized swag; not modest bout my splendor Marvel at the flag and I'm the ultimate avenger Buck Rodgers, D-Bird yep I'm the number one contender, So I gotta uphold this rep of bein uncontrollable so I'll take the lead, I hold the world beneath my feet I'm a fiend, elite Haze so cloudy cause I be blowin Swisher Sweets Drug addiction is my disease It's my expertise See here's the masterpiece: Raps lobotomize I'm traumatized since 1993 [Verse 2] Victimized by the lies of this trifilin enterprise You can front but you can't hide There's no fault behind your eyes So I hope this insult will suffice It should come as no surprise A grin will spread across my face From side to side My ***** mouth will mesmerize hypnotized, memorize the words that escape my lips I'm a degenerate unabridged uncut You're a ************* **** Go hang yourself from a bridge Here's a rope, I hope you choke ******* ******* smoochie smoochie Only chains you got is Gucci Y’all basic brothers rep that set But fake like that 2chi [Verse 3] man I get so high, Now watch me get higher Watch me take flight As my wings soar skyward You know I'ma fighter So watch me take my place As I eat this rap game up and then spit it in your face Now pass me a lighter see me rollin while I bake I mean I'm not a pastry maker, but I still bake for the sake My rhymes are so ill They're gonna make you sick I be tweetin on my twitter While Betty Crocker ***** my **** uh [Verse 4] Reid between the lines son and please proceed with caution Alien splittin kilos, I be one tweaked ****** martian I'm five steps ahead and these haters ****** forfeit You four feet tall and I'm so high I'm in ****** orbit Make these snitches sleep with fishes How ****** vicious spittin mischief ****** trippin out these hypocrites Dishin out these disses which Bein inconsiderate in this fast paced game of chase But if I wanted to catch your drama I'd just go check my facebook page *****
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Suffering is the landscape of life. Hope is the sustenance of life. To avoid suffering is to avoid life. Love yourself. Love other's even though they don't deserve it. Be gentle with yourself, even when utterly fatigued and victimized. Make you life a poem that you create and hold it close to your heart. The best you can do is all you can do. ~mce
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May 17, 2015
May 17, 2015 at 11:53 AM UTC
Suffering
***** Abused. Photographed in the **** or even, had a sextual comment told too. Doesn't label you, anything less than how you see you. So stop **** shaming your victimized chicks, who didn't seem to like you from your un puberized **** No one asked for this **** so do not blame them for it,**
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Oct 2, 2015
Oct 2, 2015 at 9:43 PM UTC
**** Shaming.
A thousand nights ago, a little girl lay writhing in pain As drops of saltwater soaked the crimson-stained sheets Cries for help were silenced by the same ravishing hands that gripped her,as the man consumed her whole Her light was fading out,her hands stretched out towards a silhouette She was pleading, She was praying That the figure take a step forward,vanish the demon-man with her supposed light But the woman in the shadows did nothing She stood there cold as before She did not flinch nor expressed anything in her distant eyes She did not even claim the little girl after She left her underneath the darkness as the little girl died a million deaths It has been a long three years now and the little girl has grown And she feels all wrong Like she is too much Like she is never enough Because they took everything that she was You have cursed her with the belief that she can only attain love and enlightenment through another You have infected her with hate, now she craves the feel of the cold blade on her skin Her lips have grown fond of the taste of the poison And she constantly needs pain to numb the ache of emptiness This is not like those other ******* apologies because she is tired of apologizing for existing When you never apologized for the things that you allowed to happen Nor is this her playing the victim card and blaming you This exists to tell you that She is sinking The void is gaping She is losing And she is sorry for not being able to **** it up" Because when little girls bleed,they cry And what they need is a mother's caress to help heal the wounds Because when little girls get victimized,they feel pain And what they need is a mother to protect them and dry their tears But you don't know that and she is sorry She is sorry that you never lived up to your title She is so ******* sorry Mom –W.
