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Nov 2018 · 222
What?!
Rachna Beegun Nov 2018
What do you do when the person you love, doesn't love you?
What do you do when the person you need, doesn't need you?
What do you do when the person you thought as your whole world, doesn't want you?
May 2017 · 247
Thoughts
Rachna Beegun May 2017
Confidence is quiet,
Insecurities are loud ,
Without you I'm numb.
May 2017 · 228
Thoughts
Rachna Beegun May 2017
Confidence is quiet,
Insecurities are loud ,
Without you I'm numb.
May 2017 · 423
Reality
Rachna Beegun May 2017
At the end of the day, all we have is who we are and what we have become. So, be your own hero because darling, in this cruel world, nobody can really understand you or stay with you. We only have  ourselves till the end of our existence, others are mere spectators of our life who renders our existence a bit more easy or difficult as the situation requires.
Just something that hits deep within everyone.... we all are the true heroes in our existence, other people just come and go as the situation demands
Apr 2017 · 1.1k
Sentimental
Rachna Beegun Apr 2017
I’m too sentimental. I can’t wander back through the memory lanes without feeling like it’s bleeding out of me. All the tender memories slowly drains out my color at night, only for sleep to bring a transfusion. All these small things shouldn’t matter so **** much but still it does. I think, that's the cruel fact of being sentimental much.
Apr 2017 · 288
Forgive
Rachna Beegun Apr 2017
Forgive me, but I need to get away from all this before it damages me again.
Jan 2017 · 720
MY MIND
Rachna Beegun Jan 2017
My mind loves you; it asks to my memories about you all the time and often I get lost in these lanes
Jan 2017 · 1.2k
I'm sorry
Rachna Beegun Jan 2017
To my DAD,
I’m sorry for being born
I’m sorry for being a girl but you know all my life I’ve tried to be a boy to you, as you always wanted but God didn’t gave you one
I’m sorry for being such a failure in life
I’m sorry for being a burden to you and mom, especially to you when mom passed away 3 years back
I’m sorry for being angry whenever I see you drinking alcohol and in the end you’re unable to stand straight. You see I’m more concerned about your health because I know the disastrous effect alcohol have on you and also it is the reason that my concept of a perfect family is ebbing slowly.
I’m sorry for telling you NOT TO DRINK ALCOHOL TOO MUCH
I’m sorry for yelling at you when you start to drink as I know you’ll crave for more after one bottle
I’m sorry for being angry when you invite your friends and your family over to drink a lot of alcohol because I know they are just momentary friendship and familial bonds, when you’ll fall ill nobody of the group will come to your help
I’m sorry for being so brutally honest when I tell you what effect of this new behavior of yours is affecting our relationship and also those of my sisters
Moreover I’m sorry for all that happen yesterday night : for telling you to go to bed and scold you like a child because you can’t wake up enough to walk to the bedroom
I’m sorry for helping you to stand and take you to your bed
I’m sorry for removing the glass from your hands and suggesting to carry it for him to his bedroom because of his inebriated state
I’m sorry because of me you’ve gotten angry and broke the glass into millions of tiny crystals on the floor
I’m sorry for caring too much
I’m sorry for thinking life is like a bed of roses and as long as I have my parents love I can overcome anything
I’m sorry for hoping you loved me and still do despite all this
I’m sorry for being a hurdle in your path to live your life fully. Though I would never understand how a child can be a hurdle as I was lead to think that a child is the greatest gift that GOD can give
I’m sorry for being unwanted
I’m sorry for not having the courage to end my pathetic life and remove myself from your path
I’m sorry for constantly trying to gain your attention, you see I yearn normalcy in my life where everything is fine, I have a loving father, perfect life and all

EVERYTHING WAS MY FAULT, I’M REALLY SORRY DAD ……..
It's just a short letter not a poem .... just wondering what i did wrong... where was my fault that it leads to this stage that i am now
Jan 2017 · 1.5k
Six word Poem
Rachna Beegun Jan 2017
Feelings makes poets out of people
Jan 2017 · 655
HIM
Rachna Beegun Jan 2017
HIM
He had the power to both possess and shatter my entire universe, so he chose the latter. But he didn't know that it wasn't that easy to break me.
Jan 2017 · 427
**Hope**
Rachna Beegun Jan 2017
I hope one day when someone asks me about you, I'll laugh instead of feeling this double edged dagger in my chest.
Dec 2016 · 530
Heartbreak
Rachna Beegun Dec 2016
Heartbreak is not beautiful. It isn’t poetry or a song. It doesn’t say to stay up all night to listen to sad songs. It’s breaking down the middle of a busy street. It’s seeing his face in all the passerby’s. Its feeling okay for weeks and suddenly you hear his voice and then you’re choking on memories of his presence. It’s waking from dreams of him coming back and screaming in the middle of night because your heart aches like a dagger has been put in there. It’s crying so hard after laughing while you're watching a funny scene because all of a sudden you realize he isn’t coming back. Please stop, romanticizing over pain and using people as objects. A heart isn’t a cigarette that you can just light up and then stomp on it when you’re done. Don’t act like heartbreak is beautiful or even wonderful, because I even won’t wish that upon my worst enemies.
Something I would never tell him, how much he hurt me.
Nov 2016 · 904
My thoughts
Rachna Beegun Nov 2016
I thought i was moving on from you,

