A distance.
You are a part of me,
that was taken away.
Little did I know that with out you,
I fall apart completly.

I look at your face,
behind you an airport;
where you leave me,
for who knows how long.

And you never know how much I break,
and I don't want you to ever find out.
Though you often see glimpses of this-
calling you crying, desperate for
someone to hear me out.

Don't leave me again,
I can't take it anymore,
you mean more to me than
anyone else.
Don't forget that.

I will always need you,
and one day we will find a way
for you to stay.

But for now, you leave tomorrow.
But for now, I will keep breaking.
But for now, we will keep wishing.

And the next time I see you I will try
to fill you in on life here.
But I don't ever think you
will keep up.

So I will see you later,
whenever later may be.

I can't get away,
you always seem to be there.
In times it feels like I need you to be gone,
you seem to always stick around.

Maybe its an unhealthy relationship- forced,
where as I try to get away,
while even court says I must stay.

You could do the world wrong,
but nothing is done for me;
my life has been surrounded by choices I was
forced to make because of you.

The choices that have made me sick and tired-
a never ending cycle that is.
And thanks to you it has been made
abundantly clear,
that I must not,
and will not
ever escape.

I can’t think for
Myself
Everyone around me
Is getting better and
I am just stuck.

Everyone around me
Is independent and
Successful,
Leaving me
Hanging fire.

No one listens,
No one is there,
No one cares,
But yet I am forced
Into believing things
That are wrong,
In my eyes.

Forced to believe you.

I get in the car and
Burst into tears.
I am not sure what
Has gotten into me,
There has been a lot
On my mind I guess.
I am starting to believe
Everyone’s opinions-
But I have to be strong
For my own good.

so many People talk about me behind my back,
They are claiming to be my friend and
make fun of me.
have They ever thought "maybe she is tired of it
and thats why she doesn't laugh"?

i wish i was different too and
if only you knew what i do to make
others happy. but i will give you a hint
and it involves making myself miserable.

and all i need you to do is stop and think
for only one second before you speak of me.

i am trying to go through
this with you and take it step by step,
but we seem to be going in
opposite directions.

you towards the fault line
and me towards the light,
but to our surprise, you
end up getting through
this without me in the end.

Too much passion within us for the things        
We know too well;
That are so familiar,
Yet so wrong.
Minds filled with
A fire,                                    
A flood.                                
Things that won’t change.
That can’t change.

For every corner that’s turned,
It’s there.
There’s no escaping.
It’s in your blood.
A fire,
A flood.

But the things that can’t be escaped
Are faced.
And the
Fire and flood
Take control.

A change occurs in
A mind that’s distant,
A mind thats fire and flood
Determines indifference.

i’ve held on for awhile now,
and all the while telling others
to let go. so this time i am going
to listen to myself, i will
officially let go now that i know
the truth, and it’s a long fall to
rock bottom.

they call me a liar.
and i admit that i am,
but the thing is that
i don’t care because
i stopped feeling a
long time ago.
except that is a lie too

i found that i am not entitled
to those who care for me most.
mainly because my heart
is incapable of returning the favor.

he walked out first
and now i guess it was
your turn.
this is what happens when
people become tired of
what made them want to
live in the first place.

the metaphor for the phenomenons of the world
who we come to for advice, guidance, wisdom
i can’t find my way
i have no faith
but i’m searching

I have been in this
Position one too many
Times, and this time
Hurts the worst.
But the reason I help,
The reason I care, is
Because I realize that
You have been there too
And I look up to you for
Getting through it.

his light brown hair offered kindness
his wide eyes were a safe place

his mid summer tan gave warmth
and his smile created happiness

i need you to come back home,
but even the people that deserve
the best don’t earn the best.

and that alone, is hell.

ur making a mistake
but i’m gonna let u

ur taking me for granted
i hope u pay for it

We met you again
just months ago.

And today you have helped
pull my family apart.

So good job,
I hope you're happy.

For I am absent mindlessly waiting for a beginning,
For an emancipation,
For an assisted dying statue,
For a cure,
For a salvation of the world,
For peace among the worlds indifference,
For some sort of distance.

And at the same time,
Waiting to stop running from myself.

For one moment of my life
I want someone to care.
I want someone to look at me asking
'are you okay?' and really
want to know the true answer.

But people don't always get what they want,
life isn't fair?
Is that the excuse so you don't have to deal
with me?

Everyday is getting worse,
My head is in a dark place.
And no one wants to enlighten it.