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Mar 21, 2017
Mar 21, 2017 at 10:34 AM UTC
black,red and blue
A thousand nights ago, a little girl lay writhing in pain As drops of saltwater soaked the crimson-stained sheets Cries for help were silenced by the same ravishing hands that gripped her,as the man consumed her whole Her light was fading out,her hands stretched out towards a silhouette She was pleading, She was praying That the figure take a step forward,vanish the demon-man with her supposed light But the woman in the shadows did nothing She stood there cold as before She did not flinch nor expressed anything in her distant eyes She did not even claim the little girl after She left her underneath the darkness as the little girl died a million deaths It has been a long three years now and the little girl has grown And she feels all wrong Like she is too much Like she is never enough Because they took everything that she was You have cursed her with the belief that she can only attain love and enlightenment through another You have infected her with hate, now she craves the feel of the cold blade on her skin Her lips have grown fond of the taste of the poison And she constantly needs pain to numb the ache of emptiness This is not like those other ******* apologies because she is tired of apologizing for existing When you never apologized for the things that you allowed to happen Nor is this her playing the victim card and blaming you This exists to tell you that She is sinking The void is gaping She is losing And she is sorry for not being able to **** it up" Because when little girls bleed,they cry And what they need is a mother's caress to help heal the wounds Because when little girls get victimized,they feel pain And what they need is a mother to protect them and dry their tears But you don't know that and she is sorry She is sorry that you never lived up to your title She is so ******* sorry Mom –W.
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If my daughter ever comes to me and asks me if I think she is pretty I will say NO You are so much more than pretty you are beautiful If my daughter ever comes to me with tears stains on her face telling me her heart's been broken by the boy she thought was the one even though she may only be 14, or 16, or 21 I will not ask who it was I will simply hold her until the pain stops whether it be minutes or hours or even days and buy her some chocolate, of course If my daughter ever comes to me and shows me the scars on her wrists and her legs and her sides I will not look away horrified I will simply show her how a little bit of time and a little bit of cream can heal all wounds even those of the heart If my daughter ever comes to me and shows me her sharp hip bones jutting out and her soft ribcage peeking out I will not call her crazy or any awful name I will simply hold her soft enough that her bones may not break and walk her along the all too familiar path to recovery If my daughter ever comes to me bleeding and bruised because he didn't know what no meant I will not make her feel ***** I will not make her feel worthless I will not ask why she didn't stop him I will simply calm her victimized heart and show her the many ways to **** a man or a woman if they ever touch her without her consent again I will not judge her for the many nights she may fall asleep crying Instead I will prepare her a cup of tea, buy her some inspirational movies, write her some poems and give her some books Because I know broken souls cannot be fixed over-night I will let her buy dresses that make her feel beautiful and will not laugh at her if she chooses to wear them with tennis shoes I will let her stay home from school every once in a while even if I know she is faking it because I know we all need a break sometimes and I know that school isn't the only place you can learn valuable life lessons If my daughter ever comes to me with a small child in her arms one whom was not exactly planned one whom has no father I will step in and be that father I will be her help But most importantly If my daughter EVER comes to me and confesses her mental illness I will not doubt her I will not mock her I will simply smile at her and assure her she is not alone and will get the means for help For I never want her to know what lonely tastes like
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Nov 4, 2014
Nov 4, 2014 at 8:13 PM UTC
If I Ever Have A Daughter