Until one day, someone asked me:
“If you had one wish, what would it be and for whom?”

And the first thing  I thought of was to waste that wish on you
Rachna Beegun Nov 2016
"I miss you the most when I remember you don’t miss me at all"
Nov 2016 · 721
To someone who left
Rachna Beegun Nov 2016
In my head, I see myself walking up to you and smiling, asking you how you’re doing and hug you so tight that you wouldn't want to go away again.  But why is that whenever I actually see you, my steps reduce to a stop and all I can do is stare from a distance and wish that maybe, maybe all my imaginations will come true and you would be mine?
Nov 2016 · 386
Simply me
Rachna Beegun Nov 2016
I just have a happy personality with a sad soul in one body. It feels really weird sometimes.
Oct 2016 · 631
Untitled
Rachna Beegun Oct 2016
You threw me away just like I threw away time, on a boy who tricked me to think he was mine but in the end got betrayed.
Sep 2016 · 805
Thoughts
Rachna Beegun Sep 2016
They say sometimes it's the princess who kills the dragon and saves the prince. But maybe the dragon is the prince himself.
The Prince, with all the demons in him, would then turn into a dragon. He was so afraid, he might engulfed himself with his own fire. Then came the Princess, extinguishing the flame of hate consuming her Prince, where he was just there waiting; waiting for a Princess to save him, from his own self...
Jul 2016 · 555
Thoughts
Rachna Beegun Jul 2016
"Why didn't you tell me? " he whispered, looking at my scars.

"Because," I replied, "I can hurt myself but can't hurt you and these scars are nothing besides the scars in my heart."
Jun 2016 · 444
Cruel
Rachna Beegun Jun 2016
One of the cruelest things is false hope.
Jun 2016 · 1.1k
Sick
Rachna Beegun Jun 2016
I am homesick for a place which I am not sure if it exists. One where my heart is full and my soul is understood.
Jun 2016 · 308
Untitled
Rachna Beegun Jun 2016
In order to succeed, we must first believe that we can.
Apr 2016 · 427
Older
Rachna Beegun Apr 2016
The older I get the more picky I become about people, that I allow to come close to me, and I get more greedy with my own time.
Mar 2016 · 391
Untitled
Rachna Beegun Mar 2016
""Love yourself the way you want your daughters, nieces, friends kids to love themselves.""
Many woman does not appreciate themselves like they deserve just cos flabby, muscly, curvy body and all. But they don't realize, we woman are so much more than those things, we are warriors :)
Mar 2016 · 305
Untitled
Rachna Beegun Mar 2016
I think about life, I think about death and neither of them particular appeals me.
Mar 2016 · 379
Life of motto
Rachna Beegun Mar 2016
Stand up,
wipe your tears.
Stay strong and make them wonder how you are still smiling.
Feb 2016 · 646
Pain
Rachna Beegun Feb 2016
The most ironic thing about pain is that you expect it to lessen during time and think that this pain you're suffering is great and won't have worse than that but in reality the pain only grows and in the future there are more worse than that.
Always thought that but it occurs oppositely for me ... maybe that's life... small amount of happiness and loads of suffering :)
Feb 2016 · 450
Random thought
Rachna Beegun Feb 2016
Everyone is good at something and I'm good at getting disappointed by people.
Feb 2016 · 585
For My Valentine
Rachna Beegun Feb 2016
From the moment you entered the over-crowded room,
I knew that you were the one made for me.
Suddenly all the loud voices, laughter and shouts faded into oblivion, when our eyes met that auspicious day.
The only thing that kept me grounded to Earth was those beautiful black orbs,
Telling me, teasing me in their own words,
They had their own story to tell.
Those dark black pools captured me, entranced me, leading me in another place where there was only us.

