I can't get away,
you always seem to be there.
In times it feels like I need you to be gone,
you seem to always stick around.

Maybe its an unhealthy relationship- forced,
where as I try to get away,
while even court says I must stay.

You could do the world wrong,
but nothing is done for me;
my life has been surrounded by choices I was
forced to make because of you.

The choices that have made me sick and tired-
a never ending cycle that is.
And thanks to you it has been made
abundantly clear,
that I must not,
and will not
ever escape.

his light brown hair offered kindness
his wide eyes were a safe place

his mid summer tan gave warmth
and his smile created happiness

little did i know that
my past would repeat itself
with the people i love the most
playing the parts of those
who were the most evil.

i sat in secret,
watching you build a
safe place with your own
two hands. but when he joined you,
i burned it to the ground.

i am trying to go through
this with you and take it step by step,
but we seem to be going in
opposite directions.

you towards the fault line
and me towards the light,
but to our surprise, you
end up getting through
this without me in the end.

ur making a mistake
but i’m gonna let u

ur taking me for granted
i hope u pay for it

i found that i am not entitled
to those who care for me most.
mainly because my heart
is incapable of returning the favor.

every time you leave,
you inch closer to never
coming back. and i
fear that this may be
the last time we say

Goodbye

Too much passion within us for the things        
We know too well;
That are so familiar,
Yet so wrong.
Minds filled with
A fire,                                    
A flood.                                
Things that won’t change.
That can’t change.

For every corner that’s turned,
It’s there.
There’s no escaping.
It’s in your blood.
A fire,
A flood.

But the things that can’t be escaped
Are faced.
And the
Fire and flood
Take control.

A change occurs in
A mind that’s distant,
A mind thats fire and flood
Determines indifference.

step
       by
           step
                   i’m fading away
                   and it’s all your fault

i saw what true happiness
looked like today
it only made me realize
i had never felt that way
but had tricked myself into
thinking i was

you left me with nothing
but the words i wished
i would never hear.
but yet i make excuses
for you, in hopes
that one day things
will go as i had once believed.

i realized i have lived my
whole life on the edge,
and that it will take
no more than a step
in the wrong direction
to send me over.

The mind is great for a lot of things
But there are a few things
Even the brightest of minds can’t handle.
One of which being empty space,
Which there seems to be a lot of
In my life.

and i want out of here

i’ve held on for awhile now,
and all the while telling others
to let go. so this time i am going
to listen to myself, i will
officially let go now that i know
the truth, and it’s a long fall to
rock bottom.

i’m afraid that i’m losing you,
and that is the last thing i want.
i’m not sure what’s wrong,
for the first time ever,
and i can’t even get to you.
but We are fading.

i found that i have been
forcing myself to get through my days
as if they were marathons.

running in circles and going no where

it wasn’t on purpose
but it hurts like it was

the metaphor for the phenomenons of the world
who we come to for advice, guidance, wisdom
i can’t find my way
i have no faith
but i’m searching

what have we done?
lying gets us nowhere
and now we are in deep.

i am not sure how to feel
or how to react but i know
that nothing good will come
from this.

he walked out first
and now i guess it was
your turn.
this is what happens when
people become tired of
what made them want to
live in the first place.