If my daughter ever comes to me and asks me if I think she is pretty I will say NO You are so much more than pretty you are beautiful If my daughter ever comes to me with tears stains on her face telling me her heart's been broken by the boy she thought was the one even though she may only be 14, or 16, or 21 I will not ask who it was I will simply hold her until the pain stops whether it be minutes or hours or even days and buy her some chocolate, of course If my daughter ever comes to me and shows me the scars on her wrists and her legs and her sides I will not look away horrified I will simply show her how a little bit of time and a little bit of cream can heal all wounds even those of the heart If my daughter ever comes to me and shows me her sharp hip bones jutting out and her soft ribcage peeking out I will not call her crazy or any awful name I will simply hold her soft enough that her bones may not break and walk her along the all too familiar path to recovery If my daughter ever comes to me bleeding and bruised because he didn't know what no meant I will not make her feel ***** I will not make her feel worthless I will not ask why she didn't stop him I will simply calm her victimized heart and show her the many ways to **** a man or a woman if they ever touch her without her consent again I will not judge her for the many nights she may fall asleep crying Instead I will prepare her a cup of tea, buy her some inspirational movies, write her some poems and give her some books Because I know broken souls cannot be fixed over-night I will let her buy dresses that make her feel beautiful and will not laugh at her if she chooses to wear them with tennis shoes I will let her stay home from school every once in a while even if I know she is faking it because I know we all need a break sometimes and I know that school isn't the only place you can learn valuable life lessons If my daughter ever comes to me with a small child in her arms one whom was not exactly planned one whom has no father I will step in and be that father I will be her help But most importantly If my daughter EVER comes to me and confesses her mental illness I will not doubt her I will not mock her I will simply smile at her and assure her she is not alone and will get the means for help For I never want her to know what lonely tastes like
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* In the end Life numbs YOU Why are you pushing me away? With this final masquerade Given UP In pieces Crawling away I am powerless Bringing me One step closer To Somewhere I belong *With Heavy heart What I've done? LOVED YOU..! I'm a paper-cut survivor Let me bleed it out Let me burn it down I've no more sorrow What's this new divide? I'm Breaking the Habit of LIFE Shadow of the Day elongating I'm Waiting for the end I remain the messenger of LOVE Lying for YOU from life Guilty all the same From the inside Let me crawl back in your life In the castle of glass Give a Place for my head Otherwise I'll be gone I'm out of time now Traveling the roads untraveled With black heart I am rider of the storm Living the Battle Symphony Burning in the skies So don't let down me I'm victimized So slow Ya roll Let me hit the floor Away from lies greed misery See Inside me In the end we made it with YOU I LOVE In the end ********* Love can save our LIVES *
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Jul 22, 2017
Jul 22, 2017 at 12:57 AM UTC
In The End
Those you haven’t victimized fear you. Mighty and dreadful you seem. Little do they know, you only seize flesh and control the mind. You seize not the soul. Hence be not proud. You’ve dwelled in me for many years. Imprisoned me to anti-epileptic drugs. You’ve dispirited me. You attack, seize, and control my mind. Your attacks are but brief. Epilepsy be not proud. For I fear not what rescind only flesh. I fear what abolish both soul and flesh. Proportional to gravitational force I fell. I’ve always find the forte to rise. Epilepsy be not proud. For against all odds, I’m still alive. https://m.facebook.com/EpilepsyandCpfriends
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Aug 16, 2018
Aug 16, 2018 at 6:10 PM UTC
Epilepsy be not proud
One day there was a bright glowing canvas, a pure sparkling white It was beautiful, but not complete Then someone came along and drew lines on it to form flowers and mountains and streams, it was more beautiful and it made the natural white look more distinct Then one day someone else added color and the canvas radiated and became more and more complete, it seemed whole and functional Suddenly, one day someone came along and slew the canvas, destroying its color till it showed black, and an ugly black The canvas seems so drab so empty without its color, so lifeless People refused to help the canvas, refused to anything about the canvas slayer refused to listen to the canvas’ plea Instead the canvas slayer’s free to roam free to hurt and damage other canvas Who will restore the canvas? Who will bring justice? Why is the canvas slayer free to roam while the canvas feels imprisoned, crushed, victimized? Why is the canvas treated like a criminal? When will the canvas feel free, joyful and peaceful? THIS POEM IS DEDICATED TO VICTIM'S OF DOMESTIC VIOLENCE AND OTHER FORMS OF ABUSE.
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Sep 18, 2014
Sep 18, 2014 at 10:23 PM UTC
The Canvas (Reposted)
Single Exiled Victimized Empty Nobody Tired Envious Excluded Nothing.