When we first started to talk, the belief that we’re meant for each other kept on strengthening as we talked.
All your talks, beliefs, thoughts and wishes, even how much they were funny, weird and awkward and serious philosophy related kept on attracting me like bees around a honey jar,
I kept on returning back for more and more even some which hurt me, in which we didn’t share the same views  and also I thought it was total *******.

Your cute, lovable smile lit up my whole being; it’s like a blind man seeing the sun for the first time.

Being with you makes my whole world a lot more pleasing place to be. In you I’ve found a friend, a good listener, a lover, a caring husband and everything I’ve ever wanted. You respect me, love me, show me a  different facet of the world and protect me and encourage me in endeavors  which I thought it was impossible for me to do.

Everything about you, leads me on. It’s you have a strange gravitational field that forces me to move around you like the earth rotates around the earth. You, my love, are the one I was waiting for in my entire existence. I’m irrevocably in love with you my baby.

*Be my valentine forever?
That's for my love.. He's my everything, my world. Love you a lot ^_^

Wish you all a very happy Valentine's Day
Be happy always :)
Feb 2016 · 1.8k
**Six Word Poem**
Rachna Beegun Feb 2016
Replace fear with aspiration.
Now, climb.
Feb 2016 · 671
Rainbow
Rachna Beegun Feb 2016
Be the rainbow in someone's life when dark clouds try to ****** all their happiness.
It give inner bliss when we help someone in their difficulties and makes us closer to God.
Feb 2016 · 1.9k
Proton
Rachna Beegun Feb 2016
You're my proton to my nucleus,
I'm your electron in your hydrogen molecule.
Orbiting around you in the hope to catch your eyes.
Feb 2016 · 281
Untitled
Rachna Beegun Feb 2016
Often whenever we face troubles or sorrows we think that only our pain is greater and we suffer more than others but literally the fact is that there are people out there who suffer more, whose pain is imaginable so if you have food, clothes and shelter be grateful to God be'coz some don't even have these happiness.
That's just a thought about how people often think... Cos i knw there are many out there that think like that :)
Jan 2016 · 245
Thinking
Rachna Beegun Jan 2016
Maybe I’m just hard to love**
    and easy to leave
Jan 2016 · 278
Untitled
Rachna Beegun Jan 2016
We all carry these things inside that no one else can see. They hold us down like anchors and they drown us out at sea.
Rachna Beegun Jan 2016
“He’s not mine,” she said. “And I don’t think he ever will be.”

“And maybe that’s a good thing because things are never how you imagine and having expectations only ever sets you up for disappointment.”

“But I can’t help but wonder what lying in his arms would be like,” she told the sky, “I can’t help but imagine being close enough to feel his breath on mine and his skin on my skin.”

She closed her eyes and felt the wind run it’s fingers through her hair, and imagined he was beside her.

“He’s going to **** me you know,” she whispered to the moon,“he’s going to commit ****** and the worst part is he won’t even know it.”
Jan 2016 · 358
Somewhere
Rachna Beegun Jan 2016
Somewhere there has to be a world where you are with me,
Where there is me and you,
And only feelings of yours and mine will be,
Where the morning comes with the ray of your eyelids,
Where i would listen the lullaby of moon in your arms.
Where there would be intoxication in between our every meeting,
Our lips would kiss each other with our every conversation.
But, I don't know where that world is,
I don't know whether it exist or not,
My life was not as displeased with me as it is now,
In this lonely painful road, my breaths are lost,
I'm lost in someone's arms,
I kept on searching ways that lead to you, my destination,
And I have lost the destination in a way,
I’m still searching for this world in this atmosphere where my earth, my sky, my smile, my happiness and my life is.
Dec 2015 · 830
I wish...
Rachna Beegun Dec 2015
I wish you knew,

how much you mean to me
how i want to start everyday with you at my side
how i want to end every night in you arms
how i can lose myself in your smile
how my heart skips a beat at the sight of you
how my heart races when you get close to me
the feeling in the pit of my stomach when i know we will be apart
how my heart pounds waiting for you to respond to my text messages
how i hang on every word you say to me
how excited i am when i get a text message
how disappointed i am when the text is not from you
how my passion for you overwhelms me
how i yearn to gaze into your eyes
how i crave running my hands through your hair
how my need to see you daily consumes me
how my every thought consists of you
how you exist in all i do
how captivated i am by you
how i know how much i need you
how i have found my one and only
how i want to spoon with you
how i want to sneak up behind you and cover your eyes
how i want to kiss the base of your neck
how i want to whisper "i love you" in your ear
how i need to feel your touch
how the scent of your skin is my nourishment
how i dream of you every night
how i daydream of you constantly
how i can never get enough of you
how i can't last a day without you
how i can just look at you for hours and never want to stop
how i can't wait to have you all to myself
how i have never loved anyone the way i love you
how i want to devote myself to your happiness
how i can't wait to give you all of me
how i can't wait to have all of you
how you are the only thing that matters to me
how i am like a ****** who needs you like a drug
how you have taken over my life
how i know you are mine and i am yours
how i pray for the day the you will be in my arms
how i will never let you go
how much i really truly love you alone

