You cut me out of your life
So I cut myself
Blades always knew me like no one else

Band aids could never stick
Just like those who I called close
Fantasies arose about my suicide notes

Time became slower
I loved to feel numb
Pain is too much for a small heart to overcome

Life is a game
Which nobody wins
Except those who are blessed with ignorance

It is stressful to be alive
To work eight till five
Hoping that you might be granted more time
Contemplation sets with the sun
And keeps you up at night

Yet once you have free time
All you can think about is why
Compulsions start to kick in
The crooked floorboards annoy you
You remembered your neighbors had drums
And about that friend who ignored you

More thinking arises
And then in a glimpse of your eye
Something beautiful is spotted

You take a closer look through your window
And see a bird in the sky

Soft skin
Tissue thin
I pray to God
That you won't sin
Cuts and scars
Ropes and knives
Please don't commit
Suicide

The moon is bright tonight
Stars are displayed far in the sky
The air is crisp
And the wind is gentle
Yet no metaphors appear in my mind

The moon is just a moon
The stars are just stars
The air is just air
And the wind is just wind
Words are just words and nothing more

I feel indifferent tonight
I don't know what it is
Maybe I'll just write down some words
And call it poetry

Orange enveloped the sky
And all I could wonder was
Why?

Rope
Tell me
Is it time?
I can prolong life
But death is inevitable
Depression goes on
As long as i'm alive
Only time will tell if i'll survive

Paranoid
Sleep deprived
My mind is telling lies
Or is it
I cant decide
A problem is created
A solution is decided
Until the next day
The loop abides

Nightmares of life
Dreams of death
Life is my prison
I will be released in death
Feelings of nothing
Mind lost in a storm
Waiting for my acceptance into the void

I looked into the mirror and told myself

'Your eyes look sullen and sleep deprived
Just close them shut
There is no need to cry
Death will come in time'

Later that night
I took my advice
And fell into a nightmare
I felt alone and afraid
But once I awoke
My perspective had changed

I looked back into the mirror and told myself

'Your eyes look sullen and sleep deprived
But never close them
There is no need to hide
Death will come later
You have plenty of time
Live for today and all will be fine'