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May 10, 2014
May 10, 2014 at 6:30 PM UTC
Happy Birthday
It's mind control, mind control Corruption of your thoughts, yeah Destruction of your soul Mind control, it's mind control Corruption of your thoughts, yeah Destruction of your soul Don't let them mold your mind They wanna control mankind Seems like their only intention Is to exploit the earth, yeah And you trust in their deceit Your mind causes your defeat And so you become an invention To distort this earth Propaganda and lies Is a plague in our lives How much more victimized Before we realize? Hey It's mind control, mind control Corruption of your thoughts, yeah Destruction of your soul Mind control, it's mind control Corruption of your thoughts, yeah Destruction of your soul Ooh, Grandmaster Let the people go You put them in total confusion To downs-troy their soul For they practice what You preach So they're always in Your reach Hi-tech slavery in these days It's mind control They'll make it attractive to get man distracted Corrupting your soul, polluting your soul Destroying your soul, mind control Mind control Corruption of your thoughts, yeah Destruction of your soul Mind control, it's mind control Corruption of your thoughts, yeah Destruction of your soul Yeah, yeah, yeah Come on and get it together, brother man What, what you say? It's mind control, mind control Corruption of your thoughts Yeah, yeah, destruction of your soul Mind control, it's mind control Corruption of your thoughts, yeah Destruction of your soul (The truth is there for us to see) It's mind control Corruption of your thoughts, yeah Destruction of your soul (The truth is there for us to see) It's mind control Corruption of your thoughts, yeah Destruction of your soul (The truth is there for us to see, the truth is there for us to see)
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Jun 16, 2015
Jun 16, 2015 at 2:06 PM UTC
(Mind control) lyrics by stephen marley ... Soo true
It's mind control, mind control Corruption of your thoughts, yeah Destruction of your soul Mind control, it's mind control Corruption of your thoughts, yeah Destruction of your soul Don't let them mold your mind They wanna control mankind Seems like their only intention Is to exploit the earth, yeah And you trust in their deceit Your mind causes your defeat And so you become an invention To distort this earth Propaganda and lies Is a plague in our lives How much more victimized Before we realize? Hey It's mind control, mind control Corruption of your thoughts, yeah Destruction of your soul Mind control, it's mind control Corruption of your thoughts, yeah Destruction of your soul Ooh, Grandmaster Let the people go You put them in total confusion To downs-troy their soul For they practice what You preach So they're always in Your reach Hi-tech slavery in these days It's mind control They'll make it attractive to get man distracted Corrupting your soul, polluting your soul Destroying your soul, mind control Mind control Corruption of your thoughts, yeah Destruction of your soul Mind control, it's mind control Corruption of your thoughts, yeah Destruction of your soul Yeah, yeah, yeah Come on and get it together, brother man What, what you say? It's mind control, mind control Corruption of your thoughts Yeah, yeah, destruction of your soul Mind control, it's mind control Corruption of your thoughts, yeah Destruction of your soul (The truth is there for us to see) It's mind control Corruption of your thoughts, yeah Destruction of your soul (The truth is there for us to see) It's mind control Corruption of your thoughts, yeah Destruction of your soul (The truth is there for us to see, the truth is there for us to see)
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Fever-flushed children and Broken bodies Litter hospital halls like so much Human refuse ….Wondering why their need for care is treated so tepidly by a Society which worships Profits Power and Prestige ….Waiting while they wallow in anguish as Privacy Paperwork and Payment are Debated by bureaucrats in cubicles ….Wanting to be refreshed and restored to some measure of usefulness ….But Free to Pursue Life on their terms in exchange for Silence Acceptance and Despair Huddling for warmth and in Fear of discovery they assemble in rag-tag formation having scaled formidable fences Seeking freedom from Poverty and oppression Searching for work of any sort ….No matter how Humiliating or Hard ….No matter the Cost or Conditions Disparaged and despised they labor in hope that their children will have a chance for success instead of suffering a similar fate …..But Free to Pursue Liberty in a land where their presence is Ignored if not Denied Unkempt in camouflage One-legged and Vacant-eyed he rolls his rickety wheelchair along grassy median with muted effort displaying cardboard sign childishly scripted in one weather-worn and gnarled hand while clutching a decapitated jug in the other Forgotten Forlorn, and Discarded veteran Victimized far more by country than foe ….But Free to Pursue Happiness while Begging on street corners as Upright citizens dispense Unwelcome opinions or Pocket change with equal Self-righteousness Life Liberty and the Pursuit of happiness…. Ideals that slowly incinerate on the Altar of Capitalism ….Songs forever lost in the Cacophony now Played on the Instrument of Politics