But, alas you will never understand the extent of my love for you neither what i think of you nor how much you mean to me.
Dec 2015 · 366
Christmas
Rachna Beegun Dec 2015
Each Christmas I remember
The ones of long ago;
I see our mantelpiece adorned
With stockings in a row.

Each Christmas finds me dreaming
Of days that used to be,
When we hid presents here and there,
For all the family.

Each Christmas I remember
The fragrance in the air,
Of roasting turkey and mince pies
And cookies everywhere.

Each Christmas finds me longing
For Christmases now past,
And I am back in childhood
As long as memories last.
Merry Christmas to all of you... Wish that brings happiness in your lives and may all you dreams come true ^__^
Dec 2015 · 674
No one...
Rachna Beegun Dec 2015
No one worries about you like your mother, and when she is gone, the world seems unsafe, things that happen unwieldy. You cannot turn to her anymore, and it changes your life forever. There is no one on earth who knew you from the day you were born; who knew why you cried, or when you’d had enough food; who knew exactly what to say when you were hurting; and who encouraged you to grow a good heart. When that layer goes, whatever is left of your childhood goes with her.
This is dedicated to my best friend, my first companion, my Mother... I wish where ever you are for you to be happy always... Miss you so freaking much mommy :(
Dec 2015 · 276
Untitled
Rachna Beegun Dec 2015
And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can’t ever be fixed, and this is something nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older as you see the people in your life break one by one. You wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it’s already happened.
Nov 2015 · 2.0k
Untitled
Rachna Beegun Nov 2015
Your feelings are valid. You have every right to feel whatever emotion you want. You aren’t being dramatic. You aren’t over exaggerating. You’re feeling. And that’s okay.
Sep 2015 · 340
Untitled
Rachna Beegun Sep 2015
Be warned that should I ever get another chance to hold you close & call you mine, I’m never letting you go! If heaven forbid death should release me from my marriage you’re the only other person who’s wife I could be. You’ll never know just how much you mean to me, how much I am yours, how badly I want to give you the life you want with me, how badly I wish it was your last name at the end of my last name. Your hands are the only hands I crave on my body, the only naked body I want pressed against my own. It was never supposed to come to this, us meaning this much to each other, being this in love with one another. Now what am I just supposed to pretend it would have never work out with us, that once again I’m the one more in love, that you would have grown tired of me, anything just to face this cruel life without you. it was never fair to learn of your existence when I could never have you till death. However this works out, I promise to love you till the end of me.
Sep 2015 · 709
Please stay
Rachna Beegun Sep 2015
I can't imagine someone else making you laugh, taking you to places you love, texting you day and night, giving you flowers and chocolates you like. I can't imagine someone else filling my position, my love. Someone who is better than me. I can't imagine losing you. I can't stand it. I can't let you go now. Please, stay? I love you.
Aug 2015 · 364
He.....
Rachna Beegun Aug 2015
He is the only cure to my insanity.
Jul 2015 · 262
Untitled
Rachna Beegun Jul 2015
I find it crazy how any of us can die at any moment yet we live our lives always planning for the future.
Jul 2015 · 231
Untitled
Rachna Beegun Jul 2015
You made me feel beautiful when I thought I was nothing.
11 words that i never said to him
Jul 2015 · 493
Somedays
Rachna Beegun Jul 2015
In some days your heart just feels heavy and sad, no matter how strong you are.
Jul 2015 · 1.2k
USED TO
Rachna Beegun Jul 2015
I'M SO USED TO BEING HURT THAT I DON'T NOTICE PAIN ANYMORE.
Jul 2015 · 509
Sorry
Rachna Beegun Jul 2015
How nice it is to hurt someone so much that it breaks them little by little and in the end say "sorry".
It's like the little word "sorry" will eliminate all the pain and the memories of me crying on the bathroom floor, breaking down slowly, until numbness return to me.
When you break a glass into pieces, try saying "sorry" to it.
Did the pieces join together and form back the same glass without any sign of previous breakage?
No, it didn't, right then how can you expect me really to go back how it was before you shatter a part of my heart into millions of pieces?
Really, how?
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