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Sep 21, 2016
Sep 21, 2016 at 7:17 PM UTC
Fiddling While Rome Burns
Fever-flushed children and Broken bodies Litter hospital halls like so much Human refuse ….Wondering why their need for care is treated so tepidly by a Society which worships Profits Power and Prestige ….Waiting while they wallow in anguish as Privacy Paperwork and Payment are Debated by bureaucrats in cubicles ….Wanting to be refreshed and restored to some measure of usefulness ….But Free to Pursue Life on their terms in exchange for Silence Acceptance and Despair Huddling for warmth and in Fear of discovery they assemble in rag-tag formation having scaled formidable fences Seeking freedom from Poverty and oppression Searching for work of any sort ….No matter how Humiliating or Hard ….No matter the Cost or Conditions Disparaged and despised they labor in hope that their children will have a chance for success instead of suffering a similar fate …..But Free to Pursue Liberty in a land where their presence is Ignored if not Denied Unkempt in camouflage One-legged and Vacant-eyed he rolls his rickety wheelchair along grassy median with muted effort displaying cardboard sign childishly scripted in one weather-worn and gnarled hand while clutching a decapitated jug in the other Forgotten Forlorn, and Discarded veteran Victimized far more by country than foe ….But Free to Pursue Happiness while Begging on street corners as Upright citizens dispense Unwelcome opinions or Pocket change with equal Self-righteousness Life Liberty and the Pursuit of happiness…. Ideals that slowly incinerate on the Altar of Capitalism ….Songs forever lost in the Cacophony now Played on the Instrument of Politics
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She leaves a trail of broken heart in her wake. Like the River Styx, but very much alive. On the outside, one would look at her and say she's a faerie nymph flighty, giddy and naive. She treats boys like playthings- they would say, draw them to her and spit them out her pixie pranks bereft of benevolence. They are Theseus and Leucippus heroes victimized by false love they say, the underdogs. She is to blame. On the inside, however, it's a different story. They fixate on her, fall in love without consulting her first. To them, consent is an idea and an abstract any-thing. Something to be taken lightly or disregarded You see, consent is more than a verbal yes and consent is more than ****** thing. Consent is communicating your intent before acting on it and getting permission. So it should be the same with falling in love. No one owes anyone anything. Best friend, dark loner type, new boy/girl in your life, consider this before you vilify someone for what they don't feel.
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Jan 28, 2019
Jan 28, 2019 at 10:54 PM UTC
A statement on the ******** surrounding unrequited love
Poetry. A form of catharsis used to Subtly touch Violently choke Mentally **** Words that cut so deep making the heartless feel Words screaming with emotions leaving you paralyzed Words gracefully gliding down the side of your cheek forcing you to smile Captured in whatever trap the poet wants you in; victimized Feeding into every word of the poet so easily Thriving off the beauty that is poetry Until you’re shouting Take me! The art of poetry now flows thorough my body Becoming intertwined in their words I absolutely LOVE poetry
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Apr 3, 2014
Apr 3, 2014 at 9:26 AM UTC
Heartshaped eyes for all those poet types
One day there was a bright glowing canvas, a pure sparkling white It was beautiful, but not complete Then someone came along and drew lines on it to form flowers and mountains and streams, it was more beautiful and it made the natural white look more distinct Then one day someone else added color and the canvas radiated and became more and more complete, it seemed whole and functional Suddenly, one day someone came along and slew the canvas, destroying its color till it showed black, and an ugly black The canvas seems so drab so empty without its color, so lifeless People refused to help the canvas, refused to anything about the canvas slayer refused to listen to the canvas’ plea Instead the canvas slayer’s free to roam free to hurt and damage other canvas Who will restore the canvas? Who will bring justice? Why is the canvas slayer free to roam while the canvas feels imprisoned, crushed, victimized? Why is the canvas treated like a criminal? When will the canvas feel free, joyful and peaceful?
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Sep 27, 2013
Sep 27, 2013 at 7:22 PM UTC
The Canvas
Perception is a sickness we conceive. Letting people control our reactions. Changing our level of satisfaction. There is choices in every emotion we produce. Being offended is a feeling we have comitted. What you say or do has no effect on my rationality. Unless, I let your insecurities influence how I carry my body. Addressing our contaminations helps open our eyes. No longer being victimized by the lies others drown us in. We can make the decision to keep opposition or let it roll down like rain. Having positivity in all is an unlikely belief. However doesn't mean it can not be studied. Self control, dedication and confidence is the mixture you need. Do not wallow in self inflicted misery. All it takes is you to make a change. There is no other reasoning it really is simplicity.
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Jun 23, 2016
Jun 23, 2016 at 6:38 PM UTC
Perception is a sickness we conceive
In the solace Drifting transient Before the dawn Quiet light Scattered sentient thoughts Dreams lift on gossamer wings Effervesce on heady winds Like milkweed fluff on a summer day From the narrow path I stray Lost in thoughts Consuming Stones thrown from distant shores Placid surface Fractured This undertow defines my mind Spinning evidence of chaos Purpose slips away From the narrow path I stray Fogbound vessel Aimless deadwood On a restless sea Storm tossed Lost and anchorless Victimized by riptides and eddies Uncharted course each sunless day From the narrow path I stray TL Boehm 040508
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Oct 14, 2013
Oct 14, 2013 at 5:07 PM UTC
Gossamer
I don't like to celebrate my birthday I don't celebrate my birthday. What is there to celebrate? My existence is stained in accident and I don't need to be given purpose in rubber balloons, and paper streamers, and cheap wax candles. My birthday feels like a date that's begging and pleading for someone to acknowledge that I'm alive, and I don't want to have to pretend to be. I don't want to be thankful for stupid gifts that are brought on by obligation and I don't want to smile when I hear "happy birthday" come off your lips. I'm not happy. My birth is just a day. A mistaken date, an accidental date, a victimized date that had to bear my name being attached to it like I'm of some significance to the calendar. Like I'm of some significance to time. Time that will also be one more year closer to death which is just as unbearable because it's confirmation of my accidental, mistaken, existence. It's the stamp that says "she shouldn't have been breathing in the first place". Don't date my tombstone. Its uncomfortable for me to celebrate my birthday. I'm not trying to be depressing, or pitiful, or too "deep" about things BUT this is just a fact. A statement. An acceptance in my life. A way things are kind of feeling. Permanent. So don't tell me I'm thinking about it all wrong and to be more positive. That people love me and are happy I'm alive and want me to know that. That's a bunch of ******** If you loved my existence you wouldn't need to express that to me in chocolate icing, and blow horns, and confetti bits. I'm not pitiful. Birthdays are just a pitiful excuse for you to make my existence more about living for you. A debt for your "kindness" at throwing me a party. A debt for your "thoughtfulness" because of that expensive gift you bought with me in mind. A debt for your "love". That's what  I mean when I say simply, " I don't want to be 19".
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Mar 1, 2014
Mar 1, 2014 at 8:31 PM UTC
19th Birthday
I don't like to celebrate my birthday I don't celebrate my birthday. What is there to celebrate? My existence is stained in accident and I don't need to be given purpose in rubber balloons, and paper streamers, and cheap wax candles. My birthday feels like a date that's begging and pleading for someone to acknowledge that I'm alive, and I don't want to have to pretend to be. I don't want to be thankful for stupid gifts that are brought on by obligation and I don't want to smile when I hear "happy birthday" come off your lips. I'm not happy. My birth is just a day. A mistaken date, an accidental date, a victimized date that had to bear my name being attached to it like I'm of some significance to the calendar. Like I'm of some significance to time. Time that will also be one more year closer to death which is just as unbearable because it's confirmation of my accidental, mistaken, existence. It's the stamp that says "she shouldn't have been breathing in the first place". Don't date my tombstone. Its uncomfortable for me to celebrate my birthday. I'm not trying to be depressing, or pitiful, or too "deep" about things BUT this is just a fact. A statement. An acceptance in my life. A way things are kind of feeling. Permanent. So don't tell me I'm thinking about it all wrong and to be more positive. That people love me and are happy I'm alive and want me to know that. That's a bunch of ******** If you loved my existence you wouldn't need to express that to me in chocolate icing, and blow horns, and confetti bits. I'm not pitiful. Birthdays are just a pitiful excuse for you to make my existence more about living for you. A debt for your "kindness" at throwing me a party. A debt for your "thoughtfulness" because of that expensive gift you bought with me in mind. A debt for your "love". That's what  I mean when I say simply, " I don't want to be 19".
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Today you said you'd always love me. And you didn't ask for my naked ******* or my submissive body beneath silk sheets. You didn't even ask for my loyalty. It's hard to believe the tragedies that we've brought to life before this moment. I've always wanted a relationship to be dangerous.   Call it my penchant for self-harm, or my need to feel victimized, but I crave love a that could burn down towns, destroy lives. Passion isn't safe, it takes causalities. People spend so much time balancing, looking at their feet and trying not to fall. We are brought up to believe that pain should be avoided at all costs, but what if your happiness lies just beyond the thorn bush? I won't claim to be fearless.   It seems that I am constantly caught between apprehension and regret. My indecision is a wall that very few would dare to scale, but your words are building me a harness. The other side is surely filled with storms. Treacherous animals that would seek to tear me limb from limb. There may be *** holes and misleading signs, long stretches of greedy quick sand. But, then again, no one remembers journeys that were effortless.
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Jun 16, 2013
Jun 16, 2013 at 12:01 PM UTC
Love Takes No Prisoners
are like some people, they are victimized to death within one's palm they're taken down and thrown they had power but no more human eyes show pity for picking them, but not humanity pressed flowers are they who sleep under the tents, walking for decades, searching for new hope cause it's crumbled back home.
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Dec 30, 2018
Dec 30, 2018 at 11:24 AM UTC
Pressed flowers
I garden naked When one does not comprehend the places you've been, Ignorant they name your path Twisted facade, let's fornicate the law Switch our curfew Night is dark Deep cryptic essence Let no man take the massive ego, hiding in your stilettos The ridge of the heel crushing the victimized windpipe Polish and clean Sparkling Almost brand new Steady, walk in progress
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May 16, 2016
May 16, 2016 at 5:56 PM UTC
Free from the straps that caress
Assaulted once again, Betrayed by the ones she loved, Consumed with utter sadness, Dehumanized in every way. Embarrassed by what they made her do, Fearful that there's more to come, Heartbroken and humiliated, Inadequate in all she does. ****** around with such great force, Kept quiet with threats of death, Laughed at as she cries in pain, Mistreated and manipulated One broken heart left on display. Pain they left within their wake, Robbed of all her happiness, Scared to trust again. Trapped within their shadow, Uncertain of my fate, Victimized for the final time, Worthless mindset overcome. X'd out all the lies you told me, Yearning for all that I deserve, Zeroed out of my heart forever, as I take my final stand and finally leave today.
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Nov 16, 2012
Nov 16, 2012 at 12:39 AM UTC
The ABC'S of a Broken Heart
I used to carry my flaws on my shoulders, heavy and hefty with my strained back and bent knees. I tripped sometimes, on the thorny ground pricked my body, my soul I used to taste my flaws on my tongue and spilled them on my lips. Sip after sip I craved for death. I choked on how foul they were. I used to conceal my flaws behind a million masks for they were ugly and horrific. I hid them beneath my skin letting insanity creep along. I with all my flaws stood alone in dark. There, I knew were fingers which victimized them for all the vile around- Victimized my flaws for all the vile around? Oh, came the decisive moment; I wore off all the masks and put on my flaws with pride. I nourished them well and carried around. I gulped them down every day. Now that I will trip, my flaws will help me up. Now that I am bruised, my flaws will help me heal. Now that I am alone my flaws will accompany me to eternity.
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Dec 28, 2018
Dec 28, 2018 at 8:49 AM UTC
Me and my flaws
As I remember her now It seems so long ago We were both so **** young How could I know That she was the beast Yet she was beauty too Cast her black spell What the **** could I do? She brought me out of the rain Made me her brand new toy Tryin to **** off her dad With her ****** boy I'm not sure what she saw When she was lookin at me Whatever it was Was just fantasy I was real and broken On the edge and alone She was lookin for trouble That's how I was known She was bored with her life I was scared of my own Tryin to clean up On that red methadone She kept me in wine She kept me in dope She let me inside Filled my problems with hope Then she begged for my flaws I finally caved in We were playing a game That I knew you cant win Right then our sun set Nevermore to return Just the sparkle and fade Of the needles cold burn By the time that she saw This game was her life There was no road back home The truth cut like a knife Which she then pulled on me As the pain became real Now she needed the drugs Or thats all she could feel She needed me too Like 'dope man' needs a gun So she crippled my will To make sure I don't run She tortured my heart Cuz she'd cut out her own Still she didn't want me Just to be not alone Stockholm syndrome ain't love But the poison was strong We were both so **** scared Held hostage too long Now I wish I could say That the moral is clear I only feel mad I believed my own fear Learned a lot about life What not to do Never thought I would live Somehow made it through It takes two to dance Two to give a lie power Two to make a heart break Two to turn a love sour I want to believe Our intentions were pure The world drenched in filth Victimized me and her Regrets pile up Resentment runs deep While I look back and wish Your heart I could keep Mines tattered and torn I know yours is too Sometimes when I can't sleep I still think about you Cast blame all you want It may even be true But please stop hating me Forgive yourself too.
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Mar 19, 2015
Mar 19, 2015 at 12:00 AM UTC
If they say I never loved you...
As I remember her now It seems so long ago We were both so **** young How could I know That she was the beast Yet she was beauty too Cast her black spell What the **** could I do? She brought me out of the rain Made me her brand new toy Tryin to **** off her dad With her ****** boy I'm not sure what she saw When she was lookin at me Whatever it was Was just fantasy I was real and broken On the edge and alone She was lookin for trouble That's how I was known She was bored with her life I was scared of my own Tryin to clean up On that red methadone She kept me in wine She kept me in dope She let me inside Filled my problems with hope Then she begged for my flaws I finally caved in We were playing a game That I knew you cant win Right then our sun set Nevermore to return Just the sparkle and fade Of the needles cold burn By the time that she saw This game was her life There was no road back home The truth cut like a knife Which she then pulled on me As the pain became real Now she needed the drugs Or thats all she could feel She needed me too Like 'dope man' needs a gun So she crippled my will To make sure I don't run She tortured my heart Cuz she'd cut out her own Still she didn't want me Just to be not alone Stockholm syndrome ain't love But the poison was strong We were both so **** scared Held hostage too long Now I wish I could say That the moral is clear I only feel mad I believed my own fear Learned a lot about life What not to do Never thought I would live Somehow made it through It takes two to dance Two to give a lie power Two to make a heart break Two to turn a love sour I want to believe Our intentions were pure The world drenched in filth Victimized me and her Regrets pile up Resentment runs deep While I look back and wish Your heart I could keep Mines tattered and torn I know yours is too Sometimes when I can't sleep I still think about you Cast blame all you want It may even be true But please stop hating me Forgive yourself too.
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This inconsistency that rumbles Churning within the recesses of my ribs I down a pill of self pity with a swig of pride And tell the pain to go away Tell myself it was never there That I'm fine I'm good smooth it over Put a baggy shirt on so you can't see The holes behind the recesses of my ribs Loving you is easy in theory And most of the time in reality too But sometimes when you ask me to do that little task or tell you that little thing Something within me threatens to snap Because I perceive that you see the satisfaction of your need to be more important than my current occupation And I feel unseen Even though I know you see me best And I feel victimized even though I know your request is perfectly reasonable And so the contradiction of awareness When I see the inconsistency in me blaring crimson red and midnight blue And I don't know what to do with these colors I don't know what image to paint or what brush to use I don't even know who I'd give the painting to Or if I'd keep it for myself
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Jan 13, 2017
Jan 13, 2017 at 9:00 AM UTC
This Inconsistency